Weiss Kreuz Fan Fiction ❯ Patience ❯ Confusion and some answers ( Chapter 1 )

Patience

By: Anna Hibiki

Rating: R, it will eventually go up.

Disclaimers : Weiss is not mine! Koyasu-sama and other people with much more money than me owns it.

Warnings : Shounen-ai/Yaoi, OCC for Youji, angst, illness, disturbing content, some scenes are not very nice to read since the illness and the state of the sick character is gonna be described.

Pairings: Youji/Ken, Aya/Ken (one-sided), Omi/Nagi. There'll be some changes and new pairings.

Notes : Anything written in Italic are thoughts. Things /written this way/ are mental talk.

This fic can be read in my page, mediaminer.org and ff.net.

Ne, arigato minna-san! I didn't expect so many and so good reviews (I didn't expect any), but ya made me really happy and decide to continue. So, hugs and Yo-tan's dolls to: Hikari (*hugs* Arigato!), Bernstein (Arigato! In this chapter it's explained what's happening to him ^^), Whisper Reilman (*hugs and then leaves running* Can bear cries, can bear Shi-nes, but desperate fangirls?! IIEEEEEE!! Please don't! *remembers she's a rabid fangirl too and laughs insanely* ), Talon Sage (oii.. *hides* of the four possible endings the fic could have, two are bad, one's good, and the other I wouldn't know how to describe it...), Jade Green (*hands her a Yotan to take care of* Arigato!^^) and Lucifer Morningstar (arigato!^^ it's really nice to hear that) .

And again, thank you Whisper for betareading this *hugs*!

Chapter 1. Confusion and some answers. (revised chapter)

"KEN-KUN!! What.. YOUJI-KUN!!!" Omi screamed and ran towards Youji, taking a closer look at him with shaking hands. Youji had swallowed his tongue and wasn't breathing and, if they didn't do something quickly, he was going to die. "Aya-kun! Bring me a toothbrush, HAYAKU!!" he ordered, the panic evident in his wide eyes and shaky voice while he opened Youji's mouth with his little trembling fingers.

Aya ran out of the room and came back seconds later with a toothbrush, handing it to the young blonde. He saw that Omi had already opened their teammate's mouth and was holding it open with his fingers, taking special care with the older man's teeth. "Call Manx, we need an ambulance right now. He's not breathing."

There was a sound of something or someone hitting the floor, but Omi ignored it in favor of treating Youji.

Carefully he put the tongue back to it's place with the toothbrush, using his fingers to open Youji's windpipe to allow air to enter into the taller man's body.

Youji still wasn't breathing, Omi had to think of something quickly. Luckily, he had been trained for these situations and knew what he had to do. He tilted Youji's face upwards a little to make the air enter better and started to give him a mouth-to-mouth, trying desperately to put some life into his friend's body.

Youji didn't seem to react and after half a minute the little blonde was starting to get worried, though he didn't stop what he was doing.

Omi cleaned his friend's face with a Kleenex that was on his pocket then stroked the older man's cheek gently. "Hold on, Youji-kun... Manx's coming with the doctors, so you have to be strong and hold on for a while, okay? Do it for Ken-kun.." He whispered in a moment that he pulled away to breath, not caring that his eyes were full of tears.

They didn't know how many minutes passed, but after what seemed like an eternity a group of doctors entered the room and pushed Omi aside, replacing the toothbrush with a white plastic tube and using a machine to help Youji breath, but, had Omi not administered the first aid that he knew, Yohji would be dead.

They quickly prepared everything to move the eldest member of Weiss and left the room before anyone could react, leaving the blonde's teammates alone with a serious Manx. Then Omi remembered Ken, the young blonde had been so focused on saving Youji that he had totally forgotten about the brunette. When he turned to look, what he saw shocked him.

Aya was cradling their unconscious teammate in his arms. Ken had passed out while Omi tried to save Youji. He couldn't blame him after all. He didn't know from where he took the strength to assist his teammate and would have fallen to the floor if Manx hadn't held his arm at that exact moment, lending him strength. He hadn't realized how exhaust he was.

The katana-wielding assassin's hand was gently brushing away the tears from the brunette's cheeks and putting his wet hair away from his eyes. The redhead had a worried look at his face that quickly turned unreadable when he noticed the archer was staring at him.

