InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ A Deeper Destiny ❯ Chapter 21
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By: teishou 
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Action / Drama / Hentai / Romance / Angst | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 08.02.2007 | Pages: 4 | Words: 3.6K | Visits: 383 | Status: Work In Progress
Anime/Manga: InuYasha Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Action / Drama / Hentai / Romance / Angst | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 08.02.2007 | Pages: 4 | Words: 3.6K | Visits: 383 | Status: Work In Progress
A Deeper Destiny: Chapter 21
Disclaimer: Yeah, I really don’t like lawyers breathing down my neck so.. Rumiko Takahashi owns Inuyasha.
A/N: Minor lemon in this chapter! And didn't I warn you all? teishou is one for angst! PLEASE DON'T HATE ME!!!!!!
Sesshoumaru stared out the window of his study, watching as the sun’s rays bled color into the sky. Tinted with shades from the darkest of red-orange to the palest peachy pink, the sky complimented the red-stained sun. Forgotten scrolls; documents, treaties, and invitations lay scattered on his desk, no longer the object of his focus nor frustration.
No, it was a certain mated miko that was the cause of his unrest. She’d confessed her love to him, willingly mated him, but... On the very morning after their mating; dreamt of his brother, her first love. She’d cried his name in her sleep, with such grief and sorrow that even he, Sesshoumaru, the so-called ice lord, could discern the heartbreak in her voice. He’d stumbled out of bed then, a staggering pain seizing his heart, doubt and fear filling his mind.
When he’d encountered her later that day, his doubts were only made certain. She was distant, cold, submissive... Nothing like her real self. He had feared that she would regret their mating, that she would realize she loved only Inuyasha... And that he was only someone to fill the void. He did in fact share many physical qualities with Inuyasha, they were brothers after all. Who did she really see when she stared into his golden eyes, toyed with his silver hair? Did she imagine it was his brother making love to her and not he? His heart clenched agonizingly.
**Flashback**
Sesshoumaru entered the dining hall, pushing the great wooden doors open with unnecessary force. The servants that had happened to be in the room jumped and flinched, but the lone person that sat at the table remained still, head lowered and posture rigid. Her long, raven tresses were worn down, simply brushed out with no ornaments nor style; a strange occurrence, seeing as Kagome loved to arrange and adorn her hair. Taking his seat at the head of the table, he ignored the array of food that had been placed before him, instead choosing to stare openly at the woman who sat in the very spot the lady of the Western Lands should sit.
But who was this woman? She was not the Kagome he had fallen in love with, the Kagome he had mated with several times last night. Where was her laughter, her smile, her blithe and musical voice, her fiery eyes and even fiercer spirit? Surely this woman was not his Kagome. How could she be, with those dull eyes and quiet demeanor? Not once had a smile graced those lips, nor a spark lit in her eyes. She was rigid, stiff, and horribly formal. Where was that casual and gregarious disposition she exuded? She had not acknowledged him at all, save for the bow she had given as he seated himself. Her aura was bothering him immensely. She emanated deep sadness and misery, her aura bitter with regret.
"Kagome."
"Yes, my Lord?" His lips thinned into a line as she turned her head in his direction, eyes lowered. Fighting the urge to snarl in frustration, he stood abruptly.
"Should you need me, I will be tending to matters in my study. Warn the servants that I am to not be bothered."
"As you wish, my Lord." Sesshoumaru left hastily, rage consuming him.
**End Flashback**
Turning away from the window, he sighed and slammed a fist down on the pile of scrolls. That had been three days ago, and he had not seen her since. They did not even see each other at meals, he not showing up because he was supposedly busy, or she claiming to have no appetite. As of late, neither had entered the dining hall to eat, instead choosing to eat alone, he in his study and she in her room. They no longer slept in the same room, she having moved back to the room next door. His claws dug into his palm, crimson seeping from his clenched hand to stain the stark white of the paper. Lifting his hand, he opened his fist to watch as the puncture wounds healed; feeling his Youkai rise slightly as it repaired his injury. Turning his gaze to the bloodstained documents, he frowned-- just as someone knocked on the door.
