InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ The Pages of My Life ❯ Her Inner Confessions ( Chapter 9 )

[ Y - Young Adult: Not suitable for readers under 16 ]

A/N: Hey I'm back! Sorry the update on this took longer than usual, I started a new story which was sucking up a good amount of time but Pages still lives on very much, it's just the most difficult of my stories to write, oi. Thank you very much to Cougiecat and Crystalclearangel for your reviews! I hope you guys like the new chapter! And thank you too all my readers, please review if you have the chance. Ja ne! Laurell~

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I stared into the hospital room in disbelief. Rage began pooling into my blood and I remembered the feeling all too well. But this time it would be forgivable, there would be no guilt for shredding this asshole.

His head shot up at the sound of my voice and his eyes narrowed but he dropped Kagome's wrist. She whimpered softly clinging her wrist to her chest.

“Who's this guy?!” His face swung back around to accuse her. I could see her starting to shake and stutter but she didn't respond. I didn't give her the chance.

“HEY! You wanna yell at someone, you yell at me. You look at her again and you're going to regret it.” I advanced into the room like a predator. He ignored my threat, not a good move on his part. If there was anything I couldn't stand it was some egotistical pretty boy getting off on making a girl squirm, a girl in a hospital bed no less. The look in his eyes sickened me and I realized this wasn't going to end pretty.

“What is this some new boyfriend or something? Did I not make it clear what I would do to anyone you got involved with?!” Kagome's eyes widened in fear and he went to reach for her again, but I wasn't about to allow him to touch her ever again. His rough hands didn't deserve to touch a girl the way he was, to cause the fear that I could see swelling behind her brown eyes.

With lightning speed I put myself between him and her bed and shoved him backwards.

“What the fuck do you think you're doing?! You haven't the slightest idea who am I do you?” He shouted at me holding a fist but not even close to swinging. I realized he was getting nervous, I had caught him doing something he knew he was guilty of; with any luck I could make him remember what it was like to be afraid again.

“I don't really give a shit who you are.” Because in truth, I already knew him. I had encountered tons of guys just like him growing up in the way I did. But I'd also met all the girls they had left behind, the pieces of them at least, some physically most mentally. They shredded girls to make up for voids in their existence, needing to feel the dominance over something that couldn't defend itself like a wounded animal. They didn't care what happened to the woman they broke, how they lived, and the issues that would haunt them.

“Why would you be protecting a worthless whore like her? Do you even kno-” I shoved him again cutting him off. The final bits of patience I had were snapping like violin strings with his every stupid word that came from him.

“Don't talk about her.” The last warning he would get. I didn't tell him that I had only met her yesterday, and that I knew nothing about her. She could have been the biggest bitch in the world, it didn't matter. No girl deserved to be treated that badly by a man.

“That slut is not worth the trouble you're getting yourself into man...trust me.” I didn't know if he was just fucking stupid or actually thought he was doing me a favor. Either way I didn't care anymore, I had warned him.

“Kagome have you been lying to him too huh?! You must have been to get anyone to protect you!” I saw Kagome's eyes start to fill with tears. And I aimed a well deserved punch right to his jaw before he could use it to say another word to upset her. His face contoured around my fist before the recoil shot him back, he obviously wasn't expecting the force behind my actions. I loved it when people underestimated me in a fight.

The still nameless guy staggered backward then looked up at me in disbelief. He lunged to throw a punch at me but I dodged it easily, stepping to the side I grabbed his arm once he was off balance and twisted it around at the joint in ways it wasn't supposed to move. Which way does an elbow bend? Whatever way I want it to. I manipulated him to the ground and held him there. He screamed when I twisted it back more. Finally, I jammed my thumb harshly at a place in the back of his skull and the skin caved in slightly, he immediately fell limp and I placed him on the ground. As much as I would have liked to torture him more, we were in a hospital and the police would eventually be involved, not much more could have been written off as self defense.

I looked up to find Kagome crying. My heart lurched. “Hold on Kagome, I'm going to get help.” Before she could protest I put my body halfway out the door. It was mid afternoon so I couldn't believe they hadn't heard the fighting.

