InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Unexpected Breaks ❯ 4. For Better or For Worse. ( Chapter 4 )

Unexpected Breaks [NC-17]

 

Disclaimer: I do not own InuYasha and give thanks to its creator Rumiko Takahashi; it's such a wonderful series.

 

This chapter contains a lemon. You have been warned.

 

4. For Better or For Worse.

 

Kagome had gone to her room right after eating her dinner alone. She showered and then put on her usual flannel pajama. She turned off her lights and waited. It was only seven in the evening but she was so nervous that she decided to go straight to bed.

 

She tried to ignore the voice in her head as it reprimanded her about her request to InuYasha. It made her feel bad about her request and how she practically begged him. She countered her conscience by saying that it was the only way.

 

She got up from her bed and looked out the window. The night was still dark as the moon had not risen yet. Also, there was no sign of him.

 

Once two hours had crawled by, Kagome gave up. She said to herself that he had decided not to come. She could feel her throat hurt as her tears threatened to emerge. When a few tear drops fell she decided that she'd better sleep.

 

After all, she thought, I am going to wake up in the middle of the night as always.

 

That was when she heard a knock in her window.

 

She turned and saw nothing. She stood up from her bed, wiped her eyes and walked towards the window. As she opened it she saw him standing outside her window. InuYasha was looking straight at her.

 

She exclaimed, “You're here!”

 

InuYasha looked like a lost puppy. He did not dare say anything.

 

She composed herself and said in a softer voice, “Come in please.”

 

She moved out of the way as he jumped in.

 

He looked at her and remained very still. He may not have said anything but the fact that he was present spoke volumes.

 

Kagome smiled and this time she let her tears flow freely. They were tears of relief and happiness. She gave a beaming smile and said in a half-whisper, “Thank you for coming.”

 

He gave a soft smile in return. He was concerned about her tears but he was glad to see her smile. He hadn't realized how long it had been since he had seen it or how much he had missed it. It became clear to him that she had been depressed for some time.

 

She closed the window. Next, she went to her nightstand to wipe her tears and to blow her nose. The Miko turned and noticed that he was still facing the wall opposite her bed. She walked in front of him and said, “There is no one here so we don't need to worry about being caught or anything like that.” She said with a blush.

 

He just looked at her in silence.

 

She then said, “I'll be in charge all right? I'll do everything from now on and you just let me. If you question anything I'll lose my nerve.”

 

He observed her with shiny eyes and gave one nod in agreement.

 

Nervously she asked, “Are you hungry? Thirsty?”

 

InuYasha's heart was beating so hard that it had him preoccupied. He wasn't sure how to answer.

 

She gave a nervous laugh and said, “Of course not. I'm sorry. I'm nervous.”

 

They both looked down and then she said, “I'm going to undress you first.”

 

He raised his eyes and saw how she reached for the tie of his red fire rat shirt.

 

She froze.

 

I can't back down now. She said to herself as she felt herself falter.

 

With restored courage she loosened the tie, pulled off his fire rat jacket and carefully draped it on her desk's chair. She did the same with his white undershirt. She took a second to admire his leanly muscled chest and abdomen. The moonlight that had risen by now, shined on him from his right side accentuating the relief of his muscles. Shadows and light played on his flawless skin making him look like a carefully carved statue.

 

She reached for the sash of his pants and untied the knot. With great care and almost reverence she placed the Tetsusaiga on the bed. He raised his eyebrows when he saw this. He had expected to have his sword placed aside.

 

She noticed him looking at the sword in wonder and answered to his unspoken question, “We don't want your demon side to appear.”

 

He looked at her and nodded in understanding.

 

She pulled the sash and he felt his pants slide to the floor. That was when she discovered that he did not wear any underwear. A fully erected penis met her unexpectedly.

 

Startled, she tried to gain composure while her cheeks flushed bright red. The last thing that she needed was to make him self-conscious.

