Sailor Moon Fan Fiction ❯ Is There A Written Path To Love? ❯ Wise decision? ( Chapter 5 )
[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]
By: Blue Dreamer 
Serena's finally come to a decision. Who is going to suffer from this?
Anime/Manga: Sailor Moon Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance | Type: Continuation | Uploaded On: 08.29.2001 | Updated On: 08.29.2001 | Pages: 3 | Words: 2.3K | Visits: 788 | Status: Completed
Serena's finally come to a decision. Who is going to suffer from this?
Anime/Manga: Sailor Moon Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance | Type: Continuation | Uploaded On: 08.29.2001 | Updated On: 08.29.2001 | Pages: 3 | Words: 2.3K | Visits: 788 | Status: Completed
Is There A Written Path To Love
By Blue Dreamer
Standard disclaimer, you know I don't own Sailor Moon, and all that other stuff, now
on with the story.
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- "..." indicated when there is a dialogue
- '...' indicated what the person is thinking
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-"Sey a, please just listen to me without stopping me" she said. Indeed during class she had time to think ... and after visualising all the solutions and scenarios offered to her... she opted for one of them. She knew she had to sort things with Darien and Seya...
*~*~ Chapter four: Wise decision? ~*~*
At the school rooftop
-"Ok Serena, tell me what's on your mind right now" Seya said
-"Seya, it's quite a long story... but you deserve to know the truth." She started. "You know that Darien and my brother were best of friends..."
-"Yeah so?..."
-"Seya, stop interrupting please!"
-"Sorry"
-"It's ok. Where was I? Darien was all the time at home as his parents were travelling. I virtually grew up with Darien and realised my feelings for him. The night before his departure we... told our feelings out and we..."
-"You had sex with THAT GUY!" Seya almost freaked out
-"Yes! My family got to know, and they took it badly..
-"Naturally...he is so..."
-"Seya, will you stop that, please... they found out because I got pregnant"
-"Yeah right Serena, stop joking, I haven't seen any big stomach or a baby anywhere near..."
-"That's because my father forced me into an abortion" Serena was now letting her tears roll down her cheeks, not caring to wipe them off.
Seya was taken aback. His girlfriend had been pregnant? With the other guy?
-"And now what are you going to do" could only ask Seya
-"Darien needs to know" said Serena simply
-"What do you hope by telling him that, are you only hoping that he will leave Katarina and come back to you? You'll probably destroy his relationship with Katarina, is that what you what? If you do like, no, love him, you should let him have a chance to be happy"
-"Darien needs to know, it was HIS child as well as mine"
-"What about us?"
-"Us? Can you still think of us that way? I like you Seya, I probably love you, but I must be honest...Darien... is the person I love more than anyone... It would be unfair for me not to tell you. I truly understood this yesterday, when I saw him. Darien and I may never get together, I might end up being alone, but, it's better that way...I prefer to be honest with you Seya, I'm sorry"
-"So this is how it's going to finish?" asked Seya, "Obviously...it's a silly question...I must leave then...Well... see you ...at...the concert tonight"
With that Seya left quickly leaving Serena more desperate than ever. She hoped he understood her feelings and that he would not be too harsh on her. She decided to go and see Darien, leaving school earlier than scheduled.
~*~*~*~
At the Shield household
Serena was at the entrance and rang the doorbell. To her surprised she was greeted by Mrs Shield who was rather surprised to see Serena.
-"Hello Rena, how are you? It's been a long time"
-"Hello Cassandra, it's nice to see you after all this time. When did you get back?"
-"Actually we just got back with Daniel. As soon as Darien phoned us about the marriage."
-"The marriage?"
-"Yes, I'm so happy, I'll be a grandmother soon as well, that so fantastic" said Mrs Shield excited not realising Serena's look of dispair
-"Er... could I see Darien please?"
