Yu-Gi-Oh! Fan Fiction ❯ Reason to Live ❯ Saved pt. 2 ( Chapter 4 )

Reason to Live by: Angela (orangeaura868)

Chapter 3: Saved (Part 2)

Hisies again! Now I have 11 reviews! Yay! So happy! Notes will be in the end!

Disclaimer: I don't own Yu-Gi-Oh cause if I did it would be rated NC-17 and have loads of Yaoi in it. I would also have Tea disappear since she's too happy and nice for her own good. Not only that…I would have each character be wearing leather and other sexy clothes. ^ ^;;

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Bakura

I stared back at the pharaoh and soon the stare turned into a glare…the gesture was equally returned, hate for hate until he started yelling at me…loudly.

" TOMB ROBBER! WHAT HAVE YOU DONE!? HAVE YOU NO CONSIDERATION AT ALL FOR YOUR HIKARI!? HE'S YOUR OTHER HALF RA-DAMMIT! CURSE YOU! IF HE DIES IT WILL ALL BE YOUR FAULT!"

"He attempted suicide, oh wise pharaoh." I answered back coolly, the words had a terrible sting to them. Like I had said before…I'm not good with emotions.

"He did it because of you no doubt!" replied the pharaoh, calming down a bit, "What happened!?"

"Nothing!" I spat out, I pushed pass him and walked over to the ambulance and handed him over to the paramedics. They placed him in a stretcher and asked me to accompany him to the hospital. I bit back my pride and agreed…damn this day to the fiery flames of hell and into the jaws of Ammit.

The noise and red lights filled the darkening sky as neighbors clamored out of their houses to see the commotion…idiotic mortals and their Ra-damned curiosity. I hate this day down to its very core! Everything has gone wrong! I was supposed to beat him then go to sleep and torture him more tomorrow! He wasn't supposed to attempt suicide!

Please let it only be an attempt! I could feel myself fade gradually…my energy slowly sucked away into the ring, hoping to lock me back inside.

I thought back to the rotten events that had happened today when my hikari came back. I was oblivious to his screams and was utterly evil and completely heartless. Then came the near death incident…oops…wasn't supposed to go so hard on him. I had freaked out…I remembered feeling scared…scared for my existence and for…Ryou's.

In one single moment earlier that day…the dam was broken and emotions flooded back when I had thought that I destroyed them in my solitude in the Ring. The feeling of need was great and I had dreaded it…hating to admit to seriously needing it in anyway.

Next, I had gone to bed making a note to never go that far…it hurt very badly to a point where even I could not take it as a good feeling. I had let the emotions ebb away on their own accord and soon I was back to being heartless, cruel, but not a murderer yet. Then I had seen my hikari's body lying in a pool of blood. I had seen the sight quite often…but the plain fact that he would give up his own life to escape me hurt greatly. The old human side still yearned for expectance…damn human emotions.

Ryou would gladly die to be away from me…it was complete rejection along with the fact that 15 was a very young age to die at…15 was an age where you had barely accomplished anything. I had felt sorry for him…damn feelings. I composed myself, telling myself that needing him was my only reason to worry. What a lie…Yami was right…damn arrogant pharaoh…he was my other half…I'm worried because he is me and I am the evil villain who was bad.

Do villains ever realize that they're the ones at fault? Do they ever know that they are the bad guys? When hurting Ryou…I never saw myself as the bad, and he as the good. I only ever saw that for some strange justification…I was taking out everything on him for absolutely no reason.

Why do I hurt my other half? Why do I beat my light and dim it's brightness with crimson blood? After my few minutes pondering while talking to the paramedics and answering their questions…I had finally answered mine.

No reason.

After all this time I could have easily said that it was because he was weak and needed to be tougher and that beating him was helping him, or that I had a bad past and took it out on him…they were all true…at one point. I know now that I'm just an insane, emotionally unbalanced spirit who is pure evil…and that's what evil does. It hurts for no reason, beats on the innocent, lie to the light, and betrays for the fun of it. I am the darkness…I'm supposed to be dark yet…darkness is not supposed to smother the light…it is there to balance it. The pharaoh and his hikari have known of this delicate way…they had stood by it…what had I done to make this thing a big mess? Nothing's clear and this is just a huge catastrophe. It was all my fault too…my idiotic emotionally unstable, violent fault that Ryou could die…all my fault.

