InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Confrontation ❯ Heartbreak Part 2--Justification ( Chapter 23 )

[ Y - Young Adult: Not suitable for readers under 16 ]

A/N: I do claim ownership to Jouyoku and Miebi Kokushi, but not to any other character included in this fic!!

Chapter 23: Heartbreak (part 2) - Justification

Running up to him she threw her arms around his neck as she leaned up on her toes and placed a soft long kiss on his lips.

He flinched and pulled his head back, away from her as he looked down his nose at her, but he said nothing.

Looking around him she noticed Rin standing behind him with a look somewhere between disgust and pity on her face. Looking back at Sesshomaru she laid her head in the center of his chest while bringing her arms down so that they were loosely draped around his waist as she sighed believing that she had finally been reunited with her love.

Still Sesshomaru said nothing and didn't move a muscle. It was almost as if he was frozen where he stood.

“I understand now my love. You left because you needed to tend to her.” Kagura stated with a soft nod in Rins direction, “I know she's like a daughter to you so she'll be like a daughter to me as well. Together we'll take such good care of her, and maybe if you want we could have some of our own. That would be nice wouldn't it?” She finished sounding motherly.

Standing off to the side Miroku and Sango stood gaping at the scene in front of them. “What in the hell…” Miroku stated unable to make him self look away.

“Did she just call him her love?” Sango asked. She couldn't believe what she was seeing; Kagura was acting like she and Sesshomaru were in some kind of relationship. “Did s…she j…just kiss him?”

“Uhm, yes and yes.” The Monk responded wishing the Inuyasha were there because he knew he would have something so sarcastic to say that it would surely ruin this already rather disturbing moment.

Hearing the Youkai's plans Rin took another step away. She was confused. Why was this woman hugging on Sesshomaru like he belonged with her? Why was she saying that they would take care of her? Her Lord did a good job of that on his own. Why did she kiss him? While that last thought ran through her mind her eyes misted up with tears and a wale almost escaped her lips, but she slapped the back of her hand over her mouth before it could escape. She wanted to run and hide, she wanted to run up and pull the Youkai bitch off of her Sesshomaru, but she couldn't how could she…she was merely a child compared to her.

Smelling Rins tears he snapped out of his state of bewilderment. He didn't know why Kagura was acting like this or why she would think that she could just embrace him as if their together of sorts, but he had to stop her. What she was doing, and what she had said he knew it hurt Rin…he could smell the spike in her scent and the smell of her tears. Placing his hands between his body and Kagura he pushed her away.

Stunned by his action Kagura tried to regain her balance, “my love…”

“Cut the shit Kagura, what's the meaning of this?” Sesshomaru stated coldly. He had never been one to use foul language but as of lately nothing had been as it was.

Smiling up at him she ignored his question thinking that surely he must have been joking. Walking up to the girl practically hiding behind Sesshomaru she knelt down as if she was kneeling in front of a child. “Hello Rin.” She said in a soft motherly tone of voice as she reached out and grabbed the girls' arm pulling her to her.

Immediately Rin pulled her hand away but Kagura was too fast before she knew what happened she was being held in a tight embrace. Unable to hold her tears back or contain her emotions Rin screamed, “don't ever touch me!” as she swung her hand aimlessly slapping the Youkai hard across the face.

Stunned by the girls' antics Kagura prepared her hand to slap her back but stopped when she felt a hand on the back of her neck.

“Do it and I'll snap your neck in two.” Sesshomaru stated so coldly that it caused everyone present to shudder slightly. Tightening his hand on her neck and tugged just enough, causing her to fly back landing on her back a few feet away from the Monk and the Demon Slayer.

“Oh, damn.” The monk whispered as he took a step back and over to the side trying to distance himself from the wind sorceress. Reaching out he grabbed on to a stunned Sango and dragged her over to him.

“How dare you!” Kagura screamed as she got back to her feet. Straightening out her Kimono she glared at him as he whispered something to the girl Rin. “Sesshomaru, what is your problem? You can't just treat your mate like this and because of some human child? She needs to be taught to respect her elders!”

This got Sesshomaru's attention.

Standing straight up he couldn't believe what he had just heard. `Did she just call herself my mate?' He thought to himself as he noticed Rin step away from him. Grimacing he stated, “What kind of nonsense are you speaking?”

Sashaying up to him she tried to reach out and grasp his outer robe but he knocked her hands a side. Stepping back she looked at him as confusion started to mar her features. Trying to push the ugly thoughts aside that told her that something wasn't right, that she didn't feel connected to him she forced a half smile half frown, “so you will deny me?”

