InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ LOVE POISON ❯ Cornered: This Is Not Happening ( Chapter 3 )

DISCLAIMER: Don't own, don't sue. Inuyasha-tachi belong to the almighty Rumiko Takahashi. I decided to spare you of what This Youkai Musashi did to the inu brothers last night...

Ok people, this is the dreaded chapter I hate to post and hated to write...please please don't hate me!!! I'm an INU/KAG fan and this was hard for me to write! Next chap is finished and I hope you will be pleased with that one! Review? Pretty please? Don't flame me onegai this is NOT an INU/DEADBITCH fic! Remember I promised a happy ending? You do, don't you? ::pathetic look:: Come on you guys, I need more reviews!!! You do want to see Inu & Kagome happy, right? Then review! If not for me, do it for them! :)

 

 

CHAPTER 3: CORNERED: THIS IS NOT HAPPENING

 

 

"Why are you here?" Inuyasha asked softly.

 

Like always, seeing Kikyou clouded his senses, and his heart fluttered, blinded by her beauty and obscured by his guilt.

 

"I came to see you." She answered. "I never thought I'd see you like this, Inuyasha. You're not ugly to look at, you know." Her smirk widened and he thought for a second he saw a flash of lust cross her eyes.

 

"Well, aren't you happy to see me?" She asked, mockingly. "I want to help you, Inuyasha. You still have feelings for me, don't you? Your pretty face is so easy to read..."

 

Inuyasha opened his mouth to say something but closed it when Kikyou laughed softly. Laughed at him.

 

Yes, he still had feelings for her. He knew exactly what those feelings were, but every time he saw her he seemed to forget...

 

'I loved this woman,' he thought. 'I loved her and I let her die. She can't rest in peace because of me. She hates me now, doesn't she? What does she want from me? Did she come to kill me? I can't...I won't go with her now...not before I destroy that bastard...not before I...'

 

Kagome's face flashed in his mind, her smile soft and her cheeks flushed, Kagome's face in his dream, her naked, heated body pressed against him, her mouth hungrily devouring his...Kagome's scent, sweet and spicy and irresistible.

Kagome's eyes, intense and adoring...Kagome's heart, pounding out of control against his chest in his dream; beating against his back when he carried her, threatening to drown out all sounds in his ears...

 

The salty, heartbreaking smell of Kagome's tears when she saw him with Kikyou...her sad eyes when she just knew he had been with Kikyou...Kagome's pain was his pain...Kagome...

 

Kikyou's voice brought him roughly back to reality.

 

Inuyasha didn't know how long he had been silent, but he suddenly felt very cold and very much alone.

 

"Well...are you going to stay in the water all night?" Kikyou was asking him. "Come out, Inuyasha. Let me look at you."

Her voice softened and Inuyasha's confusion must have been pretty obvious because she laughed at him again and shook her head, as if she couldn't believe how easy he was to manipulate.

 

Inuyasha looked away. "Why are you here?" He asked again, desperately trying to cling to sanity and losing the battle.

 

"I've always wanted you. You know that, don't you? If you had become human for me..." Her voice trailed off, her large, empty eyes misting over.

 

Inuyasha blushed a deep crimsom. Yes, he knew that all too well.

But did he want her now? No.

Did he love her? Yes. He always would.

 

But...did he want? He wanted...wanted...damn, he had lost it!

 

"I - I want..." He muttered.

 

"Not me. You never wanted me, when I was alive you didn't even know what lust was...and I couldn't have you, not while I was a priestess...I longed to be free of my burden, to be with you... you would have wanted me then, Inuyasha. As a human man, you would have been ready for me. But your body's ready for me now, isn't it? Inuyasha, I will make you forget...what is troubling you. I can't make love to you, but..."

 

'What is she saying? Kikyou...she would never talk like this! But...who is this woman? Same aura, same face...who is she? Kikyou...do you love me still? You want to be with me forever...except you're dead, damn, it took me so fucking long to realize that you had changed....what is this I see? Love in your eyes? You want eternity with me, but you do not want life with me, because you can't have life...what do you want from me now? I still love you...I guess I always will...and I - I just don't know if you're still there...in that clay body...every time we meet, I just don't know what to see, what to feel...when I don't see you I know you're not there...I hope a part of you still remains...but is the Kikyou living in that body only full of hatred? For me? For the world? Are you still there, Kikyou?'

 

No, she wasn't still there.

 

And yet to his horror, Inuyasha slowly realized he was getting out of the water. He couldn't help himself. He always lost his mind when she was around.

 

'I love her.' A part of his mind screamed at him. 'She's my destiny. I swore to protect her...I love her. The woman who sacrificed herself and went to Hell for me. She loves me too... doesn't she? A part of her does...which part? Why, the part that is Kagome's soul, of course...'

 

'Yes, fifty years ago you loved her and maybe - maybe she loved you too. She was alive then. She was so beautiful and powerful and pure and what a welcome surprise it was that she seemed to love you back...it was a new and exciting feeling...it made you feel all warm inside, it made you feel like a good person...almost. You loved her and you were so young...and she was so innocent then.

