InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Sketches ❯ Aching ( Chapter 5 )

[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]

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Chapter 5
 
Aching
 

(I'd like to thank madmistress65 for giving this a quick once over and making some excellent suggestions.)
 

Kagome closed the bathroom door behind her and slid to the floor with her legs crossed, dropped her head, and stared at the pale blue tiles.

`Is this how it's going to be? No love from the hanyou, only from the human? I love
both of his sides and they can't be that different, can they? What should I do now, forget about him? Insist that he keep the promise of his mark? I don't want to make him feel trapped, but I can't go back to the way we were before. I just can't!'

She reached up to her neck and lightly caressed his mark. Pulling her fingers away, she brought them to her nose. `It smells like him,' she thought sadly. She pulled her knees up resting her forehead on them as her heart welled up into her throat. `I can smell him on every inch of my body.'

Tears welled up in her eyes. So that no one would hear the sobs welling in her throat, she quickly lifted herself and turned on the water in the sink and tub.
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He paced. He thought. He could not get away from her scent. He wanted to run, but his mind suddenly went blank. The turmoil was just too much, and he didn't know what to do. For the longest time, he stood, leaning against her window frame and staring out at the God tree. Its leaves swayed, causing light and shadow to dance in slow rhythm which soothed his frazzled mind.
Something bothersome woke him from his stupor. Steam seeped from beneath the bathroom door bringing with it the scent of Kagome's tears. Inuyasha's heart lurched.

`I never meant to hurt her. She does not deserve this and I don't deserve her. I should leave and seal the well. I don't need her to find the Shikon jewel shards. Miroku can see them. He is not as sensitive to their presence so it will take us longer, but we don't need her,'
he rationalized, trying to convince himself he could save her from heartache if he left her behind. `I should just go.' However, the scent of her tears held him in place and he wanted to run to her, to comfort her.

`I wish she would stop that crying. I hate it when she cries. Damn it to hell.' Losing his will to leave Kagome to her thoughts, Inuyasha strode out of her room and made his way down the hall to the bathroom door. His stomach was bunching into sickening knots as the smell of her tears became stronger. He hesitantly stood at the door looming before him, the door that was hiding something from him, something so important it scared him.
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The hot bath felt good on her aching muscles and relieved some of the tension. While her sobbing had finally subsided, lonely tears still trickled down her cheeks. Turning onto her stomach, she stuck her face under the water and held it there in hopes that by washing away the already shed tears, she could dam up anymore that might try to escape. As her mind ran rampant, she pressed her forehead against the bottom of the tub.

`Why is he doing this? He said he loved me. I don't care if he was human. He said it
, and he meant it. I can't believe that he could change no matter what his form. What is he going to do now? Is he just going to dump me? If he did that, I could not go back with him to look for the shards. I just couldn't.'

Perhaps it was the water's heat, but she could feel her lungs trying to push out as her throat tightened preparing for a whimper. She pulled up onto her hands and knees and then sat back on her legs. Quickly grabbing a washcloth and holding it to her lips, she tried to stifle her sobs. What rushed out of her wasn't a whimper. Shocking even to her, it was more of a howling scream.
 
Kagome held the washcloth as tightly to her face as possible, eyes closed tight, body trembling, and unsuccessfully did her best to keep her jaw clenched in order to stifle the sound of her agony.
 
 
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Thank you for the review. Wow! Thanks for the wonderful scores! I know this chappie is short, but there'll be another one soon. Hope you liked the angst. ^_^
 
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*Disclaimer*
 
Inuyasha and all associated characters are owned by Rumiko Takahashi, Shogakukan, Yomiuri TV, Sunrise, and Viz. I make no profit from this story, nor do I intend to. My only goal is to occupy my demented mind with delusions of actually owning a life-sized, anatomically correct Sesshoumaru.
 
 
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