Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction / InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ First Love ❯ Chapter 19

[ Y - Young Adult: Not suitable for readers under 16 ]

I want you now baby, more than anything

You can't imagine

Believe me, believe me, there's a better way

Something wild and free waiting to happen

You gotta just wanna give a little faith

Need some reaction

Break down, now, break down the walls are givin' way

Break 'em down, come on now baby, gimme some passion

WARNING! NAUGHTY STUFF HAPPENS (i.e. SEXUAL STUFF)! If you are offended or don't like to read naughty stuff, then I suggest you walk away. RIGHT NOW!!

First Love

Chapter Nineteen

The walk back to his room seemed like forever as Youko walked towards the Sakura tree, not needing to weave through people since they moved out of his way on their own accord. He knew his men as well as people he had never met personally feared him whether it is by the fact he was a thief or the way he presented himself.

Either way, it worked out for him. He was rarely bothered, and if he was, it was usually by Kuroune. And even though Youko would try to intimidate him, Kuroune would only ignore it and continue to pester him. As for the other people, they didn't matter much to him.

But there was one person he didn't necessarily want to fear him…

Stepping into his room, Youko noticed two things immediately.

The first thing he noticed was that Kagome wasn't in the room. His bed was neatly made and nothing was out of place. He looked over and saw her clothes were also neatly folded. Those kimonos cost him a nice amount of money. He would need to make a place to hang them.

The second thing he noticed, or rather smelt caught his interest and held it like a vise grip. He closed his eyes to inhale the scent that clouded the room and felt himself go slightly hard. Youko let a slight grin touch his lips. Her scent was very lovely and he almost liked it as much as he liked being surrounded by her.

The sudden image of Kagome's tears calmed him down instantly. He knew he needed to resist and he had barely pulled it off a few hours ago but he knew now that he could do it. At first he thought he would lose it walking in the door, but now, as he relaxed he could feel his strength against it returning.

He would not allow himself to misbehave. He wanted to ease her into the mood gradually then do it at the right moment. It would be better in the end if they did it that way.

Youko did not bother to move an inch before he knew he was totally in control of his body, and when he did move, it was to follow the intoxicating scent's most powerful trail that led him to her.

She was sitting on the floor outside of his room looking at the scenery. He would need to thank himself later for making his house have both an indoor and outdoor part. To add, this was the only safe place for her to be alone outside without him, anywhere else and there could be a problem.

“Why are you up here?”

He watched her jump at his voice. She had not expected him to come here he guessed, before she turned her head to look at him. Her eyes were slightly widened, but soon relaxed. He had forgotten that humans couldn't hear as well as demons could. Youko made sure he wouldn't forget next time.

“I needed to get some fresh air. Being in that room for most of the day gets really stuffy.” She blushed and Youko caught it.

Crossing his arms over his chest, Youko looked away in thought. There had to be a place where they could both go without anyone bothering them…

Moving across the wooded floor to Kagome, he helped her up with a hand. “Let's go.”

She looked at him, startled. “What? Go where?”

He glanced at her, bored. “You'll just have to wait.”

Kagome blushed at their connected hands as he led her though his room and down the stairs. Although she should be used to this kind of contact (because more than their hands had been together before), she couldn't hold back the thought that she was dreaming and that none of this was real, like the last time. She mentally smacked herself and decided to let herself enjoy this moment.

When they reached the bottom and left his house, he slowed his pace as they walked through the crowds causing everyone to stare at them. Why wouldn't they? The head of this whole place was holding the hand of a peasant girl?

Kagome made sure her eyes were glued to the ground and she never once looked up after she caught a glare from a woman, not even when she heard whispers.

But the memory of Tamaki's words came back to her mind and she forced herself, although slowly, to raise her head. She did keep her eyes locked on the back of Youko's head until they finally reached a path in the forest where there were no people and Kagome was comfortable enough to look around.

“Don't let what they say get to you.” Stopping, Youko turned his head to look at Kagome. “They only say things since there hasn't been a raid in a while. Their words will die down once we go on one.”

Kagome looked down, not able to meet his gaze. “I know….” But I can't help it…

When she finally gazed up, she found that he had begun walking again and after wiping the surprised look off her face, she jogged to catch up with him.