But you swore to protect Kagome now. Kikyou is dead, she's standing in front of you but you know she's dead, look at her, you know it. You love Kagome now...the woman who would die for you, Kagome who let herself be shot before she let that arrow pierce your heart...and better yet, Kagome who lives for you...passionate, brave, generous Kagome, who possesses the purest soul...the kindest heart...a beauty that's all her own. Kagome who always thinks of her friends before herself...the girl who loves you and accepts you as you are and forgives you everything...the girl who wants to always be with you, no matter what...fuck, the girl you don't deserve.'

 

This part of his mind screamed the loudest.

 

But now Inuyasha was not aware at all of what he was doing, or of what Kikyou was expecting of him. He felt numb, he was lost.

 

"I cannot make love to you..." Kikyou was saying again. "My body. It is dry." She clenched her fists at her sides. Anger flashed in her eyes, but it was not directed at him.

 

Inuyasha froze, standing before Kikyou, naked and wet and confused as hell.

 

He watched silently and wide eyed as the dead priestess kneeled down in front of him, looking up at him under her thick eyelashes.

 

Kami, she was beautiful...she was Kikyou...definetely Kikyou...looking at him with no trace of hatred in her eyes...why was that? Why now? And why was he suddenly so...afraid?

 

'Stop. Stop it. Inuyasha wake up! Look at her, she's beautiful, but her beauty is so cold...so cold... her eyes are so empty...Kikyou's eyes always filled with warmth when she looked at you, when you were both young and in love. Now I can't tell what she sees or feels when she looks at me...I can only hope it's love...but it's just hope, isn't it? I feel so alone...when she looks at me, I know I deserve this loneliness...Kagome...I don't deserve you...but Kami I love you...Kikyou...I love you too but...but.... it's not enough..not nearly enough....'

 

It was no use. He couldn't, wouldn't, listen to himself. He was paralized. And when Kikyou's cold hand wrapped around his manhood, he held his breath.

 

"No..." He gasped, but his body betrayed him and he hated himself for it. "Don't..."

 

Kikyou smiled as she absent-mindly stroked his member, her tongue darting out and licking the head, her lips closing around it.

 

Inuyasha stared down at her, watched in half horror, half fascination as his cock dissapeared in her cold mouth.

 

"Kikyou...s-stop this...why...why are you doing this?" He moaned, feeling himself grow inside her mouth. When the tip of his cock touched the back of her throat, he groaned.

 

'NO!' His mind screamed, wailed at him. 'Please make it stop, make it stop, make it stop! This is not happening...'

 

The dead miko sucked on his member slowly, up and down, building up speed. When her mouth released him, he cried out in frustration.

 

Damn his body. Damn her for doing this...

 

Kikyou laughed softly. "Do you feel good? Your body doesn't lie...shame on you...I always imagined you'd be this big...when I touched myself, alone in my cot at night...fifty years ago...I always thought you'd tear me apart, being a hanyou...I bet you're still a virgin, aren't you? Just like me...or did you lie with that litte girl, that pathetic copy of me?"

 

Kikyou's voice was cold when she spoke, and before he could reply and defend Kagome, she stuck her tongue out and began licking along his lenght.

 

She was so cruel...how dare she...how...but Gods it felt so good...

 

Inuyasha threw his head back, his long, silvery white hair brushing his buttocks as he let out a long moan.

 

Then her dead lips closed again around the head of his cock, and she began making loud slurping noises as she suckled him. Her cold hands massaged his throbbing balls.

 

"Stop it..." Inuyasha growled, but his self control was completely gone and he thought he heard Kikyou chuckle as she released him from her mouth and began stroking his painfully hard member up and down rapidly, her hand firmly wrapped around him.

 

'No...stop...Kikyou, stop it, stop it, please stop it...who are you...what are you? Why?'

 

Inuyasha closed his eyes tightly, letting the pleasure wash over him, and in the back of his mind's eye, he saw Kagome. Heard Kikyou's icy, cruel voice in his head.

 

Did you lie with that little girl?

 

Why, yes, countless times...in his dreams...and surely this must be some sort of bizarre dream gone all wrong...yes, that was definetely it.

 

This was just a dream.

 

He wasn't here at all, he was still sleeping and his clouded mind had led him from a sweet, perfect dream to a twisted nightmare...and yet it felt good.

 

Inuyasha wondered briefly if he would wake up soon, he wanted to wake up soon, this was NOT supposed to feel good...

 

Golden eyes closed tightly, Inuyasha's mind wandered, and now he could clearly see his Kagome behind his eyelids, kneeling in front of him.

 

His Kagome was pleasuring him, he felt her small hands leave his throbbing member to once again wrap her lips around him, her tongue sucking and licking him, her hands caressing him...he could Kagome so clearly...he knew something was terribly wrong, something...but he couldn't put his finger on it, and at this point, he didn't care...he was so close...and Kagome was sucking him hard and deep...but - why was her mouth so cold?

