Neon Genesis Evangelion Fan Fiction ❯ Truth Hurts ❯ Meeting your true self. ( Chapter 2 )

Shinji awoke with a start. The mind-rending pain was gone, the only thing was that he looked around and he did not know where he was. He remembered passing out just outside the door of his apartment, but all that he saw now was blackness.

He was in the process of getting up when he was suddenly and violently pushed from behind. As he was falling his reflexes kicked in and he braced himself for the fall, it never came. He felt as though he was floating, weightless. He opened his eyes and the blackness was gone, replaced with clear nothingness, one could see for eternity. Shinji was in awe of his massive surroundings when he was pulled out of his thoughts by a cold voice,

??? "It is a nice view, isn't it?"

Shinji looked to his left and nearly jumped out of his skin as he realized he was looking at what appeared to be himself. "What the hell!?" was all Shinji could say as he took two steps back. The person that appeared to be him watched his every move with an emotionless mask that rivaled that of his bastard father. It was the person's eyes that bothered Shinji the most, this person looked like him but the eyes where those of a dead man, they did not have that gleam of life that people usually had. It scared Shinji, scared him to his very soul. The mystery person took two steps forward; Shinji took two steps back only to have the scary stranger take two steps towards him. This repeated itself several times before Shinji turned around with every intention of running from whoever that person was, but as soon as he turned to bolt he ran head on into something. As soon as his eyes came into focus he paled as he realized that it was that person that he ran into. The mystery person looked down at him with his dead eyes and sneered at Shinji, and then he spoke...

???: "Why do you run?" He asked in his cold voice.

Shinji: "Who are you, what do you want!?" Shinji was at the point of urinating himself but for some reason it never came.

???: " You truly are stupid." Shinji looked beyond confused at this point. He was totally lost.

???: " You will never figure it out so I might as well tell you, I am who you really are."

Shinji stood up and looked his "self" in the face. The cryptic way that this person was answering his question bothered him. It reminded him of his father, whom he almost hated more then himself. Shinji had enough of this; he walked up to "himself" and stared him in his dead eyes. Shinji was beyond angry, all thoughts of the days events gone from his mind, for the moment. In a voice that Gendo himself proud, Shinji spoke.

Shinji: "I have had enough of you bullshit, now tell me who you are and where am I." The other "Shinji" did not look intimidated.

???: " I have no name, and as for where you are, you are in your own mind."

Shinji: "What do you mean my mind?"

???: "Just that, your mind. You were at a state of heightened emotional and mental stress. When that happened, it made it possible to bring you here."

Shinji:"Why did you bring me here?"

??? :"I want out."

Shinji was in no way prepared for that answer. His other self moved on Shinji rapidly, grabbing him by his neck and applied enough pressure cause Shinji to start blacking out. Shinji threw his leg forward with enough force to make his attacker drop him, and Shinji fell limply to the ground, holding his bruised neck. The other Shinji quickly regained composure and once again grabbed Shinji but this time by his shirt and lifted him off of the ground, and in a voice dripping with hatred and malice, he spoke.

???:" This place has been my tomb, my prison, sense the day you were conceived." For some reason you were given control and allowed to control the body that should have been mine. I can not take your body permanently, but I will merge our beings together into a collective conciseness. But first you must agree to it."

It was with these last words that the seemingly "bad" Shinji lowered the real Shinji to the ground and released his hold on him.

Shinji looked at his evil counterpart and backed away slowly.

Shinji:" Why should I help you, why should I share my body with the likes of you?"

The other Shinji had anticipated his reluctance to share his body, and he already had a plan.

???:" I could prove useful."

Shinji:" How could you help me?"

???:" I could help you get revenge."

Shinji was a little disturbed with this answer, but as he looked at his "doppelganger" he could see nothing that would lead him to believe he was lying. With all that has happened to him, the rage that he still felt at those that have betrayed him, how could he refuse?

Shinji:" How exactly would you help me get revenge?" Shinji got the answer that he wanted to hear.

???:" By any means necessary."

Shinji thought deeply about this and it took him only ten minuets to come up with a decision.

Shinji:" I'll do it."

It was with these final words Shinji's doppelganger walked towards him and put his hands on either side of Shinji's head and stared into his eyes. With a brilliant flash of light and then total blackness, it was completed.

The sound of cars passing by, the smell of smog from the industrial sector. Even the rays of the sun shining down on his face all seemed clear now. Shinji slowly opened his eyes as he realized that he was lying on the ground. He picked himself up and dusted himself off. His thoughts went back to the weird dream that he just had, that guy that looked like him, how bizarre! Shinji slowly turned around to go back inside when the thoughts of that whore Asuka flooded his senses flooded his mind, rage, blind rage took over. Shinji was about to open the door when it hit him. He stumbled back and hit the railing of the walk way knocking over a trash bin. At that moment his elderly neighbor came out side to investigate the noise and what she found was one of the young kids that the lady from NERV lives with. He is on his knees holding his head like he was in great distress. She rushed over to him and put her hand on his shoulder.

Old woman:" Are you alright child?"

Shinji is breathing hard and quickly his breathing returns to normal, he stops shaking and he removes his hands from his head as he stands up to his full height, and looked her dead in the eyes. The old woman gasped and backed away, away from those dead eyes, so cold, so ruthless. In a voice that was just as cold he answered her.

?Shinji?:" Your concern is not necessary."