Their walk was silent and seemed to last forever to Kagome but Youko didn't look like he minded at all. She shouldn't have expected him to anyway, he seemed to love nature by the way he would even think about sprouting flowers and making huge trees and such. Even now it still amazed her.

As they came to the top of a hill they stopped and Kagome was able to finally look out at the colorful array of plants that lay at the bottom. Without thinking, Kagome found her feet taking her down to the sea of plants.

She didn't stop until she was a few feet into the flowers but when she found the beautifully colored blue flower surrounded by the many purples, she couldn't help but stop and gently touch it. Handling it lightly, it took her out of her trance and she glanced in her companions' direction and found him only a few feet behind her.

“Did you make these?” she asked, amazed.

He shook his head. “No, these have been here ever spring and summer for hundreds of years.”

“If you didn't create these, why did you bring me here? I mean, its beautiful but…” It wasn't that she didn't like this place; it was just the fact that she would have expected him to show her something he made rather than something he didn't.

“You like flowers almost as much as I do.”

His reply shocked her slightly, she wasn't used to a man that she liked caring about what her interests were. Yea, there was Hojo but she didn't like him as much as she liked Youko. Rising to her feet she turned to look at him and smiled. “Your right…thank you for bringing me here.”

His tail and ears twitched slightly before she shifted and slowly walked through the field, holding her hands out to slightly brush the flowers. “How do you make the flowers? I know you can plant seeds, but you just make them sprout in seconds. How do you even control them?” she asked over her shoulder without stopping.

She jumped when she heard his voice suddenly; she hadn't even heard him move.

“Every demon has youki, a form of energy, that can be used in different ways depending on the demon itself. With my youki I can manipulate plants, forming them into any shape or object I want. I can even have them come to life in a barren wasteland that has tasted water for hundreds of years. How fast it works depends on how experienced the demon is and how much they practice.”

Kagome could only nod her head at his explanation. Demons had some sort of energy that could be used to defend or kill things. To make things grotesque or beautiful.

“Do you still have the flower?”

She stopped abruptly and turned to see Youko standing right next to her causing her to jump.

“Do you?” he asked again, staring directly into her eyes.

Slowly, she reached into her Kimono, careful not to let him see her skin, and pulled out the red rose she always kept with her.

Taking it from her hand he kept it between them and watched as it grew three times the size of a natural rose. “Do you see? With the slightest amout of youko, I can change the size of any plant I want.” After a few moments Youko transformed the rose back to its natural size and handed it back to her. Blushing slighly, she quickly put it back into her kimono.

Youko stepped forward slightly and their eyes locked. He was only a hairlength away and before Kagome knew what was happening, an enormous amount of wind pushed her forward causing her to fall onto Youko, hair wipping around wildly. She felt him wrap his arms around her and she closed her eyes from the intensity of the wind that was strong enough to pick up dirt and little rocks.

When the wind storm finally died down, Youko released her and she was able to look around them, only to see huge thick green trees that didn't actually look like trees….

“What happened?”

Youko nodded his head towards the sky and she looked up. To her surprise, all the flowers that seemed to have been beneathe them moments before, were now towering above them like threes. Her mouth opened in a little `o' as her eyes darted around.

“I can control the shape and size of any plant I wish.” Spoke Youko, not bothering to look up. It wasn't the first time he had done this, the only thing different was that he was not killing anyone with them.

After a few moments of looking at the huge flowers, they slowly began to shrink until they returned to their originally size. Kagome's eyes returned to Youko's. They gazed at each other for a moment before Youko released his grasp on her.

“Thank you for taking me here,” said Kagome after a few silent moments. Even though she was blushing like a tomatoe she hated the silence that seemed to ring in her ears.

She saw him look at her briefly before turning away nonchalantly.

Turning forward, Kagome saw the setting sun and started walking towards it, arms spread slightly from her body. She inhaled the fresh smell of flowers and nature. It was true; she loved nature almost as much, if not more than Youko.

She had always taken comfort in nature whether it was to get away from something or to just relax and sight see. It was such a peaceful place that you need not worry.

“Its good to be in the fresh air,” she said to herself, unaware that her companion had actually heard her. Feeling weightless, Kagome let herself fall back onto the ground and closed her eyes to relax.

