Naruto Fan Fiction ❯ Bringing Life to the Fox ❯ Three: Never to Forget, Always to Regret ( Chapter 3 )
[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]
By: Xander B 
Anime/Manga: Naruto Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Angst / Romance / Drama | Type: Yaoi | Uploaded On: 04.27.2009 | Pages: 3 | Words: 3.6K | Visits: 319 | Status: Completed
Anime/Manga: Naruto Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Angst / Romance / Drama | Type: Yaoi | Uploaded On: 04.27.2009 | Pages: 3 | Words: 3.6K | Visits: 319 | Status: Completed
Bringing Life to the Fox
Three: Never to Forget, Always to Regret
Pairings: Sasuke/Naruto, Sai/Naruto
Warnings: Lemon, yaoi, swearing, angst, violence, some oocness, waff, etc. I'm not saying it again, you should know by now what this story entails. -__- If you don't know by now, then there is no help for you.
~lyrics~ Song is called 'Another Heart Calls' by The All-American Rejects featuring The Pierces.
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~Do you remember when we didn't care
We were just two kids that took the moment when it was there
Do you remember you at all
Another heart calls ~
(Naruto)
Sasuke looked as if I'd punched him. His mouth moved as if he might say something, but nothing came out as he stood there in front of me. I could feel the tears lingering in my eyes, burning behind my eyelashes and I wanted to swipe at them, but I didn't, just standing stock still and watching him. Finally he managed to reply.
“Naruto, I–I was young then, we both were. We didn't know better. I didn't know better. We were just kids. I was just a kid and I was all alone and you were there. You were my best friend, the only one I could trust, the only one who understood. You remember don't you?”
I shook my head, scoffing. “Of course I remember Sasuke. I remember loving you, letting you in, letting myself believe that we could be together, that I would never have to be alone again and then you left me. You just walked away. You didn't even think to bring me along with you.”
He closed his eyes, breathing in deeply before he spoke again. “I couldn't. I had to do it on my own. I was-”
“Of course you had to do it on your own, just like everything else. Well maybe you should learn to fuck yourself too, then you wouldn't be so hard-pressed to have me back!” I shouted. He was so selfish, so completely self-centered. Even now, he couldn't think of anyone but himself. I hated him for it. And at the same time I wanted him to kiss me again. His lips had been so familiar on mine.
I couldn't give into the desire though; I couldn't betray Sai that way. He had waited so long for me. He had been there for me, cared for me, loved me and he hadn't left me. At the same time my heart was screaming that I had been Sasuke's first, not Sai's. But I couldn't go back, could I? I loved Sai too. It wouldn't be fair to him if I went back to Sasuke. But was it fair to ignore my heart. I couldn't have them both, could I?
I shook my head even before the thought had a chance to seed itself into my brain. It was absurd, ludicrous. Of course I couldn't have them both. That was utter nonsense. It wouldn't be right. Besides, Sai and Sasuke despised each other. How could I expect them to agree to sharing me? It was madness. I must have been really messed up since Sasuke had returned. Maybe I was over tired...
Sasuke looked shocked at the profanity I had shouted at him. He deserved it. He was a selfish jerk after all. He had broken my heart when I was hardly old enough to understand what it meant.
~Yeah, I remember when we stole the night
We'd lie awake but dreaming
'til the sun would wash the sky
Just as soon as I see you
But didn't I, but didn't I tell you
As deep as I need you,
You wanna leave it all ~
“I remember it all Sasuke, the nights we spent staring at the stars until the sun rose, the way the lights reflected in your eyes. I remember what your arms felt like around me, the sound of your voice when you said you loved me. I remember every bit of it. I also remember when you left me for dead, you shit. You built me up, let me believe in you, in us, and then you knocked me down so hard I couldn't get back up. You have no idea how broken you left me,” I continued on bitterly, Sasuke looking to the floor guiltily.
“I didn't, I never meant to hurt you so badly Naruto. You have to believe me. I just-- I needed to know the truth. Itachi, he--” he stopped abruptly, choking on his words. So he had figured it out. He had finally found the truth. His brother hadn't been some sort of cold-blooded killer, but had really been a scapegoat for his country. I shook my head, watching him struggle with the truth of his own words. It must have been hard to deal with knowing that he had killed an innocent man, his own flesh and blood. It must have been tearing him apart.
