Neon Genesis Evangelion Fan Fiction ❯ Truth Hurts ❯ Blue is my favorite Color ( Chapter 5 )

As the genital voice spoke, Shinji/Jack looked up from their current position, lying on the ground. Shinji/Jack's blue eyes met the deep crimson ones of the enigmatic Rei Ayanami. Silence passed between the two beings for what seemed like forever. Her gaze never breaking eye contact with Shinji (The being that happened to be in control of the body at the time.) she asked in her trademark monotone voice.

Rei: "Shinji-kun, what are you doing on the floor?"

As she continued to stare at him, he became increasingly uncomfortable, it wasn't that he didn't like Rei; it was because he didn't know how to act around her. Around Asuka he only knew extreme fear and sadness. It was only a few hours ago that he learned that he could official add betrayal and rejection to the list. Around Misato he felt the exact opposite of what he felt for Asuka, he just felt inadequate around her, she always seemed so in control, so confident. It was how she kept house and took care of herself that made him feel like nothing more than a slave, if it wasn't for him the apartment would go to hell and Misato and Asuka would starve to death. Come to think of it, his entire life he always felt uncomfortable or intimidated around the fairer sex, all except for Rei. Around her he felt comfortable, excepted, even safe. She had proven to him time after time, that in combat she would always be there to help him, and save him. It was her smile after the defeat of the fifth angel that Shinji thinks about when life gets him down, the fact that she so willingly and thoughtlessly sacrificed herself to keep him safe. Shinji had to sort out after Asuka moved in with him.

It was Asuka's assertive attitude that originally attracted him to her. She wouldn't let anybody ever get the better of her, no matter what the cost. As time went on Asuka's true nature started to show, she would always run him down in front of people, and even beat him to display dominance. As time went on the reasons that would merit a beating became longer and longer, they ranged from; not having her lunch ready, not doing her chores, and even listing to his SDAT player to loud, he had his headphones on but she beat him anyway. As the reasons for beatings became longer, the beatings themselves became more violent. Shinji flashed back to the worst beating that he ever got from her. It was late at night, around 11:30 at night. Shinji was laying awake crying and listing to his favorite song on his SDAT when all of the sudden he felt the vibrations of the front door open and close through the thin walls of the flat. He took his headphones off and listened, he heard movement and he sat up in his bed and was about to go investigate when the door to his room flew open and in walked Asuka. From the strong smell coming from her she had been drinking, a lot. For a moment she just stood there, not moving, a glare on her face was the only indication of her true intentions for going into his room. She drunkenly made her way over to him step by drunken step. With every step she took, Shinji would scoot back, this continued until his back was against the wall. Asuka was now towering over him, and a look of anger on her face that could only be described as inhuman. At long last she spoke but the words came out slurred and slow.

Asuka: "Get your ass up Schinji!" He did as he was told, and got up but did not make eye contact. If he did she would beat him even worse.

Shinji: "Do you need something Asuka?" He asked in a voice that was full of fear.

She continued to sneer at him and out of nowhere she right hooked him in the eye, causing him to fall to fall into his defensive stance, which was where he would curl up into a little ball and cover his head with his hands (something that he did quite often since Asuka started using things besides her fists to hurt him.) and prepared himself for the next blow. Asuka knew that he would do this so she took a step back and with her right leg she put all of her weight she kicked him right in the left side of his ribs, since his arms were protecting his head there was nothing to protect his chest she aimed there, breaking four of his ribs. The shock of the blow and the force of the kick were enough to knock him off balance, causing him to fall on his side. In a daze Shinji looked up at the on assaulting him and that earned him a swift kick in the stomach, knocking the air out of him. Asuka had a complex about eye contact, to her it was a sign that Shinji was being defiant.

Asuka: "You lousy, perverted motherfucker! What gives you the right to even think that you can look me in the eye? I'll bet you were trying to look up my skirt, weren't you!? You were trying to get a look at my cunt weren't you!?"

Shinji: "NO! NO! I swear I wasn't trying to! Please don't hit me any more!"

Maybe it was the fact that he was in pain or the fact that he was begging for her to stop, but this only further fueled her anger towards him. To his pleas of mercy she responded with a fury of kicks to the stomach and punches to the face. After one or two minuets of the savagery, Asuka was out of breath and was taking a break to catch her breath. She noticed that Shinji's pleas for help and cries of pain had stopped, she kneeled down and checked his pulse, she could feel a pulse, just barely though, and to top it all off he was unconscious. She looked at his bruised and beaten body. There was blood coming out of his mouth and his nose, his face was swollen and bruised. Asuka being to drunk to care, just grabbed one of his arms and dragged him over to his bed and left him there. As she walked out of his room, she turned around to look at him. He looked dead. She closed her eyes and shook her head, her last words to him as he laid their unconscious were…

Asuka: "Next time don't be such a fucking pervert." With that said she closed his door and left him there.

It was at this moment that Shinji snapped back to reality. He realized that he was still lying on the ground, blushing intensely he collected himself and got up as to regain some dignity. He was now looking into her eyes once again, those deep pools of red that seemed to go on forever. Shinji, who was unaware that he was staring, was brought back to reality when Rei spoke again.

