Weiss Kreuz Fan Fiction ❯ Don't Cry ❯ And don't you know ( Chapter 8 )

Don't Cry

By: Anna Hibiki

Rating: R, but it could perfectly be NC-17. I'm just not in the mood to change it yet.

Disclaimers : Weiss is not mine! It belongs to Koyasu-sama and other people with much more money than me (even if I want to own SchuSchu... and KenKen... and Yo-tan... and Brad-chan... and RanRan... well I want to own 'em all! ). The song 'Don't Cry' belongs to Guns N' Roses, and I don't own it either nor own Guns N' Roses.

Warnings : Shounen-ai/Yaoi, OCC, angst, torture, kawaii Crawford. If you don't like that, then you can go to read my other WK fics "...Lies Bleeding in my arms" and "KenKen" (to read KenKen is published only in mediaminer.org).

Notes : Anything written in Italic are thoughts. Things /written this way/ are mental talk.

This fic can be read in my page, mediaminer.org and ff.net.

Arigatou for all the reviews!! I love ya all minna-san! Ne, this chappie thanks go to Eriol-sama, aurelie (*hugs*), Jade, Akari (did you receive my email? I'd really like to discuss it with ya. Sometimes is good to know what one does wrong), Pandora81, Voidsenshi (*glomps* you're almost as crazy as I am! take a good revenge on Hiei![even if i have no idea of who is he]), SilentCherub (*glomps, I'm in hugging mode today* you're right when you expect the worse of Aya... I would.. ^___^ and for Youji, I have no idea of what I'm going to do with him, even if the madhouse sounds interesting... and who would be his doctor? ne, don't get scared if I send you an email soon and tell you how much you talk! but since i love to receive so long reviews, I won't complain a lot.), Yanagi-sen (you like Nagi angst... you have Nagi angst! especially in next chappie. Poor Nagi-chan...), Nekocin\Cindy (*hugs* Arigato! But I think I'm not very good at writing yet, especially when it's in english and i'm not as free to write as I would like to. Anyway, I have to tell you that you made me really happy with your email. It's really nice that someone spent her time to write me an email telling me so much nice things, so expect a reply reallyyyy soon!! And don't worry, receiving such nice coments, it gives me inspiration and want to continue writing this as soon as possible!). Ne, dunno if I forgot anyone, If i did, gomen! I'll give thanks next time! But now I should post this and go to continue writing other things! And to finish, as usual, thanks to all the people who's reading the fic and not saying anything, love you all anyway!

And, as promised, some more SchuKen interaction in this chappie!

I'm gonna try to put it on ff.net again, hope they don't kill me again!

Chapter 8: And don't you know.

Schuldig yelled into his mind, his eyes starting to moist a little. /You don't even realize that a lot of people would gladly give their life just to be near you, to make you happy, do you? You just keep on hurting yourself and the ones who care for you! Stop being so selfish!/

I SAID SHUT UP!! Ken screamed into his mind. His head hurt like hell.

All what Schuldig was saying hurt. And it hurt because it was the truth. But he couldn't do anything, could he? But if he... He was so confused... maybe too confused to think clearly.

He was so focused on his thoughs that he didn't hear the house's door opening. And didn't notice Youji entering his bedroom until he saw him.

"YOU!!" he yelled when he saw the blonde, his eyes confused and his voice angry when he did that.

"Ken?" A equally confused (if not more) Youji asked tentatively, startled by the brunette's actions.

Ken stood up, facing Youji. Until then, the blonde hadn't seen the dry tears in his lover's face.

"Ken? Daijobu ka? Have you been crying?" he asked, his voice showing his worry as he reached with a hand to cup the soccer player's cheek, caressing his face slowly as he did so.

"Daijobu?" he chuckled dryly. "Da-i-jo-bu?" the ironic face changed to a angry one "Do you fucking think I'm okay? Do you EVEN doubt that I've been crying? Are you going to ask me why?" he practically screamed, pulling away from Youji's hand.

"Ken... I don't understand..."

