Weiss Kreuz Fan Fiction ❯ Please, Give Me Another Chance ❯ Is The Sixth Time The Charm Then? ( Chapter 9 )

Please Give Me Another Chance

By: Atsureki

Disclaimers : I own diddly-dick that's all I'm gonna say 'bout it

Paring : Aya/Ken

Warnings : OCC, Angst, Shonen-ai.

Notes : Stuff written in Italic are thoughts or the strange little voice Ken hears in his head namely Fate.

There's a lot of talking and stuff in this chapter so you might find it boring but I couldn't get around it. Sorry minna-san.

Chapter 9. Is The Sixth Time The Charm Then?

"Ken-kun!" The brunette let out a loud sigh and banged his head against the pillow. Here we go again. "Ken-kun! You're going to be late for your shift." How the hell was he going to fix everything? And why hadn't Fate talked to him? "KEN-KUN!" Maybe the sixth time was the charm?

"I'm coming Omi," Ken answered and got up. He took a shower and reluctlantly went down to the kitchen where he poured himself a cup of coffe. Whatever he was going to do this time he had to be honest! He owed Aya that much.

"You're late." The brunette looked up and for a moment he just stared into those beautiful amethyst eyes.

"I'll be right there." Unlike the other times Aya didn't leave right away. He looked at Ken for a while.

"You okay?" Ken swallowed. No he wasn't okay but he couldn't very well tell the redhead that.

"Just have a lot on my mind Aya," the brunette answered softly. Aya gave him a little nod and left him alone. Ken finished his coffee and closed his eyes for a while. Just please let me get it right this time, please, he begged before he rose and headed for the Koneko.

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"Ken?" The brunette nervously clenched his jaws together and said a little prayer. With a weak smile on his lips he turned around and faced the redhead. This was it, no more screw ups just complete and utter honesty!

"Hai, Aya?"

"Could I talk to you for a moment?" Ken drew a deep breath and let it out shakingly.

"Of course, come on in." Aya hesitated for a moment just like he had done the other times.

"Ken I…" The redhead's started and Ken felt how he started to tremble. I can't do this! he screamed out inside but forced his face to remain calm. "I don't know how to say this Ken but I… I…" Okay here we go, don't panic. "I think I'm falling in love with you." Ken swallowed with great effort and waited for the redhead to finish. "I'm sorry Ken but I have to know, do I stand a chance with you?" Aya was done, so what the hell was he suppose to say. The truth, just the truth Hidaka! He pulled at his shirt and felt how his throat constricted. This was so hard. The redhead opened his mouth to say something but Ken held up his hand.

"Please just give me a moment Aya." the brunette pleaded and sat down. Nothing came to him, he bloody felt like he had gone mute. "Yes." Aya gave him a very confused look.

"Yes what?" Ken would have laughed at himself if the situation hadn't been so serious. He wasn't making any sense what so ever.

"You asked me a question and um well the answer is yes." The redhead didn't seem to be understanding what he meant at all. Ken sighed deeply and desperately wanted to kick himself in the ass.

"I don't think I'm following you," Aya frowned and came a little closer. The brunette gave him a helpless smile and suddenly started chuckling.

"Makes two of us. I'm sorry Aya I just don't know how to say this," Ken apologized and glued his eyes to the floor. A surprisingly warm and soft hand tilted his face up and amethyst eyes met brown.

"Say what Ken?"

"That I… That you… Oh God I'm such an idiot!" the brunette exclaimed and squeezed his eyes shut. "How hard can it be to say that I'm attracted to you!" Oups. The room became quiet and Ken squinted at the redhead. Aya was staring at him with wide eyes and his mouth hanging open, actually he was looking rather cute and innocent. Ken was still trembling as he reached out and took the other man's hand in his. "Don't mind me I've got my foot stuck in my mouth… What I wanted to say was that well I… eh… think I have feelings for you too."

"Oh," was the only thing Aya managed to get out. Ha take that Fate! the brunette cheered inside, I said it! His feeling of victory was shortlived though because he knew that he had to explain exactly how he was feeling inside.

"Listen, I've never… This… this is new to me Aya. I mean I've never even looked at another man before and I just…" Ken sighed deeply at his own stammering. "I'm… scared." To his surprise the redhead smiled softly and sat down beside him on the bed.

"And you don't think I am? I am Ken… I didn't plan this nor expected it, actually a few months ago I couldn't even admit to it. But I have to take this chance, I have to see where this will lead me, us," Aya said quietly. Ken's eyes widened in surprise. Why had he thought that the redhead knew exactly what he was doing? How foolish of him. They were just as new at this, just as scared. With a soft sigh the brunette leaned against his older team-mate.

"Let's just take it slow, be honest and tell each other what we're… thinking." An arm was carefully placed around his shoulders and it felt safe, like it belonged there. "

"Deal. So Ken…" Ken glanced up and into the redhead's eyes. "I was wondering if I could take you out to dinner tomorrow night." The brunette blinked in surprise. Aya was asking him out on a date?

