InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ It is you I have loved ❯ Actions Have Their Consequences ( Chapter 15 )

[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]

SO….Two cans of Pringles, 3 trips to the gym, and about 57 cans of diet soda later: Here's the next chapter.

What had she just done!? Why had she done that!? What the hell was wrong with her!? `I'm such a whore! I love Inuyasha! How could I do this to him!?...Inuyasha…' What would he think of her? Would he even care? She was worthless to him, right? He didn't care about letting her have a break. He'd done this before. He didn't care about waiting for her to finish her visit to her time. Ha! She'd even once thought he might be changing his mind especially recently. He'd watched her bathe for crying out loud. She wouldn't suggest to Inuyasha that she understood what his watching meant though. After what he'd just seen of what she'd almost done, she'd be absolutely worthless in his eyes. He'd never want some immature, wanton girl who fell into the arms of whoever would offer them. `fall into the arm of whoever would offer it.' She might have sniggered at the thought but was too disgusted by herself to even smile. `And they'll both hate me now. I ran away. Like I always do. How childish, how cowardly!'

Although she was furious with herself for running away, she felt a strong wave of anguish roll over her as she really took in what she had almost done. She'd almost given up her virtue, the virtue she'd been saving for someone special…someone in particular. She'd let her desires control her. She was no better than those girls she'd often scoffed at for getting pregnant, thinking them easy and brainless. Now, Kagome knew she was no better. Although she'd not actually committed the act, she was about to and she knew that if Inuyasha had not interrupted them, she would have allowed Sesshomaru to finish what he'd started.

Kagome's heart was squeezing tightly. Her virtue was something she was supposed to have guarded. She liked Sesshomaru, sure, but he was nowhere near important enough. Your virginity is not something you can get back, and Kagome felt sick and scared that she'd almost given it away `…so easily'. Tears pooled, hot, fast, and hard in her eyes. Such anguish, such pain. She didn't even know herself anymore.

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A fierce pounding on the window tore Kagome's eyes from the floor. Her curtains were shut but she could see the silhouette of the last person she wanted to face right now. He was outside her window, banging furiously and although Kagome couldn't see his face, his posture clearly showed his anger.

The pounding was becoming more insistent as Inuyasha's voice barked for her to let him in, now. `Oh gods, oh gods! What do I do!?' There was a harsh cracking noise and a sudden gust of wind. The pink curtain on Kagome's window blew back to reveal a murderous hanyou holding Kagome's entire windowpane, which he'd ripped from the wall. He jumped forward and grabbed Kagome's arm…with more force than necessary; he could barely control his anger.

“WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT!?” Inuyasha was screaming, frantic. She didn't know what to do. It was too much. All she could do was sob helplessly into the ground.

“Why the hell were you...what the hell were you…WITH HIM!?” More sobs.

“Dammit Kagome! Answer me!”

“Kagome!” Kagome's mother had burst into Kagome's room just a second before, having heard the screaming. Kagome had snuck in the back entrance to her house, not wanting to be seen, so her mother was obviously surprised to hear noise in Kagome's room. Since she recognized the voice and was so weak from running and crying, Kagome did not turn to see who it was. She should have though.

“Kagome!” That voice! That one wasn't her mother's! Slowly, painfully, Kagome turned her head to follow the fabric of a formal suit up to the worried, confused eyes of a very flustered Hojo. Just as slowly as she had before, Kagome turned to look up at Inuyasha. If looks could kill, the one Inuyasha was giving Hojo would have killed him a thousand times over.

“YOU!” Hojo's neck snapped up at the sound of Inuyasha's voice.

“…You! Who are you!? What did you do to her!?” Hojo shot the question at Inuyasha, looking angry and a little scared.

“I didn't do anything. Though, it's none of your damn business if I did.”

“Inu…Inuyasha…” This was a side of Inuyasha Kagome's mother had never seen. She had rushed over to her daughter's side to hold her while she sobbed and was now staring, dumbfounded, at the one man she'd truly trusted with her daughter. Though, she was beginning to doubt. Hojo had come to the house a little over half an hour ago, claiming that some crazy guy in a red outfit and long white hair had stolen Kagome. She wasn't really worried though. She recognized Inuyasha's description. The sight she'd seen upon entering Kagome's room was extremely suspicious though. Kagome had been only half-dressed, looked like she'd been struggling on the ground, the leaves in her hair strong evidence for that. There were puncture marks on her arm, bruises on her neck, and she was sobbing uncontrollably, Inuyasha standing over her, looking furious. Finally she noticed the fact that Kagome's window had been ripped clean out of it's pane.

“What…What happened?”

“Ask her! She knows better than I do!” He made no attempt to hide the scorn in his voice.

“Inuyasha…” Kagome's mother, although somewhat afraid of him at the moment, was glaring at Inuyasha. Something had happened to Kagome and Inuyasha was standing there, yelling.

NO! She couldn't tell her mother or Hojo what had transpired that evening. She couldn't allow herself to say aloud what had almost happened. She couldn't bare Inuyasha's gaze anymore. She had to leave.

Without a second thought, Kagome shot from her mother's arms, into the hallway. Not missing a beat, Inuyasha shot after her. He heard Kagome's mother scream and Hojo jump out of the way, crashing to the floor. In her haste, Kagome had not realized that her slack dress and lack of stilettos left extra fabric to graze the floor. On the second step down, her foot caught and she went tumbling forward…into something solid. Though, she hadn't continued rolling like she'd expected to.

