Fan Fiction ❯ The Four Lords ❯ Subsiding Fears ( Chapter 38 )
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By: Soulless Wanderer 
Kiba explains why Alex lost control when he was with Brittany.
Anime/Manga: Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance / Hentai / Adventure | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 01.29.2006 | Pages: 1 | Words: 2.3K | Visits: 114 | Status: Completed
Kiba explains why Alex lost control when he was with Brittany.
Anime/Manga: Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance / Hentai / Adventure | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 01.29.2006 | Pages: 1 | Words: 2.3K | Visits: 114 | Status: Completed
With the first light of the morning Brittany woke up laying in bed with Alex nowhere in sight. The memories of the previous night came flooding back to her as she gazed around the room. She got up, showered and dressed before heading downstairs in search of Alex. Her mind was a clouded mess of thought as new doubts and fears began to surface in the recesses of her mind. Alex loves me, but I still can’t shake the feeling he might love what’s inside of me more. I need to talk to someone, to try and figure out what I should do. Holly could help me I just know she could, but I can’t tell anyone. I swore to Alex that I wouldn’t tell. Still, maybe I could talk to her about what happened last night. I know that it’s not uncommon for a demon’s to become...aggressive, but still it would help to hear it from her. Brittany thoughts as she walked towards the dinning room.
When she arrived she saw Alex sitting at the table, his head resting on his hands and his eyes closed. Brittany smiled softly as she walked up behind him and wrapped her arms around his neck and leaned close to kiss him. Alex’s eyes shot open as he received her kiss, his eyes lighting up with joy. His handsome features darkened as he looked back at the table and spoke softly, avoiding looking at Brittany.
“Today we’re starting to clean up Medea...or rather Celeste now. I’ll be personally helping them, so I won’t be here at the castle until late in the evening.” Alex started. Brittany could instantly see where he was going with this and shook her head as she moved to his side so that she could look him in the eyes.
“Don’t you think for a moment that you can get rid of me that easily mister.” Brittany defiantly exclaimed, shaking her finger in Alex’s face. “I want to help out too! So don’t think that I’m just going to wait her all day and do nothing.”
“I didn’t expect you too.” Alex admitted softly. Brittany could see the hesitation and fear that surrounded him and she realized what this was truly all about.
“Alex, you can’t keep worrying about what happened last night. Everything’s okay, I’m okay, you didn’t hurt me.” Brittany insisted, even though she too couldn’t shake the memories from her mind. She smiled as she turned Alex’s chair and sat in his lap, wrapping her arms around his neck and kissing him softly. Alex’s eyes widened in surprised, but he didn’t protest as he wrapped his arms around Brittany’s waist and deepened the kiss.
“Ahem, if you are through my Lord, I’m about to march the troops to Celeste.” Kiba announced. His face brightening at the sound of Celeste’s name as the name of the soon to be new town. Alex looked at Brittany and sighed, obviously trying to bury his worries as he nodded.
“Do not take all of them. Leave some here to warn us if anything should happen in our leave.” Alex said as he let Brittany get off of him so that he could stand. Kiba noticed the disappointment in Brittany’s face, but decided not to say anything.
I wonder what happened between those two. TH Lord’s eyes betray his feelings, something’s bother him. That doesn’t make sense thought, why would he try to distance himself from the lass thought? Last night they couldn’t keep their hands off of each other. Kiba thought. He then saw Alex direct his attention towards Brittany.
“You might want to go change into something that you’ll be able to work in.” Alex suggested as he gazed at Brittany clothes. Brittany was wearing one of Alex’s favorite dresses on her, yet still his eyes remained cold and emotionless towards her. Brittany nodded sadly as she headed back towards their bedroom, tears threatening to fall from her eyes as she hurried out fo the room. Kiba noticed a change in Alex’s expression as he watched Brittany leave.