"I'd like that Aya, I'd really like that," he smiled and in a moment of bravery he gave the stoic man a kiss on the cheek causing them both to blush slightly.

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He had been worried and nervous about his date with Aya. So he had been on a date or two before but never with a guy. Was one of them suppose to be the 'girl'? And in that case should the other one open doors, pay and stuff like that? The only same sex relationship Ken had ever seen before what Yoji and Omi's and that didn't exactly help him much.

Yoji was so much 'guy' while Omi was well not. It wasn't that the brunette for a moment saw his smaller friend as girly but anyone who knew the little blonde had to see that he wasn't exactly the most masculine guy around. Ken had rolled his eyes at his line of thinking. He had probably been going through the stereo-type ideas a lot of people had about gay-couples.

When the redhead had showed up outside Ken's door earlier that evening his worries had been settled. The man taking him out was still 'just' Aya. Nothing weird about it, nothing that implied anyting out of the ordinery, unless the brunette counted the flip-flops his stomach made.

Aya took him to a small, quiet restaurant. Ken looked at the redhead as they waited for a waiter to bring them some menues. That pale beautiful face looked a bit diffrent than usually. It wasn't as bland and closed nor where the amethyst eyes as cold. Aya looked relaxed almost content.

"Something wrong?" The smooth baritone startled Ken and he blushed since he had been caught staring.

"Um no I was just… eh… hrm…" The brunette groaned at himself. Talk about making an ass out of himself. He glanced up and widened his eyes slightly when he found Aya smiling at him.

"You don't have to be nervous Ken," the redhead said softly, still smiling slightly. "I'm not gonna rush this or force you do do anything that you don't feel comfortable with, okay?" Ken licked his lips and sighed with relief.

"Thanks," he murmured. "It's just that it feels a bit weird…" Aya tilted his head slightly.

"What does?"

"This, you and me. You know…" Ken's voice trailed off for a moment. "I mean I've known you for years and then one day I just saw you in a um diffrent light. But I…" He hesitated. "But I know that this didn't just start recently."

"Oh? How do you mean?" the redhead asked quietly and met Ken's brown gaze.

"I think I've had these feelings for you for a long time but I just… I couldn't…" The brunette frowned at himself. Why was this so hard to get out? "I was just…"

"Afraid?" Aya suggested calmly. "You were afraid of what it meant? You didn't really understand what those feelings were, what to call them?" Surprised and a little bit shocked Ken nodded. That was exactly how it was. Did that mean that Aya had felt the same?

"I tried to ignore it, hide from it because I… I um… didn't want to be…" Great job Hidaka! the brunette growled inside his head. Cat got your tongue?

"You were taught this is wrong, weren't you?" Aya asked with his voice soft and understanding. Ken nodded and felt very ashamed. That and his belief that he didn't deserve happyness or love had gotten the redhead killed five times. The waiter interupted their conversation.

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When their food arrived Ken had relaxed a lot. Aya made it easy for him, keeping the conversation light and he didn't put any pressure on either one of them. They were sitting close together and it felt safe. The brunette had always felt safe with Aya and he had never understood why before. He smiled at himself.

Fate had been right all along and he was so grateful that the strange voice in his head hadn't given up on him. Sure it had taken him 10 weeks and five tries to accept it but he knew that it would be worth it although… He really wished he hadn't been so stubborn and blind. Even if Aya didn't remember all the times Ken had failed and let him down the brunette sure did.

"Ken-san," a soft female voice suddenly said. Ken looked up and smiled.

"Ishibashi-san." The petit woman standing beside their table was the mother of one of the childer he coached. She gave Aya a strange look and then turned to Ken again. "Ah this is Aya my um friend."

"Aya-san," she nodded and lowered her head slightly. The redhead returned the gesture but he didn't say anything. "I better be getting back to my husband just thought I'd say hello." Ken smiled again.

"Have a nice evening." She nodded to him and left. The brunette frowned slightly. Why had she been so reserved? He glanced at Aya who was frowning slightly. "Someting wrong?"

"Iie. Do you want desert?" Ken bit his lip. Okay now Aya was acting weird too but he decided not to worry about it.

"Actually I rather go for a walk if that's okay?" The redhead nodded and waved for the waiter. He did not like this. Why had Aya turned so silent all of the sudden?

~TBC~

Looks like Ken is finally getting it right ne? But why did Aya act so weird? And what about that woman?

I really wanted to include the sixth mission in this chapter but it was getting so long so we'll have to wait until the next one for that. This time it should work out shouldn't it??

Now a huge thanks to Keeshe who borrowed me one of her muses. *G* He was great thanks although he was forced to work without all that much angst. Hey do you mind if I keep him? He's sooo cute. I think I can use him more um for my writing I mean *innocent look* Ja/Atsureki