“Enter.” The door opened slowly to reveal Ayako.
“My Lord, the Lady requests your presence in the private sleeping chambers.” She kept her head bowed, eyes never straying from her feet. Seconds passed by.
“I see. Tell her this Sesshoumaru will be with her shortly.”
“Lord Sesshoumaru, I was instructed to inform you, then to retire immediately to my quarters. She asked to not be disrupted for the rest of the evening, that she would only see you, milord.”
“Hn. Then do as the Lady pleases.” Ayako bowed deeply, her long braid spilling over her shoulder. Closing the door behind her, she hurried off. Sesshoumaru closed his eyes for a moment, then schooled his features into his infamous stoic mask. Exiting his study and striding down the hall to his bedroom, he wondered why she would ask to see him now, since they had not spoken at all for the last three days. Steeling himself, he slid open the door and stepped into the room. His heart stilled as he found her standing at his balcony, her form silhouetted by the setting sun. Her slim figure was clad in a crimson kimono, silk he realized, as the sunlight shone on the material.
“You came.” She didn’t even turn around. “Don’t-- Don’t say anything right now. Just, hear me out, please.”
Akaku nijimu
taiyou wa subete o
terashite kita
ima mo mukashi mo
kono yuuyami ni
egaiteru souzou wa
Hatashite
kono te ni
oenai
mono na
no ka?
Her voice gained volume, her shoulders moving as she sang.
motto ima ijou ni
hadaka ni natte
ikite yuku jutsu oshiete yo
honno sukoshi dake
watashi o yogoshite
sou yatte hitori
kizutsuitari
mawari o
nakushita to shite mo
shinjitsu no uta wa
kono mune ni nagare
arasoi wa mada
tsuzukun darou
dono michi ima ga
taisetsu na no sa
gamushara ni natte
miotoshite kita mono
tatoeba
dare ka no
yasashii hohoemi mo
eien o shireba
donna kurayami mo
itami mo
itsuka kiete
sou yatte ima wa
watashi o yogoshite
zutto mukashi mita
tenkuu no shiro ni
itsuka wa
tadoritsukeru
shinjitsu no uta wa
o michishirube ni shite
eien o shireba
donna kurayami mo
itami mo itsuka kiete
shinjitsu no uta wa
kono mune ni nagare
Her voice lingered on the last vowel, voice gaining even greater volume. At this point, she turned around and looked him straight in the eye. She held his gaze as she sang, but his gaze wandered lower, drinking in the pale skin that he hadn’t seen for days. Her kimono hung off her shoulders, the sleeves slipping past her elbows, the tops of her breasts exposed to his sight. The vibrant red of her robe contrasted with the paleness of her skin, even more so noticeable as she stepped forward, one entire leg exposed as it appeared through the slit left by her unkempt kimono.
motto ima ijou ni
watashi o yogoshite
hon no sukoshi dake
watashi o yogoshit
shinjitsu no uta wa
michishirube ni shite
She stepped forward again, eyes closed and a hand to her chest. She ended her song with a gasp as her knees buckled, but was saved from the unforgiving floor as Sesshoumaru dashed forward, catching her around her waist. He held her against him for a moment, a single moment that felt like a lifetime, before giving in to his lust. Seeing her like this, as though she were offering herself to him, awoke something deep within him, something almost totally instinctual. His lips crashed hungrily onto hers and she returned his kiss willingly, succumbing to her desires as well.
One moment she was standing, the next she was sprawled out on their bed, a Taiyoukai on top of her. His kiss became gentle, tender, as he sat her up and pushed the sleeves of her kimono down her arms. She could almost taste the love and affection he emanated, and she wanted so badly to believe that he loved her. Sesshoumaru pressed her body to his, hissing at the flesh-on-flesh contact. She hadn’t noticed that he’d undressed, too caught up in his kiss. A single tear rolled down the side of her face as she gave in and allowed physical pleasure to take over her body, her mind sobbing as she told herself over and over that as they made love this one last time, he would love her.