And I should have felt pity for him, but I felt satisfied. If he had only stayed here with me, he never would have done it. He never would have went after Itachi, never would have taken his life. He could have known the truth and never killed the one person who had protected him unconditionally. It was a sick satisfaction, but I felt it regardless of its morality.
I leaned against a crumbling wall, arms across my chest and tears dried on my cheeks. I sighed. “You know Sasuke, I never understood why you needed to know so badly. But I think I understand now. Yo see, I couldn't understand you then, but I do now because, well, I needed to know why you left me, I needed to bring you back. I searched for you for years, but you were always a step ahead of me. I nearly killed myself trying to reach you, but your back was to me, always. Sai saved me from myself and from you.”
I was pinned against the wall before I knew what had happened, dust from the cracked wall shivering around us. Sharingan red eyes glared into my face, a hard forearm pressed across my chest. “Don't talk about him,” he warned dangerously.
I felt my own anger rising heatedly and I shoved him away from me. “Why not? He loves me and he'll never leave me, not like you!”
He stumbled back a few steps at my outburst. The tears were back again, trailing down my face. I wiped at them furiously, moving towards his door. I couldn't stand to be near him anymore, to see his face and hear his voice. I needed to get away from him. It was suffocating me. I fled, my feet pounding against the wet ground. When had it started raining?
~What can I do?
Say it's true
Or everything that matters breaks in two
Say it's true
I'll never ask for anyone but you
Talk to me
I'm throwing myself in front of you
This could be the last mistake
That I would ever wanna do
Yeah all I ever do is give it's time you see my point of view ~
(Sasuke)
I was in shock for several seconds after Naruto ran from my house. I couldn't leave it like that. I couldn't let him think that he had meant so little to me, so I followed after him, ignoring the rain as it pattered against my skin and clothing. It didn't matter. I ran faster than I ever had in my entire life, rounding a corner to see him on the wooden bridge leading out of the Uchiha district. I cursed as I flew towards him.
“Naruto!”
He turned to look at me and I couldn't tell if he was crying, the rain drowning out whatever tears there might have been. How many times had he cried over me? How long had he pined for me, killing himself slowly? How had I ever thought that I could justify leaving him? What had I thought I could say to make it alright?
“Why are you doing this? Let me go,” his voice was hardly more than a whisper and I had to strain to hear it over the rain. I looked down at my hands. I wasn't holding him.
I reached for him and he shied away. “Naruto please, I'll do anything. What can I do to make you see? Tell me how to make this better?”
“Let me go,” He said, eyes brimming with the promise of more tears. “If you love me like you say you do, let me free.”
I took a step back. I couldn't do that. I couldn't let him go. I couldn't let him be with someone who wasn't me. How could I?
“I–I can't,” I said softly, shaking my head, hand reaching to touch him, caress him, feel him. He moved away from my touch again, wincing as if it was painful to do so. “Do you want to be faithful to him so much that you shy away from my touch when you obviously want it?” I asked, knowing what kind of mistake I could be making by saying something like that. I didn't care.
His eyes opened wide as he looked at me, his cheeks coloring, proving my assumption correct. He did want it. His jaw clenched for a moment before he spoke. “Shut up, just shut up! Why did you have to come back here and ruin everything. I was just starting to forget you, to leave you in the past where you belong. And now you're back and ripping my new world to shreds. I gave you everything Sasuke, every part of me and you just took it like it was deserved and you never gave anything back. Nothing but empty promises and lies. And I believed them.” The sound of his sorrowed voice cracking made my heart ache and I wanted to hold him so badly that I could no longer restrain myself, thrusting myself forward and grabbing ahold of him tightly, wrapping arms around his thin, but lean form, feeling his quivering sobs, my hand burying in his soaking hair.
~Just as soon as I see you
But didn't I, but didn't I tell you
As deep as I need you,
You wanna leave it all
What can I do?
Say it's true
Or everything that matters breaks in two
Say it's true
I'll never ask for anyone but you
But I know what you want is to figure it out
And god knows I do too
What can I do?
Say it's true
I'll never ask for anyone but you~
He stiffened for several seconds. I closed my eyes, preparing for the rejection, the blow that was sure to follow, but it never came. Warm arms nearly squeezed the oxygen from me as he pulled me in tightly. It was so familiar, so real. I breathed in the scent of him and the rain, remembering the tattered shirt beneath my pillow at home. It was just the same scent.
