Sailor Moon Fan Fiction ❯ Alone ❯ Chapter Two: Loss ( Chapter 2 )

Alone
Chapter Two: Loss

By Selenity Jade
Rated: PG13

 

Disclaimer: You know the drill. Don't own; don't sue.

 

Beta: Lynz - Thank You.

 

Pairing: Mamoru/Usagi

 

AN: 03/05/08 - Updated.

 

xxx

 

Usagi knocked on the door and patiently waited for Mamoru to answer it. Her face reflected none of the inner turmoil she felt. When the door opened, she was perfectly composed and distant.

She nodded politely to her former boyfriend. "Chiba-san, is Chibi-Usa-chan ready?"

 

He stared at her for a moment with confusion, before opening the door wider and civilly motioning her to enter. She smiled faintly and stepped into the familiar apartment, taking off her small shoes and leaving them by the door. She walked into the large living room, spotting her future daughter reading at the table. She smiled at the little girl when she looked up. "Hello, Chibi-Usa," Usagi greeted.

 

The pink-haired girl beamed happily and ran over to give her future mother a hug. "Usagi-chan!" she exclaimed. "How was the Senshi meeting?"

 

Usagi laughed suddenly. "It went a lot different than I thought it would. I shocked the Senshi speechless and told them the truth finally," she told the little girl.

 

Chibi-Usa started and looked at Usagi in surprise. "You did? Everything?"

 

The blonde nodded. "Yes. Everything. Grab your things and let's go home, okay?"

 

The young girl smiled and did as she was told, Usagi watching her. She tensed up as she sensed Mamoru coming up behind her. "Usagi?"

 

"Yes, Chiba-san?" She could almost feel his wince, holding back a giggle. That would teach him not to tear her heart out over stupid dreams.

 

"What did you mean, you told the Senshi the truth?" he asked her softly, his voice carefully devoid of emotion.

 

She sighed. "I don't think that is any of your concern any longer, Chiba-san."

 

"Would you stop calling me that!" he snapped angrily.

 

She turned to him, looking up in his dark blue eyes. Eyes that at one time brought her so much joy and now only brought pain and anguish. "Why should I? You and I are no more than strangers now. Isn't that what you wanted?"

 

He shook his head angrily. "No! Just because we aren't together doesn't make us strangers. We fight together, Usagi. Doesn't that count for something?"

 

She cocked her head, looking at him coldly. "I don't know anymore. Does it?" she asked distantly. "You're the one who doesn't trust me."

 

He blinked. "Excuse me?"

 

She turned away from him. "You heard me. You believed in me so little that you didn't even trust me with the knowledge of your dreams. Instead, you decided to break my heart, leaving me alone. Doesn't that make us less than friends?"

 

"H-how-?" he stuttered in surprise.

 

She looked over her should and glared at her love. "I am connected to you, Mamoru. A thousand of years of loving you has intertwined our destinies, and our souls. Your dreams are my dreams." She smiled down at the little girl who had just finished gathering her things. "Ready, sweetie?"

 

The pink-haired child nodded. "Yup."

 

"Good," Usagi said softly and led the girl towards the door.

 

"Usako!"

 

Usagi froze. She slowly turned to look at the man who had shown her the true meaning of pain. "You have lost the right to call me that," she told him.

 

She turned away, smiling reassuringly at the little girl and walked out of his apartment. She sighed when the door closed and picked up her future daughter, quickly making their way out of the building. "Chibi-Usa?"

 

"Yeah?"

 

"Promise me something, okay?" The child nodded as she was put on the ground again. She then took Usagi's hand and together theystarted walking home. "Promise me," she began sadly. "Promise me you'll look after Mamoru should something happen to me."

 

Chibi-Usa looked up at her young mother, her face fearful. "Mama?"

 

Usagi smiled sadly at the little girl. "Don't worry; I don't plan for something to happen. I just want to know that he'll be okay without me."

