InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Betrayal's Gift ❯ Chapter 42
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A/N: I decided to post some more
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Hotaru woke up with an awful headache. She wondered why after what had happened was Hitomi so quiet, it unnerved her. She walked over to the mirror and looked at herself; she looked deep into her eyes to see if her demon Hitomi was still inside her head.
“Inuyasha hasn't seen me since the incident. I wonder if he is freaked out by me. It's all your fault you know, you had to try and hurt Shippo. Why? Why do you hate everyone including me? Aren't we a part of each other some how. We share the same body, the same memories…”
“…”
“How dare you be quiet now, come out and face me…are you scared?”
Then Hotaru's head began to burn on her left side and she clutched at it looking into the mirror, staring into her own violet depths. She wasn't going to back down, no not this time. Hitomi probably cost her her life of happiness with someone who actually loved her, someone who treated her decently. He wasn't Ken and even though she still had nightmares about that time Inuyasha was the one who was there to make those nightmares flee from her, he was the one who was there to remind her that her body was pure, clean and good.
“Come on talk to me Hitomi, answer me.”
Again her head burned hotter but she didn't budge, almost looking crazy herself she began to laugh at her reflection and there she was…inside like a ghost, there she was smirking at her.
“So, you come seeking me out huh? You've got some nerve.”
“Why Hitomi?”
“Because you stole him from me.”
“I did what?”
“That's right you stole him, you didn't love him, in fact you questioned why it was that you were attracted to someone whom you didn't even like and so soon after Ken. You felt my attraction and thought it was your own.”
“Inuyasha was cute, beyond cute but I had just been raped…so of coarse I would wonder. But that doesn't explain why you did what you did. I didn't steal anybody.”
“You didn't? Think sweety, I didn't have a body, which is why I've done what I've done so that I can have Inuyasha, but no, you had to steal him away from me, just like you stole everyone else.”
Hotaru furrowed her brow in confusion.
“What are you talking about? Who else did I supposedly steal?”
“Don't you remember anything? You and I used to play a lot when we were younger…think…I was with you from conception, from the day we were born, but no one ever noticed me. Daddy never had a clue even when I would specifically try and show him my accomplishments. Whenever I showed daddy how clever I was I wound up getting in trouble. He never noticed me. Momma had an idea, she watched closely…don't you remember? But she hated me so much that she tried to kill me, remember that dream you had the other night?”
Hotaru gripped her chest; the feeling of it was all too memorable.
“What about it?”
“That was my memory, you took mother away too, you took daddy, everyone loved you but no one loved me. Not even Inuyasha. We made love the other day. I allowed him to lose control and it was beautiful only for him to shove me away like an old dog when a new puppy enters the house. He said I was evil, so did our mother…why…why are you so saintly and I'm evil incarnate heh?”
Hitomi yelled out in frustrated envy. Hotaru sat there tears in her eyes, it couldn't be true her mother could not have tried to kill Hitomi, because in killing Hitomi that would have meant that she'd have died too. Hotaru shook her head, so much had to be processed.
“No, I don't believe you…if she did that than how could she have loved me? I would have died too and …”
“I don't think she cared about that.”
“Why are you saying this to me now huh? I mean we had eighteen years together.”
“Correction, you cast me aside, you went and learned how to manage your mind and seal me away, keeping me from the sunshine, but I was always behind your eyes, in the shadows with my own thoughts and my own desires not being recognized. How would you feel if your family rejected you, tried to kill you? But then the one person the one person that I always felt closest too, that we were always together betrayed me, you tried to be normal, tired to pretend you didn't hear my voice. Why, were you scared of me? I don't think that I am bad, misunderstood yeah…but if I am evil it's all your fault, you cast me away in the darkness, you looked your nose down at me. So you fuck off!”
And with that Hotaru was left alone staring at herself in the mirror. Was Hitomi right, was all this her fault? She was being selfish back then wanting to fit in with the normal kids, but that wasn't to be. Every time she blacked out Hitomi was the one who did something to someone causing them pain. Was she lashing out? When her mother tried to purify her, was it Hitomi she tried to purify?
`Oh Inuyasha I need you, I need to feel that calm and I feel so jittery right now.'
And with that thought she headed back to the journals to find her answers.