The embrace was too much, I couldn't hold anything back anymore. I pulled his head back, crushing my mouth to his roughly, our lips sliding together wetly with the moistness of the rain. He kissed me back, tentatively at first and then with more fervor, like he was remembering.
“How could you ever forget me?” I murmured against his lips, hugging him as close as I could. I felt him moving against me, shoulders shifting and I couldn't tell if he was laughing or crying. Maybe it was both, but his lips didn't stop seeking mine, not that I minded in the slightest. I held him close as I used a transportation jutsu to teleport us back to my home.
I pulled him up the stairs towards my room, leading him into the familiar territory. We'd spent so much time here when we were young. He hissed as I nipped at his neck, pushing him against the wall before peeling off his shirt and my own. I marked him all along his chest and his neck, leaving a trail. I smiled as I looked at my handiwork, the fox already making the marks fade. I glared, moving to make more as I pushed him towards the bed.
He let me do it, breathing becoming more and more labored as I kissed him and lapped at his skin. It was so familiar, so intoxicating. Had it really been so long since we had last been together?I managed to maneuver him towards the bed and unclasp his pants before pulling them and his undergarments to the floor. He really had grown. I swallowed, staring at his now nude form as he stood bare before me. I reached to pull my own pants off, but he stopped me, unzipping them himself and letting me shimmy out of them.
He laid himself out on the bed, just like he had before, so comfortable when he was clearly nervous. I smiled at him, letting my gaze rake over him, memorizing him. He was beautiful. I crawled over him, kissing him again. A strange burning in my chest made me stop and look into his eyes.
“Say it,” I commanded softly. He stared at me for a long moment silently.
“Say it,” I repeated when he stayed silent. He closed his eyes.
“Naruto, say it.”
“I love you Sasuke.” And his eyes met mine again, showing the truth of the words. I attacked his mouth then, pouring all the pent up passion for him into it. My hands were eager as the roamed over him. I needed to feel every part of him, every piece of that silkily unblemished flesh. He moaned beneath me, legs wrapping around my hips, pulling me in.
My erection pressed dangerously close to his entrance. “Naruto?” I questioned. I didn't want to hurt him. He just watched me from under heavy lashes.
“Do it. You can't be anyone but you Sasuke and I know you.” He was thinking of our past times together. Had I ever thought of his pain then? Maybe not, but the fox made it easier for him. He never complained then. A thought struck me; was he comparing me to the other? Did it matter if he was?
I swallowed and nodded, pushing forward through the stubborn resistance. He arched against me, mouth opening with the pain of my entry. I stilled myself within him, waiting. His fingers pinched at the skin of my shoulders and biceps as he twisted his eyes shut, breathing through what discomfort I caused him.
Slowly, he relaxed against me, moving his hips experimentally. I groaned as his innards squeezed my shaft. It had been far too long since I had been inside of him. The fox was already healing whatever damage I had done and Naruto was ready for more if his movements were anything to go by. I thrust into him swiftly, pulling out and repeating it.
He moaned, arching against me and meeting my thrusts, the moisture on us turning to swerat instead of remnants of rain. I hissed when his not so blunt nails left tracks down my back. His legs tightened reflexively as he pulled me deeper into his body. I kissed him fervently, brushing sweaty hair from his brow as his cerulean eyes met mine.
“Sas–ke,” he managed to moan out huskily as his inner walls hugged my erection. I wedged a hand between us, stroking his neglected member slickly. He breathed heavily, mewling and arching as I thrust into him in time with my hand's movement on his shaft.
“Naruto, it was always you,” I breathed into his ear. He moaned loudly and I felt stickiness coat my hand as his channel rippled around my cock. I thrust deeply, releasing my own seed into him, claiming him once again. Our breathing was ragged and hot as we separated. I wiped my hand on the bedsheets before pulling him close to me, letting his head rest on my chest.
~I'm sorry
So what?
But you don't think I've said enough
I'm sorry
I don't care
You were never there
As soon as I see you
But didn't I, but didn't I tell you
As deep as I need you
You wanna leave it all
What can I do?
Say it's true
Or everything that matters breaks in two
Say it's true
I'll never ask for anyone but you
But I know what you want is to figure it out
And God knows I do too
What can I do?
Say it's true
I'll never ask for anyone but you ~
“Sasuke?”
“Hn?”
