InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Stick to the plan ❯ Breaking Point ( Chapter 3 )

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Three Days Later
I did not Ask for Suspicion
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The group stayed within the western lands allowing Kagome to adjust to being back in the group after everything that had happened.
Kagome had explained to Shippou later on, when they were alone, that Sesshomaru had healed her but in a different way that she could not explain to him, he would have to trust her on this and be silent.
Shippou knew something was not right with the way his ‘mom’ was acting but she seemed so on edge he didn’t want to push it. She had never held him so fiercely and her breath was erratic as she stumbled over her words and petted his downy mane of hair.
When she had suggested he go back to the village on Kirara to tell Kaede she was found and in good condition, he did not argue though he did not want to part from her so soon.
Kagome did not want Shippou to be wrapped up in this and she knew not how this would turn out.
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Kagome shifted as she feigned sleep. The rest had watched over her though out the day tending the smallest of her needs and refused to let her out of their sight. She wished she could have enjoyed it however it was not the attention she craved for anymore. There had been a time, a time long past in her naivety that the love and concern of her friends of the male she had longed for was all she wanted. But now she wanted more, her once bright cinnamon eyes were now hazed with the desire of a darker kind.
She could feel his eyes upon her and she searched her mind for him in the night taking a morbid comfort that he was there, near her, that he did care enough to be there even if it was just to watch her destroy herself.
And yet part of her still hated him, and despised him for what he made her feel and the fact that she had given in so willingly. She vowed she would end the twisted affair as soon as she had found her revenge. For now she would bide out her time and wait... Wait as he did, wait for the opportunity. She knew it would come. A faint crunch of leaves, gentle branches sway.
She knew those sounds; they had been her bedfellows for so long. She waited a few minutes and got up silently staring at the sleeping monk still sheltered from the pain that had locked around her heart and twisted tighter each time she turned her eyes to the empty sleeping mat that should be housing a resting slayer. It should but it did not. A quick glance to the trees and confirmation was complete. Even after her return, almost losing her they still continued to meet.
She turned and started out of the camp, following the same steps she had done before, her heart gripping so tightly that with every step it died a little more. She found them soon enough but circled around them and settled downwind, another trick she had picked up following them. She could hide her presence now due the training and crouched to take in the scene.
Surprisingly, they were still clothed and appeared to be talking. Her heart relaxed its hold some only to replace itself with the realization that she would never be able to trust them again. And yet she remained, watching, waiting and secretly hoping that they would prove her wrong … Before it was truly too late to turn back.
Golden orbs narrowed as they watched indecision flash on the pale face of their prey, Their toy. They watched the careful hardening being softened by a pitiful hope. This would not do. Silent shifting through the canopy brought them closer to their pet as a plan brooded in their mind to regain control.
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I did not Ask to be Forgotten
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Inuyasha shifted uncomfortably as he gazed at his lover. She was his lover and yet he didn’t love her. He cared for her because she was brave, strong, kind and a part of his pack. But he did not love her. That had not stopped him from spreading her legs, parting her nether lips and riding her to completion all those times. No. Indeed, until this turn of events he had never thought of the consequences… The first time had been by accident. They had both been up unable to sleep with the burdens they carried and had moved away from the camp to talk for awhile like they did sometimes.
It should have ended the same but something was different that night. She had cried and he had only meant to comfort her. She had in a bold moment showed him the scar on her back that she believed barred her from having any man want ‘damaged goods’ He had touched the scar while talking to her in soothing tones and suddenly things took a different light and before they could comprehend they ended grinding against each other trying to wipe away the pain they felt if only for a little while. It didn’t make it right though. He knew this but that didn’t mean it was an easy thing to stop. The release it gave was addictive .for the both of them, Able to let go, to demand and be satisfied. He knew she did not think of him when they were together and he was fine because she was definitely not the raven haired female he was filling with his engorged manhood on the woodland floor, making her squeal and moan.
Nevertheless neither had it stopped Sango when she fell into his arms and pushed down impaling herself on his girth. She hated herself for needing this yet she could not bring herself from stopping it and she could not deny the fact she enjoyed being dominated in such a complete fashion as he did. In a way she knew her beloved would not be able to.