Becoming rather irritated with her he stepped back grasping Rins shoulder in one motion as he turned to walk away. `Leave now Kagura I do not wish to embarrass you any further.' He thought.

At the sight of his back the feeling of rejection hit her like a boulder falling on an ant. Quickly looking from side to side as if she was looking for someone she felt her insides quake. `He's denying me…after everything that we did…he marked me and now he will deny me…he'll treat me as if I'm some kind of whore!' She thought viciously. Unable to control herself she ran after him, “you will not deny me!” She screamed as she reached out to grab him but was met by his hand wrapped around her throat.

“Kagura, I will only say this once. I do not know of what you speak.” He stated calmly. Releasing his hold on her he continued, “You try my patience, woman.”

Looking at him she started to have a flashback of the night before. His hands on her breast, his lips on her nipples the feel of him deep inside of her, the feeling it gave her as he plunged deeper and deeper over and over. His eyes…in her head she saw gold then a flash of magenta. Shaking her head she thought to her self, `magenta? His eyes their golden, like the sun or the moon on a…' Looking up at him she shook her head dismissing those thoughts, “I will not be ignored, do you hear me?”

“Kagura go back to where ever it is you've been hiding, there's nothing here for you.” He wasn't sure just how much more he could tolerate from this woman. The only reason he hadn't already ripped into her was because he could smell the scent of the Youkai Jouyoku all over her so he knew that whatever was going on here, had something to do with him.

Turning away he wanted nothing more than to put distance between him and this woman. Although he wanted to know, he also knew he didn't have time to stay and figure it out. The things that she was saying were upsetting Rin and she was his first priority.

She couldn't believe that he was treating her…his mate in such a fashion. Running up to him she grabbed on to the back of his robe as she fell to her knees holding a fist full of the material tightly in her fist as if that would stop him from walking away from her, “how can you treat me like this? I'm your mate, you and me…we…”

Standing off to the side Sango and Miroku watched the scene like it was a tennis match.

“Oh this is so good.” The Monk whispered while rubbing his palms together. You would've thought that he had just eaten the most delectable piece of pie and was waiting on another slice. When in actuality this was being brought on by the sight of Sesshomaru of all people trapped in a love triangle, `Inuyasha where are you?' He thought as a chuckle escaped his lips.

“Miroku, stop it! This isn't funny! Look at her, why would she be saying she's Sesshomaru's mate if she really didn't think she was.” Sango stated urgently but she herself was unable to pull her eyes away from the living soap opera.

Turning abruptly Sesshomaru hissed, “I'm tai-youkai do you really believe that I would even entertain the thought of having someone as despicable as yourself for a mate?” He knew his words were harsh but he had tried more than once already to get her to leave him alone.

The wind sorceress looked up at him as if he had just lost his mind. What was he talking about didn't he mark her, hadn't she kissed him below the belt? How could he forget that? How could he pretend that he didn't remember? `He marked me…' believing that she had proof of their mating she smirked, “in the eyes of a blind Youkai this would prove that you're my mate.” She snapped as she reached up and pulled back the collar of her inner Kimono revealing the bite mark.”

“Woman you are insufferable!” The white lord snapped paying no attention to the marks, “you are mated Kagura, but not to me!”

Simonkal of Inuy

She sat there for what seemed like hours and nothing happened. She wanted who ever or what ever it was to show it's self, but still nothing happened.

She felt betrayed by her one true love, belittled by Ayame and hunted by the demon Jouyoku she wanted to run to the well that she was sure would take her home to the safety of her mothers' home…her childhood home, but she couldn't make herself get up…she couldn't make herself leave him.

Even though he wasn't here with her she could still feel his presence all around her like a warm blanket. `Maybe that's why even though I know I should go I can't, because when I'm in my time I can't feel him…my heart knows that he's not there.' Shaking her head she tried to dismiss her broken hearted thoughts. She knew she loved him and longed to be with him, but how could she when he didn't believe in her, when he didn't have any faith in her?

Yawning she laid her head back against the tree thinking that perhaps she would take a quick nap and then continue on her way to the well or either she would go back and talk to Inuyasha, but what ever she decided to do she knew it would have to wait until after she had awakened, right now she was simply and utterly exhausted. Letting her eyes slowly close she mumbled incoherently, “Inu…yasha you have to believe in…” as darkness enveloped her.