 

The pink-haired child from the future nodded. "Okay. I promise."

 

xxx

 

"Usagi-chan!" the shrill voice sounded over the little pink device. Usagi blinked and peeked out from under her blankets in confusion. "Usagi-chan!" came the call again. Usagi shot out of bed, tripping over her shoes she had left in the middle of the floor, and fumbled with her backpack. She found the communicator and pressed the blinking button.

 

"What!"

 

"Get to the Crown Arcade!" Mars voice snapped over the line.

 

Usagi nodded. "Right! On my way," she stated, clicking off the pink compact and reached for her locket, bringing it up into the air and yelling, "Moon Crystal Power, Make Up!"

 

A white light surrounded her, and a few seconds later, she appeared in her sailor fuku, complete with matching gloves, boots, and tiara. She jumped out of her bedroom window with a quick wave to the drowsy Luna and ran towards her after-school hang out.

 

When she reached the front of the Crown Arcade, she found the usual creepy Black Moon beastie. The Senshi all stood around the monster, each attacking it when the opportunity presented itself. She shook her head. Everything is routine. Come in, say speech, let the other Senshi weaken it, and then dust the stupid thing. Why does it have to be so repetitive? The Dark Forces lack creativity.

"Hey, you!" she called down to the evil being, who turned its head towards her, its dark eyes glaring. "Yeah, I'm talking to you! Can't your masters ever think of something new?"

 

The thing cocked its head at her in confusion and Sailor Moon rolled her eyes. "Never mind. I am Sailor Moon, the Champion of Justice and on behalf of the Moon, I will punish you," she stated the familiar lines dully. She brought her Moon Scepter out and called out the attack phrase, disintegrating the monster of the day. That was too easy.

 

She quickly jumped down to the waiting Senshi. "Sleep now?"

 

The girls each nodded, happy to go back home. Waving, Sailor Moon turned and started walking away. Feeling the hairs on the back of her neck stand up, she swung around to see a shadow behind Sailor Mercury. She opened her mouth to scream a warning, but the shadow suddenly grasped a hold of the blue-haired Senshi who screeched in surprise.

 

"Mercury!" Mars screamed and ran towards her, only to slam into a force field. She flew backwards, landing on the pavement hard.

 

"Mercury!" Sailor Moon stood in front of the force field. She had never felt so helpless in all her life. She brought out her Moon Scepter once more, only to be stopped by cruel laughter.

 

"I wouldn't do that if I were you, Sailor Moon," the shadow sneered and stepped into the light. The Senshi gasped in shock at the hideous man, clothed in a long cloak. His face flickered in the low lights, giving each girl the same feeling of dread and fear.

 

His face was nothing more than a skull. In one of his mummified hands, he held an unconscious Sailor Mercury. "I know how to beat you, Sailor Moon." The man laughed evilly. "It is quite easy actually. I'm surprised Beryl didn't accomplish it."

 

"Oh, really? How do you beat me then?" Sailor Moon asked with a calm she did not feel.

 

The living skeleton shook his finger at the blonde Senshi. "Tsk, tsk. You should know better by now, Sailor Moon. Never give away your plans to the enemy." The creature laughed again. "As lovely as it is to chat with you girls, I must be going now. Don't worry; I'll be seeing you soon." Then as quickly as it had appeared, the cloaked figure vanished into a black portal, carrying an unconscious Mercury with him.

 

Sailor Moon collapsed on her knees in shock and anguish. Her crystal blue eyes filled with tears and she looked up at the night sky. "Mercury," she whimpered.

 

xxx

 

Usagi stared at the floor, oblivious to the Senshi around her. Mercury was gone. After the abduction of their friend, the others had taken her home. She didn't remember the trip there or falling asleep. She vaguely remembered her future daughter trying to comfort her, talk to her, but she didn't remember what she said to the little girl or if she said anything. All she remembered was Ami's capture. And her failure.