She looked away ashamed realizing she had never given him the chance to show her whether he could or not. She wondered if she was addicted to the guilt. This selfish need to be fulfilled without strings attached. But now the stakes had changed, they were higher and after just regaining her dearest friend could she really continue to manipulate her friend’s innocence and hide the knowledge of their indiscretion?
“Do you think we should tell her?” She finally found strength to speak, the silence was almost deafening as her words permeated the air. Inuyasha could not find the ability to speak. He knew she had wanted to talk but he thought she was just hurting.
He had planned on telling her of his plans on confessing his plans of a future with Kagome starting now instead of waiting. He sighed disgusted with himself but now that Kagome wasn’t a virgin though he had wanted to be her only lover it made her seem more attainable, human, reachable and him finally close to being worthy of her though her pure heart would always surpass him.
Kagome peered closer wanting to know what he would say. She felt so confused, why did she feel torn about. Empty yet hopeful. She could feel her heart starting to beat once more as to always did as it sat on the edge of the cliff and waited. Waited for him to turn into her prince and rescue her. As she watched his head slowly shake in the negative she felt her heart lean forward and fall into the crushing abyss below. Little did she realize another silver haired youkai was on the way to save it from its fall.
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I did not Ask for Numbness
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“No don’t think so ... I don’t see how it could help her and not hurt her and push her further away from us.” He replied calmly trying to reason the situation out. He ran his clawed hand through her hair gently as he stepped to her. He did it to calm her but he found himself eyeing the strands, comparing the texture and color to his Kagome’s locks. He needed Sango to be smart about this. No one else needed to be hurt.
“But Inuyasha …If we had been there… How will we bear the guilt?” Sango whispered in desperation leaning into his hand.
Inuyasha’s face hardened slightly. “Our guilt should not be her pain. Besides, you did not feel guilt last night “
Sango glared at him “Nor did you!” She retorted blushing “I was in pain ...”
“Liar, pain does not have anything to do about it any longer. This is about fulfilling our bodies and it will end soon enough…” he was angry and he felt threatened. He was worried that Sango’s guilt would make him lose Kagome if she spilled the news.
He would not lose her again.
Sango blushed indignant. “Bastard, I hate you” She hissed turning her back to him. Huffing she was determined to ease her guilt even if Kagome was pained by it.
“It was never about hate …or love Sango... It was need... I need you to help me as you needed me. I can’t lose her again….Please” He pleaded softer, hating his tongue. Would he never be able to face situations with grace and patience?
It wasn’t worth suffering. And yet as she turned and faced him once more she knew she would say nothing. He opened his arms to her when he saw her falter. He had won. There fight was over…and now they would makeup.
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Kagome’s heart constricted and stopped at the sight. She felt such an extreme pain she didn’t feel the presence of Sesshomaru behind her.
Sesshomaru smirked as only a man that knew his lover would and came up behind her pressing against her. One hand secured her at the hip another came up around her right arm across her breasts, ending with his right clawed appendage wrapping around her neck firmly yet not squeezing it.
She jerked hating him for seeing her this way and hating him because he was a reminder of what she had become. She knew it was him. She didn’t need to turn around as the feel of him pressed against her from behind was almost like a second skin. He commanded her body to his will so well. She felt it answering to his call and hate she wanted to hurt him as the scene before her hurt her. His words hit her and made her slash back in a hiss.
“Are you enjoying the show?”
“I despise you “
“Good … We don’t do this because we like each other… And I certainly don’t love you …” His words were low and husky. He knew how to sway her mind, knew her weakness because it was his.
“And I don’t love you, “She replied bitterly her body already responding to the familiar hold he had. But this was perverse. She stood there, downwind and hidden by the canopy watching her first love and best friend kissing away their bitter words all the while allowing herself to be groped by his older brother.
“Ah, but this it’s not about loving me…Tell me the real reason you watched them all those times… Did it turn you on to watch them fuck? Did you like it? Which position did you like them in best?” He tortured her mind with his questions while he pulled aside her yukata and cupped her core, his other hand never releasing her ivory neck.
