Yu Yu Hakusho Fan Fiction ❯ Night Time confessions ❯ Inside ( Chapter 5 )

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Inside

Hiei release the red lock he was playing with and sighed deeply and then chuckle.

'damn fucking me I had to developed feelings for the fox. What's next 'oh Yukina I'm your brother' damn.' Hiei chuckle again.

"what's so funny?"

Hiei jump a bit startle to hear Kurama.

"Nothing" Hiei answer

"Hiei are you all right?"

Hiei didn't answer annoyed and no hn was in his answer this isn't right. He pondered.

"yeah, I'm fine"

"you're not uncomfortable in this position are you?"

Hiei sighed again and spoke softly and shyly at first.

"I don't know why I'm saying this to you but maybe because I just need to get it out. I really don't like

admitting my emotion or showing them out to any one but I-"

'damn I started might as well finish.'

Hiei continued

"you know my whole life I been treated like shit I never had a childhood the minute I was born I been living in hell always beaten and abuse that's why I strive to be stronger I don't ever want to releived what I live with those bandits that raise me I don't really regret the things I've done.... well maybe a few but all I did was so I could survive. I don't think the pain the Jagan was compares to all the inner pain I have even thouhg when it was implanted I had to be restrain so I didn't rip out my own eyes."

Kurama listen attentively this was Hiei the real Hiei the person underneath that strong and heartles feature he wore.

" I used to think that I didn't need any friendship or love that they were useless feeling and that they were just a burden but then I found Yukina and I join the team and I met you."

Hiei stopped talking thinking if what he just said was such a good Idea.

"continued Hiei I'm listening" urge Kurama happy and grateful that Hiei was trusting him with his deepest feeling.

"after a while I realized that I longed for these feelings and when I realized that I hid more I hate it I didn't want any of this because I was a-a-afraid that it would all just be a lie I'm the forbidden child I'm not suppose to find happiness, love or friendship hell I wasn't even suppose to be born."

Hiei chuckle then continue "but you know what I hate the most my dreams there nothing but nightmares I can't avoid them because I can't go all my life not sleeping I've tried it no use so I became a light sleeper and not just because I always need to be alert but I could wake up easier when ever My dream started to go in chaos."

"what do you dream about?" ask Kurama wanting to help the koorime from his torture and understanding why the fire demon acted the way he did.

"my past, the island, Yukina and you"

"me?"

'the one that haunts me the most is when I stab you but it meant to be for Yusuke"

"Hiei" he whispered sad that he was part of the plague of dreams that he had.

"fox I don't mind this in fact I enjoy it I don't think i ever felt safe and at peace. Thanks."

"don't thank me I glad I can help I care for you and I-"

"NO, please don't say it not know I need time I figure it out a while your feeling all the things you do for me you worry about me and no one has ever done."

to changed the subject Hiei asked

"By the way fox you utter my name in your sleep what do you dream about?"

Kurama blushed the color of his hair.