Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction ❯ Don't Tell Me ❯ Two Old Friends ( Chapter 2 )

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Hiei turned, tilting his head to examine Kurama. "I'll stay."

"Would you...sit next to me?"

Hiei bit his tempting lower lip and looked away. Something about the expression in Hiei's eyes caught Kurama's attention, dragging it away from his fantasies. There was something so pained, a look so devastated...Kurama had no idea what he'd done to provoke this reaction. Hiei had plenty of reasons to be angry with him, but it had been six years! Surely, the naïve fire demon had woken up from his idealistic fantasy world and gotten over Santa Claus and the Tooth Fairy.

Hiei turned back to Kurama, all traces of his earlier pain gone, and moved to sit beside him. Had Kurama been imagining things? He shrugged it off.

"Did you come back to Ningenkai to see your sister?" Kurama asked, trying to make some conversation. The silence that rested between them now was not the companionable friendship of the old days. Hiei and Kurama were no longer the best friends they had been. So much had happened...Kurama didn't understand how it could have changed their relationship so much, but he was still angry and bitter that Hiei had chosen Mukuro over him.

"No. I suppose I'll see her while I'm here, though."

"You should tell her, Hiei. She's been searching for you so long."

"Hn." Hiei was quiet for a moment. "She isn't looking for me any more."

"Hiei, she thinks she found her long lost brother, or maybe she found a new one. She considers you her brother."

Hiei looked out the window again. Kurama sighed. Did Hiei feel that trapped here with him?

"Hiei. I...if you want to go, I'm not going to stop you. It's your choice to stay."

Hiei muttered something unintelligible.

"What was that? I couldn't hear you!" Kurama teased in a light voice.

"I'll stay," Hiei muttered.

"Oh you will? Thank you so much! I would have been ever so lonely without you!" Kurama snuggled close to his fire demon in such a way that he could look up at him...and flutter his eyelashes.

Hiei frowned. Wow, didhe look adorable like that! , Kurama thought.

"I hate it when you act all...girly." Hiei glared.

Kurama pouted up at Hiei and made huge eyes. "I'm not girly, I'm dramatic!"

"Okay then, you're acting like an idiot."

Kurama rested his head on Hiei's shoulder and slipped his arms around Hiei's waist. "I'll act my age," he whispered in Hiei's ear, kissing his cheek softly.

Oh no, Kurama, you're much too close...with this spell that's on me...and I can't get these images out of my head...all the other times you were this close....

"Maybe I should just say what I have to say and get it over with. Hiei, I'll always be your friend, but I'm still angry with you for choosing Mukuro. If I'm second best, not your choice, why did you come to me for help? You could have gone to her." By the end, Kurama's voice was dangerously quiet, and Kurama was thankful Hiei couldn't hear how close he was to breaking down.

"I didn't choose her over you. That was never the choice. I chose a life in the Makai because I don't belong in Ningenkai, and I don't like the Ningenkai. You could have come with me. You still can come with me."

"You chose her, the stupid bitch! You chose her electric ass over me! I don't want to hear you say anything different, because it's the truth!"

"Kurama, remember the hiruiseki stone I tried to give you after the Makai tournament? That wasn't Yukina's. It was a different one. It was for you." Hiei looked down, and in a somewhat broken voice, continued, "You turned me down. You refused it. We may have both pretended it was hers, but you knew. We both knew. You turned me down knowing that was like saying I didn't matter to you."

Kurama could tell Hiei was crying by the sound of his voice. Let him cry. How many times has he made us cry? No, it's not right! Who cares? He deserves to cry. Besides, it's not as if either of these things are worth crying about.

"I didn't know. I thought you were still angry about the time we all got drunk and I made out with Yusuke." That's not what you thought this was about. You thought he knew. You thought he knew what you did. So? It doesn't matter. I've never been exactly chaste. Besides, it's not as if I used your body. I may like the little fire demon, but he left us, didn't he? I...you're right....

"Oh." Hiei just stood there uncomfortably. Maybe Kurama was right to be angry. Kurama didn't know Hiei's side of the story, and no matter how you looked at it, Hiei was the one who left Kurama. However, even if that solved the problems between them, it didn't solve Hiei's problem. Hiei wished he could ask someone else - anyone else - for help, but he couldn't.

I just want to solve things with him and go back to being friends, just friends, Hiei thought dismally. Anything else makes our relationship far too complicated. Did Mukuro really think she was helping by putting this damned lust spell on me? It just makes me vulnerable to him. He always knew how to play my weaknesses perfectly without even realizing it.

Kurama moved to lie back down on his bed. He lay on his stomach, propping himself up with his arms. Everything was mixing up in his head, sometimes he felt like his memories were warped. It didn't help that he was, in reality, two very different people. What had he been thinking that night? Maybe that was the problem, he hadn't been thinking. He'd wanted to hurt Hiei so bad; wanted to get Hiei back for leaving, for never saying those three words Kurama would kill to hear.... But obviously, if Hiei left him, nothing Kurama did should really matter to Hiei. He had shamed himself, and now he regretted it.

No,I do not regret it. I had fun, I really did. I didn't think of him, not once.... We were thinking of him the whole time. How muck better his skin felt, the uncertainty...not really wanting to hurt him.... I couldn't get him out of my head, not knowing that I was only doing it to get him back.

You know you still want to hurt him. You still want him to ache the way you did. Until you forgive him, nothing will change.

Shut up! You're wrong!

You know I'm right. We have to forgive him. Otherwise, we'll make the same mistakes over and over again.

You want to see him cry as much as I do. You want him to cry the way we did.

Shut up!

"Kurama, I...I have a confession."

See! He's the same as us.

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A/N: I shall be a good author and update as often as possible, especially since it's summer and I have no homework. ^__^

If the Kurama talking to himself thing was confusing and you couldn't tell the difference between Youko and Shuichi, don't worry. I couldn't really either. It was kinda prompted by the way I talk to myself sometimes...yeah, I'm insane.

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