Original Stories Fan Fiction ❯ Just Another Day ❯ Volume Two, Chapter Seven: Help Me ( Chapter 7 )

Help Me

-Soon-

I can't sleep some nights. I still have the nightmares. I don't want to burden Mai-Pai with any of this. She wants me to talk to her. But I can't do it.

I lay awake in my futon. I hate nights like this. I can't sleep without nightmares. There came a knock on the door.

“Soon? Are you okay?” Mai-Pai asked. How can answer that honestly? She knows. She went through the same thing too. Is she hurting too? I can't tell. Mai-Pai probably hides it well.

“Yes,” I lied She knows otherwise. Why doesn't she say it? It would probably be better.

I turned over in my futon.

“Okay…” Mai-Pai said. “Good night. If you want to talk, just know I'm here.”

“Thank you,” I said. I heard her turn from the door. I didn't move. Why did I say that? Mai-Pai is too good to me. I don't deserve her. She's too good for this world. How did I get so lucky?

In the morning, it's the same thing. Mai-Pai, Jin, and I sat at the table. No one talks at first. Jin looks between us. He can tell that something isn't right. He didn't dare say anything. Mai-Pai kept her eyes on me.

“I met where I said last night,” she said.

“Hm?” I asked. I held the chopsticks away from my mouth.

“I'm serious,” Mai-Pai said. “I am here for you. If you need to talk, I am here. I will listen.” I lowered my eyes.

“Thank you,” I mumbled. I took a bite of rice. I noticed Jin staring at me. The cold glare in his eyes made it worse. I lowered my chopsticks.

“I'm not hungry anymore,” I said.

“Soon,” Mai-Pai said as I got up. I left the kitchen and walked to the hallway.

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I hid in the room for the rest of the morning. I don't think I can do this. I mean, I trust Mai-Pai. I love her. But it's just…

I buried my hands in my head. What is wrong with me?

I heard a knock on the door. I lifted my head.

“Yes?” I asked.

“Hey,” Jin said. Confused, I got up and opened the door. Jin stood staring at me. He had a serious look on his face.

“What is it?” I asked. He didn't even miss a beat.

“Listen,” Jin said. “Mom's been through enough already. Dad dying. The Exile. You coming back.” I blinked.

“She's worried about the Exile too?” I asked.

“Yes,” Jin said. He rubbed his forehead. “Anyway, don't make trouble for her. If the break her heart of hurt her, I will kick your ass. Do you understand?” Under normal circumstances, I would laugh if off. But I could tell he was serious. I bowed my head.

“I understand,” I said.

“Good,” Jin said. “Take good care of her.”

“I will,” I said. Jin bowed his head.

“Thank you,” he said. He closed the door behind him. I just stood, watching. Did he just give his blessing? I didn't know what to think.

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-Mai-Pai-

I will stay by him no matter what. He needs me and I need him. I love him. I didn't believe I would find it again. But here I am. I won't let him go this time. We are going to make it through this. I know we can. We can do this.

Lean on Me