Where did that defense go when I needed it? Where had that strong shield of evil go when I was turning to mush with this increase in feeling? I needed to feel heartless right now like when I had beat, cut and hurt my hikari and actually liked it. The feeling of evil had gone, passed completely. Evil is wretched…to leave me forsaken in this whirl of foreign emotions.

Normal (Ryou's house)

Yami walked into the house avoiding all the eyes of the neighbors who only came out, out of curiosity. They didn't care when Ryou screamed out and bumps and other suspicious noises were heard. They didn't inquire…didn't even care. They only decided to get off their lazy asses when an ambulance came. An ambulance!! `What kind of people are they', thought the ex-pharaoh.

Once inside the house, Yami released his hold on Yugi's body and instantly formed his own. Yugi collapsed against him and cried.

"I knew this could happen, Yami! I didn't want to admit it, but all day today I was worrying if Ryou could go so far for his peace of mind, body, and soul. I knew he would! I didn't want to admit it but I kept thinking about everything we told him; the fact that they are two halves of one soul and that neither can live without the other. I knew he would remember that one thing…but I never thought…"

"It's alright." Yami said rubbing his aibou's back and soothing him no matter how wrong it seemed to sat such things when things had come out so wrong. In one day the entire world for Ryou could come crashing down…bringing Bakura down with him and also depress Yugi and the others. What would Ryou's father think when he hears that his last relative and his son was dead by suicide?

"We've always talked to him, aibou. We didn't just tell him about dying to take down his other half…I've told him Bakura's past. I've told him about other things to calm and soothe him. It's not your fault, my love…It's all Bakura's fault as far as I can see."

Yugi nodded…bits of guilt gone but small particles remained…Ryou could die at any moment. It was only natural that he should beat himself up about it…it was his way of caring and worrying when nothing else could be done.

Yami held Yugi closer upon sensing uncertainty and sadness in large amounts.

`Please let him live' Yami prayed to Osiris and Isis and Horus and every other God out there that Ryou would be spared. `Please let him live for everyone he has to live for…he has people who care about him…if not as much as his father or maybe his first friend, Yugi, then at least minor friends who would care for his well-being.'

The pharaoh then realized how little Ryou had to hold on to. Other than a father who was never there and one close friend that he always avoided for selfless reasons…Ryou didn't have much. Not only that…Yami Bakura made him more and more depressed. `It must feel horrible to feel what he feels.'

Yugi calmed himself still letting the truth sink in that Ryou had actually attempted suicide. He looked up and gasped. Yami also looked frantically at his love.

"Yugi, what's wrong!?" He asked…scared that his aibou was scared. Yugi pointed around the room and Yami gasped when he saw it too. He growled thinking of what he should do to the tomb robber. The room was covered in blood. The floors too…pools of it gathered together from the marble to the carpets and to the wood floors in the kitchen. The windowsill was splattered with droplets of the red liquid and trails of it slid down from the walls.

Gory…the word easily came to mind. The pair walked around the house watching in sick fascination at each mark. The furniture was stained also,and drag marks could be distinguished. The blood trailed to the kitchen where more blood had spilled in little droplets on the floor. Salt could be seen and Yami growled angrily.

((SALT!?)) came the angry voice through the mind link. Yugi winced at the volume and moved closer to Yami completely sickened by the blood and the red handprints over everything. The tomb robber had better be scared.

Behind the counter the two had found a large puddle of blood with a razor sharp blade…this was where Ryou had given up all hope in life and turned all his dreams to death. Yugi whimpered at the disgusting sights he had seen. They gave him heartache and the painful feeling shot through his chest as tears came to his eyes at the torture his friend was silently going through. This exceeds the average suicide.

This was an absolute nightmare.

Yugi

It saddened and shocked me greatly to see this house. I've never been inside Ryou's house before. And to think, this is how I first saw it…without Ryou to guide me and with blood everywhere. Some dried…others were still that vibrant red color that stood for life.

Ryou went through this everyday before his dad came back for a break. Even if it was not as bad as today…his life comprised of this! He went through this regularly! I hold on to Yami glad that I wasn't paranoid yet not glad because that would mean that Ryou was suffering.

Suffering didn't even begin to describe it when I look around and see this place. How much does Ryou detest his own yami to rather die? It seems that he had good reason to too…not that I want him dead but…it's better than living through this. How could he go through this so much? How strong is he to take all of this everyday?

