InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Nightmare's Memories ❯ Believe Me ( Chapter 7 )

[ Y - Young Adult: Not suitable for readers under 16 ]

Disclaimer: Me no own Inu-Yasha: ::shakes head sadly::

Author's Note: Hello, hello, hello- I'm back! XD

::crickets chirping::

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^_^;;; Anyway, I'm sorry for the lapse in updating this fic. I really, really, really meant to update it Sunday, but it turns out I was really, really, really busy. ^_^;;;;;;; Gomen nasai!

I will try to update this fic more then I have been, I really will.

One: Nghi-san! ^_^ ::glomps:: You've finally come to read my horror fic! I've missed you!

Now, to your comments:

- I know I'm missing suspense right now, but BELIEVE ME- it's coming. (Wait until chapter 9! XD BUAHAHAHAHA!)

- I know I repeat myself! ^_^ I do it on purpose. Not to be repetitive, but to sort of show (as best as I can) what Kag's going through. Though I can understand how it would be annoying (think how Kag must feel! ^_^; I'm so mean to her. . .).

- And I *also* know that I overuse `. . .' and `- - -' but guess what? I really don't care! ^_~ Heehee.

In all seriousness, I overuse them for a reason, not just because I think they look pretty. ^_~ (Okay, so maybe that wasn't very serious. . . whatever.)

:;looks up:: Wow! I feel so smart! Look at all the things I know! ^_~

Two: Where do I come up with this stuff?

Um. . . You know, if you had asked me earlier, I might have been able to tell ya every little story behind it. ^_~

But in general- I've always been really into ESP and all that good stuff, and I loved it in the first movie how Kag gets all possessed (that was so dramatic and cool how they did that! XD And the music. . . ! {And then the Godtree make up scene! ^_^_^_^_^_^_^_^_^_^_^}). So I kinda mixed that with a cruddy mood and a desire to broaden my writing horizons, and this fic came along! ^_~

As for how Inu and Shippo and everyone else came into the picture- I wasn't just gonna forsake them! ^_~ After I decided on doing this fic I just racked my brain for ideas. . . ::shrugs::

And yes, I *do* make all the little intros at the beginning up. ^_^ (I'm so proud. . .)

Okay. . . is that all? ::checks reviews and wipes pizza sauce off her face::

Yup! ^_^

Okay- here we go!

Enjoy and don't flame me! ^_~

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Believe.

Such a cliché little word. . .

You're asked to believe so many things-

In church.

At home.

Between friends.

`Believe me' they always say.

`Believe me.'

But be careful. . .

For tucked inside every belief- - -

There is always-

A (be)lie(f).

Ironic, isn't it. . . ?

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Nightmare's Memories

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~Chapter Seven: Believe Me~

Thump thump.

Kagome quivered slightly, her eyes squeezed tightly shut to block out the surrounding darkness.

Releasing a slow, shaky breath, she pressed herself closer to Inu-Yasha, clenching a bit of his red haori in her fist as she listened to the pounding of his heart.

Thump thump.

It was almost calming. . .

A bloody lullaby.

Thump thump.

Thump- - -

"Hey."

Kagome slowly opened her glassy azure orbs and glanced up at the boy; registering how his gaze held the smallest hint of annoyance.

"What?" she asked quietly, her voice wavering.

"Are you EVER gonna go to sleep?" he questioned, slightly irritated. "No- check that- are you ever gonna let GO of me?"

They simultaneously glanced down at her hand, which was still grasping the fabric covering his torso.

Blushing an almost undetectable shade of pink, the ebony haired girl quickly removed her hand-

But didn't scoot away from Inu-Yasha.

She couldn't bring herself to move.

She liked being by him. . .

She liked his presence, his body heat.

It calmed her, somehow.

Helped her feel a little bit better. . .

And she didn't care if he tried to bite her for it-

She was going to cling to any piece of comfort she could.

Mentally bracing herself, she waited for his brisk command to `get the hell out of here'.

. . .

It never came.

He didn't lash out or even glare-

He simply sighed, propping his chin up with a hand.

"What's the matter?" he asked in dull monotone, his eyes half lidded and slightly lazy, as if he really didn't feel like listening.

As if. . . ?

Keh.

He probably *didn't* want to listen.