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Where do I start, how do I begin? This whole in my heart can never be mended, but I deserve to feel this way, I betrayed him; I shamed myself by sleeping with Miroku. His best friend, my companion and fiancé to the woman I called sister. I don't know how it happened, it just…did. Miroku looked beyond me and so deeply into my soul that I lost myself. I remember hearing Inuyasha's roar seconds after I had my orgasm, the ice that spread like wild fire down my spine still haunts me. I feel like dying everyday and yet, I find that I can't do it. I can't kill myself.
It's funny that I remembered what Kikyo told me before she departed, `You truly are my reincarnation, for you will betray Inuyasha.' She didn't say it out of malice or jealousy or anything like that; she was just speaking of something she knew to happen. I wish she were more specific than maybe I would have heeded her words. I not once ever thought that I would lose the one person in the entire world I love. I had even made it up in my mind that I would leave my life here with my mother, brother and grandfather just to stay with him. The jewel was gone and the threat. Even if he had never told me he loved me I was going to stay. I didn't want for my journey with him to end. But I messed it up, may it be fate or destiny I messed it up and now I'm empty.
Ironic being that my belly is full with Miroku's baby. I'm in my ninth month and I still pretend that I'm with Inuyasha and that I am carrying his child until I wake up from my fantasy and see Miroku's smiling face as he rubs my engorged belly. I smile at him because I have too. Funny, after I saved his life I realized mine was ruined. I could never return, Inuyasha would never accept my apology that look in his eye when he threw me to the ground like a cheap whore, fire and ice melded together I truly felt fearful of him certain that even now as I write this he is somewhere waiting to meet up with me again just so that he can kill me. He wanted to then, I don't know what stopped him and yet I am still so selfish. Still.
I believe the jewel of four souls is reaching out for me for the jewel is within this baby girl. I might still have a chance to get everything I want. I am still willing to leave everything behind to be with Inuyasha including Miroku's baby, my baby. But, I won't be able too. I brought Miroku here to my time and now he's lost, no identification, no social ID, no education I owe him. Mother was hesitant at first not comprehending what had happened, I know she wants to know what had happened between Inuyasha and I, but how can I tell her that her daughter cheated on the man she loves. How can I tell my mother that I am a whore? Sure I already know what she would say; she would say all the right things and when enough time passes Inuyasha will forgive me. But it's too late. I got pregnant the same day Miroku took me by the well. This child within my body is a constant reminder of how I betrayed Inuyasha.
Another thing I owe him for is for the constant thoughts of killing this baby. I've sat for days crying alone somewhere away from Miroku feeling sorry for myself. One day I found myself in an abortion clinic getting ready to fill out some paper work. I was four months pregnant. Realizing where I was I ran out of there like a wild rabbit. I don't even remember how I got there. I just remember feeling that if I didn't have this baby I can have Inuyasha back. I locked myself up in my room crying because I wasn't acting like myself. I was hating Miroku for being so damn nice to me, so damn happy and acting like he was going to make the most of our situation. It pissed me off to no ends. I wanted to scream and shout, but, who am I to do that. I ruined his life, so I owed him. I took Sango from him, I could've shot that damn arrow sooner, I could have had more confidence in myself and maybe…
Well, it's not much longer until I have this baby. And I am glad that I feel a little differently toward this child inside me. I only pray that these are just my hormones and nothing deeply rooted within my heart. But that is what I am afraid of.
Hotaru sat stunned, to stunned to let her tears fall freely. `I was conceived with betrayal? Me? My mother…she tried to abort me…just as I tried…and Inuyasha…his cold demeanor in the beginning, his hatred of women was because of my mother? So, where does that leave me? Does he really love me?'
Than Hotaru's eyes widened out in acknowledged horror. `Oh god no…no please god don't tell me…I've been used again!'
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Inuyasha sat down in the chair that was provided for him in the kitchen while Miroku made some tea. He was annoyed. He had nothing to say to Miroku so why did he follow him to the house. That's right because he said he knew what was wrong with his Hotaru.
“Well you ass are you going to tell me what's wrong with Hotaru and how I can fix it!”
“You really haven't changed much my old friend.”
“Keh, as if you were ever my friend.”
Miroku smiled and picked up the tea kettle.
“Tea?”
“…”
“Alright then how, about some ramen?”
Inuyasha nodded his head yes and then coughed to regain his arrogant sit while he dined with the enemy. Miroku smiled again that wistful smile of a man who remembered something fondly. Inuyasha shut his eyes and began to growl in impatience.