& #8220;This, we can't do this again,” he whispered softly, sadly.
I looked at him in confusion. His eyes were glassy with tears as he looked back at me.
“No,” I replied. I wouldn't let him go so easily. “I'm sorry Naruto, so sorry, but I will make this better. I promise you.”
He shook his head. “It's too late for apologies. It's years too late.”
“No, I'm sorry for leaving you. It was stupid. I know I can't ever take it back, but if I could I would. You can't just tell me that you love me and let me love you and then leave.”
He cocked his head, “Can't I though? Or are you the only one allowed to do that? Sasuke, you were never there when I needed you. Where were you when Kyuubi nearly took over? Where were you when Sai was taking your place? Where were you when I was loving you?”
“I know. I made mistakes Naruto, we all have, but I won't let you go so easily. I won't let you be with him. He can't have you,” I said seriously, vowing to myself not to allow the other raven-haired man to have my dobe. Naruto chuckled.
“In a perfect world Sasuke, all of this would work out, everything would be fine. In a perfect world, this never would have happened to start with, but this world is far from perfect and I am more than broken. The pieces don't fit anymore. The don't add up to the same picture in the end,” he spoke quietly, like if his voice was too loud, everything would break, the moment would shatter. I had no doubt that it would since my heart already appeared to be.
“I thought you were never one to look at the picture before it was finished.”
He snorted, “That was before the pieces got mixed up with the pieces of another puzzle.”
“I won't let you. You're the only thing holding me here.”
“And if you have no choice?”
“I don't care. I'll never ask for anyone but you, Naruto, no one but you.”
He sighed, sitting up, pushing my arm off of him as he stood to dress. I sat up too, watching him dressing, preparing to leave. At the door, he turned to look at me.
“That's just the problem Sasuke. I can no longer say the same. You aren't the only one in my heart anymore.”
~ I'll never ask for anyone but you...~
And then he was gone. I sat, staring at the door he had just left through, contemplating his words. He couldn't deny that he loved me, but there was also another. Could I love him at the same time? Could I share him if it meant that he would still be mine?
Would he still be mine?
TBC?
What did you all think of that? I know the lemon wasn't one of my best, but I assure you that there will be better ones. I've decided to meld a few ideas together. I thank everyone who gave me feedback. I will try my best to make sure the fic does not fall into meaningless smut and I hope you will all continue to read no matter what the outcome of the plot. Anyways, thanks again to all of my reviewers and I hope to hear from you all again. Ja for now!
Xander
Three: Never to Forget, Always to Regret
Pairings: Sasuke/Naruto, Sai/Naruto
Warnings: Lemon, yaoi, swearing, angst, violence, some oocness, waff, etc. I'm not saying it again, you should know by now what this story entails. -__- If you don't know by now, then there is no help for you.
~lyrics~ Song is called 'Another Heart Calls' by The All-American Rejects featuring The Pierces.
********************************************************* ****************************************************
~Do you remember when we didn't care
We were just two kids that took the moment when it was there
Do you remember you at all
Another heart calls ~
(Naruto)
Sasuke looked as if I'd punched him. His mouth moved as if he might say something, but nothing came out as he stood there in front of me. I could feel the tears lingering in my eyes, burning behind my eyelashes and I wanted to swipe at them, but I didn't, just standing stock still and watching him. Finally he managed to reply.
“Naruto, I–I was young then, we both were. We didn't know better. I didn't know better. We were just kids. I was just a kid and I was all alone and you were there. You were my best friend, the only one I could trust, the only one who understood. You remember don't you?”
I shook my head, scoffing. “Of course I remember Sasuke. I remember loving you, letting you in, letting myself believe that we could be together, that I would never have to be alone again and then you left me. You just walked away. You didn't even think to bring me along with you.”
He closed his eyes, breathing in deeply before he spoke again. “I couldn't. I had to do it on my own. I was-”
“Of course you had to do it on your own, just like everything else. Well maybe you should learn to fuck yourself too, then you wouldn't be so hard-pressed to have me back!” I shouted. He was so selfish, so completely self-centered. Even now, he couldn't think of anyone but himself. I hated him for it. And at the same time I wanted him to kiss me again. His lips had been so familiar on mine.
