HIDDEN DESIRES AND DEEP PASSIONS

Part 2

By Robster80

Notes: In all honesty, I wasn't going to write this second installment to my original Eva lemon. I hadn't seen the TV series in a long time and with the releases of the two Eva movies here in the USA, I felt that any further chapters wouldn't feel quite right. If you've seen or heard of the ending of Eva, you'd understand, right?

Anyway, after deliberating the subject mentally, and seeing that 'Hidden Desires and Deep Passions' is still among the top 14 Most Read Fics at mediaminer.org, I said to myself "What the hell," and composed this 2nd chapter.

This is set after the one ep where Shinji and Eva-01 get sucked into the one Angel and he has numerous visions, 3 of which include Masato, Rei, and Asuka, all naked. If you remember that ep, you know that the end of it focused on Masato and Kaji in bed, not on Shinji dealing with what just happened.

Asuka couldn't stop pacing about the kitchen that evening. Shinji still hadn't come back yet from NERV Central, and Masato was out who-knows-where. Masato could take care of herself, since she was an adult, but Asuka was more worried about Shinji.

It was hours ago that he, in Eva-01, had been absorbed by the latest Angel. During his time inside it, he has been subjected to numerous visions, which he didn't want to talk about to anyone, not even the medics. However, Masato insisted that he be examined to make sure there was no permanent or lasting damage to him, physical and mental.

Asuka wanted to stay beside him during the examinations, but she knew she couldn't. It would ruin her image if people found out she loved Shinji. And yet, she hated herself for leaving, and also for not being able to save him from the Angel's trap.

What if he hates me now, she asked herself. What if he doesn't want anything to do with me? In school? Here at home? At NERV?

She kept asking herself this question over and over as the minutes slowly ticked away. The sun was almost down, and she was still alone in Masato's apartment. Suddenly, Asuka's tears finally came out in silent horror.

He hates me! He hates me, and he has every right to fell that way!

You're just being paranoid.

Oh shut up! If I loved him, why didn't I save him from that Angel?

These things happen. You can't save everyone, even if you're a skilled Eva pilot.

THEN WHY DIDN'T I STAY WITH HIM AND THE MEDICS?!

They wouldn't have let you, anyway. Besides, it looked like Shinji needed time alone to rest from his ordeal.

…But I'm so worried about him.

And that only proves that you still love him.

"...Shinji, please come home…"

At that moment, there was a click at the front door. Someone was unlocking it. Asuka quickly wiped away her tears and put on her mask of superiority. She didn't want Masato to know she was worried sick about Shinji, if it was her that was coming in.

"I'm home."

Asuka gasped with relief and shock. Shinji had finally returned. Her emotions getting the better of her, she ran out to the door just as Shinji had closed it and grabbed him in a fierce bear hug. Her tears soaked onto his shirt as she buried her face in his shoulder.

"You're home… you're finally home…"

Shinji remained as he was. He didn't even notice Asuka crying on him, squeezing him. He just wanted to rest after today. "Masato, I think I'll turn in early tonight."

Asuka slowly let go of him as he walked casually towards his room. She watched him until he closed the door behind him. He DOES hate me!

Now don't start THAT again! He's just exhausted after today.

HE DOES!!!! I'LL NEVER FORGIVE MYSELF!!

Covering her ears, Asuka dashed to her room and slammed the door shut. Her sobs could be heard in the whole apartment.

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Shinji couldn't remember when he had gotten back to the apartment, or how he was in his room on his futon. He was more concerned with the sobs he heard from the next room.

That's Asuka. Why is she-?

Suddenly, he heard several words between the sobs. He could make out several, but two of them stuck out the most: Shinji and sorry.

Not caring if Masato was around, Shinji left his room and went to Asuka's door. He knocked once. No answer except the sobs from inside. He knocked again. Still just sobbing. Finally, he checked the doorknob. It was unlocked, so he let himself in.

The room was dark, yet Shinji could still see Asuka lying face down in bed, crying. He quietly made his way over after shutting the door and sat down on the edge of the bed. His hand gently settled down on Asuka's shaking shoulder. "Asuka-chan? What's wrong?"

Slowly, Asuka turned to see the darkened face of her love. She was glad for the darkness, because she couldn't bear for Shinji to see her like this. Her face was stained with tears, and her eyes were red.

"Shinji… do you hate me?"

"Hate you? Why would you think I hate you?"

"Because… because of…"

"Asuka-chan, what happened today was my fault. I should have been more alert."

"But… I left you-."

"The doctors wouldn't have let you stay, even if you made up an excuse to cover up the fact that we're in love. I didn't even notice you were around anyway. After I got out of that angel, I couldn't even focus very well. All I wanted to do was get back here and get some rest."

"Then when you came home… you were just-."

"Barely self-aware."

"Shinji," Asuka cried out before she hugged him again. His arms encircled her as she once again cried on his shoulder.

"Asuka-chan. I'm sorry I worried you so much."