It was easy to pretend that he loved her, since even now, he was so loving and tender.
Her eyes rolled back in ecstasy as he laved her body with his tongue, shivering as a warm afternoon breeze blew across her wet skin. He stalked up her body, rubbing his weeping hard-on against her entrance as he gave her a soft kiss. Trailing open-mouthed kisses down her jaw, he made his way to the juncture at her neck and shoulder; where his mating mark laid. Licking his mark, he sank his fangs into her flesh as he plunged into her awaiting depths.
As her peak began to build up, all thoughts began to fade from her mind. The lingering sadness was forgotten, the pain a dull sting. She let go of everything, giving into the man above her; the very man she loved with every ounce of her soul. She allowed the pleasure to wash over her.
As her inner walls began to spasm and contract, he drove himself harder and faster, then let himself go, exploding into her seconds after her own orgasm took over her body. Panting against her throat as he tried to catch his breath, he was startled when she caressed his cheek lovingly, tears gathering in her eyes as she pushed his hair from his eyes. Watching as her eyes slowly drifted shut as sleep claimed her, he allowed himself to submit to his exhaustion as well.
“Koi, you look so peaceful when you sleep.” A sad smile spread across her features. “I’m sorry for everything, Sesshoumaru. If I had known that you would regret mating me, I would have never accepted. Even if it meant losing you, I would never force you to return my love, nor mate a mortal. But you were always so honorable, always true to your word.” She paused to take a shuddering breath, wiping away stray tears. “Inu-Youkai mate for life. However, if their mate were to die, they would be allowed to take another. Strange... When I first heard of this, it frightened me. I feared that after my death, you would find another. But now, these words comfort me. Now I know that you’ll find happiness after I’m gone. Sesshoumaru, please forgive me.” She broke down into silent sobs at this point, clutching her chest. She dropped her head, hiding her face behind her hair.
“Sesshoumaru,” she looked up, tears spilling down her face, a painful smile upon her lips, “you may not have been my first love, but you were my first true love. The one I willingly gave mind, body, and soul to.” Silencing her sobs, her body still trembled as she bent down to place a kiss on the sleeping Taiyoukai’s lips. She turned away afterwards, staring down at her lap as she tried to stop her tears. Wiping her face dry, she slipped a hand beneath the futon to pull out the dagger she had hidden. Clutching the blade in both hands, she brought it to her chest, angling it slightly upwards at the point beneath her left breast, where her heart lay. Closing her eyes, she plunged the knife into her flesh. Her breath hitched, then her body collapsed.
“Fool.” Kagome’s head snapped up, body tensing as she spread her senses to pinpoint the voice. Her entire body froze when a figure stepped forward amidst the swirling mist.
Shinjitsu no Uta [Song of Truth] By Do As Infinity **Lyrics according to some other person at http://www.inuyashaworld.com/Lyrics_show.cfm?Lyric_ID=11
The crimson-stained sun
has illuminated everything;
now and the past.
Is what I have imagined within this twilight
more than my own hands can accomplish?
Please teach me how to live.
A little more vulnerably than I do now [1]
won't you taint me just a little?
That way, even if i get hurt
and lose everything around me,
this song of truth will flow through my heart
This dispute will probably go on
about that which is most precious. [2]
I’ve become a rebel, I've overlooked things
even the gentle smiles of strangers.
if eternity knows what manner of darkness
and when pain will vanish,
then that way, you shall taint me.
I looked always to yesterday, to the castles in the sky.
When will i be able to follow them?
this song of truth shall be my guide
If eternity knows what manner of darkness
and when pain will vanish,
this song of truth will flow through my heart.
Now, please, taint me just a little!
Please, just taint me, only a little!