She heard the soft footsteps coming towards her until she felt him sit down on the ground to her right. They didn't speak, but instead enjoyed the silence together, which seemed to happen a lot, which also did not bother them one bit.

Kagome glanced up at Youko and wondered what he was thinking. It was times like these where she wished she had some sort of special ability to read peoples minds…

…But maybe it was best if she didn't as she thought more into it. She would probably hear things that would make her want to cry and just wish she never heard. Especially if she read Youko's mind.

“What's going to happen now?” asked Kagome.

Youko glanced at her. “Koga and his pack are going to be staying here for a few days because of the attacks.”

Kagome sat straight up, facing him entirely. “What attacks?” Why hadn't she heard anything about it? If it was about her…

“Its nothing to worry about.” Was his curt reply.

“But if he was attacked…”

His piercing eyes met hers. “It was small and it happened as they traveled. They're just going to stay here and wait until they get bored and then they'll leave.”

Kagome turned away. “Are you sure?” she couldn't help but feel he wasn't telling her something.

“I'm sure. There is nothing to worry about.”

Sighing she closed her eyes and saw flashes of images from the attacks on Akihiro. Now that Akihiro was gone, all she had left was her family…

“Youko?”

He turned to look at her.

“Would it be all right if I were to see my family soon?” she asked softly, pleading. She knew she was sort of a prisoner…but she didn't exactly feel like one.

He took a moment to answer her before he spoke, “After Koga leaves we'll go.”

Her eyes widened when he said, “we'll” as in they will go.

As in Kagome and Youko will go see her family.

Just the two of them.

Alone.

The thought of it just being the two of them made Kagome feel a little nervous yet at the same time, she felt excited. To think, she would be able to see her family, with him, in a few days.

“Thank you.”

It seemed like she was saying that a lot these days. In fact, she knew she was. He had done so much for here since they had met.

And she was very greatful.

As they sat and silently watched the sun set, Kagome thought about their relationship.

It was complicated. They were not official but they liked each other. Or at least Kagome knew she really liked Youko, but she wasn't positive if he liked her also. She knew he must like to be around her since he was always there with her and he did like to…touch her and kiss her.

But he had never said anything to confirm it. Never said that he liked her or loved her or anything like that. She knew she had started to like him very fast so maybe it took demons longer?

If that were so, she knew it would be hard to wait but she would have to in order to stay with him.

To be with him…

It still surprised her that she was even sitting next to him. When they first met, she never thought she would be able to touch him or even be able to look at him again.

But when they started to run into each other often before she left to go with Akihiro, her thoughts sort of changed and she wondered if their meetings weren't just a coincidence.

She had even met with him when she stayed with InuYasha and Kikyou many times and to top it off, he had even given her the red rose she still carried with her.

It might have been crazy to think, but Kagome felt like they were connected not only mentally but in a way physically. And if the physical part ever ended, they would always be connected by their memories.

Kagome began to shiver as night fell upon them. The difference in weather changed dramatically from day to night and she was usually snuggled up in Youko's bed at this time.

She was only able to shiver once more before she felt strong hands lift her up and settle her in the warm lap of their owner. Her back was against his chest and in an instant she was tense and felt awkward.

Kagome knew she both hated and loved when he did random things like this. Sometimes she wished he would give her a warning though.

But when she felt his arms wrap around her, she melted both inside and out. She was wrapped in his unusually warm heat, which caused the cold air around them to be nonexistent.

When she felt him press his face against her neck she shivered from the sheer contact of skin on skin and before she knew it, he had turned her around to straddle him. At first she did not know whether or not to sit or support her own weight but when he pushed her down it didn't seem to matter anymore.

“That's better,” he said huskily.

His lips met hers and all thoughts were flow out the window. At first, Kagome was too stunned to realize what was happening, her eyes were wide open, staring straight into his eyes. He pressed his lips to her slightly harder and ran his tongue along her bottom lip causing her to gasp which let Youko take full advantage of her mouth. She felt him explore her mouth while running his hands up her back and then down until he reached her backside.

To which he squeezed.

Kagome jumped back, mouth wide open just looking at him and not believing what he had done.

He gave her a devilish smile and played with her long black hair while she caught her breath.

When her mind finally registered everything and came back to earth, Kagome turned her flushed face away from him.

They had just kissed.

