D. N. Angel Fan Fiction / Naruto Fan Fiction / InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Hidden tears ❯ the first letter ( Chapter 3 )

A/N: the addresses and names aren't real….. just in case ^_^

 

Chapter 3- The first letter

 

 

#To: orfintinehtele@yahoo.com

From: silver_nessa@yahoo.com

Subject: uh… hi

 

Dear Orfin,

 

Like the subject says, “uh…hi”. In case you thought it was a joke when you saw my address, no it's not. It's really me writing. Don't you dare to reply me by asking me to tell you something only the two of us would know that, you know me better than that. Or would you like me to tell everybody when you've lost your…? :D

Sorry about the “dear orfin” stuff but I had no idea how to start…especially in these conditions#

She stopped writing to let out a deep sight. “This seems damn stupid so far. I don't have enough time to delete it an think of a different version. This will have to do”

#It's been two weeks now since I've been “taken away”. I'm in T.V.'s office right now, yet he doesn't know it, at least for now, and I seriously hope he won't ever find out. I don't want to know what could happen to me if he does. Anyway, let's leave that aside. This might be my only chance to “talk” to you…

First of all, let mom and dad know that I'm ok. I'm sending you the e-mail because I know that you check your mail more often than they do. Also, in case they are still searching for me, tell them to stop. There is no way on earth they could find the elcardians. They are my kidnapers. Not even I know where the castle we are in is situated. But be sure that as soon as I have a chance, I'll escape and I'll come home. I hate this place and I want to be home again. I'll try everything. I haven't escaped so far because I'm under strict observation most of the time… and the castle is actually surrounded by woods. There are 3 roads from it so it must be related to a city or something but the domain is too vast so I can't see it. To get an idea think of the Transylvanian castles like Bran or Peles but add them “a few” more trees. Still, the forest doesn't look that scary so I'll try to get through it. I just need a good opportunity when both T.V. and my guardians are gone, like now-the problem is that today they are only gone for about three hours. They would chase and catch me before I could reach civilization. Since they are gone, this time I'm able to write to you. Next time, you'll see me home…

It's been two weeks. As far as I know, about three days I've been out cold. In order to kidnap me, T-sama drugged me. When I woke up, I was in a dark cellar and surrounded by strange-looking foreigners. Right now, I am living with them. By them, I mean the Elcardian clan. I don't know much about them… they seem to be some kind of a hidden or lost nobility. I've tried to figure out the roots of this clan, what country they come from…but so far it was impossible to trace or place them in history. It's also confusing that they speak a whole lot of languages. T-sama seems to be from Japan because everyone keeps addressing to him like that. I was imposed to do that too, but I've copied the example of Rin and shortened his name to T-sama. He is the leader of the clan, “the supreme Elcardian” as my guardian s call him.. as you must have figured out, his initials are T.V. I won't give you the whole name because I'm afraid of the consequences. Please don't ask me more…about any of these things… And he is my real kidnaper. He was alone on that night. He alone has taken me.#

She stopped and glanced out the window. That night was still confusing for her. And she couldn't lie to herself anymore.. she actually enjoyed that night…yeah, until she passed out and after she stopped arguing with her folks…well, whatever….”Should I tell him the…details? No, I have to keep those to myself… The first thing I hide from Orfin…this is bad…”

# The other Elcardians didn't seem to know about me until he didn't bring them down in my cellar. Some of them even quarreled with him for his actions, they didn't seem to agree with my kidnapping. My guardians were the ones to oppose him the most but in the end they were all reduced to silence because T. is the leader.

