Neon Genesis Evangelion Fan Fiction ❯ Hidden Desires and Deep Passions ❯ Chapter 1

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Hidden Desires and Deep Passions

A Evangelion lemon fic by Robster80

Author notes: I've had this idea for a month now, and it's high time I put it to writing. This was inspired by the scene where Asuka and Shinji kiss (while Asuka's holding Shinji's nose, heh heh), and I'm wondering what would happen if they went much further. This does not follow the scene word for word since it's been a while since I saw that episode, so I'll be making it up as I go along.

Disclaimer: I do not own the characters, story, or title of Neon Genesis Evangelion. I'm just borrowing them.

It was a boring evening at Misato's apartment. Shinji was going over his homework on his laptop at the table while Asuka was lying on the floor nearby, reading a book. Misato had gone out on a date with Kaji, much to Asuka's dismay. She thought he was handsome, though she'd never get the chance to be his due to her age. Sure, she had gotten a ton of love letters at school, but they were from boys, not men. Boys like Shinji.

Shinji. Now there was a true boy. Sure, he was the pilot of Eva Unit 1, and had helped put away several of the previous Angels. Heck, he had to fight them on his own for a bit. Still, it didn't impress Asuka… or did it?

Asuka quietly shook her head. Stop thinking about him! You're into men, not boys! A small voice in her head told her that Shinji wasn't just any boy. Granted, he's physically weak and he fears how others think of him, but he has a strong will once he starts showing some guts at rare times. And, above all else, he was cute. Asuka liked to admit it to herself and only herself. Shinji was attractive.

If only 1) he showed more backbone, 2) I wasn't a total bitch, and 3) I didn't have to encourage him so damn much! …Why am I thinking about him again?!

Because you've fallen in love with him.

This strange voice shocked Asuka, though she physically didn't react to it. I do NOT love him!

Liar.

I'm NOT lying. I don't love him!

Then why do you think about him so much? It's not an obsession, so…

Me, love Shinji Ikari?

Glad to hear you admit it.

I DID NO SUCH THING!

You saw him nude once by accident, and that made you think he's attractive.

…Well, he does have a big penis and nice body… …for a boy…

You want him.

No!

You didn't kill him when he tried to kiss you in your sleep.

He wussed out at the last second. And it's a good thing he did!

You wanted him to kiss you, though, didn't you?

…Yes.

You love him.

I love him.

You want him.

I want…

Say it. Go ahead.

I want him… and I want him to want me…

* * *

Shinji mentally slapped himself for looking at Asuka for what had to have been the twelfth time that evening. There's nothing interesting about her, he thought. She's just lying there, in that tasteless yellow dress of hers… though it does make her look sexy… What the hell did I just think?!

Resuming his typing, Shinji tried his hardest not to look at Asuka again. He knew if he kept this up, and she caught him, she'd beat the daylights out of him and call him a pervert. I'm not attracted to her.

You are and you know it, you chicken shit.

Shinji froze. I am NOT!

You are. Have been since you first met, since you first teamed up to battle the angels. You did try to kiss her after all.

S-she was invading my personal space while she was asleep!

Yet you were tempted to kiss her.

But I didn't! She would have killed me-!

You regret not kissing her, though.

So what?

Would you like her to kiss you?

She's nothing but a hot-tempered, self-absorbed bitch!

But she is nice once she drops her guard, isn't she? She had a nice, curvy body for her age.

Shinji fought against thinking of Asuka before him, in only her lingerie or nude, but was slowly fading. …You do have a point.

You love her.

…I love her… and I wish I could tell her…

Then tell her.

And either get laughed at or my ass kicked? No way!

Be a man, Shinji Ikari! Just tell her!

Just then, Asuka stood up. "I'm bored," she said in a soft voice, which was unusual for her. She looked at Shinji. "How about you?"

Shinji closed his laptop. "Can't really concentrate." He looked at the clock. "I wonder when Misato will come home."

Asuka didn't know why, but she felt jealous at this. "Don't tell me you're into older women, are you?"

"No, it's just… well…"

Asuka stood behind him and leaned forward. "I say you are."

"Hey! Last time I checked, YOU were so into Kaji, so don't go picking on me on a similar matter!"

Ooooh, I love it when he starts showing his guts! "I think you're jealous of Kaji, am I right?"

Shinji glared at her. "That's not true! Misato and Kaji are adults, I'm just a kid, so it wouldn't matter if I were jealous or not. Besides… Misato's not my kind of girl." He froze as he felt Asuka's arms wrap around his shoulders.

"And what exactly is your type of girl?"

Shinji stood up and whirled around to face Asuka, breaking loose of her hold. "Why are you asking me all this, anyway? You don't give a damn about me. All you care about is yourself… and Kaji…" Oh, man! Why did I have to say that?!