He most likely just wanted to sleep-

Wanted to get her to go to sleep.

But she wouldn't.

Never again.

Even if it killed her-

She wouldn't.

Rolling over so her back was pressed to his chest, Kag looked away, her eyes glittering with tears as she hugged herself.

"Well?" Inu-Yasha pressed, leaning over her shoulder to look down at her face. "Insomnia?"

"I'm not *trying* to sleep," she whispered, her voice barely above a breath. "I'm trying *not* to sleep."

The boy frowned, his brow creasing as he pushed a few strands of her silky locks away from her face so he could see her fearful eyes.

"So was Miroku right?" he asked softly. "Are you recalling others' memories?"

"I don't know!" she hissed, a spasm of horror shooting through her body. "All I know is that they're my nightmares- and I'll never sleep without having them! And so- I won't sleep at all!"

"You'll die that way," he told her bluntly. "You can't live without sleep."

"You can't live without sanity, either!"

"Sure you can. Ever heard of an insane asylum?"

"That's not funny!" Kagome barked quietly, her voice as cold as ice, cutting off the boy's snickers.

Inu-Yasha sighed again, his free arm- the one that wasn't supporting his head- draping over her waist.

Kag barely noticed- though she did feel incredibly warmer inside as he did so.

Why. . . ?

Why did she fee-?

"I know it's not," he mumbled, pushing her pervious thoughts out of her mind. "But-"

"You just don't understand!" Kag grumbled, tears beginning to pour down her face. "You don't understand what it's like to be terrified- terrified by something you can't control!"

The girl instantly regretted her words- for the warm weight upon her waist disappeared because of them.

"No," Inu-Yasha replied, his voice crackling with suppressed anger. "It's YOU that doesn't understand."

"What don't I understand?!" Kagome retorted, her azure orbs narrowing angrily as she spun around, her chest knocking into his as their eyes locked.

"You don't seem to understand the concept of not letting fear control you, for one thing!" he snarled, his amber orbs flashing in a stray beam of eerie moonlight. "You can't just let horror dictate your life!"

The girl fumed, rage boiling inside her.

How dare he talk to her like he understood what she was going through?!

How could he possibly comprehend the terror of not being able to control yourself-

Your actions-

Your own mind?!

"Oh, what do you know?!" she snapped, her nails piercing into her palms as her hands balled into fists near her head.

His steely eyes gazed deep into hers, making her recoil slightly.

It was as if he could see something she couldn't.

"Plenty," he replied evenly- - -

Before rolling over so his back faced her.

Kagome blinked slowly at the red cloth that now filled her vision.

. . . ?

`Wh. . . what . . . ?'

What did he mean, plenty?

What kind of an answer was that?!

Slowly lifting her head off the ground, she looked over Inu-Yasha's shoulder- much as he had done with her- and gazed into his dark orbs.

And to her shock, she found that unrecognizable emotion inside them was back.

But it wasn't `unrecognizable' anymore.

. . .

It. . .

Was fear. . .

"Inu-Yasha. . . ?" she questioned tentatively, gingerly brushing his cheek with a trembling finger. "Inu-Yasha, are you okay. . . ?"

He said nothing, only wiggled slightly so as to distance himself from her touch.

Hurt, the girl slowly retracted her hand, turning away from him and wincing at the rush of coldness she now felt inside.

Kagome lay there, staring into the deep, endless blackness for what seemed eternity.

She knew he was awake.

His irregular breathing gave it away.

He knew she was conscious as well-

Though he said nothing.

They just lay there in the dark, cold shadows. . .

. . .

Not saying a word. . .

. . .

Ignoring the other's presence. . .

. . .

"I'm afraid."

Kag blinked.

`Huh. . . ?'

Had she just heard right. . . ?

Rolling over quickly, she found herself still staring at Inu-Yasha's back.

Had he said anything at all. . . ?

Had she just imagined his voice. . . ?

"What. . . ?" she questioned softly, unsure and worried that her prying would infuriate him- - -

Assuming he had actually spoken period.

"I said that I'm scared, okay?" he replied tersely, shifting uncomfortably but not turning to face her.

So she wasn't just hearing things. . .

. . .

That was good.

But his tone. . .

His words. . .

They weren't good.

Kagome bit her lip gently.

They sat there for a beat-

And then he continued.