The Lord still loves her, he’s trying to distance himself for a reason. They way he looked at her when she couldn’t see, it’s killing him not to hold her, so why in the hell is he trying so hard not to get close to her? Something bad must’ve happened last night to make the Lord afraid to touch her, it’s almost as if...oh no. Kiba thought as he started to form an idea of why the Lord was acting so distant. “My Lord, did something happen last night between you and Brittany?”
Alex’s head shot up as his eyes betrayed his surprise, but his lack of composure lasted for a brief second before anger flashed across his face. “What makes you think something happened? I can assure you that anything that happened between us was nothing that should come as a shock to you.” Alex retorted. Kiba could see the truth behind Alex’s words laying deep beneath his solemn gaze.
“My Lord, you shouldn’t worry about hurting her. The lass is a strong girl, and she loves you more than life itself.” Kiba said, trying his best to help out. He quickly added for Alex’s benefit. “That is, if anything should happen. I’m sure she would be strong enough to handle it.” Alex stared at Kiba as flames of anger started to rise within him. Kiba noticed this and smiled as he continued. “Anything that happened was nothing that you had any control over. It would be purely instinct for you, a subconscious desire. The fact that she is human doesn’t change you, or your feelings. Know this, what happened is not a sign of your weakness or lack of self control. If anything it is a sign of your love.”
“You mean hurting her, practically raping her, and scaring her half to death is supposed to be a sign of love!” Alex exclaimed knowing full well that Kiba had realized what had happened and that there was no point in pretending that everything was okay.
“From what I saw, it’s not the lass who is scared.” Kiba said softly. Alex’s anger ceased as he looked at the ground knowing that Kiba was right. “When I said it was a sign of love, that was because of the true nature of the reason you succumb to your more primitive desires.” Alex raised his eyebrow in question as he looked at Kiba.
“What do you mean by that? What true nature?” Alex asked. Kiba smiled at this as he motioned for Alex to sit.
“If you want me to give you a reason to quit living in fear of hurting her then sit. I’m guessing no one ever explained to you the reason behind a demon’s loss of control.” Kiba said. Alex sat down with interest as he waited for Kiba to continue. Kiba turned to face Alex as he became ver serious. “Now, I want the truth lad. Have you ever lost yourself when you’ve been with anyone else before you met the lass?”
Alex opened his mouth to speak, but shut it quickly as Kiba’s gaze intensified. Alex sighed softly as he answered. “No, I haven’t.” Alex confessed. It appeared as if he was embarrassed by the fact, causing Kiba to grin brightly. Lex misinterpreted Kiba’s grin as one of mockery causing Alex to lash out at him. “I don’t have time for this. If I wanted to be ridiculed I’d have contacted Zanatos and talked to him about my personal life. He’d have a field day with it.”
“Clam down lad, I’m not making fun of you.” Kiba said, his words full of sincerity. “ I keep forgetting that all things aside you are still relatively young for our realm. In the human realm you’d be about eighteen or so. Even Shadow and Holly are older than you. I guess the fact that you’re our Lord has made me forget about your youth.”
“What does that have to do with any of this?” Alex asked annoyed by the fact that he was so clueless about something that evidently everyone else had a vast amount of knowledge of.
“Because, I forgot that your parents were killed before you were old enough to have any use for what I’m about to tell you, so it’s only natural that you’d be confused by it. First off, the fact that you haven’t lost control with anyone else is a good sign. It means you didn’t care about anyone else. The fact that you’ve started to lose control with the lass is because you love her. Your demonic will and desire is amplified by your emotions, making it to where you cannot control your actions as your demonic side desires more.”
Kiba waited for Alex to absorb what he had just told him before continuing. “Now normally this wouldn’t be anything to worry about due to the fact that if your mate was a demon she would undoubtedly be stronger and would heal from anything that you did. She would become just as aggressive and both of you would enjoy the sensation. The fact remains however, that the lass is a human and therefore won’t be able to withstand your needs. She will be able to heal herself rom anything that you do to her, but still it would be better if she knew why you do what you did if you should ever lose control again.”
