Naruto Fan Fiction ❯ World Collision ❯ Rememberance ( Chapter 40 )

Here you go, a REAL chapter! Anyhow, if this seems a bit more like a sad-ish chapter, it's because I've been listening to Elfen Lied music all day… And if you're familiar with that anime/manga (which is the goriest/one of the saddest things I've ever seen!) then you'd know that the music can be depressing…

 

As light streamed in through the sliding glass window the next morning, Jessica was sitting up against the ordainment less wall behind her mat. Sighing, she held her head in her hands as she watched the clock's small hands move. One would think that after traveling for so long, and especially after the event she went through, that you'd feel like you'd died and gone to heaven by getting so much time to just rest. For her though, for the first time in her life she actually wanted to travel. With her body still aching with pain after relaxing for three days, she felt as if she were to be bedridden for life! The loneliness of it all was a pain as well; both Deidara and Tobi were out. Deidara said something about buying her a cloak, and Tobi went to explore the town. Sighing, she laid her head back against the wall as she stared up at the ceiling.

 

 

“I just know something else bad is going to happen to me, something that will make me even weirder then after we lost our money! The only question now is what it might be. Will I get another phobia? Perhaps I'll get Nyctohylophobia, seeing that the thing that caused everything to go wrong this time had to do with that blasted forest! Yes, that makes sense! I got Hemophobia after I found Nick… So it would be logical if I got Nyctohylophobia because of that! Though I have a feeling that if I do get it, that it will only be because I'm thinking in my head that I'm going to get it… Oh for Pete's sake Jessica, you're talking to yourself now, that's how crazy you've become!”

 

“Hnm, you can say that again,” Deidara said as he shut door behind him as he came into the room. Turning her head with a startled look on her face, Jessica then laughed sheepishly as she rubbed the back of her head.

 

“How much of that did you hear exactly?” She asked as she looked up at the man.

 

“When you were saying something about Nyctohylophobia…Yeah,” he said he dropped a bundle of black fabric on her lap. Looking down at it, the girl then picked it up to look at. “Wear that so that you won't get a cold next time, alright Omae,” he said as he sat on a chair that was in one of the room's corners.

 

“Alright,” she said without taking her eyes off the large piece of fabric. The cloak wasn't like any of the Akatsuki cloaks, but more like what someone would think of when the word `cloak' popped in their mind. She couldn't really tell how far it came down on her without standing, but she knew it would be at least long enough to go down to her knees. Putting it around her shoulders to try it on; she tied the thick, gold strings and pulled the long hood over her head. Smiling, she then took it off and gathered it in her lap again. “Thank you, Deidara-sama; I don't know what I'd do without you anymore.” She said as she looked down at the wooden floor.

 

“I don't know what you'd do either, yeah.” He replied as he crossed his arms and leaned the chair back against the wall with two of its legs in the air. Jessica almost scolded him not to do that, since she heard school horror stories of students leaning back in their chairs and later getting paralyzed for life because they lost their balance. She decided against it though, since it would only result in her master becoming grumpy and her regretting that she let her big mouth say something about it.

 

“Deidara-sama, will you be getting into anymore fights?” She asked as she drooped her head to the side, fearing that she would see something on his face that she wouldn't like.

 

“Why do you want to know all of a sudden?” He asked as he looked at her strangely for her question.

 

“…If you do, don't underestimate people or act before you think, alright?” She replied as she slowly turned her head to look at the man who had a face of confusion. As he was about to speak again, she interrupted. “The reason why I'm asking you this… Well I've been thinking a lot, while you and Tobi-san out and about… I've thought about everything that has happened lately, including to what happened to Sasori-san… I don't know if you two were exactly `close' besides the fact that you were partners, I myself didn't find him very comfortable to be around but… It's different without him here. Tobi-san is fun in all, but Sasori-san… Wasn't he still a part of all of this? I mean, not one person cried over his death. It makes me sad to think that; knowing that no one loved him… How empty he must have felt inside… All alone in his own, dark world; I don't know how anyone could survive like that for so long. Sasori-san didn't have a funeral… He didn't have anyone to mourn for his loss… He didn't have someone to love him, someone he could trust with his heart… He must have suffered so much, and to end like that all alone? Perhaps the other Akatsuki members took care of his body, perhaps said a few good words about him… But he didn't have anyone who truly cared for him. I'm guessing that's how he became what he was… A self-centered, cold hearted man who went as far as making himself into a puppet; I think I might have heard him say something about not being able to feel pain anymore in that body when he was fighting the two women. Think about it; he went as far as making himself into a puppet to try to escape from it all! Deidara-sama, everyday I see you going about your usual things, but… I fear that you've started to become a man like him. You're not as nearly lost as Sasori-san became but… Little by little, things fall apart in one's heart… Whether it's from some sort of bitterness towards someone or something, or the feeling of being worthless… Deidara-sama, please don't underestimate things in life, like Sasori-san underestimated the two women… Because if you do something and get yourself killed, I will never forgive you! You got that?” The room was then filled with a tense silence as the two stared at one another. After a few moments, Jessica then turned her head to the side as the man then set his chair down on the ground correctly.

 

“…So you were really there when he died?” He said calmly as he gazed at the girl.

 

“I told you before that I was, didn't I? I guess I can't say I saw it all… There was so much blood that I passed out… But I saw enough of it to get the message.” She replied without returning to his alluring stare. “…I just wanted to tell you that, because I'm worried. My eyes really opened up to what's going on around me once you took that desert boy… Sasori-san died, and you almost did too; don't try to make excuses. After that we got Tobi-san in our group as Sasori-s replacement… I'm guessing everyone just gets replaced as if it didn't matter that the original was there anymore. Replacements do just what they're supposed to do; they replace the person or thing that was there before… But just how long can it go on? Just how long will it be till…? You are replaced Deidara-sama? What will happen then, huh?” Choking on her last words as tears filled her eyes; Jessica felt her master's warm fingers as he raised her face to look at him. With full seriousness in his eyes, he was now inches away from her face.

 

“Jessica, I will never be replaced; understand?” He said as she closed her eyes. After a moment, she opened them again to find herself trapped in is crystal blue eye's reflection. Nodding her head slightly, she felt his presence depart from her as she heard the door open again.

 

“I'm back,” declared Tobi as he walked into the room. Looking over at the girl with tears in her eyes and the man who just stood to his feet, he then placed his hand over his mouth. “Oh, was Tobi interrupting something?” He gasped with a hint of teasing in his voice.

 

“What took so long?” Deidara asked as he glanced back at the man,

 

“Oh, I just got caught looking at things. Oh, there's just so much to look at, even at a small town like this! I just couldn't decide where to go next each time I left a place!” He moaned in a longing voice as he walked over to the girl. “There now, don't cry Jessica-chan! I know how Deidara-Sempai can be so baring that he bores you to tears! He has no sense of humor.” He said as the girl began to giggle. Rolling his eyes, Deidara walked out on the small deck and closed the door behind him. There was a pause in the room where both Jessica and Tobi just stared blankly at the blond through the glass. “You see, that's exactly what I'm talking about!” He said in the way that didn't allow Jessica to hold anything back.

 

“Tobi-san, you may not be Sasori-san, but you do a much better job at communicating to people what you want them to know!” She said still laughing as the masked man made funny jesters with his hands and arms. “So just don't change alright? At least with you around, I can feel a little more at home.”

 

“Of course Jessica-chan,” the man said merrily. “Tobi will always be your friend!”