She released a breath and cursed her body as she felt herself wetting his fingers lightly. “You’re sick…”
“And you’re weak…I thought you wanted revenge and yet I see you whimpering here and they prevail… Take the power back Kagome…Take it back… Let me teach you another lesson.” His words angered and yet calmed her. He was right. They apparently did not care enough about her to stop. Why did she torture herself? And yet what possible lesson could she learn from this?
When he started speaking again she found her answer, and found herself unable to hate herself from liking it. She never let the scene her betrayers’ portrayed escape her gaze as the numbness set in her heart.
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I did not Ask for Debauchery
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“Do you remember that day in the dojo?” He whispered against the shell of her ear, her neck drawn back at his mercy holding her head so that she could not turn away. She closed her eyes as Inuyasha’s hands pulled down Sango’s yukata to expose her full breasts.
Sesshomaru responded by pinching her clit hard enough to cause her to gasp and bite her tongue to muffle the cry. “Answer me...” His growl was like a fire that swept through her and caused her to shiver as she whimpered and opened her eyes.
“Yes”
Her voice felt raw and used and yet she had not uttered more than a word. He smirked “Open your yukata and bare yourself to my gaze…” He could feel his length hardening at the thought of tainting her further. She was his now. His foolish brother would pay the price for his arrogance and he would finally crush him all thanks to the little minx before him.
“What does this have to do with my lesson?” She questioned though she knew better than not to comply. Shaking fingers loosened her yukata and it slid to her hips and her breasts coming into his view.
H scraped against her cunt allowing the pleasure, pain to build. “What do you see when you watch them?” He countered relishing the taste of her skin under his tongue. He pressed her against him fully allowing her to feel his arousal.
“Betrayal...”
She replied harshly sucking in her breath. She cursed his touch. ‘Why do I give in to this?’ Her mind fuzzed and raced.
“What do you feel?” He continued toying with her, leaving her aroused core to pet her inner thigh.
“Disgusted…”
His hand stilled as he watched the panting rise and fall of her bosom. Smelt the confusion, frustration and lust in her scent. “Touch yourself. I want you to mimic Inuyasha’s hands…”
She paled, trying to shake her head. How could he ask that? That would make it real, make her feel what he was doing…She couldn’t go there.
He growled at her defiance and tightened his grasp on her neck. “Take back the control…”
She brought her hands to her breasts as she watched Inuyasha. He had decided to calm Sango down this time with more foreplay. She mimicked his hands and pinched her nipples. Massaging the tips and rolled them between her fingers. She trailed her left hand down and found her core as Inuyasha found Sango’s. She felt her body start to hum as Sesshomaru growled in approval. It was all too much to take it. The feel of him against her back, and her hands pleasuring herself in front of him and getting off the sight of her betrayers. She wanted to hate this but there was something dirty about touching herself at the same time as if she was controlling it all and they were doing this for her pleasure.
Sesshomaru grinned as he watched her get turned on more. He released him girth and felt his pants slide to the woodland floor. He pushed his cock between her legs and let his manhood get coated with her slick juices. Kagome bit back a groan her eyes hazed in pleasure as she was teased with Sesshomaru’s straining member as Inuyasha tortured Sango.
Bringing her hand down, she rubbed his member against her pussy lips panting hard. She wanted him inside.
“You want me to fuck you?” he teased already feeling the pre cum wanting to bead at the tip.
She panted nodding as best as she could. She wanted to close her eyes in pleasure when he pulled back enough to start pushing into her hot sheath but they snapped open when he started to pull out.
“Then say it bitch …” he hissed and when she paused he stepped back from her and leaned against the tree a living contradiction. His face impassive and calm though the twitching member that jutted out against his stomach told a different story. He had taken off his Haori awhile ago and stood there in all his glory. She looked him over hungrily before turning her gaze back to the couple a distance upwind. She wanted to feel her pussy filled as Sango’s was being filled. Her core pulsed for the feel and she knew her hands would not give her the release he could. She leaned forward and pulled the yukata completely off. Gripping the slender tree trunk to the side of her she spread her legs and parted her ass with her right hand, baring her glistening cunt to his view.