The rest of these two weeks has been like hell… at least an interior hell because everybody acts natural around me as if I'm one of them. They're friendly, usually have wide smiles on their faces when they see me but when I look at them I feel that there's something they know and I don't but that concerns me… Not once I've looked at their faces and for a second I had the impression that some of them were demons…just like in an illusion. At night I have nightmares in which I see their demonic nature again and the demons inside shed their outside that make them look like humans-the way a reptile sheds its skin or the way the caterpillar becomes a butterfly just that it's vice-versa-the butterfly becomes the caterpillar… When I wake up in the morning it's because I feel like screaming and it all seems so real. I remember when I was little and I saw a cartoon in which the main character was also kidnapped and was fed with illusions that made him think he was in “Eden” when he actually was in monstrous world. I have the same feeling now. The difference is that there, the character wasn't aware of the truth… but I feel it… I'm so scared.. I go to sleep and hope I won't wake up again if I have to wake up here again…

Worst of all is that I have to hide my fears and tears from them… I don't want them to know my weaknesses. I have to pretend I live the life they are offering and building me…I would probably enjoy it a lot if I didn't have this feeling of something hidden and most of all, if I weren't away from you all.#

“should I tell him all these. He might get scared for me, more them her already is… mom and dad too.. and what if T… find out of the e-mail and sees what I have written?...” and she deleted the paragraph about the last two weeks. “I'll only tell you about my life here.. Jees, I'm sounding as if I'm having one..”

#The Elcardians seem to be friendly… in order for you to get an idea how the rest of the weeks has been for me, I have to tell you a few stuff about them too, I guess. I've already told you that they're a clan with unknown ancestors so far… Right now, there are about 20 living with me in this castle.. but some come, some leave, others-this I've heard from Uno- live in other places. It's like a big family spread all across the world-which would give an explanation to the language thing… They never seem to miss anything, richness, luxury are something common around here… An interesting thing they've done with money- actually T-sama has done it- are anime-s. My face dropped when I found this out. It seems that he earns the rights over several anime series. And now comes the interesting part of this whole affair: in each of these series, some of the characters resemble the Elcardians. Each elcardian has a virtual “clone” which borrows parts of his personality, gestures, history and combines it with the ideas of the producers… He says he's done so in order not to be discovered, to keep the clan a secret. I didn't get it at first so Uno explained it to me. Anime-s have a rising popularity. If someone got to talk about one from the clan, at least one person would make a connection with the series the Elcardian is in and would think he's lying or insane so… he won't be believed. I laughed so hard when I heard this, but Uno god mad on me for that and said “Baka, you have no idea how many times this has proved to be extremely useful. We've almost been discovered several times and it was this measure that saved us..” Hearing this, I laughed even harder. Funny is that most of the series they're in I've actually seen. A lot of them are in Inuyasha Naruto, D.N.Angel. Most of them have different names in the series, for example T.V. is Sesshomaru in InuYasha, but there are a few who haven't changed their names like Rin, Jaken or Dark (although Jaken is illustrated as some sort of imp there which he really isn't, he's just shorter in height then the rest of us) and there also are a few which haven't adopted a character yet or at least I have no idea of the series they're in like Talla, Abel, Gay-lord or Granny. From now on, to those who have them, I'll use the pseudonyms used in the Japanese cartoons in order to protect their identity (and my health…) Most of the relationships between the members of the clan are also shown in the series (like Sesshomaru and InuYasha), other times totally mixed up(like Dark and Daisuke- Daisuke actually is Uno.. I like calling him like this more)… They also modify their virtual selfs as they wish.. Rin is seven in real life and Uno is younger, just 12, and there's no way Sesshomaru really is 900 years old… The bad part is that I don't know where reality ends and where fiction starts, neither in the series nor in real life… I am among strange people here…

Since Sesshomaru practically imposed them to accept me, they are all trying to be nice to me, sometimes even to extreme- Uno brought me a cat after a talk when I said I'm feeling lonely and I miss my family. I also talked about grandma's black cat. The next day I found a black cat in my room. I called it Cinder and it's the only thing I'll bring with me when I'll escape. Talla said Uno brought it during the night. When I asked him why, he blushed and said he didn't want me to be sad anymore and the cat is supposed to make me feel as if I'm back in grandma's yard. That made me blush… I guess Talla noticed it, because he grabbed Uno and threw him out from my room saying :”If you want so bad to hit on her, wait until she is gets dressed-I was still in my PJs- and until you're OLDER!!!”