This song of truth shall be my guide.
[] this literally means "to become naked", but I didn't think that was quite what they meant... ;) so I took a little artistic liberty.[2] this actually meant "what road" is most precious, but that didn't make as much sense, so I took a few more liberties. ^_^
Transliterated by Aoi Housenhttp://aoi.ex-dream.net/
Translated by hikari-sama hikari_sama@yahoo.com
The red-stained sun has shone on everything,
now and in the past
In the end,
The image will be written in darkness.
Be something that my hands can’t carry
More than you are now,
get naked.
Teach me how I can live on.
Dirty me,
just a little bit.
That way even if I’m alone,
wounded,
having lost all those around me,
The True Song will still flow in my heart.
The struggle will still continue.
No matter what,
this is an
important time.
We’ve become
reckless
and
lost something,
like someone’s kind smile.
If you know eternity,
any darkness
and pain will eventually fade.
Dirty me like that,
now.
Some day
we’ll arrive at the castle
in the sky
I once saw.
We’ll follow the True Song.
If you know eternity,
any darkness
and pain
will eventually fade .
The True Song flows in my heart
More than I am now,
dirty me.
Just a little bit,
dirty me.
We’ll follow the True Song.
**I suppose I like this version because it distinctly say ‘Dirty me’ and ‘Get naked, more than you are now.’ Some parts don’t make any sense, but it matches the chapter better, don’t you think?
Nyuka: Yes my dear, I will fix this. I can't have Sesshy and Kags break up right after mating, right? Or can I? Hmmm. . . . ONLY KIDDING! And yes, I hate it when Inuyasha makes things harder for Kagome too, which is partly why I prefer Sess/Kags pairings. I'm glad chapter 20 had the desired effect on you, and I hope you don't hate me for this chapter! And thank you for the double review!
half cat demon kagome: Wow, you amaze me. I love your little analysis and prediction segments! It's lilke you're psychic! Or maybe it's just that great minds think alike, ne? ^_______^ Oh man, I hope you don't hate me for this chapter! But it had to happen, okay? And oh gosh.. school. I'll be focusing on english and history this year, so they'll be my only AP classes. I think I have honors trig, let's just hope I can pass with a B this time. But i'm not taking any science this year! Whoo! Forget AP bio, i dont need it! Hahha. Well, whatever classes you take, good luck. Hopefully, this year will be better for us. Thanks for everything love!
Chase65: No, the path is not smooth at all, in fact, it is rough and endless, but tolerable when one is hopeful and hard-working. I would love to do another 'get happy' session in the magnolia grove, but i realized it's not always a great idea to solve your problems with sex. Not always. As for Mareo, I'm going to admit that he won't be using any of this to his advantage, because (off the record) he won't know about it until later.You're right about someone to run interference, but you'll just have to wait to see who it actually is. Yesss!! Glad this chapter had the desired effect on you. teishou and her angst.. hehhehe. & Thank you very much, i was afraid my fic wouldnt be.. interesting enough. But it must be, to have such great reviews from you guys.
kagome95323: I know, I know!!! I'm so evil! But please, it has to happen. Don't hate me, especially after this chapter. Aiieee!!! You're all going to hate me!!!! Please, pleae, don't hate me!! T_T
Disclaimer: Yeah, I really don’t like lawyers breathing down my neck so.. Rumiko Takahashi owns Inuyasha.
A/N: Minor lemon in this chapter! And didn't I warn you all? teishou is one for angst! PLEASE DON'T HATE ME!!!!!!
Sesshoumaru stared out the window of his study, watching as the sun’s rays bled color into the sky. Tinted with shades from the darkest of red-orange to the palest peachy pink, the sky complimented the red-stained sun. Forgotten scrolls; documents, treaties, and invitations lay scattered on his desk, no longer the object of his focus nor frustration.