Inuyasha saw her trip. She was so careless! He jumped forward to catch her. Kagome cringed. Her eyes slowly opened to focus on Inuyasha. He'd intended on continuing his questioning but was stopped dead in his tracks.

Kagome's eyes were swollen; tears had made salty tracks down her dirty face. A small track of blood seeped from her left arm, where he'd grabbed her. Kagome smelled strongly of sadness, stress, and…fear. She was afraid of him. Inuyasha's heart sank. He'd been so angry, so confused that he'd allowed himself to become this monster. He'd scared Kagome. Kagome should never be afraid of him. He had always worked so hard to make sure she felt safe with him. And here she was, running away from him…in fear.

Kagome saw Inuyasha's face contort and his mouth open as if he was about to continue his tirade then he just…stopped. A myriad of emotions flitted across Inuyasha's face and finally his eyes dropped, his ears drooping. Kagome stole this chance to free herself. And, as Kagome flew down the stairs and out the front door, there was no angry hanyou following, no furious accuser chasing her.

`That bastard! I finally got Kagome alone long enough and he has to ruin everything! I'm gonna kill him! My only chance, and now I bet he's off somewhere chasing her down, trying to convince her to come back to him. I was so close, so damn close!'

Sesshomaru had been so dumbstruck at being found in such a vulnerable position, that when his brother chased after Kagome, it took him too long to realize he should have stopped, and killed, him. He cared about Kagome but many times she let her emotions get the better of her. Very often, that quality was endearing. She cared about others and despite their lineage or past she took them as friends and allies. Though, Sesshomaru also knew what a grave weakness this was. Besides the fact that she'd trusted him when he was still undecided about killing her, her emotions often allowed her to be swayed into temporary lapses of proper judgment. Though it hurt Sesshomaru to think about it, he knew that what he and Kagome had almost done had been a product of one of those lapses. He also knew that it would never happen again. `Damn.' All these emotions were really tearing at him and even though he knew he shouldn't, he felt so hopeless when it came to Kagome.

`What have I done? I should never have lost my temper with her like that! Good job, idiot! Now Kagome's afraid of you! She could never love someone she's afraid of.' Inuyasha, after evading Kagome's mother, knew he should follow Kagome. She always let her guard down when she was upset. It wouldn't bother him too much if he knew she was going back to her house because she would be safe with her family. Now though, he knew she wished to return home the least, probably convinced that Inuyasha would be waiting to question her some more. He would follow her because, as he'd come to find out, her time was just as dangerous as his own.

He'd followed her scent for a few minutes before finding that it stopped at the house of one of Kagome's friends. He'd recognized that girl's smell and knew that that particular friend of Kagome's was sensible and wouldn't allow Kagome to wander aimlessly. The only thing he could do now was wait until he could apologize to her when she returned…'if she returns'.

“No, Miroku, I'm seriously worried. It was like she didn't even see us. And did you see how she looked? She was crying and her clothes were all tattered and hanging off her like she'd rolled down a hill or something…”

“I'm sure she's fine. She probably just got into another fight with Inuyasha and then tripped over something. Although I'm not sure why he brought her back here if he was just going to yell at her…”

Only a few minutes ago, Sango and Miroku had seen Kagome run, unseeing, back to her own time. Very soon after, a furious Inuyasha had followed her through the well. Though neither would speak the fear out loud, not wanting to be the first to call Inuyasha dangerous or untrustworthy, they were worried at what he might do to her. He'd been angrier than they'd ever seen him without turning to his demon state. Though, that's exactly what they feared; him turning full demon.

“WHERE IS HE!?” Sango and Miroku spun to face a fuming Inuyasha. They both just stared at him, too shocked, too afraid, to speak.

“WHERE IS MY BASTARD OF A BROTHER!?” Not wanting things to get too dangerous, Sango figured she should answer Inuyasha.

“Uh…uh he left. He had to, uhm he said he had some business to take care of back in his own lands.” Far from quelling Inuyasha's anger, Sango's answer sent Inuyasha reeling.

“WHAT!? That COWARD! That damn…that…URGH!” Inuyasha was so angry that he could barely think clearly. He had wanted to come back and kill Sesshomaru for what his brother had done to Kagome. He knew full well that Kagome herself would not initiate something like that. And while she may have responded, she would never had been the one to start it, not with Sesshomaru…or at least that's what he kept trying to convince himself of.

Inuyasha wanted so badly to chase after Sesshomaru and gut him. But at the moment, Kagome was more important. He needed to be here when she decided to return. He needed to be the first one to talk to her…he needed to apologize. He should never had turned into the monster that he had.

A/N: Sorry about the wait on this chapter. I was working on the last chapter and the epilogue of this story. I had a tiny bit of inspiration and I wanted to make sure it got threaded into the idea I already had laid out for those two final chapters. I know you guys will love them. At least, I enjoyed writing them so I really hope you enjoy them. Though, those chapters are quite a bit a ways from being put up because I still have loads of stuff that needs to happen. Plus, I'm a little fuzzy on a few of the upcoming chapters. Also, I've been kinda bogged down with homework (yay college) and working cheerleading into my schedule. Anyway, there will probably be about 25 chapters in all. Give or take .two chapters that is. So, please stick with the story

Side note: My 18th b-day was on the third and I spent my birthday money on groceries, hangers, and toilet paper twirls sarcastic party favor...yay for birthdays….