"I'm a hanyou," he finally admitted, his dull voice masking venomous tones.

"A half demon?"

"That's generally what being a hanyou means, isn't it?!"

The girl instinctively swallowed her next words.

Inu-Yasha sighed softly, forcing himself to calm down; angry that he had frightened his companion.

"Yes, I'm half demon. . . and half human. I used to wish to he full demon. . . then I wouldn't have- - -

. . ."

He swallowed.

"I hate myself.

I hate the way I look and I hate the way I act.

I hate being here.

And I hate wishing for things that won't come true- but- - -

I wish that I was a human.

Or, I don't know, maybe stay a hanyou.

Something. . .

I just. . .

I'm. . .

. . .

I'm afraid of my demon side."

Inu-Yasha shifted again, turning to face her; his serious eyes connecting with her confused, fearful ones.

"Believe me," he whispered as he turned away once more, his heart constricting painfully in his chest. "Believe me. . . I know what you're going through. . .

I know what it's like. . .

What it's like to not be able to control yourself. . .

Just believe me."

And then he fell silent, leaving Kagome to deal with her confused, jumbled thoughts on her own.

*

Naraku smirked as he took a sip of his drink, nodding towards a small, white haired girl as she held up a silver guided mirror.

"Show me, Kanna. Show me what's taking place in the compartments."

The young child showed no sign of hearing him- but almost instantly- an image began forming inside her looking glass; the picture rippling like mercury.

~ "Believe me. . . I know what you're going through. . ." ~

The ebony haired man chuckled darkly, his lips pressed lightly to the rim of his glass.

"Ah. . .perfect. Soon all the pieces will be in place. . ."

"And what exactly is this `master plan' of yours?" a dark haired woman near the front of the train grumbled, shooting the male behind her a cold glare with her maroon eyes. "To sit back and let them rot in there?!"

"Just drive, Kagura," Naraku commanded, not bothering to look up from the mirror.

"Dive! Drive and fix the drinks! That's all I ever do around here!" Kagura snapped, clenching the controls of the train with such force that one almost broke off, an ominous wind making her short locks dance.

"You helped capture the hell-hole boy," the man offered, his voice cool and indifferent as he took a delicate sip of the concoction in his hands.

"That was YEARS ago!" she fumed, forsaking steering the train so as to whirl on Naraku.

"Do be quiet, Kagura," he murmured calmly, his eyes still locked on Kanna's looking glass.

"NO! I WILL N-!"

However, she cut herself off with a small gasp as the man held his hand out before her, ignoring her now fervent cries for forgiveness as a dark, shapeless glob began forming in his palm; slowly bubbling and oozing and twisting and squelching- - -

Until it formed a heart.

Her heart.

"I gave you an order," he said softly, never once looking up at the woman as her face turned an ashy shade of white. "I expect you to obey.

ALWAYS."

With that, he clenched the organ tightly, squeezing it without mercy as Kagura fell to her knees, clutching her chest in sheer agony.

"P-p-please," she gasped out, barley able to contain a whimper as a drop of her blood trickled down the man's icy finger, leaving a dark red trail in its wake. "S-s-stop. . ."

The maroon droplet fell to the floor with a soft splash, causing the girl to convulse in pain.

"Keh." Naraku gave the heart a final squeeze- smirking to himself as he felt some inner tissues snap- before snapping his wrist back, causing the organ to disappear.

Back inside Kagura's chest.

"Your insolence will be the death of you, my dear," he told her smoothly, taking another small gulp of his drink as the woman slowly sank the rest of the way to the floor. Panting as quietly as she could, she tried to ignore the searing pain inside her as icy sweat poured down her face, mixing with a single, silent tear.

Kagome blinked blearily in the darkness, glancing over at the sleeping Inu-Yasha- - -

Before scooting the rest of the way over to him, slowly and cautiously snuggling into his body before allowing her heavy eyelids. . .

To droop. . .

And slowly. . .

Carry. . .

Her off. . .

To sleep. . .

. . .

~*~

Uh oh. . .

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PS. Please, could you send my family a short little prayer? My dad was in a minor car accident (he's fine), but I'm kind afraid for our financial status. We're not the richest of family's and suing seems so popular these days. . .

I hope I don't seem cold, but please?

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