“Here you go, you have to wait…”
“Yeah, I didn't forget asshole, now tell me what you know already.”
“When Kagome was pregnant with Hotaru she believed that the shikon jewel was within the baby. Of coarse I was skeptical at first. Kagome's grandfather said that it was possible if the jewel hadn't fulfilled its destiny.”
“How could that be possible if you sucked it up in your wind tunnel?”
“That was the same question I had asked, but, the old man had a point even though he was useless as a monk. The example he used was this, the jewel was burned with Kikyo's body right?”
Looking at Miroku suspiciously Inuyasha responded “right.”
“Ok, well, it resurrected itself in Kagome. The jewel was destroyed the first time but made another appearance because its destiny wasn't fulfilled. Well, even if I sucked it up it found its way back to life and came in Hotaru. Maybe, somehow the jewel is controlling her. When she was a little girl she was able to display an uncanny level of spiritual power. I felt it when she revived things.”
“Yeah, I know what you're talking about. The first time I met her I felt a lust for power and it was radiating off of her…like the jewel. And then when she made the entire tree blossom like it was spring when I marked her my woman…”
Miroku was giving him a very intense pissed off look with a twitchy eyebrow. He cleared his throat and proceeded before Inuyasha said anything else.
“Anyway, when I had asked Kagome where the jewel was located in our daughter she couldn't answer. She said her entire aura was a glow with it. But it seems that at times when our daughter was little she displayed negative spiritual powers as well. Kagome at the time didn't know that I knew that she had tried to drown our daughter. Ms. Higurashi told me. Out of grief, guilt, anger, self pity I cheated on Kagome. I found some agreeable wenches and did my usual hentai routine. I felt horrible for doing that to Kagome, but, I felt betrayed that she would try and kill the only pure thing that happened between our union.”
“Why are you telling me all this?”
“Because, if you're going to be with my daughter Inuyasha, you really can't keep hating us, you can't keep hating me. Or are your intentions of revenge the only thing that is still on your mind. Why would you want to save my daughter if you don't care for her at all?”
“Keh. What do you know about it?”
“I know that you made love to her even before your outburst. Kagome was there and now she's in the hospital because she over dosed on pills. I'm leaving her.”
“What! After taking her from me you're going to leave her?”
“Don't you get it Inuyasha; you've got your vengeance. Kagome loves you and she never truly loved me. We were thrown together because of our guilt, but, for my part…I did fall in love with lady Kagome only for her to make love to you in her mind every time she coupled with me. You've won a long time ago. So, I'll leave her, instead of making her twilight years a misery as well.”
Inuyasha flushed crimson. He never thought that this was going on and now how did he feel knowing all this. Because of their guilt Hotaru suffered.
Inuyasha brought his mind out of his musing. He hadn't seen Hotaru now in two days. He's been afraid to go into the infirmary. What would he tell her? I'm glad I didn't kill you?
Sesshomaru stepped beside him and walked in pace with him.
“Brother, where have you been these past two days?”
“I was in Hotaru's time, I was finding out some information about her. Apparently, she holds the shikon jewel within her body. Miroku confirmed our suspicions. Apparently, the jewel's destiny has yet to be fulfilled and so reappeared.”
“I see, and being that she has a dual personality the negative one might be using the power of the jewel.”
“Exactly, so, Hotaru uses the pure side of the jewels powers. Miroku believes that maybe, when…damn it…Kagome tried to kill Hotaru and he believes that maybe from what's he's learned and seen on moving pictures that Hitomi was created to keep that secret from Hotaru. He said that Kagome was different while she was with child, that she believed the child was evil, so maybe, that is why Hitomi is so…well you know. ”
Sesshomaru thought about what he said. Everything seemed to come together and make sense. But, how would they cure her then?
“I know what your thinking Sessh, but if we somehow get Hotaru to remember what had happened maybe she can become one person again. It's just which person she would become. There's a chance that Hotaru would die and Hitomi can take over. And that is exactly what Hitomi wants.”
Inuyasha was quiet for a moment in reflective thought. Sesshomaru just watched him. Already suspecting what Inuyasha had been thinking he waited for his younger brother to speak out loud what was so apparent in this thoughts.
“Hotaru was a tool to obtain my revenge against them; I didn't care if it hurt her she was just the means to get back at them, back at Kagome for betraying me…”
After he finished saying what he said he felt something crawl icily up his spine. Both youkai turned around slowly only to see Hotaru standing in the hallway her body glowing and levitating. Both brothers looking identical said in union “Oh shit!”