"You DON'T? You have the nerves to say that you don't understand me? WHAT DO YOU WANT?!! I am the one who doesn't understand you! What do you want from me? You wanna fuck me? Don't worry Kudou, if that's what you want..." he sat on the bed and grasped his boxer's waistband. "Want me to continue? Is that all I am to you, an stupid kid who takes out his pants when you want to forget about your DEAD woman?" tears were starting to fall down his face again.

"Ken, stop it, onegai" Youji said softly, not understanding what was happening to Ken. He left a few hours ago to complete a mission Manx gave him and Omi that afternoon, and when he came back, he found this. "Ken" he repeated holding the brunette's hands and putting them away from his boxers. "What happened to you? I was on the mission Manx gave the chibi and me today, why do you act like this?" did something happen to you while I wasn't here?"

"Don't touch me!" Ken screamed getting his hands free of Youji's grip. "You don't understand anything!! You... just... GET OUT!!"

/Ken.. calm down./ Schuldig voice said into his mind.

"Ken.." Youji's eyes reflected how hurt he was feeling.

"Read my fucking lips. O. U. T!!!" he screamed and turned his back to Youji, trying to control himself and stop sobbing.

/Please calm down../

"Good night then, koi" the older assasin whispered sadly before he placed a soft kiss on the back of Ken's neck and left the room.

And as he entered his own room, he didn't care that Aya, who was in Omi's room, and the young blonde, who was in the mission room preparing the mission's report, had heard everything.

He didn't even care for the bruises he had gotten in the mission.

The only thing he cared about was that Ken was suffering, and that he couldn't do anything. At least he couldn't while Asuka continued there remembering him what she would do... Maybe I just have to let him go... He'll soon find someone who loves him more than me, someone who will make you happy.

/Are you really that naive?/ A nasal, German accented voice said angrily in his mind. /Do you think you can ignore him? Do you believe that he'll forget you eventually? Is all your fault, so accept your responsabilyty!/

Schwarz? Leave me alone, I'm not in the mood for you right now. And he wasn't lying. He didn't even want to fight the German right now.

/I can't leave you alone if you keep on hurting him./

Then Youji understood it. You love him, don't you?

He was waiting for an answer, but he never got it.

.::.::.::.::

If Nagi had been awake, he would have seen how Aya had cleaned his wounds and extracted the bullet from his arm, and after he had done that, placed him gently on Omi's bed. But the Schwarz telekinetic wasn't awake, so he didn't.

He also missed that the redhead was sitting in a chair next to him with his katana prepared. And he also ignored that it was exactly what Brad had seen in his vision (he didn't see the katana though).

You're the one my Omi was hiding here... Schwarz... so Omi's betraying us... How could he.. but what am I thinking! Omi would never do it willingly. What did you do to him? Are you controlling his mind? But I heard you talking in your sleep last night, and you talked about love.. Does Omi really love you? Do you love him?

Aya was confused, but who wouldn't be if they founf out that the one they love has brought home one of their worse enemies?

It was even understandable that Aya felt that way.

Even if he had fixed the kid's injuries, he was starting to regret that. He should have killed him.

But he had pride, and wasn't going to kill an injured boy, not even if the boy was Schwarz. But wait a little 'till you wake up...

Then he heard Ken yelling at Youji. He had suspected about them, but wasn't totally sure until now. So everybody there was keeping secrets from him, what would be next?

He heard a little sound coming from the bed. Nagi was waking up. Yeah, it was the moment. He unshielded his katana and leaned towards the brunette.

tsu zu ku...

I love to do this! *points to the clifhanger* I'm feeling a little evil right now, but not a lot.

What do you think? I know that Ken didn't make a lot of sense, shit, nothing does! But you are not going to hate me for that, ne?

There's going to be more SchuKen interaction in next chappie, we'll see what happens to Nagi, and the kawaii Brad and a too lucid Farfie will appear again!!

So, onegai, leave me a comment! They encourage me to continue writing when I'm n ot sure of myself, and I feel so loved!! *starts to laugh insanely, like in a horror film, and when the laughts are in the most scary moment, she loses her pretty voice, blushes, and goes to whimper to a corner*

¡Hasta luego minna-san!