Why did he have to say that, even though it's somewhat true? "Is that so, Ikari? Well, go fuck yourself!" Turning on her bare heel, Asuka stormed off towards her room. She fought the urge to shed a tear, or turn around and try to fix things. You blew it, bitch!

Just then, Asuka felt someone grab her arm and pull her to turn around. She saw Shinji's face just before he put his lips to her and kissed her, holding her by the arms so she couldn't move. It was a shock to both of them, but somehow felt very good to them.

I don't care what she does to me for this. A risk like this is worth taking.

He's kissing me. He's kissing me! …And it feels wonderful…

Shinji then pulled back and opened his eyes. Asuka glared at him, but for breaking off so soon. "How dare you…" she began, her teeth grit as she shook her arms free.

Saying nothing, Shinji just stood there, looking at the girl he loved. He was ready for anything Asuka would do to retaliate. What he didn't expect was for her to pull him into another kiss, much more passionate than the last. He felt something wet probing the inside of his mouth, and soon realized she had her tongue in his mouth.

Regretfully, Asuka pulled away, though it took her longer to than it did for Shinji from the first kiss. "That," she said with a smile. "Is how you kiss a person." There was some arrogance in her voice, but also some love as well. "Looks like I can beat you at something, Shinji."

Shinji then took noticed how close he was to Asuka. More precisely, how close he was to her body. It was turning him on. "I can beat you yet," he said. "With practice."

Again wrapping her arms around him, Asuka pulled Shinji closer to her, accidentally feeling something hard growing from his pants pressed against her body. She looked at him seductively. "Is that a challenge?"

The boy looked briefly to see the bed, then back at Asuka's eyes. They begged him to do this. "You want a challenge?"

"A-huh."

Trying not to be too forceful, Shinji pushed Asuka to her bed and then closed the door. There was only one light, and that was from a nearby lamp next to the bed. However, it set the mood perfectly for what was about to happen.

They remained still for about a minute, taking in the sight of each other. Shinji was standing by the door, his hard member pressing against his pants and his eyes focusing on Asuka. She was sitting up on the bed, the front of her yellow dress up enough to reveal her red panties to match the red clips in her hair. Her eyes were on his pants, thinking how much she wanted to remove them herself and for Shinji to rip her dress off.

Finally, Shinji spoke. "I want you to know… I've been attracted to you for some time now."

"Even though I'm a total bitch?"

"Even though."

"Have you thought about what I might do to you should-?"

"No, and I don't give a damn." Having said that, Shinji walked over and kissed Asuka again. Hearing her moan made him take his hands and put them on her back. His tongue rubbed against her lips before they opened. Her tongue immediately met his, trying to get back into his mouth while his tried to get into hers.

Asuka moved her hands to the front and began to undo the shirt as she and Shinji frenched. After all the buttons were undone, she pulled the shirt off him and then moved his hands under her skirt: one at either end. Shinji sneaked his fingers under the fabric of her panties to feel her skin. His left soon felt something wet coming from the front where Asuka would have balls if she were male, and every time he touched her there, Asuka would moan more. He pulled up the skirt until he had lifted the dress off of her.

His nose started to trickle blood when he saw that Asuka had no bra on. She couldn't help but laugh a little. Shinji was definitely a virgin, but the way he touched her pussy could have fooled her. "You've never seen a real pair of breasts before, have you? Never peeked at your father's porn magazines?"

This made Shinji frown. He wiped the blood away. "My father… abandoned me shortly after my mom died."

Asuka bit her lip. Shit, I touched a bad subject by accident-! Wait a second! "Your… mother?"

Shinji sat down on the bed next to her. "I was only four or five when she died. She was helping my father with some sort of new weapon. Something went wrong… and she died. Some time later, dad left me. I hated him for it. Then, he comes back saying he needed me. Needed me to pilot Eva Unit 1. No apology for leaving me, he didn't even come himself to get me. I hated him even more. I wanted to tell him to fuck off…"

His fists were clenched with anger. "…All I ever wanted… was for him to love me like mom did… like he loves Rei Ayanami…"

Not realizing what she was doing, Asuka hugged Shinji from behind. "She was pretty, wasn't she? Your mother?"

"Very pretty. Like… a true angel…"

"And kind?"

"Yes…"

Suddenly, Asuka was crying. Shinji looked at her. "Asuka?"

She spoke between quiet sobs. "I wish… my mother was kind… like yours."

Shinji turned and hugged her, not caring about the contact between their bare chests. "You know… your eyes remind me… of my mother's. They're not the right color, but… they had compassion."

The girl looked at her secret love, tears falling down her cheeks. "Do you mean it, Shinji?"

"Absolutely… Asuka-chan…"

"…<Thank you>*…"

*Spoken in German. I can't spell it, sorry

They kissed again, and as they did, they began to realize they both were topless. Shinji blindly moved his hand until the palm brushed against Asuka's breast. He cupped it in his hand, caressing it carefully. "Ai shiteru, Asuka-chan."

