InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Kagome's Diary ❯ Close Call ( Chapter 2 )

Dear diary,

Oh. My. GOD.

No seriously.

OH. MY. G.O.D.D.D.

You might think it's for no reason--or I'm over reacting again like before, but really-

OH, MY, FRICKING GAWD!! GOD, GOD, GOD, GOD, GOD why, why?! WHY? WHY do you DO this to me? Seriously, WHAT did I do to you? What did I DO to deserve this, dear lord!

I just CAN'T BELIEVE this!
I can't believe I stayed up all night--no--not studying of course---watching a damn movie then falling asleep! Now, it's 10:00. 10:00 AM and I just woke up! And you know what the worst thing is? Not that I'm going to SO totally fail, not that I'm going to be over two hours late to school, not even that I can't find any of my homework or textbooks--but SOTA SAW THIS DIARY. I am SO dead, while now I got him on a thin string that's only kept together by all this blackmail he's doing and begging I'm doing he's hardly one inch away from spilling to Inuyasha ALL the gory, juicy details. I'm doubting any of my secrets are safe from him at all.
Worst part about this diary mess is my mom "somehow" found out about ME being the one who broke her vase, and when I said something about Inuyasha's pants being poofy was not blame for them getting caught on the chipping door and ripping, she smirked at me. No, it was just a smirk, not just "how cute" or "funny" smirk, it was an ALL-KNOWING smirk. And then she has to say, but they're such nice pants, emphasizing the "but" VERY much so. So much I just know Sota already revealed all my secrets to mom.

All of them, except the playboy magazine one, I'm sure. He wouldn't risk his own skin, risk mom finding out he had something like that. I couldn't believe he did when I found it.

What is he, like 10?

That doesn't matter right now--the main issue is that if mom knows everything---she MUST know about the whole "claws in bed" thing and the "kinky dog ears" thought!! I CAN'T THINK OF ANYTHING WORSE...

Oh wait, I can.

INUYASHA FINDING THIS DIARY--OR HEARING WHAT'S IN IT FROM SOTA!

That would be a nightmare come true.

I have to stay home--play sick, I can't deal with school right now while I'm gone, Sota could reveal EVERYTHING to Inuyasha, then I'd be SO done for.

Ok, so right now, I'm in bed, under my covers, waiting for mom and grandpa to come up and see me and how "sick" I am. But really, last night I feel asleep out in living room next to Inuyasha on the couch when the movie was ending, not in my bed. Mom knew I slept on the couch though last night and everyone had some time to big my this morning about it because for some reason mom doesn't like it when I fall asleep on the couch.
I know, what in hell possessed me to watch a movie when I was supposed to be studying? Well I ordered my like favorite movie ever off the Internet, and it decides to come in the mail yesterday.
Well, I had to watch it---I couldn't help myself--stupid online ordering with its bad timing! For some reason Inuyasha wanted watch it, but it's a total chick flick, I warned him of this but apparently he didn't understand (shoulda figured as much).
Anyway, it was kind of nice...a little romantic I guess--except that it was embarrassing watching it with him. Especially when the main characters did it and all, I was blushing to my roots, I couldn't believe I was watching this with A BOY IN THE ROOM. Plus I got TOTALLY mad, I mean it so looked like he was staring at the girl in it, which I REALLY didn't like.
"...y-you know..." I began, I was blushing SO BAD, "I usually fast forward this part..." Not really that true, when I rented this movie I watched the part twice because I couldn't make out what the girl was saying at this one part. It was either, "You're Brian" or "you're lyin'". I still don't know to this day. There's no subtitles on it either, so I really just don't know about it... But, if mom was ever in the room, I always fast-forwarded it...so it's not a TOTAL lie..
Course, he didn't even know what fast-forwarding meant and he looked at me with a confused expression. And I saw. He was blushing too, of course. "It's pretty immature of me," I said, which is true I mean, hello, I'm fifteen, this sort of stuff shouldn't even bother me, it sometimes does...usually only when other people are around, though, "...fast forwarding just sort of runs the through it faster, without any sound..."
Don't blame me for what I did next, ok? I totally panicked, I mean I seemed like a total little kid or something, and I didn't know what else to say to Inuyasha, so I just figured I should prove to him I wasn’t totally immature. I mean all this time I'd been waiting for Inuyasha to make a move on me, so I decided I'd take fate into my hands by lying my head on his shoulder.

Only I totally cowered out and played it like pathetic me. It was sad.

I DID manage to lay my head on his shoulder but then I could totally tell he was freaking out even with my eyes closed. "K-K-k-k-k-kagome?" Just like that, that's how he said it. I am NOT over exaggerating. Then, all I could do was pretend I was asleep. I can't believe how dumb and pathetic I am sometimes, I mean, it's just so entirely stupid. Not long after that, I really DID go to sleep, but for a long time I was just wondering if Inuyasha was staring at the girl in the movie. I had to peek a little and make sure. But fortunately, it didn't look like he noticed.

I think Inuyasha just came in, he sounds like he's talking to himself...at least...In think so... "Kagome's blankets." What the hell? Why is he talking about my blankets?