“Kiba, I could’ve killed her last night.” Alex said softly, all color leaving his face. “I can’t get close to her without wanting to be with her. Even now her scent is still present and is intoxicating. It nearly drives me mad not being with her, but I know it is for the best. There is one part that enjoyed what happened last night. It enjoyed the adrenaline rush, the excitement, and the tension. I can’t let that part of me get back out.”
“You shouldn’t look on it like a curse lad. Still, I understand your feelings about this situation.” Kiba replied. “Still, separating yourself form her will only prolong both of your suffering. The lass isn’t afraid, nor is she condemning you for what happened. That is true love. You are being selfish by not being with her, by not being there for her when she needs you. Now I will tell you this. If you are afraid of losing control then you will. Most demon’s would’ve succumbed to their desires long before you, and I believe that fact alone show’s how strong your love for her really is. You knew what would happen, surely from hearing stories while you were a soldier; and your emotions, your human emotions, kept you from succumbing to its temptation. You are far stronger willed than most my Lord, and you have a far better mate than most. For that you should be grateful. Now, if I were you, I’d go spend some time with her before we leave. I’ll get the troops ready while you go talk to her.”
Alex sat in silence, thinking about all he had just heard. Kiba watched him intently until Alex looked up at him and nodded. Alex smiled weakly as he got up. “There’s no point in resisting it. I lover her, I was a fool to think that I could honestly have stayed away from her for long. She’s my mate, my lover, my life she needs me just as much as I need her. Thanks Kiba, I owe you one.”
“It was my pleasure my Lord. I’m glad an old demon like me was able to help out a couple of young lovers.” Kiba said with a wink as he started to leave. Alex stopped him before Kiba could leave.
“Kiba, make sure to keep this matter...umm, confidential.” Alex said hesitantly. Kiba nearly burst out into laughter as Alex ran his hands through his hair nervously.
“Don’t worry my Lord. I wouldn’t dare tell a soul that you’re such a beginner at this.” Kiba said with a mischievous look in his eyes. Alex’s nervousness turned to cold anger as he glared at Kiba.
“I’m warning you Kiba, watch your tongue.” Alex warned. Kiba sobered up and nodded.
“Of course my Lord. My lips are sealed.” Kiba reassured him. Alex nodded, knowing that he could trust Kiba. Alex then looked towards the door and smiled.
“Now I have a girl I need to talk to.” Alex said with a determined look in his eyes.
Author's Note: I'm sorry if this chapter really isn't that good. Like I said before I was at the beach this weekend and I haven't slept for trying to write and have some fun. Also, the action shall pick up after the next chapter. Which to give you a preview, the next chapter will be titled 'Broken Promises'. Oh yeah before I forget, feel free to review my story whenever you want to. I thrive off of reviews ; ).
When she arrived she saw Alex sitting at the table, his head resting on his hands and his eyes closed. Brittany smiled softly as she walked up behind him and wrapped her arms around his neck and leaned close to kiss him. Alex’s eyes shot open as he received her kiss, his eyes lighting up with joy. His handsome features darkened as he looked back at the table and spoke softly, avoiding looking at Brittany.
“Today we’re starting to clean up Medea...or rather Celeste now. I’ll be personally helping them, so I won’t be here at the castle until late in the evening.” Alex started. Brittany could instantly see where he was going with this and shook her head as she moved to his side so that she could look him in the eyes.
“Don’t you think for a moment that you can get rid of me that easily mister.” Brittany defiantly exclaimed, shaking her finger in Alex’s face. “I want to help out too! So don’t think that I’m just going to wait her all day and do nothing.”
“I didn’t expect you too.” Alex admitted softly. Brittany could see the hesitation and fear that surrounded him and she realized what this was truly all about.
“Alex, you can’t keep worrying about what happened last night. Everything’s okay, I’m okay, you didn’t hurt me.” Brittany insisted, even though she too couldn’t shake the memories from her mind. She smiled as she turned Alex’s chair and sat in his lap, wrapping her arms around his neck and kissing him softly. Alex’s eyes widened in surprised, but he didn’t protest as he wrapped his arms around Brittany’s waist and deepened the kiss.