 

She decided to focus on his smell. He was clean and smelled fresh like the forest. She could tell that he had gone to the pond and had bathed. A soft smile showed on her lips as she appreciated how he took the trouble to clean himself before coming. Gently, she guided him to step out of his collapsed trousers.

 

He observed how she blushed in all shades of red each time she removed an article of clothing. When his erection came into view her reaction was priceless. He wanted to take her right there. She looked so beautiful; he knew that she struggled to remain composed.

 

Perhaps she has forgotten how I can smell her arousal. He thought to himself.

 

She folded his trousers and carefully placed them on the seat of her chair. Kagome then had him sit on the bed making InuYasha rest against the twin bed's head board. She made sure that there were enough pillows behind him to keep him comfortable. Unbeknownst to him, she had taken extra steps to make sure that his lower back had extra support.

 

Satisfied with InuYasha's comfort she stood there to take a moment to simply look at him. He was beautiful, naked, kissed by moonlight while he sat on her twin bed. His gorgeous hair draped softly on his shoulders and chest. His haunting amber eyes looked at her with lust and concern. He was a mature man who appeared lost.

 

An involuntary, deep and shaky sigh came out of her. She was the reason why he looked that way. She had made an unfair request but he chose to accept it. He was her love and she was about to have him. And even though the sentiment was not reciprocal (or so she believed), she had long since accepted that fact.

 

Already blushing from undressing InuYasha she reached for the hem of her top flannel shirt. She could feel her face grow hotter as she slowly pulled it up until it reached her breasts. Then, in a swift movement she pulled it completely off of her top. Her breasts were revealed to him in less than a second. Unblinking, he saw the whole thing, recording the sight of her bare to his scrutiny.

 

She did not bother to fold her pajama shirt; instead, she placed it on her desk. Next, she took off her pants and underwear in one swoop. She placed them next to the rest.

 

She stood there looking at him. He noticed the contours of her body as the moonlight caressed her skin accentuating the outline of her shapely figure. He felt numb. Unable to tear his eyes off of her he swallowed once. The Hanyou's penis pulsed as he waited in anticipation.

 

As she turned to walk towards the opposite wall, InuYasha took his time to observe her bare back, fleshy ass and shapely legs.

 

She opened a drawer and took out a box. She closed it, turned and walked to her nightstand. She had brought the box of condoms that she had bought for Hojo. She opened it and showed it to him. She said, “These are condoms, they keep me from getting pregnant. I will put one on your penis.”

 

He raised his eyebrows when she said this and followed her hands as she placed the box on the night stand next to her bed. She tore one of the small packages and placed it on the night stand next to the box of condoms.

 

Next, she opened her nightstand's cabinet and took out a small bottle. This time Kagome said, “However, before you wear the condom I am going to say the spell so that my scent won't remain on you. This ointment has the needed mix of herbs for the spell to work.”

 

She approached the open receptacle to his nose so that he could smell it. The scent was not strong; he could tell that they were a combination of forest herbs. He nodded in agreement and she applied the ointment while chanting some unfamiliar words. Her body glowed fluorescent dark pink as she rubbed the lotion generously on his rippled abdomen, strong thighs, knees and shins. She raised his leg so that she could apply it behind his legs and feet. Next, she applied some on his pecks, lean but muscular arms, strong neck and handsome face.

 

To her consternation she could feel herself getting awful wet. She also felt as though she was taking advantage of him as she felt him up completely. He, on the other hand, had to close his eyes to calm his instinct as her spike of arousal kept hitting him while she applied the ointment.

 

She continued applying it to his ears, and hair. Then she stopped her movements to say, “I must put some on your penis.”

 

He swallowed and nodded. She went ahead and applied the ointment to his hard rod. He had to let out a gasp. This was followed by an audible and hard inhale of air while she continued the ministration. It took a lot in him to prevent spilling all over.

