Weiss Kreuz Fan Fiction ❯ Forgotten Memories ❯ Awakening ( Chapter 10 )

Title: Forgotten Memories

Author: Sardius

Category: Angst/Romance

Warnings: PG-13

Pairings: Ken/Aya and Yohji/Aya

Disclaimer: I don't own Weiss Kreuz otherwise I won't be sitting here sharing with you my entertaining stories. O.o; *sweatdrops*

Author's Note: Sorry! This part took so long. Had been extremely busy. Was going to write during my week off but I was in a lot of pain - I hate dentist!!!! I despised them! Yes…had an x-ray test and a good chance my wisdom tooth might come out…and heaps of other problems with my jaw and crap like that. So wasn't in the right mood to write, so sorry about that.

And for the LAST friggin time I changed my email address. It better works this time. I hate accounts that never load properly or I missed half of what ppl sent me or the site is dead all the time…okay I'll shudup now. So new account is: sardion@msn.com Someone got sardius before me. Why is it so damn popular?!!!

//Character's thoughts//

Chapter Ten: Awakening

"Ran…can you hear me?"

That voice. It was so familiar. Who can it be?

"Please Ran…please wake up."

The sound of the birds flew above the sky as I looked around at the isolated beach. It reminds me of the time when Aya and me spend our summer holidays here. Only now there is only me. Even though I hate to admit it but I have missed her so much. If only she was here with me again.

I padded along the soft sand, making footprints as I walked across towards the water, where the voice is coming from. Someone is calling me. I can feel it.

// Ran…//

No one has called me that for a long time except him. Where is he? Is he the one calling me? I stepped into the cool sparkling water as the sound of the waves brought the voice even louder. The sun shone brightly, reflecting the surface of the water into my eyes. I winced. It was so bright and everything was getting out of focus.

"Please come back Ran. You promise me…"

Promise? Yes I had promise him I would never leave. I felt myself splashed into the cool water, making my body shiver when….

"Ran!"

Someone was calling me away from the water. So distant but I could see him. He was standing there, his blonde hair falling along his shoulders, his jade eyes sparkling as the sunlight cast upon his face. The smile…it was gentle yet somehow a tint of sadness was shown behind the facade. A sense of longing…and then the stranger came out of the shadows and it was then realisation struck through me.

I gasped as I felt myself drown into the sea of water. A voice very much like myself wavered and whispered softly…

// Ashiteru Yohji. Forgive me. //

But that voice. Was different. That voice….

…. was not mine.

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"Ran."

I touched his fingers and brought it slowly towards my lips as I kissed them gently. Ran moaned and tossed his head to the side as he mumbled something incoherent and stumbled back into sleep. As I watched him in deep slumber, a close shiver swept through my body. I could remember clearly before Ran passed out that he had called out my name.

Except it was different. It sounded so much like him.

I only pray it was him.

Then, maybe everything would be different because he would remember me again, taking care of everything like the way it use to be. And we would always be together as we had promised each other.

It has to be him.

I know it.

"Hnnn…."

// Ran? //

I grabbed onto his hand as I brushed back the silky strands away from his eyes and whispered to him to wake up. His eyelids fluttered as he slowly revealed his amethyst eyes to mine, blinking wearily and starred up at me in dazedly.

"Ken?" he croaked.

"Aya? Is it you?" My heart was beating faster as it thundered at the back of my ear. Could it possibly be him? Is he really Aya?

Ran starred up at me and scowled as he glanced around at his surroundings. He tries to sit up as I helped him, shoving enough pillows to adjust a comfortable position.

"Of course I'm Aya. Who else would I be?"

I froze. It was him. It really was him! Aya! My Aya was back. I grabbed onto the redhead and squeeze the life out of him as I buried my face against his chest holding him tight.

"Ken! Get the hell off me!" Aya tries to pull my arms away from me but I just kept shaking my head as I grabbed onto him tighter. I didn't even realised I had tears in my eyes when Aya stopped his struggle and tilted my chin to gaze up at him.

"Ken? What's wrong?"

