InuYasha Fan Fiction ❯ Stream of Consciousness: A LiveJournal Collection ❯ Selfishness ( Chapter 9 )

Title: Selfishness

Community: Challenge Destiny (edficlets)

Theme: Anything For Love…But Not That

Place Earned: 1st

Genre: Angst, introspective

Rating: PG-13

Word count: 447

Warnings: language

 

 

Selfishness

 

I've been hearing a lot of things about love lately: love is selfless, love is blind. Hell, I've even heard people say they would do anything for love.

 

What a load of crap.

 

I don't know or care if love is blind. But I can tell you that love is the single most selfish emotion a person can feel. I would know; I am in love. How would my life be different if I'd only realized it sooner? A fat lot of good it does me now. What was the other thing? Oh, yeah, people say they would do anything for love. That's a crock too! I often ask myself what I wouldn't do for Kagome, and there is always one answer, one single thing I cannot and will not do for her.

 

I can't let her go.

 

She's been gone almost a year now; it's been that long since Naraku was defeated and she went through the well for the final time. Eleven moons without her scent, her smile, her damn `osuwari' command… I think I would put up with an eternity of those if I could just spend one more moment with her. How many more moons will I have to wait? Ten? Twenty? A hundred? I don't continue that stream of consciousness, because the thought of her never returning is almost too much for me. If I don't believe she will come back to me, then…what's the point of living?

 

This is why I'm such a selfish bastard. She's back in her own time, where she grew up, and where she belongs. She can have a normal, safe life there, without mortal danger lurking around every corner. She can finish her school, get married, have a family…

 

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