I couldn't give into the desire though; I couldn't betray Sai that way. He had waited so long for me. He had been there for me, cared for me, loved me and he hadn't left me. At the same time my heart was screaming that I had been Sasuke's first, not Sai's. But I couldn't go back, could I? I loved Sai too. It wouldn't be fair to him if I went back to Sasuke. But was it fair to ignore my heart. I couldn't have them both, could I?
I shook my head even before the thought had a chance to seed itself into my brain. It was absurd, ludicrous. Of course I couldn't have them both. That was utter nonsense. It wouldn't be right. Besides, Sai and Sasuke despised each other. How could I expect them to agree to sharing me? It was madness. I must have been really messed up since Sasuke had returned. Maybe I was over tired...
Sasuke looked shocked at the profanity I had shouted at him. He deserved it. He was a selfish jerk after all. He had broken my heart when I was hardly old enough to understand what it meant.
~Yeah, I remember when we stole the night
We'd lie awake but dreaming
'til the sun would wash the sky
Just as soon as I see you
But didn't I, but didn't I tell you
As deep as I need you,
You wanna leave it all ~
“I remember it all Sasuke, the nights we spent staring at the stars until the sun rose, the way the lights reflected in your eyes. I remember what your arms felt like around me, the sound of your voice when you said you loved me. I remember every bit of it. I also remember when you left me for dead, you shit. You built me up, let me believe in you, in us, and then you knocked me down so hard I couldn't get back up. You have no idea how broken you left me,” I continued on bitterly, Sasuke looking to the floor guiltily.
“I didn't, I never meant to hurt you so badly Naruto. You have to believe me. I just-- I needed to know the truth. Itachi, he--” he stopped abruptly, choking on his words. So he had figured it out. He had finally found the truth. His brother hadn't been some sort of cold-blooded killer, but had really been a scapegoat for his country. I shook my head, watching him struggle with the truth of his own words. It must have been hard to deal with knowing that he had killed an innocent man, his own flesh and blood. It must have been tearing him apart.
And I should have felt pity for him, but I felt satisfied. If he had only stayed here with me, he never would have done it. He never would have went after Itachi, never would have taken his life. He could have known the truth and never killed the one person who had protected him unconditionally. It was a sick satisfaction, but I felt it regardless of its morality.
I leaned against a crumbling wall, arms across my chest and tears dried on my cheeks. I sighed. “You know Sasuke, I never understood why you needed to know so badly. But I think I understand now. Yo see, I couldn't understand you then, but I do now because, well, I needed to know why you left me, I needed to bring you back. I searched for you for years, but you were always a step ahead of me. I nearly killed myself trying to reach you, but your back was to me, always. Sai saved me from myself and from you.”
I was pinned against the wall before I knew what had happened, dust from the cracked wall shivering around us. Sharingan red eyes glared into my face, a hard forearm pressed across my chest. “Don't talk about him,” he warned dangerously.
I felt my own anger rising heatedly and I shoved him away from me. “Why not? He loves me and he'll never leave me, not like you!”
He stumbled back a few steps at my outburst. The tears were back again, trailing down my face. I wiped at them furiously, moving towards his door. I couldn't stand to be near him anymore, to see his face and hear his voice. I needed to get away from him. It was suffocating me. I fled, my feet pounding against the wet ground. When had it started raining?
~What can I do?
Say it's true
Or everything that matters breaks in two
Say it's true
I'll never ask for anyone but you
Talk to me
I'm throwing myself in front of you
This could be the last mistake
That I would ever wanna do
Yeah all I ever do is give it's time you see my point of view ~
(Sasuke)
I was in shock for several seconds after Naruto ran from my house. I couldn't leave it like that. I couldn't let him think that he had meant so little to me, so I followed after him, ignoring the rain as it pattered against my skin and clothing. It didn't matter. I ran faster than I ever had in my entire life, rounding a corner to see him on the wooden bridge leading out of the Uchiha district. I cursed as I flew towards him.
“Naruto!”
He turned to look at me and I couldn't tell if he was crying, the rain drowning out whatever tears there might have been. How many times had he cried over me? How long had he pined for me, killing himself slowly? How had I ever thought that I could justify leaving him? What had I thought I could say to make it alright?
“Why are you doing this? Let me go,” his voice was hardly more than a whisper and I had to strain to hear it over the rain. I looked down at my hands. I wasn't holding him.
I reached for him and he shied away. “Naruto please, I'll do anything. What can I do to make you see? Tell me how to make this better?”