-"Oh sure dear... come in"
-"Thanks"
-"Darien, Serena's come to see you" shouted Mrs Shield
As Darien came out of his room, he was followed by Katarina. She was not quite happy to see him, especially as she knew what had happened between her boyfriend and this girl. She however managed a smile and greeted politely Serena.
-"Hey Meatball Head!" Darien started
-"Darien, I need to talk to you", said Serena wanting to get right to the point "Privately"
-"There is nothing Darien would hide from me" interfered Katarina
-"I am sorry to insist, this is important" Serena said to Katarina and then turned to Darien "How about going outside in the park?"
-"Well" started Darien uneasy "if you really think it's urgent"
-"Yes it is"
-"Fine then" Darien said. "Katy, I won't be too long"
Darien left with Serena, leaving Katarina on pins. She was wondering what to think of this situation and decided to call Seya as the latter had given her his number
-"Are you Seya?" she started
-"Yeah, hey Kat how are you? Seya tried to sound enthusiastic
-"I don't really know...Serena came here and just took Darien...and..."
-"I know...it's complicated... but I cannot tell you anything. It's between them"
-"But I'm Darien's girlfriend, now, why is Serena going after him?"
-"Love" said Seya bitterly
-"You'll broke up?"
-"Yes, about an hour ago"
-"I'm scared. I don't want to loose him..."
-"I know. Listen, I got to go now, my classes are about to begin"
-"Yes, I'm sorry for disturbing you"
-"Not at all.. anyway... I'll see you tonight"
-"Yes tonight...thanks"
-"Bye"
-"Bye"
~*~*~*~
At the park a little away
-"What's the matter Meat..."
-"Stop calling me that, it irritates me more than anything Darien, you should know that by now"
-"I'm sorry" said Darien realising she did not seem at ease "Why did you make me come here"
-"Darien, I.." Serena could not tell him like that... her eyes teary looked away from him...
-"Rena...what's wrong, please tell me" Darien asked worried about her "Rena, please look at me, Sere..."
-"I haven't heard that nickname for ages now" Serena said slowly "I...Oh Darien... it's so hard to cope"
-"You heard about our marriage, is it about that?, or about the baby?"
-"I...heard...about those" she said... "but..."
-"You should be happy for me then without trying to break thinks with Katarina"
-"Don't be so cruel" snapped back Serena angrily "It's just that"
-"Rena, try and understand, I'm now with a nice young woman whose pregnant with my first child"
-"Are you sure about that?" said a whining Serena, "Are you that sure?"
-"Sure of what? That it is my child? There is no doubt about that" said Darien angrily. He then understood what she meant "Rena, are you telling me..."
-"Darien, if you know...I ..."
-"You were pregnant?, I'm already a father, oh my gosh, that's ...well...why did you not tell me? Where is he? Or she? Tell me Rena, why haven't you already showed me?"
-"Hold it will you"
-"No, I would like to see ..."
-"...there is nothing to see Darien...I...my father...forced me into an abortion Darien"
-"What?" Darien was shocked as he did not expect that
-"I did ...did not...but...he...and ...and..."
-"Oh Sere", Darien said taking her in his arms "I'm so sorry...I did not know, I was not with you...I..."Darien was fighting against his tears.
They both just stayed there hugging each other for moral support. Katarina, who could not wait any longer at home went outside and to the park where he saw her boyfriend and his ex-girlfriend together.
-"Sere, what are you going to do now?" Darien asked
-"Do you love her?" Serena asked back
-"Well...there is the baby and I want my child to have a family, and..."
Katarina silently left and ran back to Darien's place, too shocked to do or say anything.
-"Darien, I understand, or at least, I will try to cope with that. I love you, you know that don't you?"
-"Sere, I love you a lot as well...but... Katarina...well"
-"You should return to Katarina now...she might be worried" Serena said abruptly
-"Sere, I want to make sure you're all right"
-"I'm fine" Serena said "I've got to go now. I wish all the best for you and Katarina" Serena ran away from Darien, away from her only love.
