InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Sever the Tie That Binds ❯ Confrontation ( Chapter 9 )

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Saying this is worse than Roseanne Barr in a bikini. I don’t own Inuyasha. There happy? I’m not.

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Chapter 9: Confrontation

After the buzzing in my ears stopped I walked in to check on Taro. He was still sleeping. I was silently thanking Koga for taking care of him last night. Then I felt guilty. Koga, had tucked in my son, dealt with me being drunk, and told me he loved me.

What did I do? I faked passing out to avoid the situation. Oh yeah, he sure was lucky to have a girlfriend like me. I had to do something to make this right again. Shamefully I picked up the phone and dialed Koga’s number.

I immediately hung up before I even heard the first ring. I wasn’t ready to talk to him yet. I couldn’t until I knew what I wanted to do about my situation. That’s when I realized the blinking number on my answering machine.

I pushed the button and listened to my messages.

Message #1: “Kagome, Its Sango, I was just calling to check in on you. Miroku heard you were drunk last night. Anyway call me I need to talk to you its important.”

Message #2: “Kagome, Its Koga, I hope your feeling better, call me when you get a chance.”

Message #3: “Kagome get up! I need you to call me as soon as you get up! Oh yeah this is Sango again.”

End of messages.

I picked up the phone again and dialed an all too familiar number. I figured I’d call Sango explain the situation and maybe she could help me.

“Hello?”
“Sango?”
“Yeah, is everything okay? You don’t sound good.”
“Well I don’t feel good.”
“Hangover?”
“Yup.”

&# 8220;That sucks. Anyway, I was thinking me and you could go look at brides maid dresses today.”

“Okay, what time.”

“How about I meet you there in like an hour?”
“Okay, but what about Taro?”
“Miroku can watch him, just drop him off here and we’ll drive there together. Kay?”
“Kay, I’ll leave in like 30 minutes. See you later bye.”
“Bye.”

I put on a pair of jeans and regular t-shirt with a light jacket, woke up Taro and got him dressed. I was driving to Sango’s within 25 minutes.

After I dropped Taro off, Sango drove us to a bridal shop. Halfway there she glanced over at me and raised one of her eyebrows. I hate that inquiring look.

“What?” I asked annoyed at that look.
“Kagome come on. Are you gonna tell me about what happened last night after you drunk yourself into a stupor or do I have to beat it out of you?”

“Well, lets go down the checklist shall we. After I saw my bastard of an ex-boyfriend and fainted I walked back out to the party where I proceeded to drink three glasses of Champaign, and 4 shots of vodka straight up. When I felt like vomiting I stumbled around looking for Koga, I tripped and fell into the arms of Satan before running away making an idiot of myself by tripping everywhere before he caught up to me. Oh but wait, it gets better. I just had to ask him if she was ‘the one’ he left me for and he said ‘yes’ before I ran away again and bumped into Koga. At my house I was rejected after trying to seduce my new boyfriend and he confessed that he loved me and I fainted again. Granted I faked it to get out of answering him, but I still hit the floor hard enough to leave a large bump on the side of my head. And, well, that about covers it.” I said in one long, breathy, sarcastic tone.

“So does that about answer your question?”
“Oh my God Kagome. Koga said he loved you and you faked fainting. Are you crazy or something! How could you do that!”
“I know, I know okay, but I panicked. I didn’t know what to say.”

“How about I love you too Koga? I mean that would be nice unless you don’t…” I was waiting for it. Realization passed over her face when she turned to me again with that all knowing look that I also hate.

“Kagome do you love Koga?”
“Honestly?”
“Yes, honestly.”
“Honestly, I don’t know. I mean I like him and he is great, even with Taro, but…”
“You don’t love him.”

“Yes, I mean no, I mean maybe. I don’t know. Everything was fine until Inuyasha came back into my life.”
“Are you gonna tell him about Taro?”
“What? No! I cant tell him about Taro, ever.”

“Well what are you gonna do Kagome. He’s bound to see him with you at the wedding rehearsal and wedding, not to mention the reception.”

“I don’t know. He cant know Taro is his son, that would just complicate everything. I don’t need seeing him again to be any more difficult than it already is.”

“Maybe you should just tell him. Don’t you think Taro should at least meet his father?”