No, it was a certain mated miko that was the cause of his unrest. She’d confessed her love to him, willingly mated him, but... On the very morning after their mating; dreamt of his brother, her first love. She’d cried his name in her sleep, with such grief and sorrow that even he, Sesshoumaru, the so-called ice lord, could discern the heartbreak in her voice. He’d stumbled out of bed then, a staggering pain seizing his heart, doubt and fear filling his mind.
When he’d encountered her later that day, his doubts were only made certain. She was distant, cold, submissive... Nothing like her real self. He had feared that she would regret their mating, that she would realize she loved only Inuyasha... And that he was only someone to fill the void. He did in fact share many physical qualities with Inuyasha, they were brothers after all. Who did she really see when she stared into his golden eyes, toyed with his silver hair? Did she imagine it was his brother making love to her and not he? His heart clenched agonizingly.
**Flashback**
Sesshoumaru entered the dining hall, pushing the great wooden doors open with unnecessary force. The servants that had happened to be in the room jumped and flinched, but the lone person that sat at the table remained still, head lowered and posture rigid. Her long, raven tresses were worn down, simply brushed out with no ornaments nor style; a strange occurrence, seeing as Kagome loved to arrange and adorn her hair. Taking his seat at the head of the table, he ignored the array of food that had been placed before him, instead choosing to stare openly at the woman who sat in the very spot the lady of the Western Lands should sit.
But who was this woman? She was not the Kagome he had fallen in love with, the Kagome he had mated with several times last night. Where was her laughter, her smile, her blithe and musical voice, her fiery eyes and even fiercer spirit? Surely this woman was not his Kagome. How could she be, with those dull eyes and quiet demeanor? Not once had a smile graced those lips, nor a spark lit in her eyes. She was rigid, stiff, and horribly formal. Where was that casual and gregarious disposition she exuded? She had not acknowledged him at all, save for the bow she had given as he seated himself. Her aura was bothering him immensely. She emanated deep sadness and misery, her aura bitter with regret.
"Kagome."
"Yes, my Lord?" His lips thinned into a line as she turned her head in his direction, eyes lowered. Fighting the urge to snarl in frustration, he stood abruptly.
"Should you need me, I will be tending to matters in my study. Warn the servants that I am to not be bothered."
"As you wish, my Lord." Sesshoumaru left hastily, rage consuming him.
**End Flashback**
Turning away from the window, he sighed and slammed a fist down on the pile of scrolls. That had been three days ago, and he had not seen her since. They did not even see each other at meals, he not showing up because he was supposedly busy, or she claiming to have no appetite. As of late, neither had entered the dining hall to eat, instead choosing to eat alone, he in his study and she in her room. They no longer slept in the same room, she having moved back to the room next door. His claws dug into his palm, crimson seeping from his clenched hand to stain the stark white of the paper. Lifting his hand, he opened his fist to watch as the puncture wounds healed; feeling his Youkai rise slightly as it repaired his injury. Turning his gaze to the bloodstained documents, he frowned-- just as someone knocked on the door.
“Enter.” The door opened slowly to reveal Ayako.
“My Lord, the Lady requests your presence in the private sleeping chambers.” She kept her head bowed, eyes never straying from her feet. Seconds passed by.
“I see. Tell her this Sesshoumaru will be with her shortly.”
“Lord Sesshoumaru, I was instructed to inform you, then to retire immediately to my quarters. She asked to not be disrupted for the rest of the evening, that she would only see you, milord.”
“Hn. Then do as the Lady pleases.” Ayako bowed deeply, her long braid spilling over her shoulder. Closing the door behind her, she hurried off. Sesshoumaru closed his eyes for a moment, then schooled his features into his infamous stoic mask. Exiting his study and striding down the hall to his bedroom, he wondered why she would ask to see him now, since they had not spoken at all for the last three days. Steeling himself, he slid open the door and stepped into the room. His heart stilled as he found her standing at his balcony, her form silhouetted by the setting sun. Her slim figure was clad in a crimson kimono, silk he realized, as the sunlight shone on the material.