Darien could only let her go. He decided to return to Katarina. As she saw him, she was bitter as she heard Darien saying he was with her because of the baby. After a few explanations Katarina was reassured.
-"Katy, I love you, no matter what you may think" he said
-"More than Serena?" she enquired
-"Katy...I"
-"Don't say anything Darien, I don't want any explanations...you're here, that is all that matters to me" she said a little heartbroken but quickly added maliciously "Darien, I want you to make love to me."
Darien kissed her, a kiss full of passion and tenderness, a kiss asking for forgiveness and love. Katarina return the kiss and wanted more. Her tongue parted Darien's lips to reach his tongue. Her hands went under his shirt and removed it. Darien's hands travelled as well and went to her firm buttocks. Katarina managed to remove his pants and Darien carried her carefully on the bed and placed himself next to her. Katarina after a few kisses and caresses was on top of Darien.
Their lovemaking was like an insurance for Katarina, as she felt as though she had nothing to worry about, that Darien would be with her no matter what. She knew Darien loved Serena more than her but she was ready to sacrifice her pride for the sake of her family.
As for Darien, he was sure to have made the right choice even though this was not easy to assume.
~*~*~*~
Meanwhile somewhere in the streets
'Darien, my one and only love. What is the meaning of love if I cannot be with you?' Serena was at a total loss. She was so absorbed that she did not see a car coming and nearly knocking her down. She just went home and into the room.
'Tonight, I'll leave... I cannot stay here any longer' Serena then decided to write a few letters to her friends and family explaining and thanking. The first one was for her parents
Dear Mom and Dad,
I know what I'm about to do will leave you both sad, but please try to understand and forgive me. Life here is unbearable. I cannot take it any longer. This is not about you but about me. I don't want you to cry but please take care of you.
With all my love
Your Daughter Serena
The second one was for her brother
Drew,
I know you may be angry and hurt after you read this letter, but I wanted you to know how much I loved you and cared about you. I want you to take care of Mum and Dad and to make them understand my situation. I'm sorry to leave you alone here, but, please, don't take any judgements on my actions
Your ever loving sister Serena
The third letter was destined to Molly, her best friend:
Molly,
I am very sorry to go without telling you bye, but if I do so, I know, you'll never let me go. I needed to tell you what a great friend you have being to me and that I really had nice times with you. I want you to remember all the good times we shared. Please forgive me Molly but this is a goodbye
Your best friend Serena
The fourth letter was for Seya
Seya,
When you'll be reading this letter, I would be already gone. I feel ashamed not to have told you the truth earlier but I was scared probably. You were really a great friend and I loved you a lot... but my heart was taken elsewhere. Seya, I just want you to lead a normal life. I just hope you'll forgive me for what I've done, even though I cannot forgive myself.
Bye Seya
Your one and only Meatball Head
And finally her last letter to Darien
Dear Darien,
When you'd be reading this letter, I won't be there anymore to disturb you or Katarina. It's better that way, as I am really jealous of her. This situation is not easy for me and... well I guess I'm not strong enough. I somehow wish you all the luck with the baby and with Katarina.
Bye my love
Sere
Serena prepared all the envelops and wrote the names on them. She then prepared her bags and took all her money and was ready to go... She then went to her parents room and left the first letter, then went to her brother's room to do the same. As she was going to the concert, she dropped by Molly's house and gave the letter to Molly's mum. She decided to post Darien's letter, as she was afraid he would get to it before. Heading towards the concert hall, and the show having already started, she went backstage (she still had the passes to do so) and left the last letter for Seya.
Having done her last task she headed towards the airport and had enough money for a ticket to Paris. Determined to survive, she wanted to start a new life, far from everything and everyone. The only way was to go far, far enough for no one to find her... As the plane was taking off...she could only say softly "Goodbye my love"
~*~*~*~
What do you think? Should I end this story once and for all here or not? Indeed, I like endings like this where one could imagine his own sequel. I've not quite decided whether to continue or not. If I get enough reviews telling me to continue, I would do so. Otherwise, well, it's quite a twisted ending, what do you say?