Rei: "Are you feeling alright, Shinji-kun?" Rei's question of his well being was the last thing on his mind. The only thing that he was thinking about was the beauty that stood before him. Shinji blushed again as he realized that she was talking to him and he had yet to answer.

Rei quickly closed the gap between them and was now inches from his face, she took her right hand and placed it gentility on his forehead. Shinji was taken aback by this action, but his body's natural reflex to shield himself and back away wasn't working. He told himself that it was because she would never hurt him that he didn't try to. In her soft voice, that contained a hint of concern for him she spoke

Rei: "Your face is red, but you don't seem to have a temperature. Are you ill?" It was at this moment of awe that Jack used the opportunity to speak to Shinji.

Jack: "You are weak for this girl, aren't you?" Shinji replied to his alter ego with the typical, hasty attempts at denial and claimed that they were just friends. Shinji could almost swear that Jack was smirking; Shinji didn't like that one bit.

Shinji was sure that Jack had gone back to listening, when he felt his right arm that had been lying limp at his side, snake it's way around the small of Ayanami's back and then it pulled her close to him mashing the two together, not hard enough to hurt her, but hard enough to get her attention. She looked into his eyes with a very uncharacteristic blush on her cheeks and was about to speak when Shinji claimed her lips in a soft kiss. Almost instantly her eyes closed as she let her self feel the sensation that she so secretly wanted to experience. Most would call her an emotionless doll, a person incapable of feeling anything for anyone. They were all right until she met Shinji. In her something changed, besides the commander he was the first person to treat her with kindness, humility. She remembered when Shinji shed tears for her; he was actually worried about her. It was at that moment that she started to fell a certain way around him, her heart would beat a lot faster and she would feel like there was something in her stomach that was flying around. The biggest thing that she noticed was that she would feel warm all over, like her body was on fire and it only happened around Shinji. These feeling really confused her, was this normal? Rei felt shinji stop kissing her and eventually pull away. She opened her eyes and what she saw puzzled her. Shinji had a look of shock on his face. What she didn't know was that there was now a heated discussion going on in Shinji's head.

Shinji: "What the fuck did you do!?"

Jack: "I didn't do anything."

Shinji: "What do you mean nothing, you kissed Rei!?

Jack: "Technically you kissed her, but it's all the same to her."

Shinji: "You asshole! She must hate me now!"

Jack: "Look in her eyes."

Shinji did as Jack asked and looked into Rei's eyes, what he saw he didn't expect, tenderness, understanding, and love. In this brief moment of confusion on Shinji's part, Rei used this time to wrap her arms around his neck and kiss him full on the lips.

Shinji being Shinji freaked out and tried to pull away from her, but her grip told him that he wasn't going anywhere. As he stumbled backwards he lost his balance and fell back, taking Rei with him, they hit the floor, Shinji lying on his back with Rei on top of him. He used this time to get out from under Rei and take off out the open automated door. Rei watched as Shinji took off down the hall and turned a corner, out of her sight. She brought her hand up and put it on her lips, the same spot where she was joined with him so briefly. She removed her hand from her lips and put both of her hands on her heart, which was beating like a drum. She closed her eyes and reflected on the kisses they shared. To her self she spoke.

Rei: "That was very pleasant, quite enjoyable. I wonder if Shinji-kun would like to do this again." The thought of kissing again made her blush; this was all so new to her, but something that she would do again.

Shinji was running as fast as he could. He was nearing the park and he was fighting the whole way with Jack.

Shinji: "I still can't believe that you kissed her!"

Jack: "Once again it was you kissed her, and I don't think she minded."

Shinji: "What do you mean she didn't mind!? You forced her to kiss you!"

Jack: "She forced another kiss on you because she does mind? That makes no sense."

It was at Jack's last comment that Shinji knew that he was right. Shinji always knew that he had a small crush on Rei, but to find out amid strange circumstances that she might like him back made him feel better than he had in along time. That kiss that he shared with Asuka was nothing in compare with the two that he had with Rei. He still had a faint blush on his face as he continued running through the park. As he exited the park he realized that he was only a few blocks from the place he dreaded more than the cockpit of the EVA, his own home. It was at that moment that a massive wave of panic and fear washed over him. The street lights were on. Normally that doesn't mean much to most people but to him in meant a server beating. Asuka expected him to be there before dark and to already have dinner ready by this time, but he went to NERV and got hung up on the way out. Shinji fell to his knees and began to hyperventilate, he was late and dinner wasn't made, Asuka will beat him when he gets home, if she is drunk she will probably kill him this time. As much as he didn't want to, he started to cry. At that moment as he continued to cry, the intense pain washed over him and he grabbed his head as the pain got even worse. Like before everything went black. As Jack opened his eyes, the same cold, dead eyes he stood up and stood still for a while. Looking around Jack slowly walked the rest of the way back the apartment. An evil smile spread across his face as he continued his way back to the place that Shinji lived.

Jack: "I'll teach that bitch a whole bunch of new games, I promises you that Shinji. She'll play tell it kills her…"