“You came.” She didn’t even turn around. “Don’t-- Don’t say anything right now. Just, hear me out, please.”
Akaku nijimu
taiyou wa subete o
terashite kita
ima mo mukashi mo
kono yuuyami ni
egaiteru souzou wa
Hatashite
kono te ni
oenai
mono na
no ka?
Her voice gained volume, her shoulders moving as she sang.
motto ima ijou ni
hadaka ni natte
ikite yuku jutsu oshiete yo
honno sukoshi dake
watashi o yogoshite
sou yatte hitori
kizutsuitari
mawari o
nakushita to shite mo
shinjitsu no uta wa
kono mune ni nagare
arasoi wa mada
tsuzukun darou
dono michi ima ga
taisetsu na no sa
gamushara ni natte
miotoshite kita mono
tatoeba
dare ka no
yasashii hohoemi mo
eien o shireba
donna kurayami mo
itami mo
itsuka kiete
sou yatte ima wa
watashi o yogoshite
zutto mukashi mita
tenkuu no shiro ni
itsuka wa
tadoritsukeru
shinjitsu no uta wa
o michishirube ni shite
eien o shireba
donna kurayami mo
itami mo itsuka kiete
shinjitsu no uta wa
kono mune ni nagare
Her voice lingered on the last vowel, voice gaining even greater volume. At this point, she turned around and looked him straight in the eye. She held his gaze as she sang, but his gaze wandered lower, drinking in the pale skin that he hadn’t seen for days. Her kimono hung off her shoulders, the sleeves slipping past her elbows, the tops of her breasts exposed to his sight. The vibrant red of her robe contrasted with the paleness of her skin, even more so noticeable as she stepped forward, one entire leg exposed as it appeared through the slit left by her unkempt kimono.
motto ima ijou ni
watashi o yogoshite
hon no sukoshi dake
watashi o yogoshit
shinjitsu no uta wa
michishirube ni shite
She stepped forward again, eyes closed and a hand to her chest. She ended her song with a gasp as her knees buckled, but was saved from the unforgiving floor as Sesshoumaru dashed forward, catching her around her waist. He held her against him for a moment, a single moment that felt like a lifetime, before giving in to his lust. Seeing her like this, as though she were offering herself to him, awoke something deep within him, something almost totally instinctual. His lips crashed hungrily onto hers and she returned his kiss willingly, succumbing to her desires as well.
One moment she was standing, the next she was sprawled out on their bed, a Taiyoukai on top of her. His kiss became gentle, tender, as he sat her up and pushed the sleeves of her kimono down her arms. She could almost taste the love and affection he emanated, and she wanted so badly to believe that he loved her. Sesshoumaru pressed her body to his, hissing at the flesh-on-flesh contact. She hadn’t noticed that he’d undressed, too caught up in his kiss. A single tear rolled down the side of her face as she gave in and allowed physical pleasure to take over her body, her mind sobbing as she told herself over and over that as they made love this one last time, he would love her.
It was easy to pretend that he loved her, since even now, he was so loving and tender.
Her eyes rolled back in ecstasy as he laved her body with his tongue, shivering as a warm afternoon breeze blew across her wet skin. He stalked up her body, rubbing his weeping hard-on against her entrance as he gave her a soft kiss. Trailing open-mouthed kisses down her jaw, he made his way to the juncture at her neck and shoulder; where his mating mark laid. Licking his mark, he sank his fangs into her flesh as he plunged into her awaiting depths.
XxxX
Even as he continued to move within her, his incoherent mind was rambling on unconsciously. He managed to block most of it out, somewhat lost in the luscious feelings that coursed throughout his body. He didn’t understand why she would offer herself like this to him, but he wouldn’t ask; he would use this chance to prove himself, to try and mend the broken bond between them. She was his mate; he had to keep her happy. If he, Sesshoumaru, Lord of the Western Lands, couldn’t keep his mate happy, how could he possibly be fit to rule the Western Lands?As her peak began to build up, all thoughts began to fade from her mind. The lingering sadness was forgotten, the pain a dull sting. She let go of everything, giving into the man above her; the very man she loved with every ounce of her soul. She allowed the pleasure to wash over her.