“Let me go,” He said, eyes brimming with the promise of more tears. “If you love me like you say you do, let me free.”
I took a step back. I couldn't do that. I couldn't let him go. I couldn't let him be with someone who wasn't me. How could I?
“I–I can't,” I said softly, shaking my head, hand reaching to touch him, caress him, feel him. He moved away from my touch again, wincing as if it was painful to do so. “Do you want to be faithful to him so much that you shy away from my touch when you obviously want it?” I asked, knowing what kind of mistake I could be making by saying something like that. I didn't care.
His eyes opened wide as he looked at me, his cheeks coloring, proving my assumption correct. He did want it. His jaw clenched for a moment before he spoke. “Shut up, just shut up! Why did you have to come back here and ruin everything. I was just starting to forget you, to leave you in the past where you belong. And now you're back and ripping my new world to shreds. I gave you everything Sasuke, every part of me and you just took it like it was deserved and you never gave anything back. Nothing but empty promises and lies. And I believed them.” The sound of his sorrowed voice cracking made my heart ache and I wanted to hold him so badly that I could no longer restrain myself, thrusting myself forward and grabbing ahold of him tightly, wrapping arms around his thin, but lean form, feeling his quivering sobs, my hand burying in his soaking hair.
~Just as soon as I see you
But didn't I, but didn't I tell you
As deep as I need you,
You wanna leave it all
What can I do?
Say it's true
Or everything that matters breaks in two
Say it's true
I'll never ask for anyone but you
But I know what you want is to figure it out
And god knows I do too
What can I do?
Say it's true
I'll never ask for anyone but you~
He stiffened for several seconds. I closed my eyes, preparing for the rejection, the blow that was sure to follow, but it never came. Warm arms nearly squeezed the oxygen from me as he pulled me in tightly. It was so familiar, so real. I breathed in the scent of him and the rain, remembering the tattered shirt beneath my pillow at home. It was just the same scent.
The embrace was too much, I couldn't hold anything back anymore. I pulled his head back, crushing my mouth to his roughly, our lips sliding together wetly with the moistness of the rain. He kissed me back, tentatively at first and then with more fervor, like he was remembering.
“How could you ever forget me?” I murmured against his lips, hugging him as close as I could. I felt him moving against me, shoulders shifting and I couldn't tell if he was laughing or crying. Maybe it was both, but his lips didn't stop seeking mine, not that I minded in the slightest. I held him close as I used a transportation jutsu to teleport us back to my home.
I pulled him up the stairs towards my room, leading him into the familiar territory. We'd spent so much time here when we were young. He hissed as I nipped at his neck, pushing him against the wall before peeling off his shirt and my own. I marked him all along his chest and his neck, leaving a trail. I smiled as I looked at my handiwork, the fox already making the marks fade. I glared, moving to make more as I pushed him towards the bed.
He let me do it, breathing becoming more and more labored as I kissed him and lapped at his skin. It was so familiar, so intoxicating. Had it really been so long since we had last been together?I managed to maneuver him towards the bed and unclasp his pants before pulling them and his undergarments to the floor. He really had grown. I swallowed, staring at his now nude form as he stood bare before me. I reached to pull my own pants off, but he stopped me, unzipping them himself and letting me shimmy out of them.
He laid himself out on the bed, just like he had before, so comfortable when he was clearly nervous. I smiled at him, letting my gaze rake over him, memorizing him. He was beautiful. I crawled over him, kissing him again. A strange burning in my chest made me stop and look into his eyes.
“Say it,” I commanded softly. He stared at me for a long moment silently.
“Say it,” I repeated when he stayed silent. He closed his eyes.
“Naruto, say it.”
“I love you Sasuke.” And his eyes met mine again, showing the truth of the words. I attacked his mouth then, pouring all the pent up passion for him into it. My hands were eager as the roamed over him. I needed to feel every part of him, every piece of that silkily unblemished flesh. He moaned beneath me, legs wrapping around my hips, pulling me in.
My erection pressed dangerously close to his entrance. “Naruto?” I questioned. I didn't want to hurt him. He just watched me from under heavy lashes.
“Do it. You can't be anyone but you Sasuke and I know you.” He was thinking of our past times together. Had I ever thought of his pain then? Maybe not, but the fox made it easier for him. He never complained then. A thought struck me; was he comparing me to the other? Did it matter if he was?