The romantic kiss.

And he had even…even…squeezed her butt!

She refused to look at him even when he turned her face towards him with a clawed hand.

“You don't have to be afraid of me.”

It was probably the only thing he had said in a while that didn't sound nearly as cold as some of the other things she had heard him say before. She gave him a quick glance and eventually she met his gaze.

“We should get back,” said Youko still staring at her intently.

There was something in his eyes that frightened her yet at the same time gave her butterflies. It made her want to run and want to get closer to him at the same time.

For now, all she could do was nod.

Their walk back to the big sakura tree was somewhat awkward for Kagome but it got even more awkward when the reached the campfires that seated Youko's friends or whatever he called them.

She expected all of them to look over and whisper to one another and laugh like when they had left.

However, most of them didn't even glace their way as they weaved through the fires. Instead they were laughing at each other's jokes or making out with the women that had been brought from Akihiro's estate.

Everyone seemed to be happy.

After silently making their way up the long staircase, Kagome and Youko found themselves in his room again.

Alone.

“Umm…” Kagome started, looking around nervously as Youko's gaze landed on her. “Would you mind going into another room for a minute while I change?” She turned around as if to make it a point to tell him to leave.

Instead of moving away from her, Youko came right up behind the jumpy girl and placed his hand on her obi that was tied in the back. “I'll help you.”

Instantly her hands went up to the front of her kimono to keep it closed. “R-Really, you don't need to help me, I can do it just fine.” She was blushing madly now and gasped when she felt him tug at the knot.

Turning around quickly, Kagome placed her hands over his to stop him, pleading with her eyes.

To her surprise, his gaze softened. “Let me help you. I promise I wont touch you.”

He said it with so much sincerity that her gaze seemed to also have softened as she turned back around, still clutching the front of her kimono even after Youko was able to finally untie the obi.

She felt him move behind her and before she knew it, his hands were over hers, trying to push them away.

When they wouldn't budge Kagome heard Youko speak. “You need to move your hands in order to get into your sleeping yukata.”

She felt him bend and felt his breath brush against her ear, sending chills down her spine.

“I won't look.”

Kagome's eyes widened and internally she was going crazy.

This was almost as bad as what had happened in his private hot spring. Butterflies were sprouting in her belly and she shifted before taking a deep breath.

This was decision time. Should she do it or not? He might be lying to her, saying that `he wouldn't look'. But who knew? She didn't have eyes in the back of her head and there was a good chance he would see her butt. And he seemed very sexual….

Memories from the hot spring came to mind and she closed her eyes and tried to picture a happy place…a place far away from where she was.

But…if she didn't take this chance…then maybe they wouldn't get closer…. Brushing all thoughts aside as best as she could, she finally dropped her hands. “Okay, I'm ready.”

She felt the soft fabric leave her body and her body to perked up from the loss of heat. Feeling self-conscious, Kagome covered her bare breasts by crossing her arms over them, trying to get some of the heat back.

When she felt him place her sleeping yukata over her shoulders she quickly placed her arms in its sleeves and tied it shut. She turned back around to face him.

She gave him a timid smile and before she knew it she was swept off her feet and in Youko's arms.

“What are you doing?!” she gasped, heart racing.

“We,” he said hotly, “are going to bed.”

She pulled back slightly to look in his eyes and she saw his eyebrows rise.

“Is there something wrong?” he asked, pulling back the furs on his bed and placing her in it before pulling the covers over her.

Kagome's eyes didn't leave him and she felt her heart skip a beat when she saw Youko getting into bed with her.

“Wait…”

He paused for a moment at her request and looked at her. “What? I did say we would go to bed, didn't I?”

Kagome nodded her head. “Yes, but….”

To Youko, it seemed like he had given her more than enough time to get settled. He had never been this patient with a female before but for some reason he felt the need to with this one. And it strangely did not bother him.

He moved so that he was now spooning her, arms wrapped around her, legs tangled. “I also told you I wouldn't leave you while Kouga was here, didn't I?” he said softly in her ear.

Kagome agreed to herself that he had said those things…but there was other things on her mind also…it wasn't just the fact that he was getting into bed with her. It was something a little different.

Trying to ignore it and enjoy the time with him she turned to look at the wall and tried to enjoy his warmth that he gave her but…something was off.