“No. I don’t ever want him to know who Taro is.”
“Why not? It isn’t that bad.”
“It is that bad. Don’t you get it. If he finds that out, he might not only hate me for not telling him, but he might want custody. Sango I cant risk getting into a legal battle over my son. Even worse, what if he doesn’t give a damn about me or Taro. I don’t want Taro to get hurt by any of this, especially with how close he is with Koga now.”

“I’m sorry. I didn’t think about any of that.”
“It’s okay. I’ll figure out something. Right now lets go look at dresses and I’ll think of what to say to Koga later. I don’t want to talk about this anymore.”
“Okay.”

The rest of the ride was silent and I was thankful she didn’t bring it up again. When we arrived at the dress shop Sango and I asked for some books to look at to pick out the style before we looked at dresses. She decided she wanted to do the wedding in red and white. She picked out red for the bride’s maid’s dresses.

When she picked out the style she decided to go with strapless, thin dresses that stopped above the ankle. The dresses each had a layer of lace over the silk material of the dress that swayed when you walked.

Since I was the maid of honor my dress was of a similar style, but slightly different. It was red, strapless, but was a full on gown where the thin sheer of lace gathered on the right side from a rhinestone decorated rose and swept down across the dress reaching the bottom in layers.

After trying it on Sango said it was definitely ‘the dress’. It was perfect and looked beautiful on me. I was relieved she had taste and I didn’t have to wear an awful bride’s maid dress. She put the dress on hold along with the bride’s maid dresses until she picked her other two bride’s maids and then have them sized.

After dress shopping was finished I took Taro to the park 5 blocks from my apartment. I sat on a nearby bench thinking of what to say to Koga while Taro played on the slides.

“Hey what are you doing here?” When I heard the masculine voice I was silently praying it wasn’t who I thought it was. I looked to my left and saw the first person on my hit list, Inuyasha.

“Sitting. What does it look like?”
“I can see that but you know what I meant.”
“Why do you care? That’s right you don’t. Good bye.” I turned away from him wishing I could get away, but I was stuck. I couldn’t leave Taro here, and I couldn’t take him home and risk Inuyasha knowing he was my son.

“Kagome wait. I do care about you okay. We were friends forever and I’ll always care about you. Can’t you just look at me, or at least talk to me?”

“Were being the operative word in your statement. And no. Apparently you didn’t understand what I said six years ago so let me clarify. When I said I never wanted to see you or hear from you again, I meant it!”

“Your still hanging on to the past then huh? Why cant you just let it go it was six years ago and I think your being a baby.” What he said had my blood boiling and I turned cold, emotionless eyes on him.

“Well I didn’t ask your opinion on the subject. You have no idea what my life has been like these past six years. You may have known me then, but you don‘t know me now so don‘t pretend to okay?” I said in a dark whisper that screamed I was in no mood to deal with him. Inuyasha looked like he was about to retaliate but was cut off.

“Mommy?” I looked away from Inuyasha and over to my son. At the same time I saw Inuyasha’s head snap to Taro from the corner of my eye. I noticed the shocked expression when I was the one to answer the strange little boy he had never seen before.

“Yes?”
“Who is that?” I looked to Inuyasha when he looked at me with questioning eyes before turning back to my son. Inuyasha wanted to hear my answer. So I gave it to him.

“Nobody. He’s absolutely nobody. Come on let’s go.” I got up and grabbed Taro’s hand and started walking away when I heard Inuyasha say something.

“You have a son?” I winced inwardly at the question and kept my back turned when I answered him.

“Yes. So do you.” I whispered the last part to myself and the wind carried it away. Not even Taro heard what I said before walking away. I couldn’t stay and have him ask more questions. I had hoped to avoid this but Inuyasha looked more shocked than anything else. I don’t think he realized Taro was his son. I could only hope he wouldn’t figure it out.

I walked to the car holding onto Taro’s hand and strapped him in back before speeding off back to the apartment. When I got to the parking lot I saw Koga’s car and banged my head against the seat. Why me? Why now?

I grabbed Taro and headed inside taking slow steps. I was only prolonging the inevitable but I needed to get my head together first. When I got to my hallway I saw him standing by the door waiting for me. I wondered how long he had been here.