I swallowed and nodded, pushing forward through the stubborn resistance. He arched against me, mouth opening with the pain of my entry. I stilled myself within him, waiting. His fingers pinched at the skin of my shoulders and biceps as he twisted his eyes shut, breathing through what discomfort I caused him.
Slowly, he relaxed against me, moving his hips experimentally. I groaned as his innards squeezed my shaft. It had been far too long since I had been inside of him. The fox was already healing whatever damage I had done and Naruto was ready for more if his movements were anything to go by. I thrust into him swiftly, pulling out and repeating it.
He moaned, arching against me and meeting my thrusts, the moisture on us turning to swerat instead of remnants of rain. I hissed when his not so blunt nails left tracks down my back. His legs tightened reflexively as he pulled me deeper into his body. I kissed him fervently, brushing sweaty hair from his brow as his cerulean eyes met mine.
“Sas–ke,” he managed to moan out huskily as his inner walls hugged my erection. I wedged a hand between us, stroking his neglected member slickly. He breathed heavily, mewling and arching as I thrust into him in time with my hand's movement on his shaft.
“Naruto, it was always you,” I breathed into his ear. He moaned loudly and I felt stickiness coat my hand as his channel rippled around my cock. I thrust deeply, releasing my own seed into him, claiming him once again. Our breathing was ragged and hot as we separated. I wiped my hand on the bedsheets before pulling him close to me, letting his head rest on my chest.
~I'm sorry
So what?
But you don't think I've said enough
I'm sorry
I don't care
You were never there
As soon as I see you
But didn't I, but didn't I tell you
As deep as I need you
You wanna leave it all
What can I do?
Say it's true
Or everything that matters breaks in two
Say it's true
I'll never ask for anyone but you
But I know what you want is to figure it out
And God knows I do too
What can I do?
Say it's true
I'll never ask for anyone but you ~
“Sasuke?”
“Hn?”
& #8220;This, we can't do this again,” he whispered softly, sadly.
I looked at him in confusion. His eyes were glassy with tears as he looked back at me.
“No,” I replied. I wouldn't let him go so easily. “I'm sorry Naruto, so sorry, but I will make this better. I promise you.”
He shook his head. “It's too late for apologies. It's years too late.”
“No, I'm sorry for leaving you. It was stupid. I know I can't ever take it back, but if I could I would. You can't just tell me that you love me and let me love you and then leave.”
He cocked his head, “Can't I though? Or are you the only one allowed to do that? Sasuke, you were never there when I needed you. Where were you when Kyuubi nearly took over? Where were you when Sai was taking your place? Where were you when I was loving you?”
“I know. I made mistakes Naruto, we all have, but I won't let you go so easily. I won't let you be with him. He can't have you,” I said seriously, vowing to myself not to allow the other raven-haired man to have my dobe. Naruto chuckled.
“In a perfect world Sasuke, all of this would work out, everything would be fine. In a perfect world, this never would have happened to start with, but this world is far from perfect and I am more than broken. The pieces don't fit anymore. The don't add up to the same picture in the end,” he spoke quietly, like if his voice was too loud, everything would break, the moment would shatter. I had no doubt that it would since my heart already appeared to be.
“I thought you were never one to look at the picture before it was finished.”
He snorted, “That was before the pieces got mixed up with the pieces of another puzzle.”
“I won't let you. You're the only thing holding me here.”
“And if you have no choice?”
“I don't care. I'll never ask for anyone but you, Naruto, no one but you.”
He sighed, sitting up, pushing my arm off of him as he stood to dress. I sat up too, watching him dressing, preparing to leave. At the door, he turned to look at me.
“That's just the problem Sasuke. I can no longer say the same. You aren't the only one in my heart anymore.”
~ I'll never ask for anyone but you...~
And then he was gone. I sat, staring at the door he had just left through, contemplating his words. He couldn't deny that he loved me, but there was also another. Could I love him at the same time? Could I share him if it meant that he would still be mine?
Would he still be mine?
TBC?
What did you all think of that? I know the lemon wasn't one of my best, but I assure you that there will be better ones. I've decided to meld a few ideas together. I thank everyone who gave me feedback. I will try my best to make sure the fic does not fall into meaningless smut and I hope you will all continue to read no matter what the outcome of the plot. Anyways, thanks again to all of my reviewers and I hope to hear from you all again. Ja for now!
Xander