“Inuyasha hasn't seen me since the incident. I wonder if he is freaked out by me. It's all your fault you know, you had to try and hurt Shippo. Why? Why do you hate everyone including me? Aren't we a part of each other some how. We share the same body, the same memories…”
“…”
“How dare you be quiet now, come out and face me…are you scared?”
Then Hotaru's head began to burn on her left side and she clutched at it looking into the mirror, staring into her own violet depths. She wasn't going to back down, no not this time. Hitomi probably cost her her life of happiness with someone who actually loved her, someone who treated her decently. He wasn't Ken and even though she still had nightmares about that time Inuyasha was the one who was there to make those nightmares flee from her, he was the one who was there to remind her that her body was pure, clean and good.
“Come on talk to me Hitomi, answer me.”
Again her head burned hotter but she didn't budge, almost looking crazy herself she began to laugh at her reflection and there she was…inside like a ghost, there she was smirking at her.
“So, you come seeking me out huh? You've got some nerve.”
“Why Hitomi?”
“Because you stole him from me.”
“I did what?”
“That's right you stole him, you didn't love him, in fact you questioned why it was that you were attracted to someone whom you didn't even like and so soon after Ken. You felt my attraction and thought it was your own.”
“Inuyasha was cute, beyond cute but I had just been raped…so of coarse I would wonder. But that doesn't explain why you did what you did. I didn't steal anybody.”
“You didn't? Think sweety, I didn't have a body, which is why I've done what I've done so that I can have Inuyasha, but no, you had to steal him away from me, just like you stole everyone else.”
Hotaru furrowed her brow in confusion.
“What are you talking about? Who else did I supposedly steal?”
“Don't you remember anything? You and I used to play a lot when we were younger…think…I was with you from conception, from the day we were born, but no one ever noticed me. Daddy never had a clue even when I would specifically try and show him my accomplishments. Whenever I showed daddy how clever I was I wound up getting in trouble. He never noticed me. Momma had an idea, she watched closely…don't you remember? But she hated me so much that she tried to kill me, remember that dream you had the other night?”
Hotaru gripped her chest; the feeling of it was all too memorable.
“What about it?”
“That was my memory, you took mother away too, you took daddy, everyone loved you but no one loved me. Not even Inuyasha. We made love the other day. I allowed him to lose control and it was beautiful only for him to shove me away like an old dog when a new puppy enters the house. He said I was evil, so did our mother…why…why are you so saintly and I'm evil incarnate heh?”
Hitomi yelled out in frustrated envy. Hotaru sat there tears in her eyes, it couldn't be true her mother could not have tried to kill Hitomi, because in killing Hitomi that would have meant that she'd have died too. Hotaru shook her head, so much had to be processed.
“No, I don't believe you…if she did that than how could she have loved me? I would have died too and …”
“I don't think she cared about that.”
“Why are you saying this to me now huh? I mean we had eighteen years together.”
“Correction, you cast me aside, you went and learned how to manage your mind and seal me away, keeping me from the sunshine, but I was always behind your eyes, in the shadows with my own thoughts and my own desires not being recognized. How would you feel if your family rejected you, tried to kill you? But then the one person the one person that I always felt closest too, that we were always together betrayed me, you tried to be normal, tired to pretend you didn't hear my voice. Why, were you scared of me? I don't think that I am bad, misunderstood yeah…but if I am evil it's all your fault, you cast me away in the darkness, you looked your nose down at me. So you fuck off!”
And with that Hotaru was left alone staring at herself in the mirror. Was Hitomi right, was all this her fault? She was being selfish back then wanting to fit in with the normal kids, but that wasn't to be. Every time she blacked out Hitomi was the one who did something to someone causing them pain. Was she lashing out? When her mother tried to purify her, was it Hitomi she tried to purify?
`Oh Inuyasha I need you, I need to feel that calm and I feel so jittery right now.'
And with that thought she headed back to the journals to find her answers.
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Where do I start, how do I begin? This whole in my heart can never be mended, but I deserve to feel this way, I betrayed him; I shamed myself by sleeping with Miroku. His best friend, my companion and fiancé to the woman I called sister. I don't know how it happened, it just…did. Miroku looked beyond me and so deeply into my soul that I lost myself. I remember hearing Inuyasha's roar seconds after I had my orgasm, the ice that spread like wild fire down my spine still haunts me. I feel like dying everyday and yet, I find that I can't do it. I can't kill myself.