As her inner walls began to spasm and contract, he drove himself harder and faster, then let himself go, exploding into her seconds after her own orgasm took over her body. Panting against her throat as he tried to catch his breath, he was startled when she caressed his cheek lovingly, tears gathering in her eyes as she pushed his hair from his eyes. Watching as her eyes slowly drifted shut as sleep claimed her, he allowed himself to submit to his exhaustion as well.
XxxX
Kagome blinked drowsily, then snuggled back into the warmth of her mate, who lay beside her. She stared out the open balcony, the full moon illuminating the two in bed with its bluish, pale light. Caressing the clawed hand at her hip lovingly, she caught sight of something dark amidst the white sheets of their bed. A crimson kimono lay beneath her, and Kagome frowned as she tried to remember.Pain seized her heart as regained total consciousness and remembered her purpose. She sat up slowly, taking her time to study the silver-haired Taiyoukai beside her. She pressed a finger gently to his forehead, concentrating her miko solely on the sleep spell she cast. She slipped into the blood-red kimono, careful to smooth out the wrinkles.“Koi, you look so peaceful when you sleep.” A sad smile spread across her features. “I’m sorry for everything, Sesshoumaru. If I had known that you would regret mating me, I would have never accepted. Even if it meant losing you, I would never force you to return my love, nor mate a mortal. But you were always so honorable, always true to your word.” She paused to take a shuddering breath, wiping away stray tears. “Inu-Youkai mate for life. However, if their mate were to die, they would be allowed to take another. Strange... When I first heard of this, it frightened me. I feared that after my death, you would find another. But now, these words comfort me. Now I know that you’ll find happiness after I’m gone. Sesshoumaru, please forgive me.” She broke down into silent sobs at this point, clutching her chest. She dropped her head, hiding her face behind her hair.
“Sesshoumaru,” she looked up, tears spilling down her face, a painful smile upon her lips, “you may not have been my first love, but you were my first true love. The one I willingly gave mind, body, and soul to.” Silencing her sobs, her body still trembled as she bent down to place a kiss on the sleeping Taiyoukai’s lips. She turned away afterwards, staring down at her lap as she tried to stop her tears. Wiping her face dry, she slipped a hand beneath the futon to pull out the dagger she had hidden. Clutching the blade in both hands, she brought it to her chest, angling it slightly upwards at the point beneath her left breast, where her heart lay. Closing her eyes, she plunged the knife into her flesh. Her breath hitched, then her body collapsed.
XxxX
Nothing. That’s what she felt. Absolutely nothing. She looked about herself. Since when was the afterworld covered in a shroud of white mist? She was in the afterworld, right? She had to be somewhere like that, she was dead after all. Was she in heaven? Hell? Somewhere in between? Where ever she was, would she be able to watch over everyone on Earth? Her heart began to hurt when Sesshoumaru crossed her mind. Feeling hot moisture on her cheeks, she realized she was crying. She dried her tears on the sleeve of the crimson kimono she wore.“Fool.” Kagome’s head snapped up, body tensing as she spread her senses to pinpoint the voice. Her entire body froze when a figure stepped forward amidst the swirling mist.
-End Chapter-
A/N: Ohh yes. More angst. But at a cost, you all probably hate me now. Here’s the translations;Shinjitsu no Uta [Song of Truth] By Do As Infinity **Lyrics according to some other person at http://www.inuyashaworld.com/Lyrics_show.cfm?Lyric_ID=11
The crimson-stained sun
has illuminated everything;
now and the past.
Is what I have imagined within this twilight
more than my own hands can accomplish?
Please teach me how to live.
A little more vulnerably than I do now [1]
won't you taint me just a little?