“Please… Fuck me…I want you to make me come…”She whispered, head bowed in shame and yet she cold not really feel it past the heat to have him take her.
He moved upon her so quickly she barely steadied herself when he thrust into her newly abused pussy making it throb in pleasure and pain. She bit her lips holding back all except whimpers as Sesshomaru took her. His left hand latched around her neck and pulled her back arching her back as he alternated on her air supply.
She gasped and whimpered. She did not know what to do. Her fear only turned her on more and she hated herself for becoming so twisted. She could not see the couple and that scared her as her head arched back stared at the air with strands of silver coming into view. It meant know she would feel only him.
He rolled his fingers over his breasts using his claws he rotated tips of her nipples “Just hear them now. Take their pleasure and make it yours...” He was far less calm than his voice lead on. If she had turned around she would have seen the crimson eyes staring back at her. A silent tear caressed her face as she arched back into the darkness. Her frail human nails digging into the bark as she used both hands to steady herself when he started to toy with her cilt. He pulled her off her feet by her waist never missing a beat in shoving her engorged member into her silken heat. Her legs wrapped around his thighs as he abused her core with his shattering thrusts, She could barely breathe and the thought that he held both here pleasure and pain… she climax and life in his hands, and the slippery thick shaft that stretched her doubled her wetness.
She felt herself spiraling into the bittersweet obscurity of her climax, the ecstasy of it all too much and yet even in that moment, that moment when time stood still when her body convulsed , her core sucking on Sesshomaru’s cock like a suckling lamb. Then as her guilt was set free by his wicked touch, even when all she wanted was live in that moment when Sesshomaru’s seed spilled out her womb and covered her bruised, puffy pussy lips. Even then she felt her heart constrict, felt the pain course though her, felt tingling spread through her as her second climax washed over her. Felt her breathing shallow out and the blessed darkness call to her again. Only this time she knew what was happening. As she gave over to unconsciousness the twisted grin confirmed her greatest fear had come true. Cradled in the arms of her tempter she fell into the shadows of her mind and watched behind closed lids as the last of the old Kagome died.
She felt and yet she did not stop it. Did not flinch away from the pain but embraced it, a single tear falling from her eye into the dirt below. Sullied, tainted.
She was reborn.
Sesshomaru smiled as he carried his falling angel. She was his now. Strangely though for the first time since the death of his father Sesshomaru felt a shiver of fear pass through him. What would be the consequences of reaping the spoils of this war?
He shook his head to clear his mind of such thoughts.
‘There is nothing this Sesshomaru should be concerned about ...I will stick to the plan’
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I did not ask for Pain and yet I hurt with every waking breath. I did not ask for Hate and yet It all I think of. I did not ask for Kindness, I asked for revenge and yet it is I who still pay the price. I did not ask for Pity, I asked for you to Love me! I did not ask for Comfort, I asked for you not to Betray me, I did not ask for Deceit and yet it seems to be the only thing you understand. I did not ask for Suspicion and yet how can I trust?
I did not ask to be Forgotten and so I will make sure none of you ever forget. I did not ask for Numbness but now it is I who have forgotten…forgotten how to care…I did not ask for Debauchery and yet I have become its slave.
I did not Ask for Reality but you have crushed my Fantasy and now I will crush yours. You have wounded me but I will destroy you. The Kagome you know is no more. You wanted reality. Well welcome, Welcome to my reality. May the Gods show mercy on your souls…For I will not.
Blessed darkness cradle my mind and give me the strength that I will need. For tomorrow the Plan begins.
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A/n: Well guys another chapter down, 13 pgs. *hides* Please don’t hit me…I know right now there are quite a few people thinking that poor Inuyasha is getting a bum rap but I am trying to keep this as plausible as possible and the reality is that even when people don’t mean to hurt you on purpose they can and do because of thinking of themselves first * tiptoes back in* thank you all for your reviews…you make me want to continue. Honestly, if I didn’t get a review I would have stopped it. You are my muses... * ahem * now onto the passing of gifts…
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