"Where are they going?" Omi asked as calmly as he could, given the circumstances.

"To one of the hospitals we use as a cover. We'll be going there when you put some clothes on Siberian." Manx answered inexpressively. If she was worried about Balinese, nobody knew.

"Oh!" Omi slapped his forehead. "I forgot about Ken-kun again! Aya-kun," he said turning to look at the redhead again, "Can you hold Ken-kun while I put some clothes on him?" Not waiting for his teammate's answer, he walked towards the closet door and opened it. While he was looking for some clothes, realization hit him. "This is Youji-kun's bedroom! Silly me..." he left the room and came back soon with a pair of jeans and a black sweater.

While the two members of Weiss were putting the clothes on Ken, Manx made a call. "Are you done guys? A car is outside waiting for us".

"H-hai Manx-san!"

And they left Weiss' house to go to the hospital where the doctors were trying to save their friend's life.

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Almost an hour had passed since the had doctors left Weiss' house when Manx and the guys arrived at the hospital. They were instantly led to a waiting room where a rather annoying nurse had to give a sedative to Ken, who was literally hysteric and had even tried to hit a doctor because they didn't let him see his Yo-tan. Now the brunette was sitting on a chair, the drugs still in effect.

After a while a doctor entered into the waiting room and motioned them to follow. The three men quickly followed him silently, Ken going slower since the drugs were strong and he couldn't move his body easily. Nobody said a thing until they were into the doctor's office.

The doctor sat down in his office chair and the others did the same, Manx resting a hand on the table "Can you start or will we have to wait another hour?" she asked, the order was very clear in her voice.

"Sumimasen..." Omi whispered, his voice too scared to even talk louder. When he saw Manx and the doctor nod, he continued "Could you tell us what happened to Youji-kun already? And please, don't use medical words, we want to understand you."

The doctor looked at Manx, looking for approval. When she nodded, he turned to look at the men again. "Well, I'll try to tell you this so you can understand everything." He took a deep breath and opened a folder that had written 'Kudou, Youji' on the front. "Of course..." he took a look at the papers inside and looked again to the others. "Kudou-san has developed a cerebral thrombosis..."

"But how is he?" Aya asked coldly.

At the confused looks he got, the doctor ran a calloused hand through his hair and continued. "Wait, I'll tell you at the proper moment. Let's see if you understand things this way. A thrombosis is an obstruction of a vein caused because a coagulum of blood formed there, not letting the blood pass. Understand so far?"

When he saw everyone nod (except Ken, who was still partially absent because of the drugs), he continued. "Well, a thrombosis can appear in a lot of places, the most usual ones are the brain and the heart."

"Demo..." Omi interrupted "Sumimasen, demo, how could one of them appear in Youji-kun?"

"I'm going to explain it all, have a little patience son." He took a sip of water. "A lot of people believe that tobacco only affects the lungs, but it also causes lots of damage to the rest of the body, especially in the brain and other vital organs like the heart. It can happen slowly, the brain starts to get damaged, and a coagulum starts forming there without the person knowing it. But someday, that little thing that started forming in a vein of the brain, gets bigger and bigger, and can stop the blood from going to a part of the brain, and that means that the person could even-"

"You still haven't said anything about Kudou's state." Aya interrupted coldly.

"Patience, wait until I finish." The doctor said calmly, trying to give the assassins some calm. He knew that if he was nervous, the others would only get worse."When a thrombosis forms in the brain, there are a lot of possibilities for what could happen to the patient. There can be a little damage, or the person can even die" At this point, Ken gave a little jump on his chair, but Omi put a hand over his, trying to tranquilize the older man.

"But the most usual thing is that the part of the body that functions with that side of the brain stops functioning"

"Do you mean that if for example, the damaged part of the brain is the left, the right part of the body of that person stops working? But if for example, it happens to the right part of the brain...[1]" Manx asked, starting to get what the doctor had said, and adding a new fear to the others.

"Exactly. The person would probably die."

"And Youji?" It was Ken who spoke this time; he hadn't said anything since he took the sedative.