 

In turn, Kagome bit a whine. She could feel unshed tears from desire. The blush on her face was evident because she could feel how her face was stinging hot. That made matters worst for her since it made her more self-conscious about everything.

 

Once that moment of intimate contact ended they were both immobile in shock. They were both rattled and breathing hard.

 

After a few moments had passed they managed to regain composure. She said, “Could you please turn and kneel on all fours? I must apply this on your backside.”

 

He raised his eyebrows. Gah! I don't know how much of this I can withstand, he said to himself. This was unbearable.

 

He turned and kneeled on all fours.

 

She bit her lip trying to control her ignited desires as she saw him in that gorgeous position. Generously, she applied the somewhat fragrant ointment on him. While she did this she relished the fact that she was caressing his strong shoulders, shapely upper back, and lower back. As she applied the ointment on his sides she wondered if it tickled him. Then Kagome smoothed her hand on his tight ass. The lotion allowed her fingers to slide everywhere, feeling every nook and cranny of his muscular backside. She even inserted her hand inside his butt crease and under his pelvis enveloping his testicles.

 

InuYasha could not help but let out a moan as his head had to drop down in pleasure. She jumped back when she heard this. He moved his head slightly to the side to see her sober from her trance. Embarrassed, she barely managed to say, “Okay, you may sit back down.”

 

He turned to see her. She was obviously flustered and quite aroused by just fondling him with the ointment. The smell of her arousal was very strong and he found his hands reaching for the sheets underneath him. He proceeded to grab them in fists.

 

With ragged breath she did her best to get a hold of herself; her breathing was uncomfortably irregular. As she figured that her breathing would not reach normalcy she decided to apply the ointment on her body repeating the chant she said earlier.

 

Her soon to be lover could tell that her voice was shaky. He observed how her hands were trembling as she smoothed the substance on her forehead, flushed cheeks, chin, swanlike neck, ebony hair, and ears. She continued applying the ointment to her firm arms, plentiful breasts and smooth abdomen. The fact that her nipples perked at her strokes did not go unnoticed by the very observant Hanyou.

 

He appreciated how she leaned further down as she rubbed the substance on her firm thighs, knees, shins, and feet. Next, she reached for her back and her ass. He could tell that she had inserted her hand up her crease as well. Last, Kagome put some more ointment on her hand and applied it generously to her crotch.

 

By no means was any of this intended to be foreplay. Nonetheless, both of them had been deeply affected by the amazing visual and contact stimulus. InuYasha did not realize it but his breathing had been shallow while she applied the ointment on herself.

 

Kagome replaced the cap on the small container and placed it on the nightstand. Their beautiful shapely bodies glistened from the oil-like substance, accentuating their best physical attributes.

 

She picked up the packet that had the condom and tore it open. As the condom unrolled she approached it to his penis. The Miko said, “I am going to place this on your penis now.”

 

He agreed and waited.

 

She placed the condom's opening to the head of his penis and slid it down. Thanks to the ointment it was lubricated enough to make it a swift movement. She made sure that some of the condom was still at the tip to receive his sperm.

 

To her dismay she noticed that the condom was a bit loose. She looked at him and said, “You're going to have to hold the base of the condom while we do this. The ointment is making the condom slip off.”

 

He looked at his condom covered penis and approached his hand. He placed the curve between his thumb and index finger against the base of his penis to hold it in place.

 

“Sorry,” she said, “I had hoped that you wouldn't have to touch me.”

 

He was struggling not to climax from the tightness of the condom. He did not reply and waited, observant.

 

She climbed on the bed standing on it. She walked until her feet were next to his hips. InuYasha saw her pubic hair in his line of vision as she walked towards him. Next, she began to squat.

 

His free left hand grabbed onto her bed sheets tightly. Kagome then looked at the sheathed Tetsusaiga and placed it against his thigh.