Blue Dreamer
(bluedreamer80@hotmail.com)
http://membres.tripod.fr/bluedr eamer
~*~*~
"Dreams are the beginning of a never ending story"
By Blue Dreamer
Standard disclaimer, you know I don't own Sailor Moon, and all that other stuff, now
on with the story.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
- "..." indicated when there is a dialogue
- '...' indicated what the person is thinking
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~
-"Sey a, please just listen to me without stopping me" she said. Indeed during class she had time to think ... and after visualising all the solutions and scenarios offered to her... she opted for one of them. She knew she had to sort things with Darien and Seya...
*~*~ Chapter four: Wise decision? ~*~*
At the school rooftop
-"Ok Serena, tell me what's on your mind right now" Seya said
-"Seya, it's quite a long story... but you deserve to know the truth." She started. "You know that Darien and my brother were best of friends..."
-"Yeah so?..."
-"Seya, stop interrupting please!"
-"Sorry"
-"It's ok. Where was I? Darien was all the time at home as his parents were travelling. I virtually grew up with Darien and realised my feelings for him. The night before his departure we... told our feelings out and we..."
-"You had sex with THAT GUY!" Seya almost freaked out
-"Yes! My family got to know, and they took it badly..
-"Naturally...he is so..."
-"Seya, will you stop that, please... they found out because I got pregnant"
-"Yeah right Serena, stop joking, I haven't seen any big stomach or a baby anywhere near..."
-"That's because my father forced me into an abortion" Serena was now letting her tears roll down her cheeks, not caring to wipe them off.
Seya was taken aback. His girlfriend had been pregnant? With the other guy?
-"And now what are you going to do" could only ask Seya
-"Darien needs to know" said Serena simply
-"What do you hope by telling him that, are you only hoping that he will leave Katarina and come back to you? You'll probably destroy his relationship with Katarina, is that what you what? If you do like, no, love him, you should let him have a chance to be happy"
-"Darien needs to know, it was HIS child as well as mine"
-"What about us?"
-"Us? Can you still think of us that way? I like you Seya, I probably love you, but I must be honest...Darien... is the person I love more than anyone... It would be unfair for me not to tell you. I truly understood this yesterday, when I saw him. Darien and I may never get together, I might end up being alone, but, it's better that way...I prefer to be honest with you Seya, I'm sorry"
-"So this is how it's going to finish?" asked Seya, "Obviously...it's a silly question...I must leave then...Well... see you ...at...the concert tonight"
With that Seya left quickly leaving Serena more desperate than ever. She hoped he understood her feelings and that he would not be too harsh on her. She decided to go and see Darien, leaving school earlier than scheduled.
~*~*~*~
At the Shield household
Serena was at the entrance and rang the doorbell. To her surprised she was greeted by Mrs Shield who was rather surprised to see Serena.
-"Hello Rena, how are you? It's been a long time"
-"Hello Cassandra, it's nice to see you after all this time. When did you get back?"
-"Actually we just got back with Daniel. As soon as Darien phoned us about the marriage."
-"The marriage?"
-"Yes, I'm so happy, I'll be a grandmother soon as well, that so fantastic" said Mrs Shield excited not realising Serena's look of dispair
-"Er... could I see Darien please?"
-"Oh sure dear... come in"
-"Thanks"
-"Darien, Serena's come to see you" shouted Mrs Shield
As Darien came out of his room, he was followed by Katarina. She was not quite happy to see him, especially as she knew what had happened between her boyfriend and this girl. She however managed a smile and greeted politely Serena.
-"Hey Meatball Head!" Darien started
-"Darien, I need to talk to you", said Serena wanting to get right to the point "Privately"
-"There is nothing Darien would hide from me" interfered Katarina
-"I am sorry to insist, this is important" Serena said to Katarina and then turned to Darien "How about going outside in the park?"