 

She couldn't even think beyond the fact that Ami was gone. Taken by the enemy. Sweet, shy little Ami-chan. The brains behind the Senshi. Captured. For what purpose? How could those bastards take the least threatening of them all? And what was worse, Usagi didn't prevent it. She failed to save her friend, her comrade.

 

"Usagi?"

 

She blinked. That voice sounded familiar. But he wouldn't have come. He wanted to pretend that she didn't matter to him. He wanted to show he didn't care about her.

 

"Usako."

 

She frowned and looked up from the grass, her deep blue eyes meeting midnight ones. She blinked. "Mamo-chan?" she whispered.

 

"Yes, Usako," he murmured..

 

"What are you doing here?" she asked confused. He didn't want her anymore. He didn't care.

 

"Chibi-Usa told me what happened," he told her.

 

Her brow furrowed. "That still doesn't explain what you're doing here? You hate me," she muttered, although she knew he didn't, but... unable to stop feeling as though he did.

 

His eyes softened. "No, Usako. I could never hate you."

 

"Don't call me that!" she cried, standing up suddenly. She had to get away from him. He only brought pain. More pain than she had already. She was stopped from her flight by his hand on her arm.

 

"Let go! You don't care! You never trusted me or believed in me and I don't want to hear how big of a failure I am right now! I know I failed her! I know I'm a horrible fighter! I wasn't supposed to be a fighter. I was never supposed to fight!" she screamed at him, tears streaming down her cheeks, beating her tiny fists on his chest. "I know I'm worthless! I don't need you to tell me!"

 

"Usako!" He wrapped his arms around the struggling girl, holding her tightly to his chest. "You aren't worthless, Usako," he murmured into hair, gently rubbing her back. "You have never been worthless. You didn't fail, Usako. You did everything just perfect and I know we'll get her back."

 

She collapsed against his chest, sobbing. "Leave me alone," she wept. "Please, just leave me alone!"

 

He sighed softly, still crushing her small body to his. "No, Usako," he whispered. "Cry. Let it out and then we, all of us, will figure out what to do next. For now, just cry."

 

"You don't understand!" she exclaimed, bashing her tiny fists against him again. "I'm stronger than all of them! I should have been able to save her! I should have-"

 

"Enough," he scolded tenderly. "Enough with the guilt. It wasn't your fault, Usako. It wasn't your fault!"

 

"How do you know? You weren't even there!"

 

He kissed her temple softly, sighing into her hair. "Usako, I know because I know you. You did everything you could and you will get her back. We will get her back," he reassured. "You will win as you always do, Usako. I believe in you."

 

She wrestled away from his strong embrace angrily. "Why now, Mamoru? Why do you believe in me now when you didn't believe in me enough to tell me about your dreams?" she demanded angrily.

 

She glared at the dark-haired man, putting all of her anger and pain into that one look, letting him know just how much he destroyed her. "Leave me alone, Mamoru. I don't need your lies." She turned and ran away from the man she loved, tears coursing down her cheeks. I hate you, Mamo-chan!

 

xxx

 

"No!" Usagi screamed, sitting straight up in bed. She clutched her chest and tried to control her gasps. She kept replaying Mercury's capture repeatedly, each time more painful than the last. It didn't help that the man who had taken her was nothing short of a living skeleton. She was positive his face would haunt her for years. She curled up tighter in her blankets, leaning against the wall.

 

"Usagi-chan?"

 

"Yeah, Luna?"

 

"Can't sleep?" the little feline asked softly as she jumped onto her princess' bed.

 

Usagi shook her head slightly, her eyes filling with tears. "Luna? Why do I have so much power when I can't even use it to save my friends?" the young woman asked quietly.

 

Luna looked up at her hurting Princess sadly. "I don't know, Usagi-chan. I just don't know."

 

xxx

 

AN: (sigh) I still dislike the beginning of this fic.

 

Lovies!