They remained like that, sitting in the dark, for some time. And then, it dawned on them: they were alone in the apartment, again. Now crying softly, Asuka started to trail small kisses up Shinji's neck. He smiled as he used his hands to lower the straps of her dress. "How long has it been? Since we were alone like this?"

"Far too long." Just then, Asuka pushed Shinji down on the bed so he was lying on his back. She removed her dress herself before pinning him down by the shoulders. Their eyes locked, even though Asuka was topless.

"You've done enough for today, my dear Shinji," she whispered while unbuttoning his shirt. "Tonight, I want you to relax and let me do the work."

With that, she gave him a deep, passionate kiss. They had been waiting for this moment to be together again. Months had gone by since that stormy night they had realized their love for each other with a kiss. They had gone much further than kissing that night as well, becoming true soul mates.

Shinji just laid there as Asuka trailed more kisses down his neck. His shirt was open, revealing his bare chest. He could feel her soft fingers running all over his chest while her lips made contact with the base of his neck. Although, he wasn't thrilled that Asuka was going to do all the work this time. He had been looking up several adult sites in secret and wanted to try a few things with her. And yet, he didn't mind it that much. She was right; he needed the rest after earlier that day.

Asuka continued to move her lips and tongue down Shinji's chest while she pulled his shirt off of him. She was halfway down when she started to undo his pants. Her hand slipped under his briefs until it found his hardening manhood. She had almost forgotten how soft, yet firm it felt in her hands.

Shinji watched as Asuka tugged at his pants until they came off his legs and feet, taking his boxers with them. At least, he tried to watch her, but it was getting very dark. "Asuka-chan, could we… have some light?"

Asuka stopped, her head inches from his cock. "There's a lamp behind you. Just reach back and you should find it."

Reaching back carefully, Shinji felt around for the lamp, and then for the switch. He and Asuka closed their eyes just before the lamplight came on. It only took a few seconds for their eyes to adjust from the previous darkness to the light. When Shinji opened his eyes, the first thing he saw was Asuka's lips pressing against his manhood over and over.

He continued to watch her kiss and lick up and down, and then inhaled his cock. He moaned quietly, still watching her. Asuka bobbed her head slowly up and down, taking more of him in her mouth as she did. His hand gently placed itself in her hair as he lost himself in pleasure.

"Asuka… I'm… I'm going to-!"

Hearing this, Asuka made one last, hard suck before pulling her head back a little. Using her hand to guide his aim, she made him shoot his load onto her face. Her tongue tried vainly to lick up all that it could.

It didn't feel as good as last time, Shinji realized, but it wasn't that bad. Once the sensation died down, he looked up to see his lover using her tongue and mouth to clean his spent dick while she used her fingers to wipe the cum off her face where her tongue couldn't reach. He felt a little disgusted, but since Asuka seemed to like the taste, he decided to keep quiet.

Once she finished, Asuka moved herself up and pressed her lips hard against Shinji's. her lips were salty from earlier, but he still enjoyed it. His hand, almost on instinct, gently ran down her body to her pussy where he inserted two fingers to start making her wet.

Suddenly, the bedroom door swung open and in stepped Misato. The kids took one look and her and they all froze, staring at each other. Asuka just prayed Kaji wasn't about to pop his head in, otherwise she'd never hear the end of it.

Quickly forming an idea, Shinji blurted out, "It was her idea!"

Shocked and upset, Asuka faced Shinji, who gestured for her to play along. She caught on fast, somewhat. "MY idea?! Like I'd ever give myself to a wimp like you!"

"Rape is more like it!"

"Oh yeah?!"

That's when Misato staggered forward, laughing a little before she hit the floor, out colder than a wet mackerel.

"Figures," Shinji said with a smile. "Doesn't matter where she goes out or with who, she always comes home drunk. By tomorrow, she won't remember setting foot in the apartment door."

"Is she a sound sleeper?"

The idea of continuing while Misato slept off the alcohol was tempting, but Shinji shook his head after thinking it over. "I'd rather not find out. We should get her to bed and pick up another time."

"…Your loss."

"Don't remind me."

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The next morning, Misato woke up to find Asuka eating breakfast at the table. "Asuka, I had the weirdest dream last night."

"Oh really?" Asuka asked, sounding like she didn't really care. It was all a façade, though. "You dream that spineless Shinji raped you?"

"Actually, I dreamed I came home last night and found you two in your bed together, naked. Sounds crazy, huh?"

Asuka bolted up from her seat, trying hard not to break into cold sweat. "Absurd's more like it!" She then stormed into her room, slamming the door behind her.

"Yup," Mistao said while opening a fresh beer can. "I definitely drank too much last night."

Shinji heard everything from in his room. Once he overheard Misato assuring herself it was an alcohol-induced dream, he sighed with relief.

We were lucky this time. …But what about the next time?

The End

Well, that's it for part 2. Will I be bold and make a part 3? The thought had crossed my mind, but I'd need to really think about the plot for it. After seeing the 2 Eva movies, I'm thinking of setting it after "The End of Evangelion." Haven't seen it yet? I'm warning you now, be ready for a totally weird movie. I'll say no more about that.