It's funny that I remembered what Kikyo told me before she departed, `You truly are my reincarnation, for you will betray Inuyasha.' She didn't say it out of malice or jealousy or anything like that; she was just speaking of something she knew to happen. I wish she were more specific than maybe I would have heeded her words. I not once ever thought that I would lose the one person in the entire world I love. I had even made it up in my mind that I would leave my life here with my mother, brother and grandfather just to stay with him. The jewel was gone and the threat. Even if he had never told me he loved me I was going to stay. I didn't want for my journey with him to end. But I messed it up, may it be fate or destiny I messed it up and now I'm empty.
Ironic being that my belly is full with Miroku's baby. I'm in my ninth month and I still pretend that I'm with Inuyasha and that I am carrying his child until I wake up from my fantasy and see Miroku's smiling face as he rubs my engorged belly. I smile at him because I have too. Funny, after I saved his life I realized mine was ruined. I could never return, Inuyasha would never accept my apology that look in his eye when he threw me to the ground like a cheap whore, fire and ice melded together I truly felt fearful of him certain that even now as I write this he is somewhere waiting to meet up with me again just so that he can kill me. He wanted to then, I don't know what stopped him and yet I am still so selfish. Still.
I believe the jewel of four souls is reaching out for me for the jewel is within this baby girl. I might still have a chance to get everything I want. I am still willing to leave everything behind to be with Inuyasha including Miroku's baby, my baby. But, I won't be able too. I brought Miroku here to my time and now he's lost, no identification, no social ID, no education I owe him. Mother was hesitant at first not comprehending what had happened, I know she wants to know what had happened between Inuyasha and I, but how can I tell her that her daughter cheated on the man she loves. How can I tell my mother that I am a whore? Sure I already know what she would say; she would say all the right things and when enough time passes Inuyasha will forgive me. But it's too late. I got pregnant the same day Miroku took me by the well. This child within my body is a constant reminder of how I betrayed Inuyasha.
Another thing I owe him for is for the constant thoughts of killing this baby. I've sat for days crying alone somewhere away from Miroku feeling sorry for myself. One day I found myself in an abortion clinic getting ready to fill out some paper work. I was four months pregnant. Realizing where I was I ran out of there like a wild rabbit. I don't even remember how I got there. I just remember feeling that if I didn't have this baby I can have Inuyasha back. I locked myself up in my room crying because I wasn't acting like myself. I was hating Miroku for being so damn nice to me, so damn happy and acting like he was going to make the most of our situation. It pissed me off to no ends. I wanted to scream and shout, but, who am I to do that. I ruined his life, so I owed him. I took Sango from him, I could've shot that damn arrow sooner, I could have had more confidence in myself and maybe…
Well, it's not much longer until I have this baby. And I am glad that I feel a little differently toward this child inside me. I only pray that these are just my hormones and nothing deeply rooted within my heart. But that is what I am afraid of.
Hotaru sat stunned, to stunned to let her tears fall freely. `I was conceived with betrayal? Me? My mother…she tried to abort me…just as I tried…and Inuyasha…his cold demeanor in the beginning, his hatred of women was because of my mother? So, where does that leave me? Does he really love me?'
Than Hotaru's eyes widened out in acknowledged horror. `Oh god no…no please god don't tell me…I've been used again!'
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Inuyasha sat down in the chair that was provided for him in the kitchen while Miroku made some tea. He was annoyed. He had nothing to say to Miroku so why did he follow him to the house. That's right because he said he knew what was wrong with his Hotaru.
“Well you ass are you going to tell me what's wrong with Hotaru and how I can fix it!”
“You really haven't changed much my old friend.”
“Keh, as if you were ever my friend.”
Miroku smiled and picked up the tea kettle.
“Tea?”
“…”
“Alright then how, about some ramen?”
Inuyasha nodded his head yes and then coughed to regain his arrogant sit while he dined with the enemy. Miroku smiled again that wistful smile of a man who remembered something fondly. Inuyasha shut his eyes and began to growl in impatience.
“Here you go, you have to wait…”
“Yeah, I didn't forget asshole, now tell me what you know already.”