“Hi.” That was all I could say when he looked at me with adoring, but repentant eyes.

“Hi.” He gave a small smile and I returned it before unlocking the door and letting us inside.

We walked to the living room and sat down silently. I didn’t know what to say and was terrified when he didn’t say anything at all.

“Kagome?”
“Yeah?”
“ ;About last night, I’ll understand if you don’t feel the same way but I meant it. Do you even remember what I said?”
“Yes. I remember.”
“Good. Now would be a good time to say something.” I thought about my answer. Did I love him? I liked him a lot but with my ex back in the picture now I feel confused. So I stayed quiet.

“Kagome please just answer me. Do you love me?”
“I don’t know. I just don’t know.” I sighed and looked away. I couldn’t look at him. He looked so disappointed and I was scared he might not want to be with me anymore.

“Kagome look at me.” I slowly turned to look at him with tears in my eyes.

“Why are you crying?”
“I don’t want to lose you.”
“I’m not going anywhere. I love you and even though you don’t understand your feelings yet I’ll be here. I promise. I understand you may not know how you feel, and I’m glad you didn’t lie to me.”

“Thank you Koga.” I said wiping the tears away from my eyes.

“For what?”
“For understanding, and for being a great boyfriend.” When I said that he gave me a hug and kissed my cheek. We sat together for a little while before he left.

“I’ll call you tomorrow and maybe we can go out.”
“Okay sounds good. Bye Koga”
“Bye.” When he left I took in a deep breath of relief that he wasn’t angry. I was honest and he understood. Sometimes I think he is too good for someone like me. I still felt uneasy about Inuyasha knowing Taro was my son and decided I needed to talk to Sango.
“Taro come on, we’re going to Aunt Sango’s.”

“Okay mommy.” I needed to talk to her in person. Some things just cant be said on the phone.

I drove to Sango’s quickly. I was impatient and felt like I could vomit at any second. I needed some type of reassurance that Inuyasha didn’t know. When I got there I knocked on her door harshly. She opened and looked right at me. I was on the verge of crying and Taro was standing next to me smiling.

“Kagome what’s wrong?”
“Can I come in a minute?”
“Yeah of course.” She moved aside and let us in. Taro ran back into the spare room to play with his toys while I sat down on the couch looking straight ahead. I was in my own world when I felt the couch shift next to me. I snapped out of my daze and looked at Sango’s concerned face staring back at me.

“Okay what’s wrong.”
“I was at the park with Taro and he saw.”

“Who saw?”
“Inuyasha.” Her eyes grew wide and her jaw dropped.

“Does he know?”
“I don’t think so. But he still saw and now he knows Taro is my son. What do I do if he finds out?”
“Kagome don’t panic if he doesn’t know. If he finds out we’ll work it out just stay calm okay? I promise if things get bad they will work out. And don’t cry okay, your not going to lose your son.”
“Thank you Sango.” I said before throwing my arms around her in a big hug.

“Hello ladies.”
“Hi Miroku.”

“So Kagome is everything okay. I mean Sango told me about Inuyasha being your ex, I had no idea I swear. I am so sorry.”
“It’s okay it wasn’t your fault.”
“No I mean I’m sorry about that and the fact Inuyasha is coming over in about 2 minutes.”
“That is your fault. I gotta get out of here!” I jumped up and ran to get my son when I heard the voice that sounded in my ears like two cars crashing head on.

“Why just because I’m here?” I looked towards the door and saw Inuyasha standing there smirking at me. He obviously heard what I said and he knew why I wanted to leave.

“Don’t flatter yourself. Your not that important.” I glared at him before looking away and walking into the back room to get Taro.

“Fair enough. Why in such a hurry got a date or something?” I wanted to smack that smug grin off of his face.

“No, I’m just allergic to dogs.”
“Ouch that stung Kags.”
“Don’t call me that!” I couldn’t stand to hear him call me that. That’s the nickname he gave me when we started dating. He gave up the right to call me that when he decided to be with someone else.

“Why not? I always called you that in high school.”

“Yeah I know, and those days are dead. Like you are to me.” I watched his head drop and eyes fill with pain. That hurt look in his eyes made me almost regret being so cruel. Almost.