“HEY! WE NEED SOME HELP DOWN HERE!” I yelled through the echoing hall. A male nurse and a security guard who were way down in the next wing ran for my voice.

“What's happening?! What's happened to the patient?” The nurse yelled while running.

“She's ok for now but she just got attacked by this guy. I've got him knocked out on the floor.” Once they were almost to the room I turned back to Kagome. She looked horrified by everything. Knowing they had seen which room we were in I rushed over to her bed.

“Kagome are you ok? You look pale.” I grabbed her right hand, the one he hadn't twisted, squeezing it to try and get a response out of the dazed girl.

“You...you don't know what you've done....” She stuttered.

“Kagome don't worry about that, are you ok? Are you hurt? Is your wrist ok??” She looked up at me and fresh tears ran down her cheeks.

“I want you to calm down Kagome...you can't be under stress like this with you condition.” The nurse came to my side to check her vitals quickly and found they were high, no surprise there. He coached her trying to calm her while I never released her hand. The security guard put the unconscious guy in cuffs just incase and then left him there to go get a doctor.

“A bad car accident just came through, I'm sorry we didn't get to you sooner.” The nurse explained quickly. Kagome looked like she was finally starting to settle. He took her vitals again and found them better relieved she wasn't going into shock.

She looked up at me, she had stopped crying but her eyes were still glossy. “No one has ever defended me against him.” It was barely a whisper. I didn't know what she meant but I wasn't about to ask right now either.

“Shhh...Its ok, he won't bother you again I'll make sure he doesn't bother you again.” I moved my hand from holding hers and rubbed it along her arms and shoulders. Just then the security guard returned with the doctor and a police officer finally who beckoned me to join them on the other side of the room. I refused to leave Kagome's side worried she might get upset again, the doctor consented despite me not being a relative and began the check on her. A polite cough caught my attention to find the police officer standing next to us with his notebook open.

“Miss would it be alright if I asked you some questions?” He ventured, Kagome's doctor backed away for a couple of minutes giving him a nod it was ok to precede. Kagome gulped but shook her head yes softly after a couple of minutes, the unnatural glow of the lights around her giving her hair a strange shimmer when she moved.

“How did this fight start and who is this man and your relation to him?” His pen was perched against the paper with his eyes trained on her intensely.

“His name is Kouga McNeil and he's my ex boyfriend,” her reply was shaky. The cop nodded for her to continue.

“I've had a lot of harassment problems since we broke up...he has some anger issues and thinks I cheated on him....I don't know why. I had broken contact changing my phone numbers, email, and job, everything I could. I called the cops whenever he showed up at my apartment...and they've instructed him not to do so. He came in here ranting as usual and he attacked me...that's when Inuyasha came and stopped him.” She kept her face down while she talked, he scribbled notes.

“Is this all correct sir?” His eyes flickered up to meet mine looking for any signs of us lying I guessed.

“Yes sir, I came in and he had a hold of her by the wrist, he tried to fight me, I took him to the floor and then hit a pressure point and knocked him out.” I kept eye contact with my tone level, after a pause the cop closed his notebook seeming satisfied.

“Well you did a nice job, and it was very responsible of you to only knock him out cold, most wouldn't have stayed that calm.” He made a gesture with his pen back to immobile form.

I gave a little smile. Oh jeeze, if this guy only knew my past and why I really didn't do worse...I can't afford to get arrested again I thought ironically. Knowing that was the only reason this `Kouga's' face was still in one piece.

After things began to slow down, Kouga was taken out of the room by the officer and hospital security, the nurse lingered a bit longer to make sure Kagome had calmed down enough, and after a hushed discussion with her doctor in the doorway. He told her she would have to stay in the hospital over the night again because of this incident. She just nodded looking exhausted. He gave me a smile and walked out of the room, I knew he would be back but for the moment we were alone. My hand was still laid on her shoulder protectively; removing it with a quick blush; I sat next to her running my hands through my hair. Slumping down a bit more with a sigh I looked up to Kagome.

She glanced over at me her eyes dark and confusing. Where does she go when her eyes look like that? It reminded me of someone else I once knew...