 

When Kagome had kissed him, her mouth had been so warm, so soft and luscious...

 

A low guttural growl escaped Inuyasha's lips, and he frantically began thrusting against Kagome's eager, yet cold mouth...fucking her, fucking her mouth...

 

My Kagome...

 

Inuyasha thrust faster, heard her choke, but he could hold it no more, and came hard in her mouth, screaming Kagome's name.

 

He knew it was too much cum for her to swallow so he slid his penis out of her mouth while he was still cuming.

 

Inuyasha opened his eyes slowly, and to his utter shock, he saw Kikyou, her pale face covered in his cum, her chin dripping with it, as she parted from him roughly and spat the cum she hadn't been able to swallow.

 

"Kikyou? What the fuck?!" He gasped.

 

Then he realized. No dream. Kikyou had done this. Not Kagome.

 

Oh shit. Shit shit shit shit.

 

Inuyasha felt slightly sick as he watched Kikyou stand up quickly and wipe her face clean with her sleeves, looking nearly as disgusted as he felt.

 

"So I see..." She whispered, her voice like a knife slicing the air.

Without another word, her soul stealers wrapped around her body and lifted her up, as the dead priestess glared at the stunned inu-hanyou from above.

 

Inuyasha collapsed on the ground, panting heavily.

 

When he looked up, Kikyou had vanished. He called out for her, but her presence had vanished.

 

He wondered if it had all been an illusion, but his member was still throbbing from her sucking on him, and he knew he had called out Kagome's name as he came.

 

He had seen Kagome, seen her and felt her, and had let himself give in to the pleasure, desperately wishing and believing it was Kagome's mouth pleasuring him...he had thought he had fallen asleep and was dreaming of her again...that he would soon wake up covered in his own seed...and he had made love to the eager little mouth that was sucking him so deep, because after all...it was just a dream...oddly enough, it had been Kikyou at first, and he had never had these sort of dreams about Kikyou, but...oh, shit.

 

Inuyasha felt dirty. He was going to be sick.

 

Now this was a feeling he knew Kikyou felt for him but he had never before felt for her: disgust.

 

"Kikyou, I'm sorry...I can't turn back time..." He whispered to the air.

 

Dawn was nearing, and Inuyasha suddenly longed for light...longed for the light that warmed his soul and his heart: his Kagome.

Inuyasha lowered his head in despair and shame, his silvery hair brushing his bare arms, digging his claws into the ground.

 

"Kagome..." He whispered. "Kagome...oh Gods, this is something not even you would forgive... Kami, I'm so sorry..."

 

Inuyasha felt so helpless, he felt...used.

 

Kikyou had used him.

 

Gods...why had he allowed this? Stupid, stupid!

 

He deserved to be sat until there was no tomorrow for this. Inuyasha would have sat himself if he could, sat himself until he lost consciousness...he would have done anything, anything, for this never to have happened...

 

He had wanted Kikyou to be Kagome. Why else would he have closed his eyes all the while, why else would he have chosen to believe it was another dream?

 

He had wanted to believe it was Kagome, that Kagome wanted him as much as he wanted her...he had completely and foolishly believed it was her.

 

For the first time, he had ignored Kikyou, even when she was doing...when she was doing that to him...

 

Inuyasha shuddered, bile rising in his throat.

 

Shit. Shit!

 

What the hell had she done that for?!

 

Suddenly, he was furious, not with Kikyou, whom he understood less and less as time went by, but with himself, and he felt tired beyond words.

 

He felt weaker than he had ever felt in his entire life, weaker even than when he turned human.

 

Slowly, exhausted in body and soul, Inuyasha gathered his clothes and got dressed, oblivious to the fact that his pants were still soaking wet.

 

The defeated inu hanyou dragged his feet back to the camp, feeling miserable and drowning in self hatred.

 

 

TBC

 

 

AN: Please forgive this Youkai Musashi! Um...R&R? Suggestions? Comments? Constructive criticism doesn't hurt this YM's feelings but please no flames! ::runs away and hides:: Also I would like to point out (in spite of my fear of posting this) that I DO hate the resurrected Kikyou, but I merely dislike her when she was alive. I admit my dislike is mostly because I adore Kags and can't see Inu with anyone else but her...I realize Kikyou was OOC here, but there's an explanation for it that will come later on...also, I'm still trying to get into the mind of this character I don't particularly like. I just want the dead bitch...err, Kikyou...just like Inu, to find peace (and to be out of the way!) but I will not do what some writers do, making Kikyou *bad* and killing her off in brutal ways. She was, after all, good before and Inu did love her. She's just a tragic, bitter figure. I don't believe she hates Kags. She just hates everything. Kik doesn't belong in Inu's world now, though. I hate her dead self, but as I said, there will be a happy ending for everyone (after a bit of angst though). There will be more of all the Inu cast too! Any particular requests? Besides YM shutting up and making her AN's shorter? Want more? Lemony goodness and warm and fuzzy Inu/Kags? I desperately need reviews... Must...Have...Reviews...Ja ne for now!

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