 

She held onto his penis and aimed it to her entrance. She knew that she had to impale herself with a hard push because of her hymen. She looked at him and saw his beautiful face real close to hers. She lost her train of thought for a moment as she watched his lips. How she wished that she could kiss them. Then she looked up to his stunning amber eyes and said, “I may cry in pain at first but that will soon end. The blood will not be stuck to you because of the ointment, the condom and my spell. So don't worry about it.”

 

He just swallowed as he was holding his breath.

 

She then kneeled and once she had the tip of his penis directly under her she said, “On three. One, two, three!” She practically let gravity take her all the way down.

 

The sting of the tear of her hymen felt like a rip and then a slight burn. A soft moan escaped from her lips. She remained kneeling, impaled by him. As her body tried to adjust to the presence of his penis within her folds she wished that she could hug him at that very moment. Instead, she remained seated looking down waiting for the pain to cease.

 

InuYasha felt how his penis was wrapped by her soft warmth. He felt when it tore something upon entering. Her vaginal muscles held him tightly. He too wished that he could hold her and kiss away her tears. He wanted to comfort her at that very moment but he remained still, watching her.

 

It took about a minute for Kagome's deep breaths to help her overcome the pain. Once it ceased, she looked up to him. She smiled and tears began to shed again when she said, “Did I say thank you?”

 

His eyes shined all of a sudden, he smiled back and with a trembling deep voice he spoke for the first time to say, “Yes, you did.”

 

“Then I'll repeat myself. Thank you.” She said with her continued bright smile.

 

He was transported into her beauty, honesty and love. All along he was wondering if it was he who should be doing the thanking.

 

Without warning Kagome raised herself and slid back down. He saw her as she did this. She repeated the movement, another time and then continued. He could see how her breasts would move with each time she pounded him. They bounced beautifully. He wanted so much to taste those delectable breasts. She soon made him forget about his concern for her and instead he focused on the act of sex. He was disbelieving by how she had initiated it without further delay or apprehension.

 

She continued the movements. The accumulation of pleasurable tingles was evident in her groin area. She tried with all her might not to rub her upper body against his and just allow contact in the hip section. However, she could not help but revel at the thought that his hand was feeling her ass as she made love to him.

 

She raised her hands and held the weight of her breasts while he watched. The irresistible friction between them continued uninterrupted. That is, until she opened her eyes and saw him watching her with loving eyes. She stilled for a moment when she saw that.

 

She swallowed and she could feel how tears threatened to surface. She stopped and said, “Do you mind closing your eyes?”

 

He raised his eyebrows.

 

“I'm sorry. It's just until I get back to the swing of things.”

 

He did as she asked.

 

She was convinced that she was seeing things. The slight hope of him loving her would only make matters worst. No matter how perverse it all was, she was having sex with him to get on with her life and not to fall into the abyss of hope. She would not allow it.

 

The persistent intercourse continued ever so slowly. She made it a point to feel every bit of his penis through her vagina.

 

By the time InuYasha felt that Kagome was far gone in the love making he reopened his eyes and saw how she was fondling her breasts, neck, and face. He was in trance with her beauty and sexuality. A soft whine blossomed from his throat when he saw how she leaned her head back and licked her lips.

 

He continued watching her as he did the other nights. But this time he was a participant and he was up close. He seldom closed his eyes. If he did then it was just to relish the fact that he was within her folds.

 

After a while Kagome's quiet mewls began to crescendo. He hadn't heard her mewls before since she had always been silent those other nights. However, this night her sensual sounds, her closeness and her fondling herself affected him considerably.

 

Suddenly, she opened her eyes and her moans became more staccato. He could tell that she was approaching her peak. Kagome's hard pounding continued. She ensured that her nub continued rubbing against his groin in just the right angle to stimulate her.

 

InuYasha noticed how Kagome became stock still; her vaginal muscles held his penis in a tight grip and her mouth opened into an O. Next, his perceptive ears sensed her give a raspy cry as her body succumbed to orgasm. It was so potent that it gave her body violent shakes. The Hanyou could appreciate them visually and via his penis.