“Oh,” I suddenly remember the reason I had came. I dug into my pocket until I pulled out a note and a set of keys. “I came by because the girl at your work asked me to give you this; she couldn't make it today, too busy without you there.” She smiled like I had said something amusing and took them reading the note over.

“Everyone was really worried about you at your office...” I offered hoping it would cheery her up to change the subject a bit.

Her brown eyes peeked over the top of the paper at me, lashes flared out shadowing the tops of them. “Why were you at my office again? Just wondering...” She hesitated realizing the accusing tone but I didn't mind.

“Oh haha,” I rubbed my head sheepishly “that's right we never did this part, I'm the new bank deposit pick up guy.”

“Oh,” she giggled a bit too, “well that makes sense, I was wondering what you were doing there. I'm glad to hear you're not a client.” She lowered the paper into her lap, and I was thankful to see her smile again. I tried to keep her off what had just happened, if only to get a glimpse of her happy a little more.

“What's your job there?”

“A bit of everything I suppose, I'm an administrative assistant to one of the partners.” I gave a catcall whistle.

“That is a nice job. Impressive, so she's smart too?”

Kagome laughed, “Thanks, do I not look it? But yea, I like it all right.” She looked back down with a little sigh.

“You ok?”

“Yea...just thinking about everything...”

I nodded. Poor girl had been through a lot over the past two days, she probably misses her friends and some big house she lives in somewhere. She looked like the kind of girl that would be really popular. I wondered if she was in school, most likely, maybe even in a sorority, I didn't let myself imagine that one anymore. There was still so much mystery to her, but now wasn't the time to press for answers, she looked like it was difficult to even keep her eyes open. “Do you want me to leave?”

“No...It's nice having you here. But if you need to that's fine.” She gave a soft sigh allowing her eyes to close for a spell.

“No, I don't have anywhere to be.” It was truthful. I would rather sit here with a girl I barely knew than unpack my apartment by myself all night.

She faded back into herself and I sat quietly like a watch dog by her side waiting when she would come back to me. I didn't mind the silence except that it gave me time to think about something's I would have preferred not to. The memories the fight invoked, how much I had noticed when Kagome was afraid...she looked like a girl I once knew. Thoughts I had avoided for two years crept back up while I waited for her. I knew exactly how she felt right now. Some memories are better left forgotten.

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When I first moved to this new city I was working as a waitress in a pretty fun restaurant. It was close to school and had a bar in it that was always packed with college guys. That's how I met Kouga. He was charming and sweet and it was two weeks before class started. We went out for a couple of months breaking up right before Thanksgiving.

At first everything was great, he was wonderfully sweet and very funny. He had friends I liked and I was meeting new people because of him. He talked about me constantly telling everyone how great I was and they in turn told me how lucky I was. But once school started things changed.

Kouga's father had been one of the head alumni of fraternity on campus, so naturally he joined. His dad owned a huge law firm downtown and Kouga was his only son so he put a lot of pressure on him. He didn't mind joining the fraternity that's for sure, it had always been the plan, but once he did he started to act differently.

He got all new friends claiming his old ones were losers for not being in his frat, and that his brothers were the only ones who were his real friends. He drank constantly and said he was just setting an example for the pledges. But then there was the hazing....Kouga was horrible to them. The things they did to these boys were awful and they all stood around and bragged about it. When I said I was disgusted and left a party one night his brothers turned against me and immediately started talking shit.

Kouga became less and less of the person I had first met and loved. He didn't like my guy friends, he started bitching about them constantly, badgering me `why do you have to hang out with other guys?' All the things I had loved about him were fading. Then he started accusing me of cheating on him with my guy friends, claiming that was the only reason I wanted to hang out with them. He had himself convinced and nothing I said could change his mind. When he started screaming at me and getting more violent I couldn't take it. I told him it wasn't working, that I wanted out. I didn't love him anymore.

He freaked, screaming at me every time I brought up leaving him it ended worse and worse. It carried on for weeks with me helpless and too afraid to stand up to him anymore…I couldn't see my friends; I couldn't go out without him demanding to know where I was or accusing me. I was trapped in my relationship and couldn't seem to find a way out.