DAMMIT!! Why does everything happen to ME?!!! GOD!! REALLY! So yeah, Inuyasha DID come in, and he was acting totally weird too, as if he didn't know I was here. Guess what? He DIDN'T. And he was--I guess---trying to take my blanket or something, but he didn't know I was under it writing--I guess... Anyway, he tried to grab my blanket...but he grabbed a little something else as well! GOD! WHY? Of course, right when he did this I sat straight up, looking like--god knows what. He looked totally freaked out and embarrassed--more than I did, actually. Oh my god, wait, why the hell did he want my blanket anyway?
"Inuyasha?" I ask, as he’s starting to leave, he looks SO embarrassed. He stopped. He looks so freaked out right now. So yeah, he stammering a lot and telling me he NEEDED it because of my scent on it--that he wanted to track me down to my school. Something doesn't make sense though, because, I mean, he KNOWS the way to my school. After I get over being totally mad at him for wanting to follow me to school, I'm just confused now.
"Wait, you know the way to my school." Ok, now he looks like he's at a loss for words. He looks like he's trying to make up excuses. But why? I mean, why would he want my blanket? I could tell he was talking like he didn't know I was there, I know enough to figure out he didn't grab my boob on purpose...but why did he want my blanket?
"I'd give you my blanket," I said, looking away a little from him, "If I wasn't sick, but I need it. I'm staying home from school, by the way." For some reason he seems really happy about this.
"Really? You are?"
"Um...why are you so happy?" He shifts nervously.
"Cause well then you can--"
"I am NOT going to back to the Feudal Era I'm SICK!" I don't know why I'm so mad, but I sometimes can't believe how ticked I get when he seems insensitive. He kneels by my bed,.
"No, actually, if you're stayin' that means, you can beat the crap out of Sota for sayin’ all those lies about you and set 'em straight. He said all this stuff...it was real stupid. Seriously, though, nothin' I've done really makes a difference, I think your mom believe him. But I know you didn't write stuff like that in that journal, that little shit's goin' down!"

I AM GOING TO KILL SOTA!!! HE IS GOING TO WISH HE WAS NEVER BORN!!!

Fortunately, though, Inuyasha doesn't seem like he believes him. I can't believe I did all his chores for him, fed Buyo for him, cleaned Buyo's cat box for him...ate his lima beans, burped the alphabet in front of everyone, AND did all his homework for today as part of his blackmailing and it only results in him telling Inuyasha anyway! I can't believe him!

"What did he say about me?" Everything. I'm betting his said EVERYTHING.
"Well...he said all this weird junk, I don't know where the kid gets it. I wanted to beat him into the ground...but then your mom kinda got in the way."
"That's nice of you." He gets really flustered now.
"N-n-not...that I um--care that much, just I hate it when people lie to me, little turd."
"But what did he say?'
"He said...well, really messed up stuff..."
"Really messed up?" Ok, now my throat is just so dry...I mean, does Inuyasha think all that's stuff's THAT bad?
"...well...it wasn't THAT bad I guess, but it was pretty unyou. I mean, I just couldn't see you writing stuff, or thinking about what well..." I see a noticeable redness on his cheeks, "...what dog claws are like in BED, I mean that's just plain--well--I mean, come on. For one thing I KNOW you're not that kind of person--and seriously--I mean...you don't WANT stuff like that..."

DAMMIT, why can't I stop laughing really weirdly, it sounds like a combination between a puppy yelping and a hiccup, only worse. My face feels so DAMN HOT.
"It's ok, really Kagome, I know you're not some sex obses--" he so didn't have to say anymore, because I started yelling ballistically before he could finish, not sure what it was, but something like:
"BUT IT'S NOT LIKE THAT!! IT WASN'T LIKE THAT--I MEAN I ONLY--I DIDN'T--" Immediately I had shut up, and now there's this horrible silence and my face is just burning so badly, I just can't STAND it. He's just staring at me. And my face--it's getting worse! "I mean...never mind..." at least I got something out, but he's just staring.
"Is something wrong, Kagome?" My grandpa and my mom come in with these annoying smiles on their faces. I bet Sota told them both, and they totally believed him, yet Inuyasha...Inuyasha couldn't believe it. I just hope he STILL doesn't believe it...what am I thinking? There's no way. He has to. I was so totally obvious!
"Kagome..." he says turning to me. I can't take it...does he believe SOTA NOW? Am I totally dead? "I can't believe you guys!" Now he's screaming at my mom and grandpa...bad. "Kagome's all feverish and she's goin' nuts thanks to all of you! Why can't you just believe her! She's having a fuckin' panic attack! How could you think what that damn Sota said was true?" Ok, now I'm just in pure awe. I just don't even have the slightest clue what to say. I just can't believe he still doesn't believe what Sota said. It's right here in this book I'm writing in, right under his nose. Everything Sota said. The truth of it all, on these pages. And Inuyasha still doesn't believe him. This is denial at it's finest.

Alright, so I nearly panicked again when he put his hands on my face and stroked it saying how I felt very feverish and should stay home. My face only felt like it was burning up again. At least everyone is convinced I'm sick now. And you know what the scary part is. That his claws are too gentle I can't stand it. Though before I didn't think about it --and I shouldn't be now, when Inuyasha accidentally grabbed my chest, it didn't hurt at all. Not that I LIKED it or something freakish like that, but I guess I was right when I figured claws could be gentle.

But really, I should be more careful about what I write thanks to SOTA.

It really sucks because a girl needs some sort of outlet for her feelings, I mean she deserves some privacy not for her dumb brother to but his big fat nose into and spread around to every corner of the earth! I just hope Inuyasha keeps believing everything Sota has said are lies. And also, I just have to pray he doesn't get a hold of this journal, because if he does, then I don't think he can deny it anymore. I just am not a perfect angel. And I'm in love with him and thing he's the hottest thing since--since--well, since ever, in fact. It would be bad if he knew that though, because if he did, then I have a feeling his ego would probably swell and everything...plus then he'd think what he was saying before the sex obsessed thing was true, but its not... I just want him so badly--but I don't know what the hell I'd do if he found out.

Maybe it wouldn't be such a bad thing...

OH NO! He CAN'T find out, he just CAN'T!