This house must hold bad memories. Ryou must have dreaded walking back to his own home. I can't help but feel sorry for him. Out of all the students here…Ryou deserves this the least…no one deserves this! Ryou was so nice…no! Ryou IS so nice, he'll live. This will pass and everything thing will be better. Please let me be right, yet again…for Ryou's sake.

Yami shifts in front of me. "Aibou…go call Jou and all of your friends and tell them to meet us at the hospital so Ryou can see all his friends when he's better…he WILL get better." Said Yami, placing both hands on Yugi's shoulders. That reassured me greatly. I went to call them while Yami calmed himself so that he wouldn't banish the tomb robber to the Shadow Realm upon sight.

In one single day…it had brought everyone to realize how delicate life is. Yami was standing at the door waiting for me and I tried to forget all that I've seen.

"Yami?" I ask.

"Hmm?"

"How come there aren't reporters everywhere or police or anything?"

"I placed a seal on all the blood so they won't be curious…the reporters have left and because of my spell the police have no reason to be here."

I nod, inwardly letting out feelings of gratitude.

We go back to the game shop and jii-san has just closed the shop so he's now free for the day. He drives us to the hospital in silence. The radio was on…but upon hearing the broadcast on Ryou…we quickly turned it off. It brings feelings of dread and remorse. I hope that what Yami said was true. I hope Ryou lives.

It's true…I barely know Ryou…but he's still my friend. I feel sorry for not helping him more…now that he's in a hospital on the brink between life and death…I feel bad for every time that I tagged along with my friends instead of being there for him. I can't help feeling this way…I mean…he's so depressed and abused that he's suicidal. I feel so bad for him…even if that doesn't help the situation.

Today was a horrible day. I was worrying for Ryou the whole time. When I got home though…Yami made me forget all my worries. I remember to feel grateful for having a yami like mine. He's strong, courageous, and brave…not to mention his crimson eyes that reflect an air of royalty, and his well-toned chest…I'm straying off the subject. What I'm trying to say is that I have a yami whom I love and who loves me back to freshen up my day no matter what happened. I can just imagine this day from Ryou's position. He worries for himself also…but when he goes home…his yami doesn't make him feel better, he makes him feel worse. This day was hard on me…it was even harder for Ryou though.

When I had gone home…I was extremely worried and stressed. Yami got rid of that with one little kiss…and then told me how he felt. I remember feeling so emotionally high…I felt like I was on top of the world, even if for only a few minutes. The point is that I had Yami…Ryou has no one. How would he feel?

"We're here, Yugi, Yami." Grandpa states. I snap out of my thoughts and climb out of the car. Yami stands behind me and stares at the hospital and at the ambulance right outside. Reporters stand around the automobile and follow Bakura and Ryou inside.

" Be home soon, alright?" Grandpa says. I nod and hurry inside. Upon entrance to the hospital…I am surrounded by this white…clean atmosphere that clearly states this is a place for healing. The scent of rubbing alcohol wafts throughout the corridors. The front desk is to ask about my friend. I pray that he makes it.

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Orange: I know…I promised it would be longer…but I'm leaving in a few days and I should post Something…that's why it's short…I'll right a third part for this. Sorry for everything…blame the SAT's not me!!!

Ryou: Please be patient minna-san.

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A/N: I'm letting you people help me! I have a major writer's block in how to bring in Malik and develop the story.

Choose two that appeal to you…I might not pay attention to the votes though…just a warning. I only do what I like…however…right now I'm stuck.

Malik sees Ryou somewhere. (Ryou escapes from the hospital before they make him see a psychologist.) Malik sees Ryou again at school and the two fall in love…jealous Bakura. Angry Marik.

Same as #1 except I make Seto have a thing for Ryou also.

Malik sees Ryou when visiting Isis in the hospital because of some weird reason.

This is more in step with the show. Malik comes to seek revenge on the pharaoh. He meets Bakura…then Ryou. No Battle City…everything introduced (God Cards) in a different way.

Same as #4 except that Malik has seen Ryou before (see #1) and thinks that Bakura is Ryou and tries to hit on him. Bakura gets mad at him and hits him…provoking Marik.

Same as #1 except they are friends first.

Same as #4 just that Malik meets Ryou later and realizes that he needs to use Ryou to get at the Pharaoh…Malik fights his emotions.

Tell me which appeals to you and why. You have 3 weeks. This won't be taking place until after Chapter 3 Saved (part 3) and maybe not for the chapter after. Thank you all and have a nice summer (while I study fast-paced High School Biology at some College)