-"Well" started Darien uneasy "if you really think it's urgent"
-"Yes it is"
-"Fine then" Darien said. "Katy, I won't be too long"
Darien left with Serena, leaving Katarina on pins. She was wondering what to think of this situation and decided to call Seya as the latter had given her his number
-"Are you Seya?" she started
-"Yeah, hey Kat how are you? Seya tried to sound enthusiastic
-"I don't really know...Serena came here and just took Darien...and..."
-"I know...it's complicated... but I cannot tell you anything. It's between them"
-"But I'm Darien's girlfriend, now, why is Serena going after him?"
-"Love" said Seya bitterly
-"You'll broke up?"
-"Yes, about an hour ago"
-"I'm scared. I don't want to loose him..."
-"I know. Listen, I got to go now, my classes are about to begin"
-"Yes, I'm sorry for disturbing you"
-"Not at all.. anyway... I'll see you tonight"
-"Yes tonight...thanks"
-"Bye"
-"Bye"
~*~*~*~
At the park a little away
-"What's the matter Meat..."
-"Stop calling me that, it irritates me more than anything Darien, you should know that by now"
-"I'm sorry" said Darien realising she did not seem at ease "Why did you make me come here"
-"Darien, I.." Serena could not tell him like that... her eyes teary looked away from him...
-"Rena...what's wrong, please tell me" Darien asked worried about her "Rena, please look at me, Sere..."
-"I haven't heard that nickname for ages now" Serena said slowly "I...Oh Darien... it's so hard to cope"
-"You heard about our marriage, is it about that?, or about the baby?"
-"I...heard...about those" she said... "but..."
-"You should be happy for me then without trying to break thinks with Katarina"
-"Don't be so cruel" snapped back Serena angrily "It's just that"
-"Rena, try and understand, I'm now with a nice young woman whose pregnant with my first child"
-"Are you sure about that?" said a whining Serena, "Are you that sure?"
-"Sure of what? That it is my child? There is no doubt about that" said Darien angrily. He then understood what she meant "Rena, are you telling me..."
-"Darien, if you know...I ..."
-"You were pregnant?, I'm already a father, oh my gosh, that's ...well...why did you not tell me? Where is he? Or she? Tell me Rena, why haven't you already showed me?"
-"Hold it will you"
-"No, I would like to see ..."
-"...there is nothing to see Darien...I...my father...forced me into an abortion Darien"
-"What?" Darien was shocked as he did not expect that
-"I did ...did not...but...he...and ...and..."
-"Oh Sere", Darien said taking her in his arms "I'm so sorry...I did not know, I was not with you...I..."Darien was fighting against his tears.
They both just stayed there hugging each other for moral support. Katarina, who could not wait any longer at home went outside and to the park where he saw her boyfriend and his ex-girlfriend together.
-"Sere, what are you going to do now?" Darien asked
-"Do you love her?" Serena asked back
-"Well...there is the baby and I want my child to have a family, and..."
Katarina silently left and ran back to Darien's place, too shocked to do or say anything.
-"Darien, I understand, or at least, I will try to cope with that. I love you, you know that don't you?"
-"Sere, I love you a lot as well...but... Katarina...well"
-"You should return to Katarina now...she might be worried" Serena said abruptly
-"Sere, I want to make sure you're all right"
-"I'm fine" Serena said "I've got to go now. I wish all the best for you and Katarina" Serena ran away from Darien, away from her only love.
Darien could only let her go. He decided to return to Katarina. As she saw him, she was bitter as she heard Darien saying he was with her because of the baby. After a few explanations Katarina was reassured.
-"Katy, I love you, no matter what you may think" he said
-"More than Serena?" she enquired
-"Katy...I"
-"Don't say anything Darien, I don't want any explanations...you're here, that is all that matters to me" she said a little heartbroken but quickly added maliciously "Darien, I want you to make love to me."