Finally I stood up to him again and again fighting for any bit of freedom I could get back, purposely pushing him to the edge and manipulating his weakness and fears. I played dirty, putting his own game back on him and pressed as many of his buttons as I could manage. Each time I came away with more bruises, woke up with longer stretches of unconsciousness until he snapped. He said it was over and I legitimately thought he was going to kill me, the sad part was by then I didn't care if he did. The last thing I saw was his face as his fingers closed around my throat crushing it like a twig. Needless to say I was honestly surprised when I woke up what had to be hours later slumped against one wall on the floor of my room.

How could I have known this was only the beginning of knowing him…

His frat brothers constantly talked about me saying they saw me screwing different people at parties. Just making up whatever they wanted and he believed every word of it. He and his friends filled up my phone with voicemails and threats, messaged me constantly on my screen name, sent me tons of emails, came to my work, and showed up at my apt until I called the cops. It was ridiculous but I just ignored them and changed everything I could to eliminate contact. It worked for awhile because Kouga's father heard about it and was furious. He backed off after that because he was scared I could damage his reputation. Whenever his friends had a chance they'd still scream names at me and spread rumors about me but I really couldn't do anything about it. People would come up to me saying “You're Kouga's ex, that easy girl that cheated on him right?” If they had the courage or they'd just stare at me if they didn't. His new girlfriends despised me because of the way he obsessed about hating me. It was all so fucked up.

I didn't really try meeting or dating new people at that school much after that. Kouga's old friends were nice and sympathized with me and tried to defend me. But Kouga was deranged and popular, not much you can do in that situation. So I just content myself to burying into schoolwork and the new job I had to get. `Maybe if enough time passed they would all forget...they'd drop out or fail and everyone would just forget.' That was the wish I'd always held onto.

I hadn't breathed a whisper of Kouga's name for two months and it was amazing. Until today that is. The scars he had put on me flared and the knot of terror had instantly formed back in my stomach. It was like being thrown into the nightmare all over again. Until he came....until Inuyasha came and saved me. He was doing a lot of that lately...I smiled to myself. But now what would happen to him? Would Kouga and his stupid pack hunt Inuyasha down until they ruined his life like mine? I couldn't let that happen to him. I was so scared he'd hate me for getting him involved. I don't know why because I didn't even know him that well, but I couldn't handle him hating me too.

“You deserve better than this,” Inuyasha was staring into space. His voice made me realize we had just both been sitting there not speaking for probably a good 20 minutes. His hands were folded under his chin and he looked deep in thought.

“Thank you,” I whispered. “I can't thank you enough for saving me again...you're making a habit out of this,” I smiled weakly and he looked up at me. “But....if you hadn't come when you did...” I wrung the blanket in my hands nervously unable to finish.

“Don't think like that. It didn't happen, and it won't again.” His voice was so steady and calm. I wanted to tell him there was so much more to the story; he couldn't possibly protect me from him all the time, that things would only get worse from here. But he was so confident...and reassuring. I wanted to believe he was right....

The nightmare of my relationship had been over and it left me shattered, it was one of the main reasons I had been living the way I had. I couldn't trust anyone again. Couldn't get close, so began my monotone existence I had known since then. I couldn't remember the last person I even hugged, or talked to on the phone just as a friend. I felt like a shell of the person I once had been.

But Inuyasha was too good to be true, and far too good for me. I sighed accepting that the thought of my life being anything more than this, was just a fantasy. All I had wanted was to move away, to find myself and be independent. Realize who I was meant to be and become a better person. To be more mature, grow up and having an amazing college experience I would never forget...how had this all gone so wrong....

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A/N: So now we know a little bit more about Kagome and how she got caught up in all this depression. I swear I'm not a Kouga hater too!!! I love Kouga but I didn't want to make an original character so Kouga just fit it. So I'm very sorry to all the Kouga fans out there. I'm just being creative don't kill me hehe. I'm not sure when I'll be able to have the next update to this story up, but check out my other stories in the meantime! Till next time.

Disclaimer: Inuyasha, Kagome, and Kouga all don't belong to me.