“What's wrong?” she heard Youko ask behind her.

At first she felt the need to keep things to herself but eventually, after he asked her again she gave up.

“I'm just not used to this…and I wonder…why exactly are you keeping me locked up?”

She knew she had been brought to be a prisoner of some sorts and so she didn't know why it would be a problem if Koga were to `steal' her from him… She knew she would hate it if Koga did that.

But why would Youko?

He took a moment before answering her. “You are not a prisoner…you are my guest.”

At his words, Kagome blushed. His guest? At least it was maybe a step up from a prisoner…but… “Why?”

Youko pushed himself up and rested on his elbow, looking down on Kagome, his silver hair making a curtain to hide both of their faces from the rest of the world. “Are you in locks and chains?”

His question caught her off guard, “No?”

“Then you're not a prisoner. If you were, you would not be here right now.”

That didn't really answer her question but she would let it go for now. When she felt him lie back down she asked him another question.

“Why is Koga here…I mean…why are his men wounded or…” she hated to say the word, “dead?”

Youko sighed and closed his eyes for a moment. Why was she still worried about that damn wolf? They had already gone over this so it shouldn't matter.

Was that fucking wolf always on her mind?

“Like I said before, there is nothing to worry about. Its just a rebelling tribe.”

Kagome turned her body fully around to face him. “Is that really it?” her eyes searched his to try and find something that would let her know if he was lying or not.

“Yes.”

It was simple and Kagome didn't see any change in his eyes as he said it but for some odd reason she just didn't believe it.

Youko looked at her with half lidded eyes and nudged her face with his until he was in the crook of her neck, taking in her scent.

“What are you doing?” She shuddered. It seemed like she had been saying that a lot these past few hours.

“Trying to get your mind off unimportant things.”

She felt his arms and legs bring her closer to him until she was plastered to his rock hard chest. One hand was on her shoulders while the other was…

…on her butt.

And with a squeeze and a gasp, Youko took the chance to kiss Kagome.

He made sure to take his time and kiss her slowly because he knew that Kagome was a virgin.

And his for the taking.

Yes, he had said he would not touch her, but he would until she told him to stop and even then, he would make sure to pleasure her so much that she wouldn't ask him to do such an unthinkable thing.

Youko smiled against her lips as his hand went between both of them to move her legs apart to settle himself there.

At first, she put up a little fight but when he stopped kissing her to let them breathe for a moment he gazed into her doe like eyes and smiled. “If you want me to stop, all you have to do is say the word and I will.”

Kagome stared at him for what seemed to be the longest time, only being able to concentrate on her heartbeat, which was now racing.

Was she really ready for this? This big step in her life?

She studied his face and remembered that she had always wanted to find a husband and be married before ever doing something like this.

Would he ever marry her? Did demons even know what marriage was to a human? Would they even spend the rest of their lives together, or would he cast her out after this?

Tons of questions popped into Kagome's mind in those few short moments they shared.

Girls her age were already married and pregnant or had a few children of their own. And even though Kagome was never the one to want to play catch up, maybe this was the right time and the right man to do such intimate things with.

She did love him after all and the time they spent with each other.

Taking one last deep breath she smiled up at Youko. “I'm ready.”

That was all Youko needed to hear before he captured her lips in a fiery kiss, once again placing his hands between them to part her legs, only this time she complied.

When Kagome felt him settle against her, a shock went through her body and she could feel every inch of him.

She inhaled sharply when she felt Youko grind his hips against hers, making her feel just how hard and big he was. Her lower body responded by pushing against him as she let out a moan.

Kagome had no idea what she was doing but it seemed to be no problem for Youko who took the lead from the start.

He broke the kiss for a moment to sit up and remove his shirt from his body and Kagome couldn't help herself but to look at him.

His muscles were well defined on both his arms and chest but she never really noticed how attractive they were until now. It seemed like everything about him put Kagome's mind and body on a different level.

She let her eyes run down his body only to stop on the rather large bulge in his pants. Oh god…

To stop her from looking any longer, Youko crawled on top of her again before he bent his head down to kiss her again, licking her lips until she granted him entrance.

While their lips kept Kagome occupied, Youko decided to let his hands travel her body again until they came to a stop at her obi. Strangely, he untied it slowly instead of just ripping it off and when he finally started to open her yukata he felt Kagome freeze.