 

He recorded in his minds eye how beautiful and vulnerable she was at the moment of her climax. He observed her flushed cheeks and her lips when she cried in ecstasy.

 

Spent, she remained seated on his lap as she struggled against the subsequent tremors.

 

Once the shakes had subsided she looked up at him and caught him observing her lovingly. She tried to ignore the butterflies that his gaze provoked in her.

 

She smiled. He smiled back. He was still breathing in short breaths and she noticed that he had not yet ejaculated.

 

She said, “You're not done.”

 

He said nothing.

 

She then said, “Do you mind if I continue until you do?”

 

InuYasha was still in awe by how uninhibited she had been this far. He responded by shaking his head from side to side.

 

She then stood up and off of him. His penis was still straining and hard at attention.

 

She turned around and inserted herself this time giving him her back.

 

She continued the movements and he could see how her ass lifted up and down. Since she leaned slightly forward he could see everything. That is, he noticed how it looked like a mouth was sucking him whole. He closed his eyes and then opened them to see that she leaned back and arched her back to fondle her breasts. The intercourse continued while he remained sitting on her bed.

 

His stamina was incredible for she had had another orgasm but he had not.

 

Finally, she turned around again to try one more time. This time she said, “InuYasha, I think that this will be my last time since my thighs are killing me. If I could, I would continue but it is too hard on my thighs.”

 

InuYasha nodded. She realized that he had no intention of reaching his climax. She decided that she had to do something to ensure that he did. Otherwise, she was going to feel guilty knowing that he had not ejaculated.

 

She decided to look at him directly in the eye when she impaled herself with him for the third time. Kagome then said to him, “InuYasha, I have a secret to tell you.”

 

With flushed cheeks from their activity he looked at her with half lidded eyes. She was pounding on him with great vigor by now.

 

She said following her rhythm, “I once spied on you when you were masturbating.”

 

He raised his eyebrows and he felt his heart racing faster when he heard this.

 

“I decided to find you and I approached you downwind so you wouldn't smell me. There you were wadding at the edge of a pond in the moonlight. You were so beautiful.” She said this while she rode him hard, steady and fast. She could feel the crescendo of another orgasm approaching fast.

 

Her confession had taken him off guard and he soon lost it. The thought that she had spied on him in the act overwhelmed him. That was when she saw him starting to snarl and moan. She then began to let go of her reins. This time they shared the climax in unison. A mixture between a moan and growl came from InuYasha as she mewled in pleasure as well.

 

As she remained seated on his lap, the two were breathing hard and their perspiration dripped from their foreheads and chest.

 

As his penis became soft, she got off him immediately. With shaky legs she reached for her night stand. Armed with tissues she covered his penis and took out the condom. She wiped him clean.

 

Then she picked up the small receptacle with the ointment and began chanting her spell once again as she rubbed its contents all over his body once again. She did the same on herself. This proved to be torture for both of them as their bodies were highly sensitive from their release. Anywhere she touched created an influx of sensations and both would shiver in pleasure. This was even more difficult on their erogenous areas. He watched as she finished rubbing herself while chanting.

 

Finally, after she was done she sat by his side and they looked at each other pleasantly. After a moment she gave him a beaming smile to say, “I'm forever in your debt InuYasha. This is a gift that I will cherish forever. I think that I will now be able to get on with my life knowing that you belong to another.”

 

She continued, “My love for you will not change.” She paused and then said, “Nothing will change that. Believe me when I say that I will still love you even when you become Kikyo's mate.”

 

As she sat there saying these words he noticed that something within him changed. Although he wished that things were to be different, for some reason he felt good. In fact, he felt reborn, strong and confident. He felt as if he could take on the world.

 

After a few comfortable seconds of gazing at each other she said, “I will prepare the bath and wash you.”