"And I you, Shinji." She moved her lips down his neck to his chest, licking and nibbling his flesh down to his nipple. It made him moan, and urged her to keep going. She pushed him onto his back and reached for his fly, undoing his pants. After pulling them off, she reached for his briefs. Her eyes widened a bit. "It's a bit bigger than last time I saw it."

"Last time?"

Asuka blushed. "Well, I saw you nude by accident one time, but I was quiet about it."

Shinji couldn't help but smile. "And you kept calling me a pervert."

"You are looking at me topless now, aren't you?"

"Says the German girl staring at the dick of a naked Japanese boy."

Asuka leaned forward he face inches from his. "Touché." She moved up so her panties were almost in Shinji's face. He could see that there was a small wet stain from where he guessed he had touched earlier. He reach up and began to pull them down, revealing her bald cunt to him. "Wow."

"You like what you see, ja?"

She got her answer when Shinji helped pull off the panties and began to lick her cunt. She moaned loudly, holding his head closer as he licked. Her breathing quickened as she began moaning in German. Shinji didn't totally understand what she was saying, but he knew it meant he was pleasing her.

Then, he sat up and took her into his arms before he began kissing her breasts and nipples. He felt her hands running through his dark hair and her hand on his dick, squeezing it. He looked up at her. "Should we… go further?"

Asuka looked at him. "Why not? We came this far."

Suddenly, a loud thunderclap boomed, shaking the room. Asuka held onto Shinji and he her as rain began to pour down hard outside. Then, the phone rang. Hesitantly, Shinji went out to the next room to pick it up. "Hello?"

"Shinji, it's Misato. Are you and Asuka okay?"

"Y-yeah, we're fine. Just a little shaken up by the sudden storm."

"That's why I'm calling. Kaji and I are stuck in a hotel and they say the storm is supposed to last all night. You and Asuka have the place to yourself tonight. And Shinji?"

"Yes?"

"If Asuka gives you trouble, show a little backbone, will you?" With that, Misato hung up.

Asuka waited for Shinji to come back in her room. Just then, the power went out. "Great! This gets worse just when we were in the mood!"

Shinji returned soon with a candle. "That was Misato calling earlier," he said before placing the candle on the nightstand. "She and Kaji are stuck at a hotel for the night. It's just you and I until morning or whenever this storm breaks."

Asuka smiled at this. "At least we won't get caught then should they come in. But I hope we don't have any more interruptions."

Shinji smiled. "This kind of works out better for us. I heard candlelight makes things more romantic."

Asuka held out her hand and led Shinji back into bed on top of her. "You're a hopeless romantic, aren't you?"

"Guess so."

"You won't be for long, if I have my say." She pulled him into another kiss, pressing his body against hers. She felt his dick rubbing against her body, making her long to feel it in her. As if reading her thoughts, or going by instincts from the beginning of mankind, Shinji pointed his dick at her opening and pushed in hard, tearing her hymen.

Asuka screamed as pain and pleasure hit her simultaneously. Her nails dug into Shinji's back and she bit into his shoulder. He stifled a cry of pain, but held onto her tight as he felt her pussy adjust to his invasion. Their eyes locked as Shinji lifted himself slightly.

"Please don't stop, Shinji," Asuka begged.

He kissed her again, then began to move in and out of her. The pain left both of them and pleasure took over. Asuka was moaning and panting in German again, but Shinji didn't care. He knew she loved it and wanted him to keep going, so he did. He unknowingly began to pump harder and faster into her, and she let him know she loved it by moaning louder and by nipping at his neck.

Asuka wrapped her legs around Shinji as she felt her climax approaching. When she hit her peak, she used her legs to force and trap Shinji's cock deep inside her as she cried out in orgasmic bliss. Her pussy walls clamped down and pulled at the cock, trying to get him to cum with her.

Soon Shinji let out a groan as he finally shot his hot cum into her. He collapsed onto her and they panted together in bed. Shinji rolled over so they were now side-by-side. Asuka kissed his neck and the shoulder she had bit into earlier. "I'm sorry I did that."

"That's okay. I shouldn't have gone in so fast."

She rested her head under his chin as they both pulled the covers over them. "Shinji?"

"Yeah?"

"We're going to have a hard time hiding our real feelings to the others. Still, I'm glad we did this."

"As am I." There was silence before he spoke again. "I guess I'd… better get back to my room."

"Can we stay like this? Just for a while longer? I like feeling you inside me."

Shinji smiled. "For you, Asuka-chan… I'll stay…"

"I love you, Shinji. Don't you ever forget that."

"Same to you."

Soon they fell asleep, huddled together under the covers. And in the following days, thought they acted the same as always, their love remained unchanged. And they waited patiently for the next time they could be alone together…

End

Whew! My first eva fic! Like it? Good. Hate it? Tough! R&R, please!