“Ahem, if you are through my Lord, I’m about to march the troops to Celeste.” Kiba announced. His face brightening at the sound of Celeste’s name as the name of the soon to be new town. Alex looked at Brittany and sighed, obviously trying to bury his worries as he nodded.
“Do not take all of them. Leave some here to warn us if anything should happen in our leave.” Alex said as he let Brittany get off of him so that he could stand. Kiba noticed the disappointment in Brittany’s face, but decided not to say anything.
I wonder what happened between those two. TH Lord’s eyes betray his feelings, something’s bother him. That doesn’t make sense thought, why would he try to distance himself from the lass thought? Last night they couldn’t keep their hands off of each other. Kiba thought. He then saw Alex direct his attention towards Brittany.
“You might want to go change into something that you’ll be able to work in.” Alex suggested as he gazed at Brittany clothes. Brittany was wearing one of Alex’s favorite dresses on her, yet still his eyes remained cold and emotionless towards her. Brittany nodded sadly as she headed back towards their bedroom, tears threatening to fall from her eyes as she hurried out fo the room. Kiba noticed a change in Alex’s expression as he watched Brittany leave.
The Lord still loves her, he’s trying to distance himself for a reason. They way he looked at her when she couldn’t see, it’s killing him not to hold her, so why in the hell is he trying so hard not to get close to her? Something bad must’ve happened last night to make the Lord afraid to touch her, it’s almost as if...oh no. Kiba thought as he started to form an idea of why the Lord was acting so distant. “My Lord, did something happen last night between you and Brittany?”
Alex’s head shot up as his eyes betrayed his surprise, but his lack of composure lasted for a brief second before anger flashed across his face. “What makes you think something happened? I can assure you that anything that happened between us was nothing that should come as a shock to you.” Alex retorted. Kiba could see the truth behind Alex’s words laying deep beneath his solemn gaze.
“My Lord, you shouldn’t worry about hurting her. The lass is a strong girl, and she loves you more than life itself.” Kiba said, trying his best to help out. He quickly added for Alex’s benefit. “That is, if anything should happen. I’m sure she would be strong enough to handle it.” Alex stared at Kiba as flames of anger started to rise within him. Kiba noticed this and smiled as he continued. “Anything that happened was nothing that you had any control over. It would be purely instinct for you, a subconscious desire. The fact that she is human doesn’t change you, or your feelings. Know this, what happened is not a sign of your weakness or lack of self control. If anything it is a sign of your love.”
“You mean hurting her, practically raping her, and scaring her half to death is supposed to be a sign of love!” Alex exclaimed knowing full well that Kiba had realized what had happened and that there was no point in pretending that everything was okay.
“From what I saw, it’s not the lass who is scared.” Kiba said softly. Alex’s anger ceased as he looked at the ground knowing that Kiba was right. “When I said it was a sign of love, that was because of the true nature of the reason you succumb to your more primitive desires.” Alex raised his eyebrow in question as he looked at Kiba.
“What do you mean by that? What true nature?” Alex asked. Kiba smiled at this as he motioned for Alex to sit.
“If you want me to give you a reason to quit living in fear of hurting her then sit. I’m guessing no one ever explained to you the reason behind a demon’s loss of control.” Kiba said. Alex sat down with interest as he waited for Kiba to continue. Kiba turned to face Alex as he became ver serious. “Now, I want the truth lad. Have you ever lost yourself when you’ve been with anyone else before you met the lass?”
Alex opened his mouth to speak, but shut it quickly as Kiba’s gaze intensified. Alex sighed softly as he answered. “No, I haven’t.” Alex confessed. It appeared as if he was embarrassed by the fact, causing Kiba to grin brightly. Lex misinterpreted Kiba’s grin as one of mockery causing Alex to lash out at him. “I don’t have time for this. If I wanted to be ridiculed I’d have contacted Zanatos and talked to him about my personal life. He’d have a field day with it.”