 

Still sore from her first sexual intercourse she went to prepare the lukewarm bath. She called him in. InuYasha stood and found her next to the bath equipped with a sponge. He sat in the tub and she washed him. She washed his hair and his body completely. He let her hands soothe his body. After all he had been tense all day. He hadn't realized that he was wound up tight despite the sexual release.

 

She washed him with the traditional soaps of the feudal times so that there was no suspicion.

 

Once he was squeaky clean she invited him out and dried him. At first she did not realize this but she had been bathing and drying him lovingly and with care. When she became conscious about her actions she decided not to reprimand herself; instead she embraced them. She knew that this was probably the last time that she was ever going to do this. She made it a point to memorize everything.

 

He noticed how she did everything quietly and with love. He let himself be taken care of by her and he too recorded in his heart everything that happened that night. She wrapped a towel around his waist and dried his hair with a brush and hair drier.

 

By the time she sent him back to the bedroom she said, “Please don't put your clothes on. I want to do it. But I have to wash myself first.”

 

He walked in her bedroom as he heard her turn on the shower. He looked at the bed and noticed some drops of blood here and there. He also noticed a small towel covered in blood. She must have cleaned herself before continuing after our first time. He thought to himself.

 

InuYasha felt confused. He knew that he felt invincible but at the same time he felt incomplete. He did not know why. He would have to think about it. Then he said to himself, Perhaps, I never fantasized our first time without calling her my mate afterwards.

 

It was evident; despite everything he still wished that they were mates especially after making love with her.

 

The sound of the bathroom door closing shut brought him back from his reverie. She found him standing next to the bed thinking. She was wearing her bathrobe and her hair was humid and up in a bun. He had seen her hair like that on the occasional spy sessions when she bathed in the feudal era. He liked it.

 

She approached him and gently pulled the towel off of him. It felt so natural to pull the towel so confidently but they both blushed. Such steps were after all something a couple would do. They both knew that they weren't a couple.

 

She smoothed the towel along his body one more time to dry any remaining moisture. One by one she put on his clothes starting with his pants. She still could not get over the fact that he wore no underwear. Then she put on his undershirt. She tied the Tetsusaiga to his pant's sash. Finally, she put on his fire rat top. She even smoothed it on his chest and arms before she was finally finished.

 

She stood back, smiled and said, “There, handsome as ever.”

 

He raised his eyebrows and looked at her amazed at her softness and openness.

 

Then she said, “Now I can go on with my life knowing that I had this with you. I think that I am set and I will be able to handle anything. I think that I can even handle the day that you and Kikyo are together.”

 

She choked a bit when she said, “I know that I am repeating myself but thank you over and over again. This is the best gift you could have ever given to me.”

 

He felt a knot on his throat and was unable to say anything. He was as mute as he had been most of the night.

 

He then turned to the window opened it and stood still. He wanted to say something but he couldn't. He simply couldn't.

 

She said, “It's all right, you don't need to tell me anything.”

 

He looked at her longingly. Then he stepped out and jumped off the roof. He stood still on the garden as she closed the window. His heightened sense of hearing could hear as she started to cry again but he also heard soft laughter. She was happy and sad all at once.

 

He began to walk towards the well.

 

As he reached the other side he remained sitting against the edge of the well deep in thought. Things were working in his mind and heart. He knew that he had changed. He wasn't the old InuYasha anymore. He felt stronger, he felt armed with something new and he did not know exactly what that was.

 

He then noticed Kikyo's floating soul catchers in the distance. She was in the vicinity. That meant that she was looking for him.

 

He pushed himself away from the well and walked in her direction.

 

A.N. I am submitting this chapter although it could use a good editor. But I wanted to show my appreciation to LadyCash, CatLover260, little white kitsune, and musicmuse18 for your comments. Also, thanks foryourwords of sympathy.

 

I don't know if I'll be able to be as quick for the other chapters so thanks for your continued patience.

 

Another thing, thanks appelcline for your comments back in 2006. I do appreciate them.

 

Best, Q.S.