"This is what I wanted to tell you. Your friend has been very lucky, since the thrombosis was formed in the left part of his brain. We aren't totally sure yet, since we didn't have enough time to examine him and must continue with the examination tomorrow, but we are almost sure that the right part of his body is paralyzed"

"What does that mean?"

"It means what I said. But" he gave them a reassuring smile "he's young and a strong person, so we think that with proper care and rehabilitation, in a few years he could be the same he was yesterday."

"Really?!" Omi jumped from his seat and sat again quickly. "Are you totally sure?"

The doctor shook his head. "Not completely, but a lot of patients are living normal lives again. It is hard and depends a lot on how the patient and the people around him react to everything, and we still don't know how severe the damage is, and if it could happen again."

"Will you let me go see him?" Ken asked softly, trying not to lose his composure and start crying.

"Yes, we'll go there in a few minutes. The nurses should be with him in his room already, so he could be ready for you." He said trying to cheer the brunette a little.

But then continued seriously."Anyway, I have to tell you a few important things, they'll be very important from now on. Even if he seems to be out of danger now, we still can't be sure. Also, you'll see how he can barely talk and you probably won't understand anything that he says. You'll see that the right side of his mouth is curled upwards and will barely move. Luckily, that is one of the first things that heals when a patient starts to recover, so when he gets a little better, you'll start communicating with him more easily. You'll have to have this in mind, he can no longer do anything on his own, so you'll have to carry him in a wheelchair until the rehabilitation starts to take effect. You'll also have to feed him, clean him, move him whenever he needs it, put him in and change a diaper each time he needs it, and the most important, try not to make him worry, cheer him up, but do not pity him, it will only make him worse. You'll also see that his personality will change a lot. He will probably start to cry or scream, or laugh, or anything at any moment or for no apparent reason. He could also lose some of his memories, so don't worry if at first he doesn't recognize you, since he'll regain his memories eventually. Try not to get discouraged because of that. Ah, and don't EVER give him a cigarette again. They'll only help him to get worse" He paused to take another sip of water. "Any questions before we go to see him?" When no one asked, he continued "Now before we leave I think I should suggest that you intern Kudou-san in a hospital until he gets better and the rehabilitation starts to take effect. Or will you be able to take proper care of him?"

"How dare you! You're not gonna take my Youji away from me! I'll take care of him and won't leave him alone until he's the same as always!" Ken stood up, the drugs starting to lose their effect and his emotions starting to take over him.

"Ken, I think the doctor is right." Manx said slowly, trying to pick each word carefully. "I'm going to let you make the decision, but I think that it would be better for you and for him if he went to a clinic.."

"I said no." Ken said slowly, his voice had a dangerously low tone.

"You don't have to be worried Manx-san! I'll help Ken-kun with everything and I'm sure that Aya-kun will too, ne Aya-kun?" the little blonde tried to reassure everybody, and looked hopefully at Aya, who ignored him. "I take that as a yes. So, it's decided, we'll take care of Youji-kun until he's recovered completely."

"If that's what you want.." The doctor said and got up."Then I think we can go to see Kudou-san. He should be sleeping now, but you can stay with him since he's in a normal room."

Everyone got up and left the doctor's office to go where a now sleeping Youji was completely unaware of how his life had changed since he felt that pain in his head.

tsu zu ku...

[1] As some kind reviewers pointed to me, the right part of the brain controls the left part of the body and viceversa.

How was it? You still want me to continue? I was going to make this chapter a little longer, but then I decided to cut it before the guys see Youji, so in the next chapter we see what happens when they see him, and how Youji reacts when he sees them and how things go until he comes back home.

We'll probably also meet Nagi. I can't assure if it's gonna be in next chapter, but it'll be in next one or in chapter 3, not later than that.

I'll try to write it soon, but I think I won't have a new chapter of this Thursday or so (have to finish a new LBIMA chappie, a Gravi fic, other chappie of Don't Cry, a new Yoken one-shot fic, find a job and a lot of drawing I wanted to do and forgot to *glares at herself*).

Please, will you leave me a comment? I really need encouragement to continue this fic, since I'm still not very sure if I should be writing this evil thing (doesn't see Youji in diapers break your heart?). So anything you wanna say or suggest, feel free to.

Nos vemos!