“When Kagome was pregnant with Hotaru she believed that the shikon jewel was within the baby. Of coarse I was skeptical at first. Kagome's grandfather said that it was possible if the jewel hadn't fulfilled its destiny.”
“How could that be possible if you sucked it up in your wind tunnel?”
“That was the same question I had asked, but, the old man had a point even though he was useless as a monk. The example he used was this, the jewel was burned with Kikyo's body right?”
Looking at Miroku suspiciously Inuyasha responded “right.”
“Ok, well, it resurrected itself in Kagome. The jewel was destroyed the first time but made another appearance because its destiny wasn't fulfilled. Well, even if I sucked it up it found its way back to life and came in Hotaru. Maybe, somehow the jewel is controlling her. When she was a little girl she was able to display an uncanny level of spiritual power. I felt it when she revived things.”
“Yeah, I know what you're talking about. The first time I met her I felt a lust for power and it was radiating off of her…like the jewel. And then when she made the entire tree blossom like it was spring when I marked her my woman…”
Miroku was giving him a very intense pissed off look with a twitchy eyebrow. He cleared his throat and proceeded before Inuyasha said anything else.
“Anyway, when I had asked Kagome where the jewel was located in our daughter she couldn't answer. She said her entire aura was a glow with it. But it seems that at times when our daughter was little she displayed negative spiritual powers as well. Kagome at the time didn't know that I knew that she had tried to drown our daughter. Ms. Higurashi told me. Out of grief, guilt, anger, self pity I cheated on Kagome. I found some agreeable wenches and did my usual hentai routine. I felt horrible for doing that to Kagome, but, I felt betrayed that she would try and kill the only pure thing that happened between our union.”
“Why are you telling me all this?”
“Because, if you're going to be with my daughter Inuyasha, you really can't keep hating us, you can't keep hating me. Or are your intentions of revenge the only thing that is still on your mind. Why would you want to save my daughter if you don't care for her at all?”
“Keh. What do you know about it?”
“I know that you made love to her even before your outburst. Kagome was there and now she's in the hospital because she over dosed on pills. I'm leaving her.”
“What! After taking her from me you're going to leave her?”
“Don't you get it Inuyasha; you've got your vengeance. Kagome loves you and she never truly loved me. We were thrown together because of our guilt, but, for my part…I did fall in love with lady Kagome only for her to make love to you in her mind every time she coupled with me. You've won a long time ago. So, I'll leave her, instead of making her twilight years a misery as well.”
Inuyasha flushed crimson. He never thought that this was going on and now how did he feel knowing all this. Because of their guilt Hotaru suffered.
Inuyasha brought his mind out of his musing. He hadn't seen Hotaru now in two days. He's been afraid to go into the infirmary. What would he tell her? I'm glad I didn't kill you?
Sesshomaru stepped beside him and walked in pace with him.
“Brother, where have you been these past two days?”
“I was in Hotaru's time, I was finding out some information about her. Apparently, she holds the shikon jewel within her body. Miroku confirmed our suspicions. Apparently, the jewel's destiny has yet to be fulfilled and so reappeared.”
“I see, and being that she has a dual personality the negative one might be using the power of the jewel.”
“Exactly, so, Hotaru uses the pure side of the jewels powers. Miroku believes that maybe, when…damn it…Kagome tried to kill Hotaru and he believes that maybe from what's he's learned and seen on moving pictures that Hitomi was created to keep that secret from Hotaru. He said that Kagome was different while she was with child, that she believed the child was evil, so maybe, that is why Hitomi is so…well you know. ”
Sesshomaru thought about what he said. Everything seemed to come together and make sense. But, how would they cure her then?
“I know what your thinking Sessh, but if we somehow get Hotaru to remember what had happened maybe she can become one person again. It's just which person she would become. There's a chance that Hotaru would die and Hitomi can take over. And that is exactly what Hitomi wants.”
Inuyasha was quiet for a moment in reflective thought. Sesshomaru just watched him. Already suspecting what Inuyasha had been thinking he waited for his younger brother to speak out loud what was so apparent in this thoughts.
“Hotaru was a tool to obtain my revenge against them; I didn't care if it hurt her she was just the means to get back at them, back at Kagome for betraying me…”
After he finished saying what he said he felt something crawl icily up his spine. Both youkai turned around slowly only to see Hotaru standing in the hallway her body glowing and levitating. Both brothers looking identical said in union “Oh shit!”