That way, even if i get hurt
and lose everything around me,
this song of truth will flow through my heart
This dispute will probably go on
about that which is most precious. [2]
I’ve become a rebel, I've overlooked things
even the gentle smiles of strangers.
if eternity knows what manner of darkness
and when pain will vanish,
then that way, you shall taint me.
I looked always to yesterday, to the castles in the sky.
When will i be able to follow them?
this song of truth shall be my guide
If eternity knows what manner of darkness
and when pain will vanish,
this song of truth will flow through my heart.
Now, please, taint me just a little!
Please, just taint me, only a little!
This song of truth shall be my guide.
[] this literally means "to become naked", but I didn't think that was quite what they meant... ;) so I took a little artistic liberty.[2] this actually meant "what road" is most precious, but that didn't make as much sense, so I took a few more liberties. ^_^
Transliterated by Aoi Housenhttp://aoi.ex-dream.net/
Translated by hikari-sama hikari_sama@yahoo.com
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A/N: However, I also like this version of the lyrics: **these lyrics came from www.animelyrics.comThe red-stained sun has shone on everything,
now and in the past
In the end,
The image will be written in darkness.
Be something that my hands can’t carry
More than you are now,
get naked.
Teach me how I can live on.
Dirty me,
just a little bit.
That way even if I’m alone,
wounded,
having lost all those around me,
The True Song will still flow in my heart.
The struggle will still continue.
No matter what,
this is an
important time.
We’ve become
reckless
and
lost something,
like someone’s kind smile.
If you know eternity,
any darkness
and pain will eventually fade.
Dirty me like that,
now.
Some day
we’ll arrive at the castle
in the sky
I once saw.
We’ll follow the True Song.
If you know eternity,
any darkness
and pain
will eventually fade .
The True Song flows in my heart
More than I am now,
dirty me.
Just a little bit,
dirty me.
We’ll follow the True Song.
**I suppose I like this version because it distinctly say ‘Dirty me’ and ‘Get naked, more than you are now.’ Some parts don’t make any sense, but it matches the chapter better, don’t you think?
Nyuka: Yes my dear, I will fix this. I can't have Sesshy and Kags break up right after mating, right? Or can I? Hmmm. . . . ONLY KIDDING! And yes, I hate it when Inuyasha makes things harder for Kagome too, which is partly why I prefer Sess/Kags pairings. I'm glad chapter 20 had the desired effect on you, and I hope you don't hate me for this chapter! And thank you for the double review!
half cat demon kagome: Wow, you amaze me. I love your little analysis and prediction segments! It's lilke you're psychic! Or maybe it's just that great minds think alike, ne? ^_______^ Oh man, I hope you don't hate me for this chapter! But it had to happen, okay? And oh gosh.. school. I'll be focusing on english and history this year, so they'll be my only AP classes. I think I have honors trig, let's just hope I can pass with a B this time. But i'm not taking any science this year! Whoo! Forget AP bio, i dont need it! Hahha. Well, whatever classes you take, good luck. Hopefully, this year will be better for us. Thanks for everything love!
Chase65: No, the path is not smooth at all, in fact, it is rough and endless, but tolerable when one is hopeful and hard-working. I would love to do another 'get happy' session in the magnolia grove, but i realized it's not always a great idea to solve your problems with sex. Not always. As for Mareo, I'm going to admit that he won't be using any of this to his advantage, because (off the record) he won't know about it until later.You're right about someone to run interference, but you'll just have to wait to see who it actually is. Yesss!! Glad this chapter had the desired effect on you. teishou and her angst.. hehhehe. & Thank you very much, i was afraid my fic wouldnt be.. interesting enough. But it must be, to have such great reviews from you guys.
kagome95323: I know, I know!!! I'm so evil! But please, it has to happen. Don't hate me, especially after this chapter. Aiieee!!! You're all going to hate me!!!! Please, pleae, don't hate me!! T_T