I smiled. Aya was back and I didn't care about anything else in the world except with him in my arms. I placed my hands on both side of his face and pulled him softly to my lips as I kissed him gently. He seems stunned and confused at the same time as I let go of him and whispered against his ear.

"It's okay. Everything is fine now…because you have come back to me."

"Ken…I.."

I placed my finger on his lips to silence him. "You had a car accident remember? But you lost your memory and couldn't remember who you were except when you were Ran. And…."

"Accident…" I looked up at Aya to see him starring somewhere into space pondering on what I've just said. He seems to have recalled all that had happened in the last few weeks, as he looked up at me in wonder, unable to form any words out of his lips.

"Ken…I…I'm..."

When suddenly the door burst opened.

"Hidaka what the hell were you…."

Aya suddenly stiffens as I realised who it was that came into the room. I need not have to turn around to face him. Instead I pulled Aya tighter to my arms and glanced at the confusion settled in my lover's eyes.

"Aya got his memories back." I spoke to no one in particular.

I wanted to turn around to see the reaction from Yohji's face…. but instead I focus on starring at Aya as he shifted his eyes to the blonde and mine.

[Silence]

Omi's voice suddenly popped out of nowhere and broke the silences between us. "Aya-kun you alright? Doctor said you could go home after a check up."

"Hn."

I turned around this time to look at Yohji. He was still standing there, unable to keep his gaze away from Aya. It took all my wits to just keep seating where I was and not telling him to get out of the room.

Then the doctor came in to check up on Aya and we were told to come back in an hour or so. I didn't want to leave him. I was scared that if I did he would be Ran again but Aya just squeeze my hand to reassure me as I left the room.

// I won't lose you again Aya. Not ever again. //

// He won't take you away from me. //

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It has happened so suddenly and I couldn't stop it. Why? I had thought I had all the chance in the world to be with him except now I lost him again. The look on Hidaka's face was full of triumph as if he was laughing at the back of my head.

And I had known.

As soon as I had opened the door, I realised something was different. I knew Ran was gone. The look on Aya's face was hard to describe. Was it fear? I didn't know. But all I could do was just keep gazing at him as I tried to tell my inner self that this is not happening. That I would not lose him to Hidaka again.

God must really be playing tricks on me. Does he like giving me hope then destroying it like nothing has ever happened?

As I stood outside the hospital room, I was beginning to wonder if I still have a chance at all. I wanted him. God how I wanted him. I craved for the love he so willingly gives to someone else but not me. I want to know.

I want to know if I still have a chance.

I want to know if Ran still exists.

I want to know.

So I pushed the door opened.

Aya was there already dressed packing some of the clothes into his bag. His body stiffens as he notices who had just came into the room but he ignores me and continues to keep himself busy.

// Is he nervous? //

I can always read what Aya is feeling even though we were never in good terms. Sure he was the stubborn ice cold bastard everyone depicted him as, but he was goddamn gorgeous and I know deep inside he isn't as cold as he seems. His hands slightly shook as I walked over to the other side of the room and sat down on the chair.

Time seems to slow down as he tried franticly to keep himself busy while I sat down gazing at him. I know how much he hates me when I'm doing that so finally when I was just about to open my mouth he snapped his head up and glared at me.

"Kudou what the hell do you want?" he snarled.

"I want you."

Aya just stood there, his eyes widened as he tried to register what I just said. "You are crazy. Get out."

"Don't lie to me Aya. You remember don't you? You remember what happened in the last few weeks." I shouted back at him as I got up and grabbed onto his shoulders.

"And none of it was meant to happened! Forget it Kudou and let go of me."

Aya struggled to get out of my grip as I wrapped one of my arms around his waist, trapping his arms against my chest. "Don't you dare tell me to go away now. " I whispered in his ear. "I know you remember. I can see it in your eyes. Ran is still apart of you even if you don't know it."

"Fucking get off me Kudou. I can never be with you so just drop it. You know who I am with….mphs"

I shut him up by crushing both of our lips together as he tried to push me away with his hand. I pushed us against the wall leaving him gasping in surprised as I thrust my tongue inside that sweet cavern.