“Fine. You can hate me. But I hope you and your husband are happy with your son.”

“My mommy’s not married and Koga’s not my daddy.” I turned around and saw Taro looking between me and Inuyasha. When I looked back I saw Inuyasha staring at Taro intensely.

“Hey what’s your name?” He asked as he walked towards us and got on one knee in front of Taro.

“My name’s Taro.”

“Taro huh? That’s a good name. How old are you now Taro?” I held my breath hoping Taro wouldn’t answer that.

“Five. I’ll be six soon.” I saw realization flash in his eyes and I felt tears in mine. He knew. Oh God he knew. I stared at him with my eyes wide and mouth hanging open in shock.

“Kagome?” He said as he stood to face me. His tone. I knew he wanted answers. I couldn’t face him at that moment. I had to get out. I looked at Sango and Miroku who were equally shocked. Then my eyes flashed to the front door. I took a step back and just as Inuyasha realized what I was looking at, I ran.

I ran past him and out the front door. I heard him behind me and I knew he was chasing. I heard him scream my name, but I didn’t stop. I ran down the stairs and out of the apartment building.

I was running down the street when I felt him grab me by the upper arm. I turned and started hitting him anywhere I could to get him to let go. I was striking him blindly not focusing on anything but getting away.

“Kagome stop it!” He grabbed my wrists and held them so I couldn’t hit him or run. I could hear his heavy breathing from chasing me as I kept my head down with my eyes closed. I couldn’t look at him. I was trying to will myself away from him. It didn’t work.

“Look at me.” I kept my eyes shut and shook my head from side to side.

“Look at me!” I heard the serious tone in his voice and I could tell he was losing his temper. The demand in his voice scared me and obediently I opened my eyes and slowly looked up at him. He was staring at my face with my hands still held in his larger ones. I could feel the tears trying to pry themselves out of my eyes as I struggled to hold them back.

“He’s mine isn’t he?” He asked in a whisper. I stayed quiet, my only answer was the tears that began to run down my face and my small whimpers as I began to pull away from him more fiercely than before.

“He is isn’t he!” He yelled as he pulled on my wrists held captive in his hands. “Damn it Kagome answer me! He’s mine isn’t he!” He screamed as he stared into my eyes. He knew and I couldn’t lie.

“Yes.” I whispered defeated, staring him in the eyes. I thought he would be satisfied but he looked more furious than ever.

“Why? Why didn’t you fucking tell me Kagome?”

“Because.”
“Because why?”

“Because I couldn’t okay. I just couldn’t. I was going to on our anniversary until you told me you were leaving me for someone else. What was I supposed to do? Tell you I’m pregnant right after you say you don’t want to be with me?!” I yelled becoming furious and crying even harder than before.

“I wanted you to love me for me, not because you had an obligation. I thought I was doing the right thing.”

“How would not telling me you were pregnant with my child be the right thing Kagome?!”

“I didn’t want to ruin your life. I didn’t want to tie you down with a baby when you loved someone else. You were moving away to college, you had your whole life ahead of you, and I didn’t want you to be stuck with someone you didn’t give a damn about just because you got me pregnant!”

“Kagome I did give a damn about you and I still do. You should have told me. You should have given me that choice.”
“Why? It was my responsibility, not yours! You had already made your decision, I made mine! You chose her! I didn’t want to make you choose me because you thought you had to. Don’t you get it? I set you free from your obligation. So go. Go!”

“No I wont go. I’m sorry for everything okay but I’m not just going to walk away from my son like this never happened.”

“He’s not your son. Besides the two minutes you contributed to conceiving the child, and I’m being very generous here, you haven’t been his father. And you never will be.”

“I know you hate me okay, that’s apparent. But do you really think it’s fair to him? Shouldn’t he know who is father is? You can hate me Kagome but this isn’t about you or me. It’s about him and I think he should know who his father is.”

“I rather him not have a father than one like you.” A look of hurt flashed through his words at that. I actually saw shame in the violet brown of his eyes.

“I don’t care whether or not you hate me Kagome, he’s my son. Please?” I looked down. He sounded sincere and near the brink of tears. I felt something twist inside me and I made my decision.

“I’m not telling him who you are.”