“Clam down lad, I’m not making fun of you.” Kiba said, his words full of sincerity. “ I keep forgetting that all things aside you are still relatively young for our realm. In the human realm you’d be about eighteen or so. Even Shadow and Holly are older than you. I guess the fact that you’re our Lord has made me forget about your youth.”
“What does that have to do with any of this?” Alex asked annoyed by the fact that he was so clueless about something that evidently everyone else had a vast amount of knowledge of.
“Because, I forgot that your parents were killed before you were old enough to have any use for what I’m about to tell you, so it’s only natural that you’d be confused by it. First off, the fact that you haven’t lost control with anyone else is a good sign. It means you didn’t care about anyone else. The fact that you’ve started to lose control with the lass is because you love her. Your demonic will and desire is amplified by your emotions, making it to where you cannot control your actions as your demonic side desires more.”
Kiba waited for Alex to absorb what he had just told him before continuing. “Now normally this wouldn’t be anything to worry about due to the fact that if your mate was a demon she would undoubtedly be stronger and would heal from anything that you did. She would become just as aggressive and both of you would enjoy the sensation. The fact remains however, that the lass is a human and therefore won’t be able to withstand your needs. She will be able to heal herself rom anything that you do to her, but still it would be better if she knew why you do what you did if you should ever lose control again.”
“Kiba, I could’ve killed her last night.” Alex said softly, all color leaving his face. “I can’t get close to her without wanting to be with her. Even now her scent is still present and is intoxicating. It nearly drives me mad not being with her, but I know it is for the best. There is one part that enjoyed what happened last night. It enjoyed the adrenaline rush, the excitement, and the tension. I can’t let that part of me get back out.”
“You shouldn’t look on it like a curse lad. Still, I understand your feelings about this situation.” Kiba replied. “Still, separating yourself form her will only prolong both of your suffering. The lass isn’t afraid, nor is she condemning you for what happened. That is true love. You are being selfish by not being with her, by not being there for her when she needs you. Now I will tell you this. If you are afraid of losing control then you will. Most demon’s would’ve succumbed to their desires long before you, and I believe that fact alone show’s how strong your love for her really is. You knew what would happen, surely from hearing stories while you were a soldier; and your emotions, your human emotions, kept you from succumbing to its temptation. You are far stronger willed than most my Lord, and you have a far better mate than most. For that you should be grateful. Now, if I were you, I’d go spend some time with her before we leave. I’ll get the troops ready while you go talk to her.”
Alex sat in silence, thinking about all he had just heard. Kiba watched him intently until Alex looked up at him and nodded. Alex smiled weakly as he got up. “There’s no point in resisting it. I lover her, I was a fool to think that I could honestly have stayed away from her for long. She’s my mate, my lover, my life she needs me just as much as I need her. Thanks Kiba, I owe you one.”
“It was my pleasure my Lord. I’m glad an old demon like me was able to help out a couple of young lovers.” Kiba said with a wink as he started to leave. Alex stopped him before Kiba could leave.
“Kiba, make sure to keep this matter...umm, confidential.” Alex said hesitantly. Kiba nearly burst out into laughter as Alex ran his hands through his hair nervously.
“Don’t worry my Lord. I wouldn’t dare tell a soul that you’re such a beginner at this.” Kiba said with a mischievous look in his eyes. Alex’s nervousness turned to cold anger as he glared at Kiba.
“I’m warning you Kiba, watch your tongue.” Alex warned. Kiba sobered up and nodded.
“Of course my Lord. My lips are sealed.” Kiba reassured him. Alex nodded, knowing that he could trust Kiba. Alex then looked towards the door and smiled.
“Now I have a girl I need to talk to.” Alex said with a determined look in his eyes.
Author's Note: I'm sorry if this chapter really isn't that good. Like I said before I was at the beach this weekend and I haven't slept for trying to write and have some fun. Also, the action shall pick up after the next chapter. Which to give you a preview, the next chapter will be titled 'Broken Promises'. Oh yeah before I forget, feel free to review my story whenever you want to. I thrive off of reviews ; ).