Talla is one of my guardians. He's also Sesshomaru-sama's friends. I have three guardians: Talla, Abel and Dark. Sesshomaru called them “the Elcardian guardians”. I don't know yet what's so special about them… all they've done so far is not to leave me alone not even one second-it surprised me that they left with S-sama now too. Usually it's always at least one of them with me… Talla is the one who has spent the most time with me, yet didn't try to know me at all… Although they are the ones who stay the most around me, the guardians are the most distant persons in the castle. Talla seems to be around 19-20 years, he's taller than me with about 6 or 7 inches. he has long black hair which he usually wears in a pony tail but he has a lot of strands that come out of it.. if you saw him on the street at night you'd probably take him for a vampire-the way they are presented in movies- because he usually wears gothic suits. He is, except S-sama, the most distant person around here.. at least with me.. it would've taken me at least a few days to figure out his eye-color if I wouldn't have seen that greenish-blue a few minutes after I woke up in the cellar. Dark is the cool type, he used to be an art thief but he kinda' quit his “job”. Watch dnangel to find out more about him. So far, he has the most resembling character.. it imitates his personality and look perfectly.. If you saw him on the street, you'd definitely recognize him after watching the series… the difference is that he doesn't need a familiar in order to get wings, he makes them come out or retracts them at will, but he says it still hurts every time. Abel is about 25 or 30. He resembles a character in blood trinity in both looks and personality but he says it's just a coincidence.. he's the one to make the most jokes, but I haven't heard from him not even once one with sexual connotation or to much swearing involved… He told me he, S-sama, Granny and another guy-Armand or something like that- are going to be my teachers and trainers but the others will help as well from time to time… I don't get it, why bother if I ain't gonna stay? Do they really think this will last forever? It's really annoying, the way they think they control every thing . The man to tame me ( in any possible way) hasn't been born yet. My boyfriends have learnt that, my teachers have learnt that, why won't they?...

I'll stop here because I'm not sure how much time they'll be still gone… Nessa #

 

She sent the message than deleted it. Just as the message “file deleted” appeared on the screen she heard the big hall-doors open. “Shit!” she closed the computer and ran out from the bureau into the library.. “What are you doing in my library?” “God, he's fast..” ”I'm searching for a book.. Problems?” “Get it and get out of my library. And that tone isn't allowed to be used with this T…” “Jees, he really resembles Sesshomaru with the third person thing. Before I leave that has to go” “Whatever, jerk!” “Get out!!!!!!” “what?” they were both angry now. “Stop it Nessa!” Abel came in. “Come, Let me show you the new painting Dark-san brought..” “Brought, huh…” “Well now… Rin also want to speak to you so let's go…” “Ya, whatever…” “What are these bastards thinking? I hate this place”

 

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She was in her room. Cinder was lying lazily on her shoulder. She got up from the bed while Cinder meowed disappointed it had to move. Nessa walked to the window, then outside, on the balcony… “This place scares me more and more… Everybody starts acting nicer and nicer ,but this only makes me feel that the secret they are keeping from me gets deeper and deeper. The purpose I've been brought here is still a mystery to me… T… seems to hate me, yet it was him who brought me here… I'm scared.. I'm alone… From now on I must hide my tears.. from Orfin, From T…., From everybody… From now on, I'm alone….” The beautiful sunset was suddenly covered with clouds. She watched as rain slowly started and she listened to the thunders and followed the lightning. During one lightning, for a second, she thought she saw a monster spreading his bat-like wings on the sky. “it must be Dark… or my illusions again… I have to gat away from here… If Dark has black angel-wings, God knows what the others really are like… maybe my nightmares are true… Lord protect me.. “ “Let it rain..”

 

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Orfin couldn't believe his eyes. After two weeks during which he didn't even know if his sister was alive or not, she sent him a message… she seemed to be confident about coming home…but she usually acted like this before-yet not with him, he was the one she always came to and showed her true self…so, what was she hiding? What was she afraid of? “God, Nessa, wtf have you done to get into this?” he yelled to himself…”Dark has wings… what are these Elcardians? Why did they kidnapped her?” “Nessa….”