// Don't tell me you don't remember this Aya. //

His hands grabbed onto my back as I continued to ravish his mouth, biting and sucking leaving him panting for more. He snarled, trying to bring his knees to kick me in the groin but I twisted one of his arms painfully as he yelped in pain.

"Yohji!….Sto…stop!"

But I didn't want to stop. I want to be with him forever. I want to hear those words coming from his lips again, telling me how much he loves me. How much he wants me. I want it all. I want him to give it all to me.

I kissed him deeply as Aya's knees started to give way and I was forced to tightened my arm around his waist and crushed our bodies together. I flicked my tongue inside that sweet mouth of his, tasting the delicious spice that was so Aya as he moaned. God! How I want everything from him. I want to show him so much more.

Finally Aya found the strength to push me roughly aside. His hair was dishevelled as he panted softly; his lips bruised and his eyes were still out of focus.

I watched how his amethyst eyes conflicted with so many emotions.

"Do you remember now?" I whispered huskily.

Aya's eyes widened in fear as he back away from me.

He didn't know what to say; except he did just the one thing he knew best.

He pushed me out of the way and ran.

I stood there starring at the empty room where he just left minutes ago.

Even if you run away I will find you.

// I won't let you go Aya. Not now. Not ever. //

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I don't understand. Damn Kudou. Why is he putting me through this? I want to forget everything that has happened in the past week. I want to forget it all. I want it to be everything the way it was again.

// But what is this you are feeling. //

Shut up! I hate him. I have always hated him. He was always in the way, telling me I was the stuck up leader since I've joined Weiss. He didn't know anything about me. He has no right to tell me what to do.

// I hate him….I hate him so much for making me feel this way. //

I love Ken. I know I do. We had promised to be together. I had remembered the promise we had may a long time ago and I will keep it. I had never broken any promises and I intend not to break it now.

// Ashiteru Yohji…Forgive me. //

That voice. That dream. What did it mean? That voice was not mine. It cannot be mine. I will not let it happen. I love Ken. It was Ken that was calling me to come back to him…. but the stranger…the stranger was Yohji…Yohji who was smiling at me sadly…hoping I can come back to him.

// Ashiteru Yohji….//

I don't understand.

"Aya?"

Ken came out of the shower as he settled down next to me. I could feel the warmth radiating from his skin as I looked up at him dazedly as he bought me back to my surroundings.

"You should rest. You only got back from the hospital a few hours ago." He gently brushed his fingers along my hair, sliding them down against my cheek as I let him pushed me down onto the soft mattress. He tucked the covers around my shoulders and planted a kiss to my lips.

"Ken…."

"It's okay. Go to sleep." He whispered.

As he shifted his warm body next to mine, I tightened my arms around him and buried my face against his neck. He continues to gently brush my crimson hair softly murmuring soothing voices to my ear.

"Ashiteru Aya. Always."

I clung onto him as if I were a child. Somehow I needed to make sure I still love him and will keep to my promises. I need to know if I still love him even though all the things that had happened.

My breathing slowed down as I drifted off to sleep listening to his heartbeat feeling utterly comfortable and exhausted.

I love Ken. I have to. I always will.

I kept repeating these words over and over in my head.

But the image of Yohji smiling sadly at me never left my mind.

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TBC~~~~

Woah~! Do you have any idea how hard it was to write this chapter?! It was terrible. I had no idea where to even start. Hmmm…I really have no idea how this will turn out now. I was hoping to fit it all into 2 chapters but I'm not so sure anymore. I will have to see. So maybe it might need another 2 chapters. Sigh…

Well many ppl seems to agree that Aya should be back with Ken. Hmmm…. (ponders.) A very logical reason I suppose…have to see if I can come up with a good explanation of getting Yohji and Aya together…. otherwise u can probably all guess who Aya ends up with. ^___^

Thanks to all you readers. Your reviews were lovely to read and very funny. I enjoy it so much. I am quite surprised so many ppl are enjoying this sad sad story. I will be heaps busy in the next 2 week so updates will be slow. Yeah hit me. But I'll try to see if I can write a bit each day rather than leaving it all in one day. *grumbles*

Hp you enjoy the read. Let me know what u think or how I should end it. *smirk* Ja!