Their kiss was broken again as Youko pulled back slightly. “Are you alright?”

Kagome bit her kiss-swollen lips lightly. “Yes, its just…I've never…”

“Done this before?” he finished for her and she nodded. “I know, and we'll take it as slow as you want,” he said.

When she nodded her head again, Youko gently placed his hand on her shoulder and began to remove her yukata, pushing it aside as his hand traveled the length of her body until she was bare beneath him.

He admired her body for what seemed to be millennia for Kagome until he once again pressed his body against hers, his face going to the side of her neck.

“You're beautiful,” he whispered before kissing her neck.

Kagome felt herself melt at his words and timidly brought her hands up the caress his back.

Yes, she knew now that this wasn't a mistake and that she didn't need to worry about anything.

When he started to massage her breast, she let out a moan only to have it cut off by Youko's lips meeting hers. Just the feel of his hand on her had her writhing for more.

She felt his hands go to her back and left them both up so that he was on his knees while she straddled him.

Youko was careful not to scratch her with his claws has he kisses his way down her jaw and neck to the valley between her breasts.

When Kagome felt his mouth close over one of her nipples, she let out a loud moan as she gripped his head to her.

What she was experiencing now had never happened to her in her lifetime. It was so scary to her yet so good that she didn't want it to stop.

Heat pooled at the bottom of her belly as one of Youko's hands came between them once again to cup her.

Her head rolled back and she let out another moan before biting her lip when he started to move his hand back and forth while his mouth moved to her other breast and sucked hard.

Slowly, he set them back down on the bed and propped himself up on one hand, still kissing her, while the other removed his pants with the help of his tail.

When he came back down on her again, there was no more clothing keeping them apart. It was completely skin on skin and Kagome could feel his hot erection against her stomach.

She felt him leave kisses all around her neck and face before lifting his head slightly too look down on her once again.

“It will not be very pleasant the first time,” he said as he picked his lower body up and off of hers while his hand went to her leg to prop it up.

“I understand,” answered Kagome, not taking her eyes off of his.

With that, Youko lowered himself back down so that the tip of his member was against her entrance and managed to hold himself there until she nodded her head.

He pushed into her slowly and instantly felt her walls contract around him. They were both tense until he came to her barrier where he stopped once again.

Kagome's body wasn't sure if it wanted to keep him inside of her or force him out, in any case it was extremely uncomfortable and Kagome had to bite her lip to try not to cry out but her hands dug into his back and she felt her toes curl as he stretched her.

“Youko…” she breathed longingly, not sure of what she wanted from him.

And then it happened, within an instant.

Youko thrust himself through her maidenhood and covered Kagome's mouth as she cried out. He felt her tears against his cheek and felt her try to push him away but he stayed where he was and waited, trying to take her mind off the pain by kissing her.

When her nails ceased to dig into his back and felt her relax against him he released her mouth. Before today, he had never really known how painful sex could be for a human. Demon women usually adjusted within moments but it didn't look like Kagome would be at all for their first time.

Looking down at her tear streaked face; Youko brushed a clawed hand against her cheek. “Do you want me to stop?”

After a few moments and a few sniffles, Kagome shook her head. “No, its alright, I'm okay.”

The truth was, it hurt like a bitch for Kagome. Every little movement and every little twitch hurt for her at the moment but she didn't come this far to just stop.

She'd rather feel this pain now than never at all.

The pain was almost unbearable after both the first and second thrust but she tried to push the pain out of her mind after the third slow thrust, he was after all, trying to make it as comfortable as he possibly could but the pain just wouldn't go away no matter how gentle Youko was.

And it continued to hurt until with one last thrust, Youko spilled himself into her and kissed her fiercely, growling low in his throat before he pulled out to lie beside Kagome.

He wrapped himself around her trembling body and rubbed her back as she cried into his chest until she finally fell into a deep sleep beside him.

Youko swore to himself that the next time they had sex it would be pleasurable for the both of them.

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Ok so they finally did it but I know it was horrible ahaha. That was the first `sex' scene I've EVER written so forgive me for its crappy-ness. I promise the next one won't be as bad.

I was kinda rushing this since I have not updated in lets say…a couple of months?

Aha

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