She wasn't sure how long she had been sleeping or if she had even slept at all but she felt something hard yet soft rub against her jaw line and down the side of her neck, `is that someone's… hand?' She thought lazily. She tried to open her eyes but the weariness of her body the emotionally draining fatigue she felt was too overwhelming all she wanted to do was sleep. Moaning lightly she sluggishly moved her head to the other side as if telling whom ever it was to leave her be.

For a moment she felt herself slipping back down into the deepest darkest recesses of her mind where the much-needed rest she hunted awaited her. Unfortunately as quickly as it came it was gone, she felt her body being lifted. Who ever was carrying her he was making sure not to wake her...not to disturb her, for that she was thankful.

She didn't know if it was exhaustion that was stopping her from feeling the fear she knew she should have been feeling at this moment or if somewhere deep inside her, she had subconsciously accepted her fate what ever that may be, but she curled her body with in his arms and willed herself not to care as she called out to the darkness once more to take her.

Simonkal of Inuy

He walked as if he was in a daze. Not knowing where he was headed but knowing all the same.

He knew he should've told her long before all of this started how he felt about her, but it was always something in the way. When he first admitted to himself that he was in love with her they were fighting Menomaru son of Hyoga. She had been possessed by him was trying to kill him but the whole time that he dodged her attacks the only thing he could think about was how he would not allow a replay of what happened between him and Kikyo. Finally she did end up catching him and almost killing him at the base of the Goshinbuko, but even then it didn't stop his soul from reaching out to her 500 years in the future calling her back to him.

`Will I ever be able to let you go, Kagome?'

Then it was the demon Kaguya self-proclaimed Princess of the mirror. First she reflected Kagomes' arrow back towards him, which she had only shot in order to save him. The stupid girl actually threw herself in front of him to save his life but ended up getting hit by the arrow herself. He remembered the feeling that ran through him at that moment when he thought that she was dead…that she had died to save him. The ache that festered in his soul drove him almost insane. Kaguya had then taken Kagomes' body with her, at the sight of that all he knew was that he had to get her back, no matter what the cost.

`How many times have I almost lost you, only to have you returned to me?”

He remembered being in Kaguya's castle and being bewitched by her. She saw into his soul that his true wish was to be a full demon so she tried to capture his human side within her mirror, but Kagome…she would have none of that. Refusing to loose him she faced down the demon with in him and sealed him away again, with one kiss.

`Is that when my Youkai side chose you?'

Ducking his head to walk under some low-lying branches he continued on his journey unfocused on his surroundings and lost in his own personal thoughts. He vaguely remembered his fathers' sword So'unga appearing in Kagomes' time. He tried to claim hold to the sword to take it back to the feudal era where it belonged but the sword took a hold of him…of his soul. The feeling he got from the sword was an overwhelming urge to kill…to maim everything and everyone in his path, but when it tried to make him turn on her, as powerful as it was he couldn't. Every fiber of his being, every nerve in his body fought against the sword.

`Don't you know Kagome that I could never…I would never hurt you! It's not you that I don't believe in, it's me.'

Looking off into the distance he noticed the sky beginning to darken and saw the smoke of several cooking pits billowing into the sky. He didn't know why but this reminded him of Kikyo. Perhaps it was the smell of burnt wood and ash that reminded him of the one obstacle, or brick wall that always seemed to appear out of nowhere whenever he was beginning to accept that he was not to blame for her death and that by dieing again with her, he would accomplish nothing.

For these reasons and more he always held his tongue in regards to his feelings for the Miko, for fear of making promises to her that he wasn't sure he would be able to keep in the end. The last thing he wanted to do was promise her forever and end up leaving her before forever came. What if they had pups? He would have to leave her to raise them alone like his father left his mother to raise him. He couldn't do that, he had to be sure that he really had forever to give her.

`It seems that either way I might loose you. If I tell you, there's a possibility that you'll still leave me or I'll end up leaving you and if I don't tell you I might loose you anyway.'

Sure he could be selfish and claim her as his mate anyway, but what would that accomplish? At least this way she can still move on, she can still marry like humans do and have babies. She would still have a future in her time, with her true family and her educated friends.

The thought of sending her away…letting her go broke his already severed bleeding heart. Sure all of this sounded good in his head but would he really be able to do it? This girl was his strongest weak point and the air that he drew into his lungs. With one smile she could brighten his whole world on the stormiest day, and with one kiss she could make his soul quiver. She had snuck up on him when he least expected it and stole his heart, his soul, his life and now he felt he had no choice but to take them back in order to allow her to live on with out him and his broken promises.

Until Next Time…