Darien kissed her, a kiss full of passion and tenderness, a kiss asking for forgiveness and love. Katarina return the kiss and wanted more. Her tongue parted Darien's lips to reach his tongue. Her hands went under his shirt and removed it. Darien's hands travelled as well and went to her firm buttocks. Katarina managed to remove his pants and Darien carried her carefully on the bed and placed himself next to her. Katarina after a few kisses and caresses was on top of Darien.
Their lovemaking was like an insurance for Katarina, as she felt as though she had nothing to worry about, that Darien would be with her no matter what. She knew Darien loved Serena more than her but she was ready to sacrifice her pride for the sake of her family.
As for Darien, he was sure to have made the right choice even though this was not easy to assume.
~*~*~*~
Meanwhile somewhere in the streets
'Darien, my one and only love. What is the meaning of love if I cannot be with you?' Serena was at a total loss. She was so absorbed that she did not see a car coming and nearly knocking her down. She just went home and into the room.
'Tonight, I'll leave... I cannot stay here any longer' Serena then decided to write a few letters to her friends and family explaining and thanking. The first one was for her parents
Dear Mom and Dad,
I know what I'm about to do will leave you both sad, but please try to understand and forgive me. Life here is unbearable. I cannot take it any longer. This is not about you but about me. I don't want you to cry but please take care of you.
With all my love
Your Daughter Serena
The second one was for her brother
Drew,
I know you may be angry and hurt after you read this letter, but I wanted you to know how much I loved you and cared about you. I want you to take care of Mum and Dad and to make them understand my situation. I'm sorry to leave you alone here, but, please, don't take any judgements on my actions
Your ever loving sister Serena
The third letter was destined to Molly, her best friend:
Molly,
I am very sorry to go without telling you bye, but if I do so, I know, you'll never let me go. I needed to tell you what a great friend you have being to me and that I really had nice times with you. I want you to remember all the good times we shared. Please forgive me Molly but this is a goodbye
Your best friend Serena
The fourth letter was for Seya
Seya,
When you'll be reading this letter, I would be already gone. I feel ashamed not to have told you the truth earlier but I was scared probably. You were really a great friend and I loved you a lot... but my heart was taken elsewhere. Seya, I just want you to lead a normal life. I just hope you'll forgive me for what I've done, even though I cannot forgive myself.
Bye Seya
Your one and only Meatball Head
And finally her last letter to Darien
Dear Darien,
When you'd be reading this letter, I won't be there anymore to disturb you or Katarina. It's better that way, as I am really jealous of her. This situation is not easy for me and... well I guess I'm not strong enough. I somehow wish you all the luck with the baby and with Katarina.
Bye my love
Sere
Serena prepared all the envelops and wrote the names on them. She then prepared her bags and took all her money and was ready to go... She then went to her parents room and left the first letter, then went to her brother's room to do the same. As she was going to the concert, she dropped by Molly's house and gave the letter to Molly's mum. She decided to post Darien's letter, as she was afraid he would get to it before. Heading towards the concert hall, and the show having already started, she went backstage (she still had the passes to do so) and left the last letter for Seya.
Having done her last task she headed towards the airport and had enough money for a ticket to Paris. Determined to survive, she wanted to start a new life, far from everything and everyone. The only way was to go far, far enough for no one to find her... As the plane was taking off...she could only say softly "Goodbye my love"
~*~*~*~
What do you think? Should I end this story once and for all here or not? Indeed, I like endings like this where one could imagine his own sequel. I've not quite decided whether to continue or not. If I get enough reviews telling me to continue, I would do so. Otherwise, well, it's quite a twisted ending, what do you say?
Blue Dreamer
(bluedreamer80@hotmail.com)
http://membres.tripod.fr/bluedr eamer
~*~*~
"Dreams are the beginning of a never ending story"