Neon Genesis Evangelion Fan Fiction ❯ Heaven Nor Hell ❯ Where are you ( Chapter 3 )

You all flatter me so much, I was going to discontinue but I got reviews and I thought I might write another, just to see the reaction. I hope you guys all like it though.

Well just to move on, I don't own anything from Evangelion and if you want any payment I have nothing. One of my close friends borrowed my two brain cells and hasn't returned them yet. Oh yeah everyone does realize I'm a teenager and don't know a thing about sex first handedly, right? You all know that *Why do I suddenly feel like I shouldn't be writing a NC-17 story?*

Before I start to write this is a full length non-consensual that I'm trying to write, OK? I think I'll separate it into two parts or something. I haven't had sex yet and I'm female, so yeah you get the point, forgive me if I do a bad job. I'm really red now from thinking about what I'm about to write *Douses herself with cold water and shakes her head*. Anyway, happy reading.

(Shift to Shinji's POV)

The pain pounded through my body as I shifted slightly enveloped in warmth. The blood roared in my ears and my vision blurred. I felt the cool silken caress of blankets on my naked skin; I tried to lift myself upon shaky limbs but the movement proved futile. My eyes continued to blur but I managed to make out wispy shadows that floated in a collection of chaotic gray. I heard something that sounded distinctly like laughter and then I felt cool fingers gently brush my hair from my face and comb my hair back with a light touch. I felt safe and warm, comforted by this light caress, still plagued by vague vision that taunted me with half seen shadows. With hope once more reborn from the confusion of my heart, a single name stood out from the darkness of pain, unconsciously I whispered "Kaworu . . ." Then everything changed.

The gentle fingers tightened viciously and I heard a cry of pain, it was my own. My head was wrenched back and the agony course through my body in bone shattering waves.

(Return to third POV)

Suddenly the dream like veil was torn from his mind and a desperate awareness born from intense pain, seized control over his senses. Shinji's eyes focused on the man before him. Dark hair came into view, a sharp chin and thin mouth that was now molded into an intimidating smile. Sharp shrewd eyes focused on Shinji's surprised features, the gasp of a single name was heard "Kaji".

Kaji smiled and a cruel smile alighted on his features. "My dear, dear Shinji. . .you still call for him but he is not here, he left you and even now he resides in the heavens while you simmer in the Hell Lands. Do not call to him for you belong to me now." Shinji struggled violently as the memories of his violation returned to him but with each buck and writhe he felt his body grow weaker. He felt Kaji grip his wrists and slam them above his head, before laying his upper body against Shinji's chest. Shinji choked as his breathing was constricted and the edges of his awareness dribbled dark shadows. Finally he could not even summon up the energy to lift his hands. Kaji continued to restrain him with Shinji's hands locked above his head and half of Kaji's body on top of him; Shinji realized with brutal clarity that this would end badly for him. Kaji restrained Shinji's wrists with one hand and his other hand snaked down towards Shinji's naked form. Kaji bent his fingers slightly and raked the tips of his fingers along Shinji's naked flesh. Shinji couldn't prevent a choked cry of pain from escaping his lips. The wounds that Shinji had involuntarily opened in the struggle were brought to light and Shinji was once more aware of the pain that seared through his body in violent waves of torment. The pain that was ignored in the light of Shinji's self defense, was now used against him. Kaji lightly danced his fingers along the bruises and lacerations that he himself had afflicted on the boy beneath him. Finally the pain climbed to a crescendo and Shinji's body ached upwards as a reaction to the overwhelming pain, before slumping onto the bed once more. Kaji's cruel laughter once more rang out and the grip on Shinji's wrists loosened. Seeing this as his last chance to escape, Shinji gathered the little remnants of his strength and gave out a single kick, concentrating the last vestiges of his energy into a last motion to save his being, if he missed, Shinji knew he could never escape. Kaji unprepared for such an attack was thrown back. Shinji, now free forced his body upwards and stumbled towards the door. Shinji wrenched the door open and staggered down a long hallway. The walls seemed to tilt and whirl as he ran and the hallway appeared to wind on endlessly. Shinji's mind could not comprehend his surroundings as the pain continued to climb. Finally the hallway seemed to shift and stabilized as Shinji lay eyes on a dark oak door similar to the one he has slammed shut behind him in the other room. Shinji smiled and hoped in desperation to barricade himself in, he was in no state to run, he wanted to buy himself time. Shinji ran to the door slamming into the door slightly as exhaustion rolled over him. Turning the knob with shaky fingers he turned the knob and stumble backwards to open the door. Without surveying his surroundings he flung his trembling body into the room and locked the door. A single deep mocking voice rang out in the room "Where are you running to? All paths lead to me in my Kingdom." Shinji sank to the ground, facing the door still, as cool fingers encircled his waist and dragged his limp body towards the bed. A single whisper echoed in the dimly lit room "No. . ."

FeFiFoFum- I'm sorry if I scared you but well I'm glad you like it although your not into slash.

Tentacute 2007- Yes this is my first fic and I'm really glad you think it's good because praises in reviews mean a lot to me.

Dark hope- I took your advice and the advice of the other people and wrote more. Hope you all like it.

Me- I really like the Kaworu and Shinji pairing as well.

Kami- Thank you for loving my story, it needs all the love you can provide.

Shazz no da- I'm trying for Character development in the third chapter and stopping letting your bother write reviews for you when he hasn't read it.

Madde- Sorry for traumatizing you but I told you not to read the 2nd chapter, I don't think you should read the next chapter either.

Mousie- Think you so much for loving my story. I will try to continue but I'm not a very dedicated person.

Angepegasimon- Thank you, I try to keep the characters in character but I changed Kaji's character to cruel here, I'll explain later why.

For everyone who hasn't realized yet, this is AU, here Kaworu was not destroyed so soon, he is an angel and all but he wanted to spend more time with Shinji so he has not been revealed yet. The last angel attack has not come for a year now and Shinji thinks Kaworu is him greatest friend. Also in my story Kaji had affectionate feelings for Shinji so he never sent Misato the capsule. He wanted Shinji very much and at his death it was Shinji's name he cried for although he knew that Shinji never knew and would never know of his love. In the next chapter we must find out about Kaworu and his present situation. I might even get to the lemon. Most improbable though. Probably chapter 4 until the lemon but I write by hand. I actually wanted the rapist to be Touji but as it turned out it was not. Next chapter, can Shinji escape? Will Kaworu ever remember? Can they ever meet again?

(Please don't tell the fanfiction people I'm underaged for NC-17 stories) Bye for now.